What I See

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Everything in this story is purely FICTIONAL. Or in simpler terms, it's not true!!! Even if this story involves NSYNC, a real, successful American singing group, and a fictitious character, all that happens in here is fictional... again, it's not true. If there are instances that it is similar to what happened in the real world, it doesn't mean that it's really true. I don't know anything about their sexuality, as far as the I and the world know, they're straight as an arrow so I dunno if they're gay (but I do have my speculations) or not but I wrote this out of freedom of speech and my love for these guys and slash fiction. I don't own or know NSYNC personally. AGAIN, it's NOT TRUE!!! but don't we all hope that it's true... hehehehe...

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Hi guys. This is my 3rd work here in the boyband section of the Nifty Archives. I dunno why I called it "What I See" but I just ran out of ideas for a title and thought of something simple. So the title, What I See was born giggle. I dunno if I can manage my 3 stories at the same time but Crossed Paths is in its "season break" and Reformation is still there. But I'll really try my best to update all my stories. Remember, I love feedbacks.

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What I See Chapter 8

I used to think that I'm never gonna be with someone in my life. Maybe it's just a low self-esteem or something but that's what I really thought. Even if many said that I was really handsome, I just shrug it off and not believe what they say. So, when I woke up with JC sleeping beside me, it made me wonder if this was a dream or reality already.

I must admit that Josh looks so angelic when he sleeps. His expression was so peaceful like he has no problems in the world. Well, maybe he has no problems. The way his long wavy hair sprawled almost everywhere covering some parts of his face made this angel a sexy one, a very sexy one. Slowly, his eyes began to open. "Good mornin'." I greeted him once his eyes met mine.

"Mornin to you too." JC smiled at me and stretched his body. "That was a very good sleep." He commented as he laid his head on my chest letting his head move up and down with my slow breathing.

"You have rehearsals today?" I asked him.

"Yeah. I think this would be the last one coz we'll be moving to the first venue by Sunday. We'll have a final rehearsal today and we have tomorrow and Saturday free so we can fix everything that we want to fix." Josh informed me as he pulled himself up and he straddled my stomach facing me. "But this morning, you are mine." JC dove down to give me a kiss. I don't care if it's the morning and we haven't brushed our teeth yet. I returned the kiss with the same passion.

Slowly and teasingly, JC moved down slowly as he kissed almost every part of my upper body sending sensations throughout my body wanting myself to cum already. I was already hard as hell because of the excessive stimulus I was getting and the fact that it was early morning. When JC sucked on my right nipple, I can't help myself to groan. It was too much. Too good.

Again, JC continued traversing downwards. My heart was pounding really fast with the anticipation. I can't wait for his hot mouth engulfing my cock. It's been a few years already since my last time in bed so this would be like something new for me again. "Oh fuck!" I exclaimed when I felt his tongue lick the head of my penis. I ran my fingers through his long brown hair as he dove down at my dick and bobbing slowly up and down.

I don't if he's inexperienced in sucking cock but he's doing a very incredible job. I must say that he's an expert in this. "Josh, that feels so good..." I moaned as he continued sucking on my dick gaining speed. I could feel my orgasm building up already in my gut. It's been so long already and I know that I'm gonna ejaculate a generous one. The feeling was getting more intense by the second as JC sucked harder and faster. "God, I'm cummin'!" I almost shouted as I could feel my cum shooting to JC's mouth. It was surely an experience that I will never forget, ever.

Once I have ejaculated all that I can give, Josh pulled away from my penis and gave me a kiss sharing with me my cum. It was kinda erotic but I must say that I love Josh's taste than mine. Josh has just this distinct taste that makes me want it more that I won't get tired of. "Was it good?" JC asked.

"The best." I told him as I rolled him placing him on the bottom. "You were the greatest." I said to him and kissed him again. It's already an amazing start of the day. I don't think anything can ruin my day. I stood up and tried to find my boxers somewhere in my room so we can start preparing for the day.

"Prepare breakfast?" Josh said in a child's voice with those puppy eyes looking at me.

"Of course. You get ready while I make something up, okay?" I told him as I wore my boxers. JC has this smile on his face and that's how I left him in the room. I went to the kitchen and looked for something to cook up. What I found was a small portion of bacon that must be getting old in the freezer and lots of eggs. What's with the eggs? What can I cook but different dishes with eggs and if the bacon is still good, then that too. I have to remind JC to stock up on things here.

I was extra careful with using the kitchen because everything seemed to be so new and so expensive. Even the pans looked good. After a few more minutes, I have cooked everything that I can cook with the stuff JC had. "Smells good." JC's voice made me jump and when I turned around to look at him, he was leaning at the wall just looking at me with a smile on his face.

"You eat ahead while I take a bath, okay?" I walked to him and gave him a peck on the lips. JC nodded and I walked to Josh's room to take a bath (he has his own bath there). After a few minutes, I have taken a bath, brushed my teeth, and shaved. I walked in the room still rubbing the towel with my hair. I picked out the clothes I stashed in my duffel bag and once I was properly dressed and groomed, I returned downstairs to finally eat something.

I could hear JC's voice and the high-pitched barks of my dog. When I reached the dining room, I saw JC teasing Pookie with a bacon way up in the air and Pookie was trying to jump it to get it. "I wouldn't recommend doing that." I told him as I walked to a seat beside him. He looked at me like I was nuts or something and I saw Pookie leap up and bit on the hanging bacon centimeters away from his fingers. "See."

"She almost bit me." JC said not believing what just happened.

"Be thankful. The last time someone did that, she really bit hard." I told JC. JC raised an eyebrow like he really wasn't believing me fully. "Ask Paul."

"Pookie bit your brother?" JC asked and I just nodded as I placed some scramble eggs and bacon on my plate. "I guess I'll just throw food to her." JC said as he picked a piece of bacon and threw it to Pookie, which she caught. "She's really a cute dog."

"I know. Just like her master." I grinned at him.

"I agree." JC told me. The two of us continued to chat about what was going to happen in their new tour. I can see that Josh was really excited to hit the road again because when he tells me what's going to happen, his eyes just sparkles with delight. And I'm so happy for him but there's just this part of me that feels so sad. This maybe the end of my little dream. Once he leaves for tour, I don't know if there's going to be an us anymore. Long distance relationships really suffer a lot.

After breakfast, the two of us drove to the compound for their rehearsals. As usual, Wade and Lance were the only guys inside the room. Lance was stretching already and Wade was just sitting on the floor. "Those guys just won't learn." Wade said shaking his head. "How are you two?" Wade said to us as we sat beside him.

"We're fine." JC and I said at the same time.

"This is beginning to creep me out." Wade chuckled at us. "I see that someone got lucky. Oh, two got lucky." Wade commented and when we looked at the mirror, the two of us have these big red hickies on our neck. It made us blush and Wade just laughed at us.

"Like you haven't done it." JC said to him trying to compose himself.

"Of course I have. Lots of times." Wade said smugly but it wasn't really offensive like Justin's. It was more of a playful thing. Wade can really be childish sometimes. Well, he's just 17 or 18 so that's okay. We can hear the guys' voices and Wade's demeanor just changed from a happy one to a serious one. Once the door opened and their eyes met, the guys shut up. "10 laps now." Wade said and the three latecomers left for their laps. Wade's face changed again to a less serious one. "They just don't learn."

"Maybe they like the 10 laps." I said with a grin.

"You're right. It's time to change." Wade said as he scratched his beard. I must say that Wade is a cute guy with his towering height and his spiked hair. My cell phone began to ring. My ringing tone was Drowning of the Backstreet Boys that Dee sent me a few days back. All the guys in the room were looking at me with bemused looks.

I moved to a corner and turned my back away from them to escape their scrutinizing eyes. When I looked at the caller ID, it read Dee. "Hi Dee!" I said cheerfully.

"You? Cheerful in the morning?" Dee giggled at me. I just rolled my eyes thinking that Dee was being her old self again. "Where've you been for the past two days, huh?" Dee asked.

"Me? What exactly do you mean?" I said innocently. I looked at the others and mouthed Dee for them to know. JC and Lance nodded at me but Wade was still a little loss. Oh yeah, they haven't met my ever-dear sister.

"Come on Kyle! I know you. And someone did take a little vacation in his office." Dee hinted. "So you and Justin really hit it off?" Dee said excitedly. I can't believe that I forgot to tell them about what happened with Justin. She's gonna kill me.

"Not exactly." I told him hesitantly.

"Kyle, I'm warning you. What have you been holding up from your favorite sister?" Dee told me.

"Dee, you're my only sister." I noted. Well, it was sort of a delaying tactic as I walked to JC. "Can I tell Dee? She's beginning to scare me." I whispered to Josh. JC snatched the phone away from my hand and walked away leaving me with my mouth open. "I won't do that if I were you." I told him but it fell in deaf ears.

"Is this Dee?" Josh answered in the phone. "Josh, Kyle's boyfriend." Josh said. I walked to JC's direction to hear what my sister has been telling him. Josh did a big mistake. "Of course." I heard JC said who was walking away from me but I was following him. JC stopped on his tracks but I can't see his face coz he was facing away from me. "Okay." Josh croaked. If I know my sister, she's giving her speech.

I took the phone away from a shocked Josh and placed it by my ear still hearing Dee talk. "I promise you Josh. If you do anything to my brother, I'll hunt you down and castrate you and shove it in your mouth." Dee was in older sister mode.

"Stop it now Dee. I think you've made your point." I said giggling a little bit. All the guys that I have dated, take not of the word, dated, Dee has terrorized. She just has this way that she wants to really know so she's usually the one who's setting me up which was always a failure.

"Is he scared enough?" Dee asked me. I looked at Josh and saw Lance snapping his fingers in front of his face. I guess Dee really hit the buttons this time.

"Yeah." I told her truthfully.

"I'll let you go now and I want to see this Josh." Dee said still in her threatening tone like she's ready to kick your ass.

"You've seen Josh already." I told Dee.

"JC Josh?" Dee half-asked, half-stated. "Where are you now?" She asked.

"They're rehearsing for their tour and I'm keeping them company here." I answered Dee. The doors opened the 3 tired guys stumbled in the room. "The others are here already. I'll just talk with you later." I told Dee and hung up the phone. I walked to JC who was a little dazed. "Josh, you okay?" I touched his shoulder. He looked at me and smiled.

"Um, you have a, um, very loving sister." Josh told me. Yeah right.

"Don't mind her. She's just this way with all of my dates. I think it's her life plan to terrorize them." I said with a chuckle. JC just laughed weakly mainly because he was the one who has faced Dee. "Wait til you meet my parents. They're far more worse than Dee." I said with a grin and I could see Josh pale a little bit.

"Come on, let's start!" Wade said to them breaking JC's daze. The guys walked to him and they chatted about some things for the tour that I'm not familiar with. I dragged a seat and placed it on the spot beside the radio so I was facing them. I was getting confused with the mirrors already. With my book Faulkner's The Hamlet, I was ready for their rehearsals.

After a few minutes, I got bored reading. With all the books that I was gonna get, I picked something that's hard to understand and well, a little bit boring. So, I averted my gaze to the NSYNC guys dancing to another rendition of Tearin' Up My Heart. Well, I have seen all of their stuff yesterday so I wasn't that amused with their dancing anymore but I just tried to concentrate to the person himself, nothing else.

One could see the deep concentration that's traced in their faces. When they do it, they really mean business and it's not that they were playing around. It wasn't just like something in the club, but they were dead serious in the things they were doing. "10 minute break!" Wade said as the music died down. The guys walked to where the water bottles were located for a drink while Wade tinker with the radio looking at the CD's that he have for the choreography. "Bored?" Wade asked reading at the cover of the CD.

"A little bit." I told him honestly.

"I'll tell you a secret." Wade whispered to me. "I'm cutting the rehearsal short today." Wade said with a grin.

"They don't know yet?" I asked with a similar grin on my face as well. Wade shook his head 'no'. My phone rang again with the tune of Drowning. Wade looked at me weirdly. I looked at the caller ID and it was Paul. "Just have to talk with my younger bro." I told Wade and he nodded a little bit dazed. "What?" I asked.

"Just wanna say 'hi'." Paul said innocently. Yeah right. I think I knew them too well already to fall into Paul and Dee's antics.

"The two of you are really too much!" I exclaimed. Paul just laughed it off.

"What? I just wanna know who has taken my older brother's heart." Paul said for which I just rolled my eyes. "Stop rolling your eyes." Again, I rolled my eyes.

"What do you want to know? I mean you've talked with Dee already." I said.

"You two fucked already?" Paul excitedly asked.

"No!" I said a little bit louder than normal so the others just looked at me. "Sorry, I'm talking with my brother." They all nodded (except Justin who didn't mind me) and continued what they were doing. "I think you know me better than that."

"I'm just playin' with you. So, is he cute?" Paul asked.

"Of course he is! Only you and Dee set me up with awful dates." I giggled. A pair of arms snaked around me that made me jump a little. I'm still not used with this relationship thing. JC laid his head on my shoulder. "You wanna talk with him?" I asked.

"Yeah, yeah yeah!" Paul said enthusiastically and I handed the phone to JC who looked quizzically at me.

"Hello?" JC said. He was just staring at me as his listened to my brother. "Everything's cool." He said with a smile, then he was laughing. "He's very good! Very talented." I was suspecting that with Paul's mind and with Josh's grin, it was about me.

"Don't say it's the head question?" I said when the realization hit me. JC just nodded that made me blush and groan.

"What's the head question?" Joey asked scratching his head.

I took the phone from Josh who was laughing like crazy. "Paul, I swear when you have a boyfriend! I'll make sure to show them your baby pictures!" I told Paul and hung up the phone. Josh was still laughing.

"Your brother is also gay?" Lance asked.

"What's the head question?" Joey asked again.

"I can't believe your brother! I like him very much!" JC told me trying to stifle his laughter but he was losing the battle. All I can do was pout.

"Your brother is also gay?" Lance asked again.

"What's the head question?" Joey questioned.

"What did his brother say?" Chris added in the questions.

"Kyle will have to answer your questions later coz you're gonna dance again." Wade told them saving me from the questions. So this is how an interview goes. The four groaned, again, no Justin. I caught him in the far corner looking at me. It was like he was shooting daggers at me. I can't shake the feeling that he's plotting or something and something bad is gonna happen. When he saw me glance at him, he immediately looked away and walked to the guys.

I looked at my watch and it was near 1:00pm already. We haven't eaten lunch and I didn't suggest it coz I know that we're off by 1:00pm anyway. I thought that we can all eat together somewhere. They were doing It's Gonna Be Me and it was near over. Once the music ended, Joey dropped to the floor trying to catch his breath. "I am so tired!" Joey said in between breaths.

"You are just not in shape." JC commented. "Look at Chris. He's old and he isn't even tired." Chris was actually panting like hell but when he heard JC's words, he appeared that he wasn't tired.

"Yeah!" Chris said. After a few seconds, Chris realized what JC really said. "Hey! I'm not old!" Chris whined.

"Yes you are!" The four men said simultaneously that made them laugh afterwards even Chris. Maybe it was an inside joke already with the five of them. Now, I feel so out of place. I have no idea that it was a joke with them.

"You're off now! I think you deserve it." Wade smiled at them. He walked to his duffel bag to get a towel to wipe off his sweat. He was dripping wet! The five cheered happily and it seemed that they were so filled with energy. "So there's where your energy went." Wade said to no one in particular and I think the others didn't hear it but I heard it.

"I know!" I giggled. I can really say that Wade and I are going to be good friends. "I'm thinking that we should all eat out. You wanna join?" I asked Wade. He seemed to think for a while but in the end, he nodded. I looked at the others and they were just playing around. "You guys wanna eat lunch? We can go to Dee's club and eat there. I know that they have food there somewhere." I suggested to them when I got the chance to talk coz they were having fun so much.

"Sure!" Joey said and I know why. I think he's got the hots for my sister. Maybe he's hoping that Dee would be there. The others said 'yes' as well and Justin just nodded weakly like he was just being forced to come. But who's forcing him, right?

I took out my cell phone and dialed Dee's number. "Dee's phone." Paul answered it. So, they are really together. My mind is already working on what they're up to these days. They're too hyper to be, um, normal like everyone is.

"Where's Dee?" I asked Paul. I heard Paul shout Dee's phone and they were fighting for the phone for a little time and I just waited til they've finished their childishness. "Can we go to the club for lunch?" I said once Dee was on the phone.

"Who are we?" Dee asked back.

"The guys, Wade, their choreographer and me." I answered.

"Okay." Dee said to me and I confirmed it to the others who were dressing up with fresh and dry clothes. I said my goodbye and placed my phone back to my pocket.

"Are you sure it's okay?" Lance asked.

"Yeah! She owes me too much for her not to say 'yes'." I said with a grin. "And if it's with family, everyone says yes." I dunno why but seldom do we refuse someone in the family. Maybe it's because we are so close together. Lance just nodded. Once they were finished dressing up, we walked out of the compound and the others rode their respective vehicles. "Just follow us, okay?" I told them.

JC and I drove off first being the ones who know the direction. "What do you think of your day?" JC asked me while I drove to Buzzed.

"It's really entertaining. You guys are really hilarious! And Wade is really a cool guy." I told him honestly. I'm trying to dismiss any thought that's about Justin because I know that I'll just be a little sad because Justin's doesn't like me that much. After a few minutes, we reached the club and it looks peaceful without the thumping sound and the grinding people dancing in the dance floor.

I was surprised to see Paul and Dee setting up a table for all of us. "That was quick." Dee commented.

"The compound isn't really that far from here." I told her and giving her and Paul a hug. "You still remember my siblings Paul and Dee?" I asked the guys who all nodded except Wade who shook his head no. "Oh by the way, the cute tall blond guy is Wade." I said and I could feel JC glare at me. "And the cutest guy there is my boyfriend JC." JC smiled.

"Nice to meet you." Wade said with a wave.

"Nice to meet you too." Dee said with a sweet smile. "By the way JC, I mean what I said." She said that made JC blush a little.

"Me too!" Paul said that made JC chuckle a little bit.

"I swear Paul. If you have your BF, I'll show him your baby pics." I repeated my threat.

"Your brother is gay?" Wade asked.

"You're just bluffing." Paul said sticking out his tongue. I took out my wallet and took out a picture hidden. I always kept Paul and Dee's baby pictures in my wallet. I handed it to Lance. When he looked at it, he just laughed out loud.

"You didn't!" Paul's eyes went wide. The others were huddling Lance to see the picture and I know that when they see it, they'll laugh as well. It was Paul's picture when he was dressed like a cat. I think he was just 3 years old.

"Meow." Chris purred. The others laughed again and Paul was just glaring at me.

"I'm bluffing, huh?" I sat beside him. He just huffed and crossed his arms.

"Laugh at Paul later. Let's eat!" Dee declared. The table was set with lots of food on top. Dee was always very generous especially when it comes to food. I could see that Justin and Dee were whispering at each other and Wade and Paul were hitting it off pretty well. I could feel Dee glance at me a lot of times and Justin looked at little depressed.

The others were too drawn in eating that they didn't notice it. Josh was so busy chatting with me with many stuff. I guess rehearsals really make him very hyper. "Wait til you see him after a concert." Lance whispered at me with a smile on his face. I really like Lance. He has this friendly aura surrounding him that he just looks so approachable and that he's always ready to help you. And the fact that he looks so innocent is another plus.

We all continued eating with me observing the others subtly. Joey was flirting with Dee, again. Lance was talking with someone on the phone and I think it's about his artist Meredith. I can't help not eavesdropping. He's beside me! Justin was still whispering some things to Dee. Chris was victimized by Josh's talks. Dee was a little busy with Joey and Justin trying to get her attention. Wade and Paul were definitely flirting with each other. I nudged at JC. "I think Wade and Paul are really getting along." JC looked at the two and he smiled at me.

"They look cute." JC commented.

"I agree." I told him. A new relationship blossoming? And with my brother? I think Wade is a cool guy and JC was right. They do look good.

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8th chapter there! More development of characters and to those who wanted some drama, it's coming next. I have so much in mind right now about the story!! I'm psyched.

By the way, I'm not sure if I can bring something out next week coz my finals are coming up already. I'll really try my best to find the time to write and hopefully if everything is right on my schedule, you'll get chapter 9. I just bought Kylie's Fever and it's my favorite right now! I'm so hyper!!! Maybe it's the moccha frappucino... hmmmm.....

Thanks to ALL of you who have taken the time and MAILED me! I truly appreciate it very much. A big, big shout to my Danish pals, Chris and Danny, I hope you always be in love forever coz you compliment each other. You two are made for each other! :-)

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A big 'HI' to the people in the Nifty Boyband Chatroom and CRAZY!!! They are so nice, especially Wes, Dru, CJ, Duckie, Strat, Clive, Jayson... and the list goes on. Wanna say hi to my friend Byron who have helped me with his support and his friendship! Stay strong in your relationship! Finally, a big big 'thank you' to David who maintains the Nifty archives, without him, we won't be reading any of the best slash fics in the world!

Also, here are my suggestions of other cool stories in the archive that influenced me in my craft.

• Brian and Justin (Brian/Justin)

• The One (Brian/Justin)

• Jamie's Romance (Justin)

• Love Thru Chat (JC/Justin, Lance)

• Josh and Just (JC/Justin)

• Lance in Shining Armour (Lance)

• My New Life (Lance)

• Because I Love You (Brian/Nick)

• Double Take (Brian/Nick)

• Bad Boy B-Rok (Brian)

• Justin's Dark Angel (Justin)

• My Surprise Romance (Lance)

• Heir to the Darkness (Brian/Nick)

• Life with Justin (Justin)

• Kevin and Dustin (Kevin)

• French Kiss Me (Brian)

• Millennium Love (Brian)

• Forever (Kevin)

• JC's Hitchhiker (JC)

• Get Another Boyfriend (Kevin)

• Jimmy Needs Assistance (Lance)

• Lance, JC and an Astral Fan (Lance/JC)

• Lance's Search (Lance/JC)

• Heir to the Darkness (Nick/Brian)

• JC Dreams (JC)

• On the Streets (Kevin)

• Sans Vous, Je Suis Rien (Justin)

• Insecurities (Nick)

• Chance Meeting (Justin)

• My Soulmate JC (JC)

• Brian and Tommy (Brian)