This story is part truth and part fiction, and it is up to you the reader to decide when one stops and the other starts. It is about Cliff growing up in England in the 1950's and sixties
I f this type of written material is offensive or against the law in your part of the World then I suggest you stop reading now.
I would like at this stage to point out that I am using some terminology which is used these days but was not around back in the 50's and 60's. This is just to make it easier for some of you young 'uns out there to understand what I am talking about.
It was still dark outside when I was awakened by someone licking my dick and fondling my balls.
"Couldn't you sleep" I asked Derek who naturally was the one doing the deed.
"Not with you by my side and your dick prodding into me". He grinned
I laughed "I Must have been doing that in my sleep".
He continued to concentrate on the task in hand, which was making my cock hard, and he was doing a good job as well. I reached down to play with his rampant member while Derek moved a hand between my legs to play with my willing hole.
One finger and then another went into me making me moan and groan in ecstasy.
I whispered, "I think I want your cock inside me".
"Sounds like a good idea my darling" he replied.
"How about doggie style" he then suggested and I turned over onto my hands and knees with my arse pointing to the sky and his very hard cock. We hadn't been using any lubrication for a while now as our arses became more used to each others cock and Derek's slid easily into me. He began slowly fucking me with his hands pulling my hips up to meet his thrusts.
He moaned and said "Oh my darling I love you so much my baby".
I replied "Me too, please give me all the loving you have and fuck me, let me feel your juice bursting out of your cock deep into me".
These words spurred us both on and on. Derek reached down grabbing my cock and jacking it off in time to his thrusts. I could feel that he wasn't far from cumming and neither was I. We always try and climax together and this morning was no exception. I felt my lover tensing getting ready for the ultimate moment and I willed myself to cum at the same time.
He blasted into me just as I shot my juice all over the bed sheets. We collapsed on to the bed and faced each other kissing and hugging, our tongues exploring each others mouths with an urgency which never seemed to wane no matter how often we did it.
Once again we proclaimed our love for each other over and over again like a cracked record.
We gradually relaxed and came down to earth. I looked at my lover and said.
"lets get serious for a moment. We have a big decision to make and we must also consider our future and life after school." I paused to let that statement sink in. "At the moment we are acting like a couple of sex starved lovers"
"Which is what we are" Derek replied with a grin.
"Yes, but, will it always be like this or will we get bored with each other like some married couples do. Will we have to separate because of our careers?
And most importantly do we declare our love in public".
"Wow you are getting serious aren't you" Derek said.
"I suppose everything you have said is right and we should start thinking about these things, but I don't want what we have right now to end. I love you too much for us to be apart and I don't think I could cope you not being here with me".
I could see tears forming so I gently kissed him on the lips and hugged him close to me. He rested his head on my shoulder and whispered "I wish everything would go away and there was just us two. I love you so much and I'm scared I'm going to lose you. I don't think I would survive without you".
Those words scared me and I said. "hey no more of that kind of talk Whatever happens we will always be in each others thoughts and we will never forget each other I'm sure, but after saying that I also hope and pray that we will always be together for ever. I don't think I could ever love anyone else".
We kissed and hugged a bit more until Derek's mum knocked on the door to tell us it was time to get up.
That cheered him up because he said with his usual cheeky grin. "I wonder if mum realises that I've been up for quite a while".
I punched him lightly on the arm and said. "That's better your back to your normal cheeky bugger self, what about the state of these sheets as well your mum will have a fit".
"I think she's got used to seeing cum stains on my sheets although she does grumble about all the washing she has these days".
During breakfast Derek's father asked if we had come to any decision yet about declaring our feelings.
"Not yet". Derek said. "it's a tough one we might just have to wait and see."
"We had a big talk about things this morning and I don't know about Derek but my mind is swirling around at the moment thinking of all the problems we could have".
Derek's dad replied. "You are both very brave boys, mum and I hope everything will work out alright.
His mum continued "We love you both and I know Cliff's mother does and we will always be there for the two of you ".
I looked at Derek and thought for fucks sake don't start crying again because I'm trying very hard not to. It's almost as if we can read each others minds because my lover then said. "Me too don't start".
We both laughed and got ready to head for school.
Just before assembly our headmaster Mr Garth came up to us and said. "I'm going to talk to the senior classes today after assemble about attitudes towards those of you who are different. I won't mention any names but if you decided to declare your sexuality then this would be a good time to do it".
That caught us totally off guard, I looked at Derek with a surprised puzzled look on my face and he likewise.
"Not sure if we are quite ready to do that sir" I replied.
"There are a lot of things to consider and we really don't know what to do" Derek said.
"Ok boys but just remember I and some staff members will help you all we can".
"Thank you sir. Don't think we don't appreciate what you are doing for us and for others in this school, but it's too difficult a decision to make right now". I said.
"I understand" He replied and then said something which really knocked the wind out of our sails.
"I look upon and respect the both of you as I would my own son. I made a mistake with him and lost him and I fully intend to make sure that you two have every chance to make a go of it even if it means losing my job. I love the both of you just as much as I do or did my own boy".
I could see he was started to get emotional and he wasn't the only one.
Derek said. "permission to hug you like a son would please sir".
Mr Garth couldn't reply he was too choked up so we both gave him a big hug, which surprised a group of juniors walking past at the time.
" Thank you boys I needed that".
We went into assembly with some fear and trepidation and after the usual stuff Mr Garth asked all the juniors to go to class and all the seniors remain seated.
I won't relay all of his message in fact over the years I have forgotten some of it anyway, but this is the crux of it.
" Boys and girls in life no two people are the same, it would be boring if we where. As you grow older some of you will enter into relationships in fact some of you already are. These relationships are usually boy and girl but sometimes because of the way they are created it may be boy and boy or girl and girl." A few sniggers were heard going around the room.
He continued. "These types of relationships are just as loving and caring as any other. I say again because of their makeup this is not by preference but the way they are made. Two boys in particular recently declared their love for each other". Once again sniggers and a few comments went round the room. "I and most of my staff support these boys and admire them. I hope that you will support them as well and any others like them. I will not tolerate bullying or abuse, verbal and otherwise, and If I hear of such things drastic action will be taken to stamp this out. Be tolerant to those who are sexually different to you. Mind you I don't expect those homosexuals and lesbians, Yes I will use the proper term. I don't expect them to display their affection in public just the same as I don't allow boys and girls to do just that. If the two boys I already know about decide to let everyone know what they are, they may do so just as any others so inclined can do without any condemnation by the school and it's administration".
He sat down and there was silence throughout the hall as this message sank in.
Small groups began clapping and several teachers joined in as well. The sound of hands being slapped together increased until about two thirds of the audience were applauding what Mr Garth had said.
I looked across at Derek and he nodded so I motioned for him to come on stage and join me. As he did Mr Garth looked at me and then Derek. Very quietly he said to me. "Are you sure?" I said "No but let's go for it anyway"
"Your very brave".
When everyone noticed that Derek had come and stood next to me the applause stopped with all eyes turned on us. I moved closer to Derek and thought my God what are we doing. I looked again at my lover and raised my eyebrows questioning him with them.
He paused, nodded and I thought well here goes.
We both moved to the microphone but I knew that I would be expected to do all the talking after all that was what I was good at.
"The two boys that Mr Garth spoke about are Derek and myself, I realised er both of us realised some ago time we are homosexuals and several weeks ago we fell in love. We love each other dearly and intend, God willing to spend the rest of our lives together". I was shaking like a leaf and so was my lover. He reached out and held my hand. I must admit that made me feel better knowing that he was right by my side supporting me. I continued.
"We both know that this will not go down too well with some members of the school community but we hope that you take heed of the Headmasters words and be tolerant and understanding. Our parents are supportive of our love for each other and I hope that you all will as well. Just remember we are still the same human beings we were before this announcement.
I am, sorry we are also aware that there are others in this school like us and that we are not alone."
I stopped speaking and a deathly silence followed. Slowly applause began in several parts of the hall and this gradually increased getting louder and louder several students then stood up to applaud and a cheer or two was heard. Several teachers stood and joined in the applause. Soon almost all of the assembly of 400 students and teachers were on their feet leaving about thirty or so students and teachers sitting in stony silence glaring at us.
Mr Garth and other teachers along with house captains and head boy and of course head girl Gwen came up to shake our hands or give us a hug.
Gwen kissed me and said quietly "I'll always love you Cliff Steele, good luck to the both of you."
Mr Waddington hugged us both saying that we where the bravest boys he had ever met. I noticed tears in his eyes and thought Oh no don't start crying because I knew Derek and I were close.
Everyone started to leave to go to classes and soon just Mr Garth, Mr Waddington, Miss Marsden and the head boy were left .
Our head boy Jason I never really took much notice of he was an average boy with average looks an excellent scholar. He came up to us and said "That took a lot of guts you guys I could never in a million years have declared myself as Gay like you two did. My boyfriend and I dare not even mention anything to our parents."
I quickly brought my head up Jason was gay. Well that one got under the radar.
"How long have you been together with your boy friend?" Derek asked.
"Since junior school" Jason replied "Like you two we are very much in love and also intend to spend our life together if we can". I could hardly believe my ears. All this time I had known Jason but never realised. Apparently his partner had already left school and was working as an apprentice painter.
Finally we headed off to classes and as I walked in a loud cheer and applause greeted me except I noticed about five or six guys who glared at me and muttered among themselves. The lesson was geography and our teacher was miss Youngberry. She smiled at me and said "well done Cliff"
I looked around and the only empty seat was next to Michael Jefferson the class bully who I had a run in with over my father.
"So Mr Cliff Steele is a fucking faggot after all. I was right all along. You and your bum licking lover had better watch your backs, some people might agree with your arse fucking ways but some of us don't especially when you accused me of being a poofter".
I pretended not to hear him and moved as far away as I could.
"No need to move away from me, poofter I've got no intensions of sucking your dick, especially after it's been up a smelly shitty arse".
It took a lot of willpower not to flatten him again but that was just what he wanted me to do.
Miss Youngberry could see what was going on so she arranged for me to change places with another boy and sit next to Gwen.
" Now that you've declared yourselves to all that is the sort of thing you will have to put up with". she said. "We can handle it" I replied.
Classes that day dragged on with a lot of comments nudges and winks taking place whenever I walked down a corridor or when I went into a class room. They'll get over it I thought. How wrong could I be.
The final bell rang and I was heading down the corridor to meet Derek and head for home when out of a classroom Michael Jefferson and three of his mates emerged barring my way.
"Look what we have here boys a fucking faggot all on his own with no one to hold his hand". Michael said and his three mates sniggered spreading themselves out and blocking off the corridor.
"Look I don't want any trouble I am what I am I can't help it so you do your thing and I'll do mine" I said.
"O I'll do my thing alright" He replied. "My thing is getting rid of poofter scum out of this school. Grab him boys let's teach this shirt lifter a lesson".
With that they grabbed me and pushed me into an empty classroom. Michael closed the door and while two others held me he proceeded to hit and kick me in the stomach. All the wind went out of my body and I slumped forward. The two holding me let me go and I fell in a heap on the floor gasping for breath. It was then that all four of them began systematically kicking me in the stomach. Chest, between the legs, my head anywhere they could put the boot in. It felt like they were kicking me for ages and I curled into a ball to try and protect myself as the kicking increased and got harder and harder until I felt myself losing consciousness. Then everything went black.
I could hear voices talking softly and my head felt as if it didn't belong on my head I tried to open my eyes but couldn't. My head hurt like hell and then I realised the rest of my body did too.
What's happening to me everything's a blur, then it slowly dawns on me and I can vaguely remember Michael Jefferson and his cronies pushing me into a classroom.
I could still hear voices talking and slowly opened my eyes and then there was a bright light shining in my eyes one and then the other. "He's
coming round" I heard a voice say and I noticed a man in a white coat leaning over me. The I realised I was in a strange bed and there was a strange antiseptic smell which made me feel a bit nauseous.
A someone's hand took hold of mine and I heard a familiar voice say." Don't worry darling your safe now". I tried to move my head to see my lover but it hurt too much.
"Don't move". He said "Just stay still and rest."
"What happened?" I croaked . Another voice a bit further away said. "You took a beating from Michael Jefferson and his hoodlums. But don't worry they won't do that in my school anymore". Mr Garth what is he doing here.? This is all too much for me and I close my eyes again and drift off to sleep.
Not sure how long I slept for but when I awoke it was dark with just a nightlight burning. Someone was still holding my hand and a curly head was resting on the bed.
I stirred and the head shot up. It was my lover Derek and he looked like hell.
"What happened?" I asked. "You got beaten up, but the doctor said you should make a full recovery." He squeezed my hand, stood up and leaned forward to give me a gentle kiss on the lips. I winced because my lips were so sore. "I'm sorry darling I didn't mean to hurt you" Derek said.
"That's Ok. It's just that every part of my body aches."
"Well you did get quite a beating and the doctor says you have a couple of cracked ribs as well.".
"Does my mother know?"
"Yes she went home about three hours ago. Mr Garth gave her a lift ".
"What was he doing here?"
"He's been here for hours waiting for news from the doctors. Mr Waddington, Bruce, Ian, several others from school including Gwen along with my mum and dad they were all here until the matron ordered them out".
How come she let you stay here?" I asked.
"She didn't every time she comes around the nurses warn me and I hide till she's gone. The nurses reckon she'd go ape if she found out I spent the night here".
Another question from me. "What time is it?" "About 4.30 in the morning, you've been here for a day and a half".
I thought for a minute. "All this because I decided to tell everyone that we were lovers".
"Hey wait a minute it wasn't just you , I stood beside you when we declared our love for each other".
He was quite for a while and I could sense something was amiss.
"What is it baby what's worrying you?.
More silence and I could see Derek's head drop down and he began crying.
"What is it what's the matter".
"Your father came in and started to make all sorts of accusations, he threatened me saying I seduced you and led you astray and he was going to the police, plus he was going to make sure that I never saw you again".
He burst into tears sobbing his heart out and holding onto me for grim death.
"I will never give you up and as long as you want me that's the way it will stay".
My heart was breaking at these words. How could my own flesh and blood be so cruel. I hated my father with a passion and wished he was dead.
Just then a nurse came in and told Derek that he had better make himself scarce because matron would be around soon.
Derek kissed me gently and said. "See you later baby".
"Don't be away too long please". I pleaded because right now I needed my lover by my side more than anything else in the world.
Well declaring their love did not go down too well did it. And there's more to come. Any comments good or bad write me please. I will try and answer them all
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