This story is part truth and part fiction, and it is up to you the reader to decide when one stops and the other starts. It is about Cliff growing up in England in the 1950's and sixties
I f this type of written material is offensive or against the law in your part of the World then I suggest you stop reading now.
I would like at this stage to point out that I am using some terminology which is used these days but was not around back in the 50's and 60's. This is just to make it easier for some of you young 'uns out there to understand what I am talking about.
It was still dark when I woke with a start wondering who was in bed with me until I remembered my lover Derek was spending the night in my bed. I was lying with my back to him and he was curled up tight into my back , I think its called `spooning' I could feel his cock up against the cheeks of my bum. I began wriggling around a bit and soon felt Derek getting harder and he began moving gently against my crack. I lifted my left leg a bit higher so that he could enter me if he wanted - well of course he wanted.
I slowly felt his cock enter my hole and I pushed back to help it on it's way it was soon right in to the hilt and my lover slowly began fucking me. I wasn't sure if I was awake or dreaming and Derek could have been doing it in his sleep as well. Gradually our thrusting intensified and I began moaning in ecstasy with Derek pumping my arse faster and faster until I felt his juice fill me up.
Eventually he pulled out and I turned over to kiss him and use my tongue in his willing mouth.
"Good morning my darling. Have I told you that I love you". Derek said
"Not since yesterday" I replied.
It was getting quite light by now and I needed a piss badly so I jumped out of bed and raced to the bathroom. I decided to take a bath and Derek came in to take a piss and when he had finished he came over to wash my back and then my front gradually moving lower down my body until he reached the promised land. Naturally I was as hard as iron by now. My beautiful boyfriend told me to sit on the edge of the bath with my legs apart. And he knelt down between my legs kissing the top of my dick then licking down the shaft with his tongue. His hand began caressing my balls while he then gradually lowered his mouth over my cock. He held just the head of my cock in his mouth and stopped for about a minute he didn't move then suddenly he swallowed my cock up to the hilt so quick that it was like a bolt of electricity going through body. Just as quickly he moved his mouth back up to my knob head and the same sensation went right through me. He did this several times and the feeling was sensational. He then began sucking me at a fast and furious rate making me ready to cum very fast and hard.
I filled his mouth and he swallowed every last drop.
We were interrupted by my mother knocking on the door telling us that breakfast was ready. I finished my bath my lover dried me in between kisses and we dashed naked into the bedroom to get dressed.
We went down to breakfast and it was good to see Derek kiss my mother good morning after I did of course.
" Your parents rang next door and left a message with our neighbour to say that they are coming round to see us this morning and it be best if the boys had a day off school". My mother informed us.
Derek looked worried and said "What are they coming round here for".
"They didn't say in their message" My mother told him. "We will just have to wait and see".
I said to mum. "What about the girls are they going to school?"
"I think so" said mum. "I imagine they will be here after school".
I could see that Derek was panicking a bit.
I put my arm around him and cuddled up to him saying. "Don't worry I'm sure it won't be anything bad.
We lounged around not doing much and Derek's folks arrived about ten o'clock. This was the first time they had met my mother who was a bit on the short side and what I would call dumpy. She was a lovely lady everyone she met loved her. After the usual introductions and greetings with his parents giving Derek a kiss on the cheek and surprising me by doing the same with me, we all sat down while mum made a cup of tea. I sat next to me lover and we held on to each others hand. I think we were worried that we were going to be parted.
With tea poured and biscuits produced a silence descended until Derek's mum broke the ice and said. "I suppose by now Mrs Steele you know that My son and yours are in love with each other"
"Please call me Doreen". My mother said "Yes I guessed that was the way things were going a couple of weeks ago"
Derek's mum then spoke to me "Cliff are you sure that you truly are in love with Derek or is it just a passing fancy".
I jumped to my feet quite indignant at what I took as an accusation. "of course I am and he loves me too and nothing or no one will come between us".
"I'm sorry I didn't put that quite right. Don't worry we are very happy for the both of you but you must appreciate that Derek is our only child and neither of us want to see him hurt".
I could see tears coming into Derek's eyes and I felt the same thing happening to me. Derek moved over, sat on my knee and placed his arms around my neck which he nuzzled into with his lips.
My mother broke the silence. "I believe they are trying to show us how deep their love is don't you".
Derek turned and faced his parents. "I love the both of you very much you are wonderful parents the best anyone could wish for, but I love Cliff so much that it hurts. It is a different kind of love I can't explain it. I know dad you love mum dearly and I suppose our love is the same as when you fell in love when you were young. The only difference is we are two boys not boy and girl and that is something which I hope you will be able to accept".
I thought what a wonderful way to explain our love and I pulled him round and kissed him hard and long.
For the first time Derek's father spoke. "That sort of thing will take some getting used to and I would feel more comfortable if you did not display your love for each other in front of us, until we are more comfortable with the idea".
"Sorry dad" said Derek "we will be more restrained in front of others".
Derek's mother then asked my mother if there was anything they could do to help now she was on her own .
"Thank you your both very kind but I think we will be able to manage. My mother will be here later today and she will stay with me for a while".
The conversation went back and forth for a while longer and it was decided that Derek and I would divide our time between staying at my place and his, which to us was a wonderful solution.
The only problem was school both of us worried what would happen if word got out at school regarding our love for each other. We both agreed it would only be a matter of time before the shit hit the fan.
After saying goodbye to Derek's parents we went up to my bedroom and laid on the bed next to each other.
"What's going to happen to us?" Derek asked.
"It's not going to be easy" I replied.
" At least we have each others love and that is all that matters". My lover said.
There were other problems looming what would happen when we left school at the end of the year. I was supposed to be going to college while Derek thought he would be able to get an apprenticeship. The only trouble was we would be apart for sometimes long periods.
Something else which I had not thought of was if I did not go to college then I would have to do national Service . I would be one of the last intakes before national Service was abolished. Derek was a bit younger than me so he just missed out by about a month.
It was all well and good to be in love and enjoying life right now but the future held a lot of obstacles.
My Grandmother arrived and mum decided to tell her straight away about Derek and I. You could tell by the look on her face that she was finding it hard to comprehend, after all her generation wouldn't dare talk about such things not even behind closed doors. Homosexuality did happen back in her day but no one knew about it. She kept looking at both of us with a puzzled look in her eye and when she discovered we were sleeping together in the same bed she became very quite. I think she was finding it hard to understand that both our parents approved.
The other point she was unhappy with was that Derek was included in the family conference about my father. I was all for informing the police about his underage sexual activities and to hell with the consequences.
Mum still had some affection for him after all he had given her three wonderful children and wanted to wait and see.
"If he came back and apologised your going to take him back aren't you?".
I said with perhaps just a bit too much sharpness in my voice.
"Cliff please understand that I still have some feelings for him and I don't think I could send him to jail".
"Well I could" I snapped back.
My mother with a hurt look in her eyes said "What he did was stupid and unforgiving but he is your father and I think we should just wait and see what happens. I know it is going to be hard for you and the girls at school but just be a bit more tolerant and wait and see. Not for your fathers sake but mine".
"OK Mum I'll wait".
After dinner Derek and I went to our room - what a wonderful thought 'our room'.
It felt strange being able to sleep with my lover two nights in a row and hopefully for many nights to come.
We got under the covers both naked and horny of course. This time the sex was not urgent but gentle and loving. We kissed and groped each other for a quite a while before 69'ing, and slowly mouth fucking each other. We came at about the same time filling our mouths with each others sperm and then kissing, mixing and transferring our juices to each other. We slowly drifted off to sleep in each others arms.
I whispered to me lover. "Does it get any better than this?"
"who knows, I was just thinking isn't love wonderful. I dearly hope we can make it last for ever". my lover replied. Then he started giggling.
"What?" I asked. "I was just picturing us together like this when we're in our 80's. Would we still be able to get it up?"
I started laughing held him tighter and said "I fucking hope so baby".
Next morning we didn't have time for sex just a quick kiss, cuddle and grope before heading off for school. Tonight we were going to Derek's place to sleep.
On the way to school I said "What about Ian? We can't take him to our bedrooms I'm sure our parents would say no to that".
"True but we will have to tell him what as taken place between us. So we can discuss it then". Derek replied.
After assembly Mr Garth the headmaster caught up with me leaving the hall and said "I would like you and Derek to come to my office now please".
The blood drained from my face and I thought oh shit what now.
I rushed off to find my lover and tell him the bad news. After I told him he had a panic stricken look on his face. I briefly touched his hand because a lot of kids were around us. I smiled at him said "Come on lets get it over with".
Derek knocked on his door and a voice said "Come in". Nervously we entered noticed that he had arranged three chairs in a semi circle and Mr Garth was sitting on one. He motioned for us to sit in the other two chairs. At least I thought we don't have the forbidding barrier of a desk between us.
"What I have to say is proving to be difficult because it is something I have never had to do before".
He continued "Firstly let me ask you a couple of direct questions and I would like direct answer please.
I gulped and my throat felt dry, Derek looked at me and I could see total panic in his eyes.
"Are you both gay/" that was the first question and it knocked us both for a six. We looked at each other and together said softly "Yes".
"and are you both in love with each other?"
At this I decided to take the bull by the horns and said. "Yes sir we love each other dearly our parents are aware of our feelings and have given us their blessing and we intend to be together for life". The tone I put into my voice intimated that we meant business and our feelings for each other were not negotiable.
Derek reached over and took my hand, gently squeezing it demonstrated that he was in agreement with my last statement.
Mt Garth looked at us both for a while then smiled and said. "Good and I hope that everything turns out well for you both. I admire your courage Cliff in telling me outright what your feelings are and I take it Derek that you are in agreement?
"Yes sir. We love each dearly and nothing can or will take that away from us".
His next few remarks left us speechless and amazed. "I thought you both were in love and just wanted to make sure. I told you Cliff once before I don't miss much of what goes on in this school. For example I am sure that John Waddington had made his spare room available to you".
Both our jaws dropped and we must have looked stunned at that last remark.
"Yes I know what most of my staff get up to. In fact John Waddington and Bruce his partner are leaving at the end of the year to take up teaching positions in an exclusive private school in the south of England and I am sure they will be far happier living and working together".
Wow I thought what else does he know.
"Now how are things at home now that your father is gone"
" My mother is coping well sir and I think we will be OK. The only worry is the remarks and nasty comments which my sisters and I will get here at school".
He nodded and said "Would it help if I lectured the school on how nasty and cruel this would be".
"No sir" I replied "I think it would be best if nothing was said they will soon lose interest or find something else to talk about".
"All right I will abide by your wishes. Sarah has been expelled and told never to set foot anywhere near this school ever again".
We both agreed with him that was good news.
"Now what about you two? You have come out to your parents which I think is wonderful. What about here at school? I have already heard word on the grapevine that rumours are spreading about you two".
Derek looked at me and that worried look came back on his face. I gripped his hand tighter and said. "We don't know what to do about that sir. Do we come out and declare our love or do we just ignore the remarks and pretend we are just good friends.
" John Waddington and a couple of other teachers with similar sexual preferences have commented to me that you are both finding it hard to disguise your feelings and I agree with them".
Once again Derek and I looked at each in amazement when we realised that other teachers were also gay.
"My advice and you can take it or leave it is that you come out and declare your love and sexual leanings to everyone".
This final sentence from our headmaster left me dumbstruck and breathless and I could see my lover was the same.
Mr Garth continued. "I can guarantee full support and help from most of the teaching staff and myself of course." He paused, " I want to let you into a little secret that must not be repeated ever in this school".
"You have our word sir" I answered for the both of us.
" I had a son about your age who thought and probably was an homosexual. He was very confused and bewildered about what was happening to his body and mind. He came to my wife and I for help and we turned our backs on him we didn't want to know, We did not offer him any help or support. Just over two years ago he reached a point of total confusion, didn't know what to do or who to turn to and he took his own life". tears came into our headmasters eyes and I felt teary too, while Derek was openly sobbing.
I stood up and went to Mr Garth's side putting my arms around him, Derek followed my lead and came on the other side. Sobbing I said "I'm so sorry for you sir".
After a while he dried his tears and sat up straight and we went back to our chairs.
"I understand what you two boys are going through and I don't want anything to happen to you both. I will support you in any way I can".
"Thank you sir". I replied. "We will think about what you said in letting everyone know our feelings for each other and let you know what we have decided".
Derek spoke up next. "Thank you for being open and honest with us. Whatever action we take I hope it will be the right one".
Mr Garth stood up to indicate that our meeting was over and has we walked towards the door he gave us both a hug and a kiss on the cheek. "As long as you don't end up like my son".
"Don't worry sir, we won't". I told him.
Outside in the corridor I looked at Derek and he looked at me with a worried look in his eyes.
"Well that was a revelation" He said.
"Yes" I replied "What are we going to do. Publicly declare our love or try and keep it quite either way It won't be easy".
Derek looked around and seeing the corridor was empty gave me a kiss and a hug before we headed for class.
As I walked slowly away the only thought in my head was do we come out or not.
Folks, This was the most difficult decision Cliff and Derek had to make so far in their lives. What would you have done. Please let me know
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