What I See

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If you are under 18 or not of legal age in your country, please do not read on. If you couldn't accept themes of homosexuality and the like, please don't read on. This is a story concerning gay males having intimate relationships and is considered FOR ADULTS ONLY due to its sexual theme and contents. BUT if you really like this stuff, please don't tell others.

Everything in this story is purely FICTIONAL. Or it's not true!!! Even if this story involves NSYNC and a fictitious character, all that happens in here is fictional... again, it's not true. I don't know anything about their sexuality, as far as the I and the world know, they're straight as an arrow so I dunno if they're gay (but I do have my speculations) or not but I wrote this out of freedom of speech and my love for these guys and slash fiction. I don't own or know NSYNC personally. AGAIN, it's NOT TRUE!!! but don't we all hope that it's true... hehehehe...

First Words.

Hi guys. This is my 3rd work here in the boyband section. I dunno why I called it "What I See" but I just ran out of ideas for a title and thought of something simple. So the title, What I See was born. I dunno if I can manage my 3 stories at the same time but Crossed Paths is in it's "season break" and Reformation is still there. But I'll try my best. I have a little of the new season of Crossed Paths I hope y'all like this one. Remember, I love feedbacks. Mail me at pseud0nym@edsamail.com.ph!!!

What I See Chapter 3

"Justin?" I said not believing what I was seeing. But it was really Justin. Justin Randall Timberlake of NSYNC is in front of my front door. He was my date?!

"Surprised to see me?" Justin asked me still with his grin on his face.

"Yeah!" I blurted out. "I just didn't know that you go that way." I said to him.

"We'll talk more later, the limo is waiting and we have reservations." Justin said to me as he led the way to the waiting limo. Limo? Stylish. Very stylish.

Still, I was in confusion. It just doesn't make sense to me. I have never thought of any possibility that he might be gay, bisexual or whatever. I mean he has Britney Spears as her girlfriend already for crying out loud . Wait, if he's dating Britney and I'm gonna go out with him on a date, where does that put me? That's not right.

"After you." Justin said gesturing like a gentleman. I smiled at him warmly and entered the limo. Then, he followed and sat beside me even if there's a bigger space in front of him. Isn't he too quick or something? "You look gorgeous." Justin said looking at me intently. There was something in his voice? Was it seduction? I just can't tell with other things swirling in my mind.

"Thanks. You're looking good too." I returned the compliment to him. Actually, he really looked good in his all-black attire. He looks more demure and elegant than his street look in the band. "I never imagined that um, you're... gay." I added being blunt as usual. Why bother go around the bush if it would come out, oops, no pun intended.

"Well, I just don't broadcast it to the world. I have an image to protect." Justin said cockily.

"What about Britney?" I asked already. I was already itching to ask it from the first time I saw him this night. I mean Britney is his girlfriend as far as the world and I know.

"What do you mean, what about Britney?" Justin was playing dumb. Do we have to play around? I mean I asked a direct question and he returns it with a question. Is that right? I don't think so, but just to be nice and everything, I'll just let it pass for now.

"I know that Britney is your girlfriend." I said to him.

"Oh that!" Justin exclaimed. "Well, it's just a cover-up so the people won't suspect a thing with my real sexuality." Justin explained.

"I see. So it's like you two talked together and asked her to be your fake girlfriend." I said what I thought about it. Well, it does sound good and it's very sweet of Britney of doing such a selfless act for a friend.

"Well, not exactly." Justin said to me hesitantly that left me in confusion, again. "Technically, Britney is MY girlfriend and I'm dating her but I just do it to not let the cat out of the bag so to speak." Justin elaborated. I tried to suppress a come back with what he just said to me. I think that was so, um, selfish (?) I mean, he is using Britney as a cover-up and it's all based in lies. I mean she is his friend after all and there he is using her without her knowledge. I don't think I can live in that situation. It is just too hard.

"I see." I said hiding my irritation from what I just heard. "So, the other guys know?" I asked him again.

"Not exactly." Justin told me. I think when JC said that Justin has a good character, he was just buttering him up. Yeah, he's a gentleman and everything but that's it. I mean, all I'm seeing now is one filthy liar who uses a poor defenseless woman to hide his true sexuality without the girl's knowledge and he's not even honest to his so-called brothers of what really works in that little nutty head of Justin's.

"Okay." I said to Justin with a strained smile. I hope he notices that I was just being nice to him and not being sincere. "I heard that JC came out already to you guys." I said trying to suppress any annoyance that I was feeling to Justin at this moment. JC is a good thought.

"Yeah. Everyone was cool with it." Justin said to me plainly. That's it? "Dee said that you like our music." Justin changed the topic. I dunno if I should thank or hate Dee for doing this for me.

"Yeah, I do. I really love some of the songs in your latest album." I remarked.

"Really? Is it any of my songs? I mean, I did write most of the songs there." Justin said smugly. I think it's time to burst that big bubble.

"Well, um, actually, I really like ones that JC wrote." I said to him truthfully. Well, I do like JC's songs better than his.

"Oh." Justin said downcast. The trip to wherever he's gonna take me was spent in utter silence except the humming of the car. I crossed my arms and looked at the view outside thinking. "I get the feeling that you really don't like me that much." Justin broke the silence. I think it finally got through his thick head. Not to sound so mean, but he really sounded so self-centered and egotistic.

"Justin, I'm not saying that I don't like you because there are lots of things to like about you. I guess I just get this feel in your personality that I don't really like." I said honestly. "Please don't take it the wrong way but there are some things where our beliefs clash but I'm trying to grasp everything you believe in and try to understand it." I tried to explain.

"Be honest, what do you see in me?" Justin told me. I looked at him intently thinking of any euphemisms that I can use to describe him. But I really don't know how to go about it without being so cruel and judgmental.

"Let's start with the good things. I really think you are very handsome and a true gentleman. I can see that you're very passionate in the things you want and very persistent. I also think that you are very talented even for your young age; you have an amazing gift in music." I paused thinking of other stuff that I saw in him. Nadda. "On the other hand, from our conversation earlier, I get this notion that you're very self-seeking. I mean, I really don't like to bash you or anything but the thing with Britney really appalls me coz I feel so pitiful for Britney coz she's in a pointless relationship without her knowledge even. And you knew that JC already came out to you and the others so why not join in it as well and not have another one of those uncomfortable moments where you tell it to them."

Justin didn't speak after my piece. I hope I didn't hurt his feelings. "Thanks for the kind words and being honest. I think you're the first guy to be so honest to me. Well, in the Britney thing, I just don't wanna hurt her but I see your point and where you're coming at. I do sound so egotistical." Justin spoke. I guess it's good that he's realizing his faults.

"But don't you think that she's gonna be more hurt knowing that you just led her on to something pointless?" I asked him rhetorically. Justin seemed to think about it and I could see a little sadness in his face. I think I'm being too harsh here. "I hope I didn't hurt your feelings and won't scar any relationship that we are sharing, if there's any." I said to him with a smile as I touched his shoulder.

"I think we should go on with the date and let's see where it's gonna head." Justin smiled at me.

"That's fine. Let's leave Justin the egotistical asshole somewhere coz I wanna know the gentleman and kind Justin." I said to him. Well, I guess that broke the tension coz we started from the start. We chatted about very trivial things about ourselves learning about each other. And the more things we share, the more things I learn about him and that's good.

After a few minutes, the limo stopped. I guess we're already in our destination. The driver opened the door and the two of us stepped out. We were in front of a very fancy Italian restaurant where my family and I usually eat in here. I think it was more of a tradition already. We entered the restaurant and he talked with the maître d'. The maître d' led us to a secluded part of the restaurant that Justin prolly reserved for us for privacy reasons.

The maître d' handed us the menu and I skimmed at it looking at anything that caught my attention. I guess I'll just settle with my favorite here. "I'll just have a Pasta ala Carbonara." I said to the waiting attendant.

"Excellent choice. What about you Mr. Timberlake?" He asked Justin.

"I'll just get what he got and can you also add your finest wine." Justin told the maître d' who nodded and scuttled off to pass on our orders. Once alone, Justin and I talked some more.

The food and the wine arrived after awhile but we didn't get bored because Justin and I seemed to be fond of each other. But is there some attraction there? I would be a hypocrite if I said no because he was sorta my crush then. But do I see any possible relationship? I doubt.

"Do you mind if JC knows that you're my date?" I asked Justin.

"You talk with JC?" Justin questioned back.

"Yeah. I think we really hit it off before in the club and we're constantly talking about life and hot guys there and there." I said trying to make the conversation light.

"Well, I really don't mind coz I think I'll just come out to the guys when I come back. I'm still a little unsure if I should tell Britney coz I hate to see her cry and heartbroken over this." Justin told me. I think that I like Justin better now.

"Well, like what I said to JC. Just take your time but don't take too much of it." I said to him as our orders arrived.

Our time together in the restaurant was amazing. Justin proved to be really fun-loving and very down-to-earth. I guess my only explanation with his earlier behavior was because it was sorta like a defense mechanism for him already. Be egotistic and superior so they can't touch. But truthfully, Justin was just a normal guy who didn't have a very nice childhood. Who would have a good one if you are in tour since the age of 13?

"You know, you're not too bad after all." I told him. His eyes were glittering and I could see that he was happy that I didn't think that he's such a big prick even if he is sometimes.

"Thanks." Justin said to me. He called on the maître d' for the bill and after he paid even with my objections that I should be the one to pay, we got back to the limo. Justin directed the driver to bring us back to my house. The drive home was not so tensed like earlier which was good coz that's the last thing I need to end a very spectacular date even with a bad start.

After a few minutes, the limo halted to a stop. I could see my house outside the window. "Do you wanna come in?" I offered.

"Sure." Justin said coyly and instructed the limo driver to drive around and he'll just call him if he needs to go already. We stepped out of the limo and entered my house. I was fumbling with my keys and I could hear Pookie already barking from the inside. Did I feed her? I think I did. "You've got a dog?" Justin asked.

"Yep. A brown Chihuahua." I said to him. Finally, I found the right key and opened the door. Pookie was in front of me wagging her tail excitedly. Then, she averted her gaze to Justin and growled a little. "Bad Pookie!" I said hearing her growl. She silenced herself and I picked her up from the floor. "Sorry about that. She has a little problem with meeting new people." I said with a giggle.

"It's okay." Justin said to me. "Nice house you've got here and very stunning interior." Justin commented.

"Thanks. It took me a long time to finally furnish everything but I think it's worth it." I said to him with a smile. I looked at my answering machine and saw that I have messages.

"Kyle! JC here! I hope you enjoyed your date, whoever he is. Call me and I want details!" JC's voice played out. I chuckled a little hearing the anticipation and excitement in his voice.

"I never heard JC that... um, thrilled over something. Maybe except if he had an idea for a song." Justin laughed. I smiled a little and realized that I was being a very bad host.

"By the way, do you want anything?" I offered.

"Nah! I'm still filled with the pasta dish we ate earlier." Justin told me. The two of us sat on the couch and resumed talking about our lives. I got a glimpse of Justin's private life that's away from the limelight. It was really interesting to know Justin really. I guess these pop stars have been too exposed publicly that you just don't see that they have another side away from it and when you hear that, you'll just be blown away. It was the same with JC.

"It's getting late already and we have rehearsals tomorrow. I guess I should head home." Justin said to me as he stood up.

"You're right, it's late already. If you want you can just stay in here for the night. It would save you some time and give you more time to sleep." I offered.

"Thank you but I don't want to impose on you." Justin said.

"Nonsense! That's so small considering that you gave me a very wonderful night and a good conversation. Call the driver and just tell him to get you tomorrow. I'll prepare your room." I said to him as I stood up to go to the guestroom and see if everything is okay there.

I think that everything was in place so I returned down to Justin and saw him talking on the phone. "Wait a minute." Justin said on the phone. "Kyle! JC wants to talk to you." Justin handed me the phone.

"Hi Jace!" I said cheerfully. "By the way, the room is ready and if you wanna take a shower, it's in the second door from the right. Towels are in the cabinet and you can borrow some clothes in my room, the one beside the guest room that you'll be using." I said to Justin who nodded and went upstairs.

"I can't believe that Justin is your date!" JC exclaimed to me.

"You should have seen my face when I opened the door and I saw him there. It was like I saw a ghost or something and I bet that my expression was funny as hell." I said chuckling.

"I didn't even expect that Justin was gay coz he has Britney and everything and he seemed to be such a flirt with the girls." JC told me.

"You're a flirt too!" I said to him.

"Am not!" JC retorted.

"In your dreams. You're such a big flirt and you know it." I said to him.

"Okay I'm a flirt." JC said sadly then giggling afterwards. "Come on, I want details." JC squealed.

I told him everything. From my first impression to Justin until when I invited Justin to stay in here.

"How come you invite him to your house and you've never invited me there?" I could see a pout already forming on JC's lips. I think it's really cute.

"Well, you never gave me signals that you're interested. And I always think that you pop stars are always busy to have a slumber party with little people like me." I said dramatically.

"Hey!" JC said to me. "Well, if that's the case I just have to prove to you that I have time to little people like you. What's your address?" JC asked.

"Don't say you're coming here at this time?" I asked him incredulously.

"I am!" JC stated.

"JC, you have rehearsals tomorrow. You'll be too sleepy tomorrow coz it's late already." I explained to him. I can't let him jeopardize a rehearsal day because of a silly thing. "How about you go here after your rehearsals and we can sleep here if you wanna." I suggested.

"Sure!" JC said excitedly. "I'm gonna change the topic. So what do you think now of Justin?" JC asked. I think JC's past life is a sleazy gossip column reporter. Geez, he's too gossipy!

"I think that Justin's a nice guy." I said.

"That's it?" JC asked me quizzically.

"What do you want me to say?" I asked back.

"Well, I was expecting words like, 'he is such a perfect gentleman. I think I can live with him forever.' or 'I think it's love at first sight.'" JC said to me with feelings. He's a bad actor.

"Well, in that case, um, no. I don't think of Justin that way." I said. "We spent a night together and I learned lots of things about Justin, both good and bad. I can see that he's a very talented and special man but I just don't see myself being with him. I guess it's just his character but don't get me wrong coz he has a good character. I guess it's just I see him more as a friend than something more." I told JC honestly. It was the complete truth. All the trace of my petty crush with him has just vanished. I guess learning about someone does put out the spice but I know that it's a good thing.

"Really?" JC asked a little excited.

"Someone's excited." I said playfully.

"Um, well, I just thought that I'll have a chance with..." JC started to stutter.

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That's chapter 3. Well, I wanna call it the date chapter. I hope I didn't bore you out with their day. And there's a cliffhanger as well! My first one for the series. I'll try not to place lots of those there coz I know how it gets to someone, based from experience. ;-P

Thanks to all of you who took the time and emailed me. It was so sweet and very much appreciated. From the bottom of my heart, I thank y'all.

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Also, here are my suggestions of other cool stories in the archive that influenced me in my craft.

• Brian and Justin (Brian/Justin)

• The One (Brian/Justin)

• Jamie's Romance (Justin)

• Love Thru Chat (JC/Justin, Lance)

• Josh and Just (JC/Justin)

• Lance in Shining Armour (Lance)

• My New Life (Lance)

• Because I Love You (Brian/Nick)

• Double Take (Brian/Nick)

• Bad Boy B-Rok (Brian)

• Justin's Dark Angel (Justin)

• My Surprise Romance (Lance)

• Heir to the Darkness (Brian/Nick)

• Life with Justin (Justin)

• Kevin and Dustin (Kevin)

• French Kiss Me (Brian)

• Millennium Love (Brian)

• Forever (Kevin)

• JC's Hitchhiker (JC)

• Get Another Boyfriend (Kevin)

• Jimmy Needs Assistance (Lance)

• Lance, JC and an Astral Fan (Lance/JC)

• Lance's Search (Lance/JC)

• Heir to the Darkness (Nick/Brian)

• JC Dreams (JC)

• On the Streets (Kevin)

• Sans Vous, Je Suis Rien (Justin)

• Insecurities (Nick)