What I See

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If you are under 18 or not of legal age in your country, please do not read on. If you couldn't accept themes of homosexuality and the like, please don't read on. This is a story concerning gay males having intimate relationships and is considered FOR ADULTS ONLY due to its sexual theme and contents. BUT if you really like this stuff, please don't tell others.

Everything in this story is purely FICTIONAL. Or in simpler terms, it's not true!!! Even if this story involves NSYNC, a real, successful American singing group, and a fictitious character, all that happens in here is fictional... again, it's not true. If there are instances that it is similar to what happened in the real world, it doesn't mean that it's really true. I don't know anything about their sexuality, as far as the I and the world know, they're straight as an arrow so I dunno if they're gay (but I do have my speculations) or not but I wrote this out of freedom of speech and my love for these guys and slash fiction. I don't own or know NSYNC personally. AGAIN, it's NOT TRUE!!! but don't we all hope that it's true... hehehehe...

First Words

Hi guys. This is my 3rd work here in the boyband section of the Nifty Archives. I dunno why I called it "What I See" but I just ran out of ideas for a title and thought of something simple. So the title, What I See was born giggle. I dunno if I can manage my 3 stories at the same time but Crossed Paths is in its "season break" and Reformation is still there. But I'll really try my best to update all my stories. Remember, I love feedbacks.

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What I See Chapter 5

Is this a dream? Am I just dreaming this? Is this like in the Tom Cruise flick, Vanila Sky? As I opened my eyes, the most beautiful being caught my sight. With his eyes closed and his mouth opened a little bit, he really looks so angelic. If this is a dream, I hope I won't ever wake up. I was lying down on JC's chest hearing his heart beat and letting my head go up and down from his slow breathing.

JC's arms were wrapped around me giving me warmth and the feeling that I was protected from all the evils of the world. But I guess the beautiful images just have to vanish as nature started to call. I was so dying to pee. Good way to ruin a very amazing moment.

I tried to untangle myself myself from JC without waking him up. Now I realize why the couch isn't really meant for sleeping. It was so uncomfortable and I think JC suffered more than me. Poor thing. I successfully got out of JC's hold and watched him still sleeping. I smiled and walked to the bathroom to do my business. Do I have to talk about this?

After peeing, I looked at the watch and it read 8:00am. Well, I am in the bathroom and everything so I decided to take a bath as well so I won't be hassled later on. My work starts at 9:00 and the office is really quite near from my house. So I wasn't really rushing. I think I'm still in my high until this moment.

After I took a bath and properly dressed in my casual attire, which is also what I wear to work, I walked to the kitchen to cook some breakfast for the two of us coz I know that he's gonna have rehearsals again and it's tough to move if you have an empty stomach. The only things in my ref were eggs, and batter for pancakes that I made a few days back. Well, I think this is enough.

I have finished cooking the omelet and on my third pancake when I felt a pair of hands snake around my waist. I was really startled and when I looked at who the culprit was; it was just JC. "Did I startle you?" JC asked as he rested his chin on my shoulder. I think that's easy coz I'm not that tall.

"A little bit." I answered honestly. "The omelet is finished so you can eat already." I told him as I pointed on the plate on top of the dining table.

"You're not gonna join me?" JC queried. I think that's so sweet.

"I'm just gonna finish up in here then I'll follow you." I said with a smile to him. He unhooked himself from me and went to the dining table to eat breakfast.

I was already in my last pancake when I heard JC say something. "You are an amazing cook." I looked at JC and he was shoveling a spoonful in his mouth. I just smiled at him and turned off the stove to join JC eat.

"Flattery won't get you anywhere." I said to him as I sat beside him. "What do you want? Juice, milk, coffee or tea?"

"Juice is fine." JC told me shyly. He was so cute acting shy and timid. I walked to the ref and took out a carton of orange juice and a carton of milk for myself. I returned to the table and when I drank the milk, he was looking at me dubiously. "You still drink milk?" He asked me.

"That's what I drink here most of the time but I just stock up on other things coz of my family. Dee loves coffee, Paul likes juice and the tea is for my parents. They usually go here." I told him with a smile. JC just nodded at me affirmatively.

The two of us exchanged a few more words but they were just superficial ones and we never talked about a relationship, if we are having one. Mabye JC is not ready to be tied down to a committment. He is a pop star and I am just a normal guy here. I think the odds are all against me. "Have you thought about where this should go?" JC asked me out of nowhere like he was reading my mind. Maybe he's a psychic or something.

"That's exactly what I am thinking about. Do you want a relationship?" I gulped when I said the word relationship not knowing if there is such after last night. I am pining that we would have a relationship but looking at all the factors, it seemed so impossible.

"I wanna try it but if you don't, it's okay for me." JC whispered to me. I just looked at his blue eyes trying to see if he was sincere or if he was just playing with me. All I saw was adoration and sincerity.

"I want to try too." I told him.

"But." JC said knowing the next thing I was gonna say.

"But." I continued. "Can we manage it knowing that you'll be touring across the country and later on across the globe. It is a fact that long distance relationships don't really work successfully." I said to him looking at the situation realistically. I have a job here and his job is meeting people and performing to people in lots of places.

"I know that we can manage it. I don't wanna let this opportunity pass. I have this feeling in my heart that tells me that what we have is something special that only the two us share. I don't wanna regret this for the rest of my life if I let this pass. If it really doesn't work out, then we know that we aren't for each other but what if we were really for each other?" JC held my hand like he was really pleading. I have to really think about this. Will I surrender myself to this relationship with JC? But JC is correct, what if this is really meant for me?

"I know what you mean." I told him. "How about we give this thing a try." I smiled at him warmly and squeezed his hand emphasizing my point. A big smile appeared on his face and he kissed my at the lips.

"You're gonna go to work today?" He asked me.

"I have to. I'm finishing the two projects I'm working today so I can have the rest of the week off. I know that you guys would be start touring on Saturday so I set aside the rest of the week for you." I told him. Well, I dunno why but maybe it's just a gut instinct that made me decide that I should hurry up finishing the project.

"That's great news! I thought we won't be spending much of time together before I go." JC said excitedly that made me smile.

"You have rehearsals right?" I asked him. JC looked at the watch and saw that it was already 8:45. His eyes widened like he saw a ghost.

"Oh shit! I'm so late! Rehearsals start at 8:30. Wade is gonna kill me and the others must be worrying already about me. They might think that you kidnapped me or something, not that I'm gonna complain if you're gonna kidnap me but still they're gonna be worried sick and I didn't even call yesterday night.." JC was babbling already.

"JC, stay calm." I said to him sternly. He stopped his babbling and looked at me. "I'll bring you to wherever you are rehearsing now. Just leave everything there and I'll just clean this up later."

"That's unfair for you. You're the one who cooked breakfast and everything and I'm not gonna do anything." JC said to me.

"You're my guest. Don't worry about all of this." I told him with a smile as I stood up and dragged him out of his chair. "You don't wanna take a bath first?" I asked him.

"I'll just do it in the compound." JC told me and we were out to go to his rehearsals. As we were travelling along the road, JC just kept of thanking me for everything that I did for him. It was kinda getting in my nerves already but I wasn't really showing it to him. After a while, he shut up and gave me the directions where we were gonna go after I turned to a wrong street.

Well, the compound where they were rehearsing wasn't too far so we got there around 9:10. I guess I'm late for work. I stopped my car in front of the gated compound. "I guess this is it." I told him looking at my fingers gripping the steering wheel.

"Thanks again Kyle. I mean it." JC told me as he held my hand. I looked at him slowly and gazed at his smiling face. Even if his hair was sticking up in different directions, I can still feel the aura around him. It was joy. "I'll call you later okay?" JC said as he kissed me gently at my lips.

He stepped out of my car and he waved goodbye to me. I started my car and drove to the office to really finish the projects now that I have a reason to finish it today. And that's JC.

True, I was late for work today. Well, tardiness isn't really a problem in the office. The point is just finish your project and we have no trouble. I mean, I can even work at home if I wanted to but working alone at home really isn't enticing to do coz I have gained so many friends here. I entered the office I worked in and walked to my place there. Well, it wasn't really divided into cubicles or even into closed rooms. It was sorta classroom type without the doors and for each room, two to three share the same place but still, we have our own 'stations' so to speak.

"You're actually late?" Will, my co-worker asked me like it was the most shocking thing he saw. Well, I think he has enough reason because I am never late here. Even if there's any prohibition for tardiness, I always try to be punctual and sometimes, I'm the first one here in the office.

"Something came up." I simply said hoping that he won't push. It's not that I am a closet case in here coz I'm open with my sexuality. The problem is, JC isn't. Something might slip off and I don't wanna put JC in a shithole.

"Okay." Will just rolled his eyes. "By the way, Matt said that he wanted to see you." Matt is the owner here in the office. We don't treat him as the owner coz in here, we are equal and there's no such thing as positions in here. Matt wanted it that way. He's still to creeped out of being called 'sir' and Mr. Hunt at just a young age of 28 years old.

"I'll just see him later. I'm almost finished with Powertech's anyway." I told Will and started to finish the project. In about 30 minutes, I have uploaded everything in the internet and there were no more bugs that I saw earlier. It's done. "I'm gonna see Matt now." I told Will and walked to Matt's room. Yes, he has his own office.

When I entered Matt's room, his feet was on the table and he was just watching some show in the television. In other words, doing nothing but lounging around. "You wanted me?" I asked him.

"Oh Kyle." Matt said arranging himself on his chair. "I just wanna ask about the Powertech project coz they called me yesterday and they want an update with the site." Matt told me.

"Well, it's done and already in the net. So, you can tell them that they can view it already. And, the Looker's Peak site might be finished later in the afternoon coz I'm just debugging it anyway. " I said to Matt who smiled at me. "I'm taking the rest of the week off to recharge my batteries." I said pointing to my head.

"Sure." Matt said to me and that was it. I returned back to our room and finished the project I was working on.

I didn't get out of my place for the whole day. Even for lunch, I didn't go. I just have to finish this today; not tomorrow but today. Thank God that Will was so kind to bring me a sandwich when he returned back after lunch. "You're stressing too much with that project." Will told me as he handed a Big Mac.

"I need to finish it today. I'll be out for the rest of the week so I have to finish it today." I told him still trying to figure out why this page was not working. It worked yesterday but why can't it follow the damn link?

"Oh, special someone?" Will chimed.

"Yep." I told him absentmindedly looking through the codes of the page.

"That's new. Congrats then." Will said patting me at my back. Well, let's just say that my love life really isn't flowery. It was quite barren. Will left me in peace as I continued working on this thing.

After a few more hours, the whole site was uploaded and bug free. "Finally!" I said outloud as I stretched my sore muscles.

"You done already?" Will asked me from his place.

"Yep. I'm going home now. I feel so sore from all over and my head is throbbing a little bit." I answered. Well, who wouldn't have a headache, I mean almost 7 hours of working straight. Man, I think that's a record for me coz I tend to have lots of breaks when I do a project. I just can't stand being cooped up doing something uninterrupted.

Finally, it's the start of my break. I have nothing to worry about and I'm gonna spend it with JC. I walked to my car and drove home thinking of what I'll cook for dinner. Well, when you're independent, you tend to be more domesticated. Too domesticated in my case. I stopped over the grocery picking up some spices that I'm gonna use for a chicken dish that I read in one of those nifty recipe books. I know that they'll be handy some time.

When I reached home, I spotted Dee watching TV. "Dee? What are you doing here?" I asked her as I walked to the kitchen to place the things that I bought.

"Just checking up if everything's okay with you." Dee said with a grin plastered on her face.

"Really?" I told her sarcastically. "I think you're just here to get some gossip from me." I said.

"Moi? You're loving older sister?" Dee acted like she was shocked. Well, if Paul is a bad actor, Dee is worse. "Of course I want details." Dee squealed rushing to me.

"What's to tell?" I asked innocently.

"Please. I'm the one who set you up with Justin so I think I have the right to know." Dee told me. Oh, she still doesn't know that it didn't work out with Justin.

"Justin? We're just friends. It didn't really work out." I said to her not wanting to tell anything about my relationship with JC. I don't know if it's my place to divulge JC's sexuality.

"And I thought that you finally got your wish come true." Dee said to me giving me one-hand hug.

"Actually I got my wish. I got my dream to come true. We had a date remember?" I told her. I walked to the freezer and took out the chicken I was keeping for today's dinner. "Are you gonna stay here for dinner?" I asked Dee.

"Nah! I'm gonna go to Buzzed today to check on things." Dee told me. WEll, that's good news for me. No bothering person for me with my little time with JC. The phone rang. "I'll get it." Dee said as she walked to the phone to answer it. While she answered the phone, I took out all the other ingredients that I'm gonna use for dinner. "It's for you. He said his name was Josh." Dee said with a glint of mischief in her smile. Josh? Do I know any Josh?

"Hello?" I answered hesitantly on the phone not really knowing who Josh was.

"Kyle? It's JC." Oh, JC. Well, he never did use Josh as his name with me but I liked it more than JC. It was more personal than JC.

"What's with Josh?" I asked him.

"Josh is my real nickname. JC is just my stage name like with Lance. Well don't you like it?" JC asked me immediately.

"Actually, I love it. It's kinda more personal than a two-letter name." I said chuckling a little bit. "What time are you gonna come in?" I asked him as I sliced a clove of garlic.

"I'm gonna be there around 7pm coz I have to swing by to the hotel so I can get some clothes that I can use. Is that okay?" Josh asked me. Josh. I like it.

"That's perfect. I'm just gonna start cooking dinner so when you arrive, it will be just finished then." I informed him.

"That's great. I'm gonna hung up now. I'll see you later." JC said to me. I said my 'goodbye' and we both ended our calls. When I placed the phone on the table, Dee was looking at me with the same curious and mischievous look.

"It didn't work out with Justin coz you have a JOSH." Dee told me emphasizing on Josh's name. "So who is this guy that I don't know?"

"He's just a guy that I met before." I told her generally. I don't wanna speak in specific terms coz like I said, I don't wanna tell something about JC yet. What if he's not yet comfortable with coming out with other people? Coming out is a difficult process; I underwent that as well.

"Okay fine. If you don't wanna tell me then don't." Dee said with a pout forming on her face. I just nudged her and laughed a little. She giggled as well after it. "I'll be going now. Tell me some time, okay?" Dee said as I walked her out of the house.

"Sure." I told her. We embraced each other and she left for her club leaving me to prepare for dinner for myself and JC.

With the recipe book opened on the counter, and all the ingredients ready, preparing dinner wasn't that hard. It was just a matter of following instructions from the book. After around 45 minutes, I was already done with the chicken and added mashed potatoes as well. When I looked at the watch, it was a little bit early so why not take a bath first. I think I smelled like chicken already.

I took a quick bath and just watched television to pass time. Well, I was watching MTV and they were doing a special with the Backstreet Boys. It was actually entertaining. Soon, someone buzzed with the doorbell and I knew that it must be JC already. I opened the door and, yes, it was JC indeed. He was just wearing something casual and not his "popstar" attire. It makes him more normal. "Hi!" I said with a smile.

"I brought some wine." JC told me as he entered the house. Once the door was closed, the two of us leaned to each other bringing our lips to touch each other. It was short and innocent but I can still feel my heart beating faster and faster. "Hmm, smells good." JC said sniffing. I guess the chicken was smelling really good.

"Come on let's eat." I said to him snaking my arm with his as I dragged him to the dining room. "How's your day?" I asked him.

"It was actually fun. Wade showed us some new moves for the next concert which I know would really rock." JC said enthusiastically. I can see in his eyes that he really loves what he does. You can see it in the glitter in his eyes when we talk about music and him being a part of NSYNC, it just lightens him up.

"You always rock in your concerts." I told him truthfully. I've seen their Pop Odyssey Tour and it really was one of the best concerts I have ever been into.

"When it's coming from you, it sounds so touching." JC cooed as he kissed me. I think I'm gonna get used with this. I let him settled in one of the chairs then I went to the kitchen to get the chicken and the mashed potatoes.

"I hope this tastes good." I said to him. Well, it's the first time I cooked this type of dish so I really didn't know how it would turn out. When I tasted it a while ago, it was okay for me but I don't know for him.

"You're a great cook. I think it's impossible for you to ever ruin something." JC complimented me. I just blushed. JC said that dinner was really good and the two of us ate while we exchanged some more bits of information about us. It wasn't like those that are asked in the magazines, it was more personal and more on thoughts, dreams and aspirations. I learned JC again. He was so insightful and very deep.

After we have eaten and cleaned everything, the two of us decided to go to bed. Well, it was almost 10pm already and he has rehearsals again tomorrow. For me? Well, I'm free for the rest of the week, remember? "Um, Josh?" I said as we were walking up the stairs. "I can call you Josh right?" I immediately add. What if he doesn't want me to call him that nickname? He did say it was personal.

"Of course." JC told me with a smile.

"Um, I'm just gonna ask if, you..." God this is hard to say. "Um, if you wanna sleep with me in the room. Just sleep and everything." I mumbled feeling my blood rushing to my face. That was so embarassing for me.

"I'd love to." JC said as he held my hand. The two of us walked to my room and there we had our very first night together... on a bed.

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Well, I'm already in chapter 5!!! Yey!!! I can't believe that it's chapter 5 already. I mean, time flies so fast. Well, the chapter is quite uneventful coz I'm trying to establish some normalcy in their lives. I wanna show that even if they are pop stars, they can have some normal time by themselves, with their loved ones. Watch for the next one next week!

Thanks to ALL of you who have taken the time and MAILED me! I truly appreciate it very much. A big shout to my Danish pals, Chris and Danny, I hope you always be in love forever. :-)

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Also, here are my suggestions of other cool stories in the archive that influenced me in my craft.

• Brian and Justin (Brian/Justin)

• The One (Brian/Justin)

• Jamie's Romance (Justin)

• Love Thru Chat (JC/Justin, Lance)

• Josh and Just (JC/Justin)

• Lance in Shining Armour (Lance)

• My New Life (Lance)

• Because I Love You (Brian/Nick)

• Double Take (Brian/Nick)

• Bad Boy B-Rok (Brian)

• Justin's Dark Angel (Justin)

• My Surprise Romance (Lance)

• Heir to the Darkness (Brian/Nick)

• Life with Justin (Justin)

• Kevin and Dustin (Kevin)

• French Kiss Me (Brian)

• Millennium Love (Brian)

• Forever (Kevin)

• JC's Hitchhiker (JC)

• Get Another Boyfriend (Kevin)

• Jimmy Needs Assistance (Lance)

• Lance, JC and an Astral Fan (Lance/JC)

• Lance's Search (Lance/JC)

• Heir to the Darkness (Nick/Brian)

• JC Dreams (JC)

• On the Streets (Kevin)

• Sans Vous, Je Suis Rien (Justin)

• Insecurities (Nick)

• Chance Meeting (Justin)