This story is part truth and part fiction, and it is up to you the reader to decide when one stops and the other starts. It is about Cliff growing up in England in the 1950's and sixties
I f this type of written material is offensive or against the law in your part of the World then I suggest you stop reading now.
I would like at this stage to point out that I am using some terminology which is used these days but was not around back in the 50's and 60's. This is just to make it easier for some of you young 'uns out there to understand what I am talking about.
For a change after our meeting with the headmaster we actually went to classes, something which we have been missing from over the past few days. As I walked in to Miss Marsden's geography class I was greeted by a few funny stares nudging of each other and whispered comments. I explained to our teacher that I had been with the headmaster which by the kindly look she gave me it was obvious that she new what it was all about. I sat in the only seat left which was next to my girlfriend, most likely ex. She looked at me sideways and said "We need to talk Cliff"
I nodded my head and said "I know sorry about the way I have been treating you but a lot has been happening".
"So I hear" she answered, but did not elaborate any further.
During the afternoon break I took Gwen to a nice secluded and quite area of the playgrounds. Derek saw who was with me and stopped I beckoned him to keep coming and Gwen looked surprised at this.
I said to Gwen "Sorry but do you mind if I talk to Derek first there is something I have to straighten out". She shrugged her shoulders non committal like.
I said to Derek. "Gwen wants to talk about her and me and I feel that I should tell her about us what do you think".
"What if she tells the rest of the school before we have decided to come out". He said.
"She isn't that kind of girl if I ask her not to I don't think she will".
"ok". My lover replied.
"Will you come and stand by me while I tell her I think it will be better". He nodded and we moved over to where Gwen was standing.
"First I'm sorry for the way things are turning out I am very fond of you Gwen in fact I could say I love you but my life has taken a different turn. What I am about to tell you Derek and I would appreciate if you did not tell anyone else."
"What as Derek to do with us?" she asked.
"All that will be obvious in a minute but please keep this to yourself".
Gwen nodded and said yes.
"Derek and I are lovers and have been for a while now. I'm sorry but that's the way we both are. We hope to be able to spend the rest of our lives together as a couple. We have already discussed this with our parents who have given their blessing and I hope that will understand as well".
Gwen stood stock still her mouth open staring at the both of us. After what seemed an age she said. "I suspected what you have just told me a while Cliff. Actually you look and make a lovely couple and I hope it will work out for you. You have a tough time ahead. I just wish you had not strung me along these last few weeks and told me straight off".
I put my head down I still had strong feelings for her, I also marvelled at the cool headed way she took the news. I took her hand squeezed it and smiled.
"I will remember you Gwen for the rest of my life please don't forget me and I am truly sorry for the way I treated you"
She turned to me kissed me lightly on the lips and said "I'll always have a spot in my heart for you" She turned to Derek "Look after him won't you".
Derek at a loss for words nodded as Gwen turned on her heels and walked away.
"Why do I feel such a louse and a heel" I asked my lover.
"Because I suspect you really did love her, but not quite as much as you love me, at least I hope so" he grinned " Let's get back to classes and I think we should talk to your mother and my parents tonight before we make a decision regarding telling anyone else ".
My mind was in a turmoil and I found it difficult to concentrate on lessons. On the spur of the moment I asked to be excused and headed of in search of Mr Waddington. I desperately needed some one to talk to. If found him teaching a class and asked if I could see him for a moment. He gave his class some work to do and came outside to me. "You saw Mr Garth today I believe".
"How come everybody knows everybody's business around here" I asked.
"The Garth spoke to me at lunchtime" John Waddington said.
"Did you know that he knew all about you and Bruce and the spare room?'
"Not till he told me today. He's a surprising man".
"You can say that again".
"He also said that you would be coming round seeking advice about telling everyone you and Derek were a gay item and also lovers".
"Shit he's even a fucking mind reader as well" I retorted.
"He is a very good man and don't forget it, with him on your side you have the advantage". John said.
"What do you think Derek and I should do? Our parents have given their blessing we even have permission to sleep with each other every night at each other homes".
"That's wonderful" said John " I'm sure you will both be happy, but the final coming out decision has to be decided by you two only. Personally I think the both of you are strong and popular enough to tell the world if you like and pull it off".
I had tears in my eyes when he reached out and gave me a big hug.
Not caring who was watching.
"Bruce and I love the both of you and you will always be welcome no matter where we are".
"Thank you" I mumbled a bit lost for words. John said "Now I'd better get back to my class before they wreck the joint. Good luck with whatever you both decide" Then he surprised me with a quick kiss on the lips before going back into his classroom.
Derek was waiting for me when the school bell rang and first of all we went to my place to talk to mum. On the way I told him what John W had said and he agreed with me that they were two great guys.
We walked into the kitchen and mum was surprised to see us because we had told her that I would be staying over at Derek's place tonight.
I made a cup of tea for the three of us and we sat around the kitchen table which in our house is where all the major decisions were made.
I explained to mum about telling everyone about us and also that rumours were already going around school.
"Do you think we should deny the rumours or come right out and say, Hey we are an item and love each other dearly".
Mum thought for a while and said. "If you did tell all you could get yourselves into trouble. After all the way the laws are at the moment what you are doing is illegal especially because of your ages, plus you hear in the news about gay people being bashed up and threatened".
Derek replied "True, but don't you think that's the cowards way out? If we make a stand and declare our feelings it may make things easier for others to come out. I'm sure there are several others at school, girls included who are in the same situation as we are, plus we are only breaking the law if we get caught".
I marvelled at Derek's thinking and the way he put it, I leant over to grab hold of his hand and give it a squeeze.
"You know boys that I will support you all I can and I think before you say anything at school you should talk to your sisters because they could cop some flak as well".
"I never thought of them mum and your right. Do you think they would understand".
" I think so, there not as naïve as you think they are" Mum replied.
She then said. "Your father came round this morning all sorry and sad asking if he can come back".
"NO" I shouted. "If you take him back it will only be a matter of time before he does something like that again. He's an arsehole and a fucking louse".
"Don't swear Cliff you know I don't like that kind of language"
"Sorry mum" I said quietly. "please think about it before you give in which I reckon you will".
"He also said he had a new job with a house to go with it about twenty miles from here".
"Mum be careful and think hard about it. If he starts anything this time he'll have me to reckon with and I will kill him".
I wished I hadn't said that because mum started to cry and I went over put my arms round her giving her a hug. Derek came round the other side and did the same saying. "Sorry if my lover upset you but I know he loves you dearly mum, and I look upon you as a mum as well as my own, and love you dearly for giving me your son".
Well that did it I started crying as well and so did Derek.
" I love you both so very much" I sobbed. "I would die if anything happened to either of you. Take care and think it out mum before you make any decision".
Just then my two sisters Cassandra and jenny walked in surprised at the sight of us all cuddling each other and drying our tears.
"What's the matter Mum", Cassandra the eldest one said.
"Oh nothing we were just talking about the future and got a bit upset that's all. The boys have something they want to tell you girls so sit down and listen closely".
Well that put us on the spot we had to tell them now. I started by saying.
"You know when two people love each other they go out together and so on".
"yes of course we do" Jenny said looking at me as if I was an idiot.
"well, er sometimes some people love each other but not um er I don't quite know how to explain it".
Derek said "Let me have a go. Sometimes when people fall in love it er isn't always with someone of the opposite sex do you understand?"
They both nodded and Cassandra said "yes I think so".
It was my turn to speak now. "Well Derek and I love each other very much".
Jenny piped up and said. "Yes we know your both homosexuals aren't you?".
We were stunned. "how did you know that " I demanded .
"O we know all about that sort of stuff and guessed ages ago that you were only going out with Gwen for appearances sake".
I looked at Derek and mum shrugging my shoulders. "Why did we have to worry about these two. They probably know more than we do".
Mum spoke up this time. "Derek and Cliff are going to be staying her and at Derek's place and sleeping together and we would like you to keep quite about it at school for now. They are both deeply in love with each other and intend all being well to stay together for ever".
Cassandra remarked "O I didn't realise it was as serious as that".
"me neither" said Jenny. "We both hope it works out alright for you and we won't tell. Now what's for tea".
My lover and I said our goodbyes with kisses and hugs all round before heading off for Derek's place and his parents.
On the way we stopped off at Ian's to explain to him what was going on. After we told me he said he hoped that it would all work out but thought telling all at school was a bit risky and as for the rumours to put it into his words. "Fuck em".
I noticed that when he wished us the best of luck there was a hint of sadness in his voice. Derek noticed too and leant over gave him a big kiss and said. "Sorry mate but I still love you and you will be my friend for ever. My love for Cliff is just like that of a boy and a girl. The only difference being that we are both boys".
Ian cheered up a bit gave a little giggle. "of course I know your boys after all I've had both your dicks up my arse and I'd like to see a girl do that".
We all laughed and I gave Ian a kiss and hug saying that we might even do that again sometime.
"I fucking hope so" he replied.
We got home to Derek's place and tea was about to be put out on the table and all four of us sat down to eat. We ate for a while in silence and I looked across at Derek and motioned for him to open the conversation.
"Mum and dad, we would like your advice".
"If we can help we will" Derek's dad replied.
"We are seriously considering telling everyone at school about our feelings for one another in an effort to squash some of the wild rumours going around at the moment".
Once again there was a pregnant pause. Until Derek's dad spoke up.
"I'm not sure if that's a good idea"
He then went on to present more or less the same argument that my mum did.
Derek's mum with a few tears forming in her eyes then spoke up.
"You boys will have lots of problems and trouble ahead and I think you are both very brave telling us, but to tell the world I don't think so. I can see you both getting hurt physically and emotionally. England is not ready yet to accept the lifestyle you have chosen, maybe in years to come that will change, I certainly hope so not only for your sakes but for others as well. I'm sure your not the only one's to be in love with some one of the same gender and will not be the last. Think very carefully boys before you do anything. Dad and I love you dearly Derek and you too Cliff, please take care".
Well after that heart rendering speech it was time for tears all round again including Derek's dad and we all got together for a group hug.
We broke away and Derek said "Do you mind if we go up to my room now ? I want to be alone with Cliff to try work something out".
"Of course " his mum replied and we kissed her good night and I shook hands with his father.
Once in Derek's room we clung to each other and cried some more.
"I do love you" Cliff said.
"and I love you" I replied. We hugged and kissed and I started nibbling and blowing in my sweethearts ear, feeling him getting hard as he pushed against me. I moved my hands down to his buttocks and began massaging and pushing them so his hardness was rubbing up against mine.
"Make sweet gentle love to me" my lover whispered as I began slowly undressing him and when he was naked I pushed him back onto the bed before taking my clothes off a lot more quickly.
We got into our favourite 69 position and began slowly licking and sucking each others cocks. By now we were so experienced that we could both deep throat each other with no trouble at all. We stayed in this position for quite some time revelling in the joy of satisfying each other.
I took my mouth off his cock and began moving down between his legs licking his testicles and rolling them around in my mouth before gradually moving on to his lovely pink hole. I pulled his cheeks apart and began licking and kissing him before putting my tongue in as far as I could. Which must have been some way in because my lover began moaning and jerking his body as I increased the rate with which I was tongue fucking him. All this time he was trying but finding it harder to concentrate on sucking me.
He pulled his mouth off my cock and begged me to fuck him.
"Put your lovely cock in me right now Cliff and fuck me, love me. Give me all your lovely sweet juice, give me a baby ".
There was those beautiful words again which always stirred me up.
I moved around, getting ready and aimed my hardness at his wet orifice and began pushing slowly in trying so hard not to hurt my darling boy friend. He winced slightly so is stopped and waited until he nodded and said please make love to me. I slowly pushed all the way in until my pubic hairs where up against his buttocks and then I withdrew almost all the way out. This was done in slow motion and I could tell that Derek was getting eager for something a bit faster and rougher, but I was determined to make this last as long as possible so that we would both have an incredible climax. My speed increased slightly, a smile and a look of sheer enjoyment came on his face and I began pounding into his willing arse faster and faster. That soft moaning he was noted for became a bit louder and the begging to go faster and fill him with my juice became more demanding. All too soon I felt my climax approaching and Derek, whose hot dick was pressed between us stiffened so I knew we would both cum at the same time.
"I'm cumming" I said "I'm going to fill you with my love juice and give you a baby" .
"yes, yes, oh yes ". he said "please , please I beg you to cum NOW".
The feeling was incredible as wave after wave of my spunk filled him and his juice spewed out between our thrashing bodies.
I collapsed on top of him and our mouths locked together with our tongues like swords fighting in our mouths.
I fell off him gasping for breath and he said.
"Thank you baby that was the best yet". He added "Have I told you how much I love you"
I laughed and said. "not for a while".
"Well I do you're the best thing that could ever happen to me".
I must admit that we kept telling each other how much we loved each other over and over again. Anyone listening would have thought how boring but when you love each other like we do what else can you say.
My juice was dribbling out of him and I went back between his cheeks to gather it up in my mouth and then licking up some of his juice as well I began kissing him and transferring a mixture of our juice between us, it tasted incredible.
We finally got between the sheets holding on to each other.
"We still haven't decided about school, do we tell or not". Derek said.
"Let's sleep on it and see what tomorrow brings". I replied.
"OK" he replied. "I love you Cliff Steele, goodnight".
"Goodnight my love". I whispered as we drifted off to sleep thinking about what lay ahead for us.
What do you think should they `come out' and declare their love and homosexuality?
Please let me know what you think along with any other comments you may have.
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