Write Me a Love Story 9
Write Me A Love Story By RettaMichaels “The Queen of Gay Romance”
Write Me A Love Story
Chapter Nine:
I drove and Stu sat in the passenger's seat.
“Jeremy?”
“Yeah babe?”
“Thanks.”
“Don't thank me, thank yourself for having the strength to make it through.”
“I've cried today more than I have in years.”
“And you don't think you had a right to?”
“I've got to move on.”
“You'll move on, but let them get to know Eddie also.”
“I think it's time to move on.”
“Do what you feel you need, but know I understand. I'm not going to feel insecure because I know there's space for us both in your heart....and please don't think I mind sharing because he's the one person I'll share with gladly.”
“He's dead Jer'.”
“Yeah....and...??? You're supposed to stop loving him when he passed???”
“No, I mean it's time to start loving him in a past tense.”
I decided to switch subjects, “I'm glad we've met 'em. It's going to be nice helping out some people I care about.”
“What if they do it again?”
“Dammit! What if they don't! Begrudge someone enough and you'll show them one thing....that you're too damned set in your ways and it feels too fuckin' good!
You just said that you've got to love him in a past tense and let me say this once and final...Ok??? IF I die and you dig my grave up to use me to beat someone over their head, did you EVER love me? You're wearing Eddie out! Let him rest in peace already!”
He really started racking with sobs and I pulled to a stop and hit the flashers, and put it into park. I hugged him and he said, “Thank you. I felt like Eddie was telling me that...”
“Loving someone means you love them. Loving someone means you're independent and love yourself a bit more.
I know you loved him. I know you love me. I also know you love yourself. AND, I know you're angry and you've finally found out who did it.
What I'd like to do is open the door to your heart, not slam it shut....That's already happened long enough. I can't replace the years which were wasted when you shut down, but I WILL make the ones we've got left as happy and pain free as possible.
WITH every construction, there's some tearing down, putting away, and changes in thought, attitude, and dimension to YOUR being. We're building now. It's already been torn down....put away the jackhammer.”
He smiled, “The thought of me being in blue jeans, construction vest, and hard hat is too butch for my brain!”
“I don't know, you might look pretty hot!”
He chuckled, “What's on the agenda tonight?”
Well, it sounds like we're going to be going to this thing. We'll go back and get cleaned up, and then, we'll go out there. When we get there, we'll meet everyone, lay out our hopes, dreams, and plans. Then, we'll be welcomed in.
What I'm going to do is I'm going to drive us into town and buy LOTS of soft drinks in different colors. They're going to be spiking everything with moonshine, I'm going to have us plenty of whatever in the truck to pour ourselves so we're not too drunk.
From the sounds of it, they throw a hoedown and have music, singing, laughing, and a good old fashioned fun time. I'm welcoming myself to that because I DO enjoy that kind of thing....and yeah, they might also see us dancing, so you be ready.”
“Do you think so?”
“IF they have a couples dance, you have yourself up and ready. I think they'll be shocked enough when they see all the new couples they DON'T know about standing up to dance!”
He smiled, “I hope they're not too upset.”
“They won't be...and here's why...but first, I've got to stop staying parked here. Someone's going to think we're road huntin' or whatever.”
“Do you realize we just added on a whole new building to the one we're wanting to build?”
“Think of your building and then, think of two additional wings...one on each side.
When you walk in the door, you've got the lobby and yeah, I'm thinking about it myself....it's sorta Swiss chalet meets barn.”
“Huh?”
“Ok, look up, you see a giant chandelier made of antlers, but if you look forward, you'll see it looks like a barn with barn siding and rather than lofts up there, you'll see flowers and windows...because that's going to be your control booth done up so it's a nice office.”
“Oh man, I never even thought about that!”
“To the left is the entrance to the snack booth and general store. The snack booth will be there and there will be barrels and lots of things which look old...we'll get 'em on ebay.”
“Like what?”
“Like an old brass cash register. Like an old coffee grinder. Like an old brass butcher's scale. Like a LOT of penny candies and YET, we're going to have sassafras tea, ginseng tea....AND, I'm telling you now we're going to have to go with Pepsi products because I'm going to have antique Mountain Dew advertising because of the hillbilly they had.”
“Oh man!”
“In that general store, we're going to have the guy looking the part from the 1890's. He'll be dressed like that, but he's going to have on an apron also because the old butchers did that....
We're going to have it done up with lots of wood and glass cabinets. We'll have modern also, but if it takes me going out and painting everything white we get in as refrigerators, there's not going to be any modern....I'll paint all that white to look like brass or bronze and make it antique looking as possible.”
“You're really thinking about this!!!”
“I see it in my mind...all the way from the old style ceiling fans to the smells of potpourri to the tobacco twists to the meat section where John can have his little deli happening.”
“Will we get in trouble with the sales of meats?”
“Not us. We're a package sales outlet. Those meats will be labeled and shrunk wrapped when they get to us. We’ll have to get them that, but it'll be better because we'll be needing to order quite a bit of our own special items.”
“Like what?”
“Ok, we're talking about getting into mail orders. IF we're shipping ANY THING, we need to consider that we'll need a well made box...not something they'll get it and be complaining that it's all beat up.
The most sturdy box made is a broccoli/banana box, BUT, I want to line it with bubble wrap. It keeps everything from bumping up together, and it keeps items from being damaged when those boxes are thrown around.
What WE need to do is we need to think about everything from the customer's point of view....and yeah, even in mail order, we've got to think about the customer's ease of opening that box and getting value for their money.”
“Do you think we're getting into the hillbilly thing too much?”
“No. We're in Branson. It's hillbilly capitol of the world and yeah, they damned well should've given themselves that title and did a entrance sign which played off on it, but I might just steal it and have that out there.”
“Could we change the title of it to hillbilly waters instead of Vienese waters?”
“Yeah, if that's what you want. It's better now to be thinking about what we want because it's going to cost a lot to change everything, but wait on the advertising until we get the new building....but when we do that, we're going to have a whole LOT of different things happening.”
“Like what?”
“A website which uses flash so they can click on it and see 360degree views of inside the place, videos demonstrating what they'll see, and links to both Vienese waters and Hillbilly Waters as being the same place and the same website....we might also have the slogan, “Hillbilly Capitol of the World” as a trademarked slogan for us.”
He nodded, “I'm liking this all the better.”
“It's going to take a lot of different changes, but I think it's going to be better. The drawing power is in the value for the dollar, but when the customers get in there, it's going to blow them away that we've got everything the rest of 'em has, but we've got authentic items also.
NOW, to the right, I want there being a giant looking outhouse entrance with wooden doors with the moons and stars on them and everything.”
He started chuckling. “You ARE running with it!”
“We've got to go to an architect but here's what I'm thinking....How many seats are you going to want the new one to be?”
“Oh, I don't know....I don't want it too big.”
“May I interrupt you and say I think it needs to be up there?”
“Why?”
“You've forgotten what we're about to do tonight. We're going to a hoedown and barn party. When you realize the unemployment and lack of opportunities they've had because they were excluded, you'll look at it like I am.
ALL of those people can play, sing, dance, and they certainly can put on a show. Incorporate that into your show and you'll have a whole new aspect.”
He looked perplexed, “You mean trying to do it so it's with live music?”
“Yeah and no. I'm talking about them playing a song and doing a routine and you having a performance which is something like your swaying waters moving or popping waters popping to the beat....If it's a square dance, have the waters computer synched to the 'left' or 'right' or do-se-do voice commands.”
“Oh man! I never even thought about that!”
“It's all a computer and programming. You've got enough commands in your computers that it should be easy to have all that able to be called up instantly.”
He smiled really big, “YOU'RE REALLY thinking about this!”
“I'm thinking about how we can include everyone, but first, I've got to make a phone call.”
“Why?”
“Do you realize they have all that land and don't farm most of it because they don't have the equipment? As I walked around there today, I kept thinking how well they take care of everything and how nicely maintained it is, but how damned much $20,000 in their budget would change their lives.
I can call my Dad and get a tractor up in Hannibal for $400. With the attachments, it's going to be about $2,500. IF we can find a corn picker, it'll probably be about $400....so figure $3,000.
When you figure John's got that set up he's got and no refrigeration to store that meat in, you'll realize he's got to have that and he's got to have the ability to package everything.
For the jerky, we're pretty lucky. We can exchange glass jars with him and give him our empties for his full, but for everything else...like his barbecue sauces, he's going to need the ability to package.”
“Man, I hadn't thought of that!”
“Jars and a computer to label everything. Keep it simple and keep it so that people are getting their value for their money. It also helps us keep it simple on the shelves.”
He was smiling from ear to ear, “I really think I've unleashed a creative monster!”
“You're REALLY going to have a meltdown when I talk about how I want to do things for those soaps and soap powder.”
“How?”
“Ok, you're going to have to think with me here....but it's all about the packaging and ease of use. Ok?”
He gave a nod, “Ok.”
“I don't know if you paid attention to my kitchen, or not, but I've got a dishwasher and Sunlight packaged the dishwasher powder in little dissolve packages....It's sorta like the Listerine which melts in your mouth.”
“Ok, I've had those....burnt my tongue, but I thought they were neat.”
“Same thing...pre-packaged laundry detergent which is custom ordered. We have the lilac, lavender, and rose which not many have...if any.
We have 'em packaged up in jars with those flip top lids. Once again labels will be computer generated and it'll have all the directions and everything on that.
The ease of storage from the customer's point of view is this....we can sell the jar and we can sell the refill for the jar and have the price difference being whatever the cost of that jar is.
The plus side of that is this....tonight, you're going to see me over there with Liza Jane and Louella talking like a madman because THEY are the ones who have Grandma's recipe for that massage oil we used last night.”
“OH MAN! I totally forgot about that!”
“It's that conversation with Rhen which got me into all the rest of this...and seeing what everyone's talents in making things were...”
He smiled, “You had a LOT better day than me then!”
“You'll have it with 'em too. The past is the past and now, we're going to have a good one. You'll learn a lot of different things and you just be thinking about how you'll be when we concentrate on the positive.”
We pulled in to the lane where the cabins are located. He said, “I'll go home and get showered and ready and you do the same. I'll meet you back over here in no time at all.”
“Ok, babe.”
I went in and let Gypsy out. While she was out, I opened a can of peas and carrots and then diced up some bologna and set it down for her. After that, I got my shower and got ready dressing casual and making sure my black tennis shoes were polished.
In no time at all, Stu was back looking like a million dollars. Gyp came in with him and went right over to her food dish.
I said, “I've got to call up home and speak with my Dad and then, I'll be ready.”
He gave a nod and said, “I'll check my emails. Care if I use your computer?”
“Sure! Knock yourself out! It's your internet!”
He smiled, “I'm going to speak with 'em tonight about moving us to the motel and getting the cabin torn down.”
“Do you still want to do that?”
“Yeah, I want us having a place here and your place and our place in town.”
“Ok.”
I dialed and when Mom answered, I spoke with her. Then, I got on the phone with Dad and asked him to begin looking for a tractor and attachments.
He said, “Oh man, let me make a call. Does it matter how old?”
“No, it's just them needing a tractor.”
“I know someone who has an old Johnny Popper (John Deere early models were called 'Johnny Poppers' because they had a 'pop pop' sound when the motors ran.). He's got a sickle bar, disk, harrow, hammer mill, planter, AND that corn harvester. He said he'd take a thousand for it as it sat, but it's not pretty.”
“That's fine...Paint doesn't cost that much.”
“I'll call you right back. Do you want me to go ahead and buy it if he's still got it?”
“Yeah, and tell him we'll be up this weekend. I'll have to find a trailer to pull, but we'll get everything down here.”
We're thinking about coming down in May. Your Mom wants to meet him just as soon as possible.”
“How about this weekend? We'll come up and have everyone met and then, maybe on Easter weekend, you guys can come down.”
“OH! I think she's got something planned....a dinner or something.”
“How about you guys driving down on Friday and then, we can show you around and show you the show and that way, we're not trying to have him being met when it's the busiest part of the year?”
“I'll tell her. I don't think she's thought about the possibility of him being busy.”
“I'd rather you guys see it before the remodeling starts. After Easter, we're going to be full on into remodeling and getting new seats, carpet, and lighting into the theater for this season and then, it'll be us building a new building for next.”
“Is he taking it commercial?”
“Yeah, but no....it's a whole new concept. It's probably us doing what should've been done all along....We're incorporating a lot of things and doing what they do up at Dogpatch....we're having items sold on site by the locals.”
“OH! Well, don't have tags which say 'Made in China' on them like those one cedar boxes were at Dogpatch. I couldn't get over that.”
“I certainly understand. When we come up, I'm going to bring you guys some of this lotion they make...and I'll bring you some of this homemade soap.”
“You know I'm allergic to everything.”
“This is 100% natural Dad. We had burns from the powder they put in the air bags and were red as beets until we put this on and then, it instantly soothed it. By morning, you couldn't tell we were burned at all.”
“Really?”
“Yeah, and this stuff isn't like lotion. When you put it on, it's like an oily water. It goes on smooth as silk and instantly, when it touches your skin, you feel it's cooling and yet, it's like a lotion because you have a miniaturization of your skin, but it's really cheating to call it lotion....it's more like an oil.”
“I'll try it.”
“They make their own soaps. It's lye soap and then, they add in the smells. For the lilac, lavendar, and rose, they use oils from those flowers....100% natural. For the body soap, they have several different kinds. They've got oatmeal and they've got a lot of others.”
“Get me a case of that oatmeal! That's what the dermatologist said for me to use. I couldn't find any, but I know that stuff is good because we used to have it when I was a kid.”
“Now, do you want the best news?”
“What's that?”
“You can wear colognes again.”
“How!”
“She makes laundry powder with it. She puts it in the soap and you can have a bar of soap with it or you can have laundry powder which scents your clothes....all it is, is her taking some of that soap and running it across a window screen to make soap powder.”
“Really?”
“Yeah, I learned a lot and taught a lot today. Basicly, I made 'em 'Fiddlestiks' with the cheese in the bread and everyone loved it....except we also took butter and honey and put that in some of the bread also...but one of the guys makes his own jerky and you ought to taste the stuff. He flavors it all with real wood smoke and it's the best ever.”
“Get us some of that also!”
I chuckled, “Ok Dad, but remember you'll be down here too! But, I'll bring some up.”
“You just realize your Mom's concerned. You're still her baby and she's going to want to make sure you're fine.”
“I will be. There's a lot of changes, but a lot of them are for the better....Speaking of which, I'm going to be opening my own construction and landscaping business down here.”
“I know you certainly can do all that. She might doubt you, but I know you did a lot with your house and yard.”
“This is a lot of that and using what I learned at work and taking it to a whole new level. I'll have blueprints for you to see and then, you'll understand...Well, you'll see a lot of it completed when you see the show later this summer.”
“Ok, let me make this call and I'll call you right back.”
“Will do.”
I hung up and said, “He's making the call. He knows someone with a Johnny Popper and all the attachments for $1,000.”
Stu looked surprised, “Really!”
“Yeah, he's making the call right now to see if it's been sold. IF not, we're going to have to get a couple trailers and go up to get them, but the plus side of it is we can make a day of it and have Rhen and John with us.”
He nodded, “That'd be good!” He paused and then, said, “I couldn't help but overhearing your side of the conversation...”
“Yeah.”
“It really made me happy to hear you talking about 'us' and 'we' and everything.”
“You need to realize something. My Mom is distrusting at first. When she accepts that we're a couple, she'll be better, but it's STILL going to be 'mine is mine' and 'yours is yours' until we have her believing otherwise and then, she'll probably be “Jeremy, you be good to him because you're using him for all he has...”
He looked upset instantly and I said, “I know and you know... What I think is when she sees that we're standing the tests of time, she'll accept we're a couple.
What you should know is she saw Dave using me for everything I had and using my income to pay for his truck. Now she realizes how much he wasn't any good and it's bit him in the ass.
Our main concern now is to move forward and be moving things to us being an us down here. She'll get used to it and that's when it'll be moved over to her thinking about there being an 'us'.
In regards to my Dad, he's pretty laid back. I would love to say we're closer than we are, but it's not been like that. He's there for me whenever I make the effort, but at the same time, he's a good man and damned nice.”
“What am I not getting here when you tell me about him...You hardly mention him.”
“He keeps me at arms length. Usually there's interference ran by my Mom and I have a feeling he's known there was going to be a day that I'd tell her to get the hell out of my life and he'd have to stand with her as I took that step, so he keeps me at a distance.”
“I think you're doing it the right way. If they see it as a step for the betterment of your future, they'll be fine with it.”
“I hope you don't mind that I invited them down for Easter weekend to see a show. It's just that I want them to see it before the work begins so that they know what I've done and how it's going to be.”
He shook his head, “I understand. You want there to be recognition for yourself and that's fine.”
“No, it's not that....well, I guess it is, but it's deeper than that. I want there to be recognition that I can take on something big like this and that way, she won't doubt me. Maybe it'll give her more pride in me, but if it doesn't, I know it will me.”
He gave a nod, “I completely understand.”
My phone rang and when I answered, Dad said, “It's yours. He said he'd deliver everything for an extra $300.”
“Does he know it's coming to Branson?”
“I told him. He said fuel for the truck would come in at about that and I don't think he's giving himself enough leeway, but that's on him.”
“Here's what I'll do....Tell him I'll have it delivered, but tell him that I'm going to insist to fill his stomach and his truck when he comes. That way, it's more honest on our parts.”
“I'll certainly do that. When do you want it delivered?”
“Stu's got a doctor's appointment tomorrow at 1pm in Springfield. It's going to be an initial consultation and then, we'll have to go back...
We should be done by 5pm at the very latest...but that'd have him arriving home too late. IF he'll deliver it, I can let him stay here or we can get him a motel up on the strip.”
“Get him a motel up on the strip. I don't want anyone knowing we've got a place down there. When you've got a place down there and everyone knows, you're lending the keys to everyone and I don't like that....Well, your Mom and I made the agreement we'd never do that when we bought it.”
“Ok, but I want you knowing that we'll be living up on the strip in his motel this year.”
“Why?”
“Are you familiar with the cabin which is right next door...the white with maroon trim?”
“Yeah.”
“That's Stu's. We're tearing it down and putting up a new log cabin, but we're also going to build in a new apartment into the new building up on the strip so we're not fighting traffic.”
“OH! So he's got a motel also?”
“He's got a motel, Burger King, Dairy Queen Brazier, a strip mall and some vacant land. He's also got half interest in some other things.”
“It sounds like he's done good for himself then!”
“Yeah, he bought land when it was real cheap per acre.”
“So he's older then?”