What I See

Disclaimer.

If you are under 18 or not of legal age in your country, please do not read on. If you couldn't accept themes of homosexuality and the like, please don't read on. This is a story concerning gay males having intimate relationships and is considered FOR ADULTS ONLY due to its sexual theme and contents. BUT if you really like this stuff, please don't tell others.

Everything in this story is purely FICTIONAL. Or it's not true!!! Even if this story involves NSYNC and a fictitious character, all that happens in here is fictional... again, it's not true. I don't know anything about their sexuality, as far as the I and the world know, they're straight as an arrow so I dunno if they're gay (but I do have my speculations) or not but I wrote this out of freedom of speech and my love for these guys and slash fiction. I don't own or know NSYNC personally. AGAIN, it's NOT TRUE!!! but don't we all hope that it's true... hehehehe...

First Words.

Hi guys. This is my 3rd work here in the boyband section. I dunno why I called it "What I See" but I just ran out of ideas for a title and thought of something simple. So the title, What I See was born. I dunno if I can manage my 3 stories at the same time but Crossed Paths is in it's "season break" and Reformation is still there. But I'll try my best. I have a little of the new season of Crossed Paths I hope y'all like this one. Remember, I love feedbacks. Mail me at pseud0nym@edsamail.com.ph!!!

What I See - Chapter 2

Everything seemed to be so hectic in my life. I mean I've two projects at my hands right now. It's so tedious and time-consuming. "Why did I take the two projects again?" I asked myself as I typed some more codes for the site.

"Coz you know that you're the best." Will, my co-worker, said to me. Really?

"Who gave you that idea?" I asked him incredulously. Well, I know that I am not the best in this field but I can do what I ought to do.

"Um, lemme think?" Will said as he paused for a moment. "You."

"Oh please!" I said to him not believing what he's saying. I returned my attention to the site that I was making. I've been working with these for the past week already and I'm almost done. I just hope that my boss and the people there like what I was making.

It has been almost 2 weeks since my encounter with NSYNC in Dee's club. Two dragging weeks. Dee and Paul didn't bother me again after the club and just let me be in peace. They know that it's what I always wanted. Being at peace. But you know, that what's I don't want right now.

It's kinda stupid of me for expecting that JC would call me. I mean who am I? I'm just some computer geek somewhere and JC is a popstar that is loved by not thousands, but millions. I did expect that he would call me, I mean the first day after they left, I stayed at home hoping that he would call. But did he call? No. On the second day, I saw the light and realized that there's no way he's gonna call me. I just anticipated too much I guess.

I looked at my watch to see the time. 4:45pm, it read. I'll just continue this tomorrow coz my deadline is still quite far but I just want to finish it at once to finally get it over with. I saved all the files that I made in the computer and got ready to go home. I skimmed my table if I forgot something. Everything's complete. I bid goodbye to Will and the others and walked out of the office.

The sun was still shining but it's low already. Well, it's nearly 5pm anyway. I walked to the car and placed my bag on the passenger seat. Once inside, I started the car and played the cassette that is always there. Well, you guess it; it's NSYNC's Celebrity. I drove home listening to NSYNC's melodious voices. Something that I encountered in the past. Yeah, that's it. It was just an encounter.

In no time, I arrived home. "Pookie!" I shouted as I entered my house. I could hear Pookie running from the stairs and when she saw me, she rushed to me and gave my face a lick after I crouched down of course. Well, Pookie is a brown Chihuahua that I've loved for 3 years now. She's just a darling. I picked her up and checked if there are any messages for me.

"You have one message." The computer generated voice said out loud. Who could it be?

"Um, this is JC. Sorry that it's been so long already. Lance whacked up our schedule and there's a little drama going on here. It just flew out of my mind. I'm sorry again. If you want, call me to catch up on things. My number is, 555-XXXX. I would really appreciate if you'd call." JC's voice played in my answering machine. He finally called.

"Did you hear that Pookie? JC called me!" I said at Pookie spinning around. She was just barking at me but like I know what she's talking about. I placed her on the floor and she scuttled away from me. Did I scare her or something?

I picked up the phone and dialed JC's number. It rang once. Twice. Thrice. And someone answered.

"Hi! This is JC. Sorry, I couldn't answer your call so please leave your name, number and your message and I'll call you back!" The voice of JC rang in the phone. Oh, he's not at home.

"Um, hi JC. It's Kyle here. I just received your message..." I was thinking of what else I was gonna say to the damn answering machine. I was talking to an answering machine and I'm stuttering like hell.

"Kyle!" JC said interrupting my train of thought.

"JC?" I asked dubiously.

"I thought you're one of the guys bothering me again." JC said laughing.

"So what's happening in your life other than performing your ass off from place to place." I said to him lightly. What's really happening in my house is different? I was pacing all over and very excited coz I was talking to JC. Not that because he is a pop star or like that, but he actually called me, technically.

"Nothing new in me I guess. I did come out to the guys last Wednesday." JC said nonchalantly.

"You did? Wow, that's really a big step. I'm proud of you." I told him truthfully. Really, I was proud of him for coming out. I know that it's a very nerve wrecking experience and for him to bottle it inside alone, that's even tougher. Good thing that my siblings were beside me all the way when I did come out.

"Thanks. Well, I did it because of you. I thought hard about everything since we had our little talk in the club and I realize that if they really are my friends, they will accept me whoever I am. And you are right, it's a good feeling to finally be yourself." JC said to me. And I can sense that he was less sad from the club, but still sad nonetheless.

"See, I told you so." I said giggling. "I guess that the guys are setting you up with different bunch of guys now." I said to him laughing.

"You will not believe how many guys' number that I have now. That's why I wasn't answering the phone coz the last time I did, I was set to date a friend of Joey's." JC said laughing as well.

"I know how you feel. Dee and Paul was so pushy and when I really came out to the world, my friends were like 'oh, he's cute. Do you want me to ask him his name?'" I said remembering all that happened during my late college years with my friends, both straight and gay.

"Man! I just hope that this phase with them would pass!" JC said.

"It will but not for a long time. I have to move out of our house so that Paul and Dee would get off my case but did that stop them? No. They still call me once in a while to set me up on some blind date but that was rare now coz I told them that I wanna find the right guy in my own and they waned down a little." I told him. "Why don't you talk to them and tell them what I said to Paul and Dee. Maybe they'll understand."

"I'll give it a try some time." JC said to me trying to stifle yawn. I can't believe that it's already 9pm and I haven't eaten yet.

"You sound tired. Why don't you rest your beautiful self already?" I can't believe that I said that out loud.

"Beautiful huh?" JC said laughing. "I'm a little tired. I'll call you soon okay? It's been nice talking with you again." JC said and that was it. Another closed JC-Kyle encounter. Let's stop thinking about that and be realistic. He's a pop star for God's sake and he did tell me that he liked me as a friend only.

"Come on Pookie. Let's eat." I said to my dog who happily wagged his tail. I know that deep inside, I was still hoping that one day JC would like me not just a friend, but someone he can love.

Pookie and I enjoyed our peace together. I was watching the TV in the lounge room while she sat on my lap. It was an interesting special about alligators. Okay, it wasn't interesting but there was nothing to watch at the moment. I'll choose this over some silly show out there. Then, my phone rang. Is it JC again?

"Hello" I answered the phone.

"Kyle! I've something for you." Dee said to me excitedly.

"What?" I asked her not knowing what has entered her mind this time. The last time she called like this was... Oh my God. "Not another date?" I whined.

"I promise you. You'll like this one. He's handsome, and very much your taste. And he sound so nice." Dee said to me like she's the one who likes this guy. "Actually, you've met him already so that won't be a problem." She chimed in.

"Wait a minute, I've met him already? Who is he?" I asked her incredulously. I mean, if I met him already and if she stated that he was my type then I should have gotten to know him by now.

"Yes you've met already and you'll not know who he is if you don't go." She told me. Now, I really have to go to this blind date to know who this guy is. I've met countless of people for the past weeks and nothing seemed to catch my gaydar except JC, which is so impossible.

"Okay, when and where?" I asked defeated.

"He said that he's unavailable for the week because of his work. He travels a lot you know." She hinted. Travels a lot? "Anyway, he said that he'll pick you up on Sunday around 7pm."

"Sunday? Okay, I'm free. Ask this mystery guy if I should dress casual or formal?" I said to Dee.

"Um, dress casual. He wants a low profile date." Dee hinted once more. Should I talk with her more until she spills everything? "Um, I'll hang up now coz God knows what I'll slip if this talk gets longer." Damn!

We bid our goodbye and I settled down on my couch once more. Another one of Dee's date? I sighed thinking that if this would be like the last guy, I'm gonna kill her. But it does make me curious. A person who wants a low profile and travels a lot. Famous guy. Is it JC? But JC would have told me directly if it was him. Maybe he's shy or something.

I stopped myself into thinking more about the mystery guy and went to bed. It would be another day tomorrow and that means back to work. I laid my spent body on the bed trying to picture who my date is gonna be? "Who are you?" I asked to no one as I drifted off to sleep.

The next couple of days were uneventful. As usual, my day comprised of going to the office, face the computer, and then go home. Oh, by the way, another part was included; talk with JC. JC has been calling me every night for the past 4 days and tomorrow was Sunday already. Maybe it was him but he never hinted it. I guess I'll be the one who's gonna do it.

"JC, you might not get to talk to me tomorrow." I said to him trying to gauge his reaction as well.

"You going somewhere?" He asked me.

"Yeah. Dee set me up with one of her blind dates again." I chimed in trying to see if it perked up anything.

"Oh." JC said kinda dejectedly. "Good for you. One of us should be dating now." JC said trying to lighten up. But I guess he's really a bad actor. I could see through it even in the phone.

"I really didn't wanna go but Dee pleaded with me. I surely would have liked to talk to you than to meet someone that I don't know." I tried to butter up the situation.

"Thanks." JC said to me. "So, any details?" He asked.

"Um, Dee hinted a few. She said that this guy travels a lot and loves to keep everything low profile and get this. I've met this guy already. The last acquaintance that I got with that sort was you and the others. Or I might be wrong." I said to him.

"Really?" JC sounded interested. Was it really him? "Well, this guy would surely be lucky to have a date with such a charming and handsome guy like you."

"Stop it!" I said giggling. "I might think that you're flirting with me." I added.

"Who knows? Maybe I am." JC said to me mysteriously. Did he just say that.

"Mr. Chasez, I never knew that you've that in you." I said to him like one of those Southern belles. He didn't spoke and then we just exploded in fits of laughter.

"The guys are calling me now so I'll let you be." JC said to me. "And good luck with your date."

I hanged up the phone. "Did you hear that Pookie? JC was flirting with me." I said to Pookie picking her up and I hugged her tightly. I was so happy. And then I realized something. He's not interested. Just playful banters between two friends. "Just in my dreams." I said out loud.

I made sure that everything was locked and the lights were turned off before I sleep. Tomorrow is a special day and I am really excited to meet my date. Dee doesn't want to talk to me yet coz she knows that I'll flush the information out of her system sooner or later if we talked.

I walked to my bed and realized how big it was. It was so big for me. Just me. I have never been into a serious relationship but I did have lots of dates from the past because of my friends and family. And some how, I miss having someone. I never had a one-night stand before but I've cuddled with someone here on my bed. And how I miss that. "I hope that this guy would turn out to be 'the guy'" I hoped as I tried to sleep.

My phone rang. My eyes fluttered open thinking who would call me. I looked at the clock and it was only 9:00 am. Too early for a Sunday. I picked up the phone and groggily answered, "Hello."

"You're still asleep?" Paul said to me. "Wake up!" He shouted that made me cringe. Too early.

"Why are you bothering me?" I asked him not wanting to extend this conversation.

"I was bored." Paul said to me impishly.

"Bother someone else. I'm trying to sleep some more coz I have a date later." I said to him.

I was gonna hang up the phone when I heard the magic words. "Oh, your date! He's a hottie." Paul remarked. He knows my date?!

"Who is he?" I asked Paul.

"I'm not telling. I promised Dee that I wouldn't tell you his name. But I promise you; you'll be shocked when you see him later. I never thought that he's that way with everything that's been going on." Paul said to me. Go on, speak more and I'll flush all the things I want.

"Really? Good shock or bad shock?" I asked him curiously.

"Good shock I guess. I was really surprised when he called Dee. I was there when he called." Paul told me.

"How on earth did he know that I'm gay?" I questioned Paul. That really confused me. How can he ask me on a date without knowing that I'm gay? I know for a fact that I'm not flaming or something like that.

"Don't tell Dee that I told you but Dee kinda told them that you're gay when you met them. She was actually hoping that one of them is gay and would get the hint." Paul said. Now, I am 100% sure that it's one of the NSYNC guys. See, Paul can really be handy sometimes.

"Is it Lance, Chris, Joey, JC or Justin?" I asked Paul hoping that he won't get it.

"It's... wait a minute. Dee is going to kill me! You shouldn't know that it's one of those guys that you like." Paul groaned on the phone. "I'm not talking to you anymore within the day. I'll just call or meet you tomorrow for the details." Paul hung up the phone still mumbling that Dee was gonna kill him.

So who could it be? It's not Joey coz he has a child already and he has Kelly. Chris? I doubt that he's gay. He maybe acts kinda gay sometimes but I know for a fact that he isn't. Justin has Miss Spears so he's out of the question as well. So it's just Lance or JC.

"Stop thinking about it!" I said grabbing my hair. I'm gonna drive myself crazy if I'm just gonna think who's gonna pick me up later. I'll know later when he comes. I stood up from the bed and headed for the bathroom. I know that I'll have an interesting day ahead of me.

I tried to occupy myself with lots of stuff this day to not think more about my blind date. It's the first time that I am actually stressing myself about a blind date. God knows how many blind dates I had in the past but I guess the fact that it's prolly one of the guys of NSYNC is something that's perked up my interest. I have cleaned the house twice. I have given Pookie a bath and dried her. I have worked out in my mini-gym. "What more can I do?" I asked myself. I looked at the watch. It read 6:30pm.

Shit. I didn't notice the time. I haven't taken a bath and I don't know what I'm gonna wear yet. I rushed to the bathroom and bathe myself in record time. No time for jerking off or any other business. I brushed my teeth and put deodorant. This should be perfect. After drying myself, I rushed to my closet and looked for a proper attire.

Something that's cool and casual but not too casual. What should I wear? I picked out a navy blue turtleneck that would look good with my brown leather jacket. Then, I have this brown pants and black shoes that would look so wonderful. I just hope that it's not too dressy. I rushed to the bathroom and tried to control my hair. I slicked it with gel and voila, very stylish yet simple.

The doorbell rang. I rushed down thinking. Lance or JC? But I'm hoping that it was JC. "Please let it be JC." I prayed. Once near the door. I walked slowly and tried to catch my breath. Don't look so excited. Let this be good. I opened the door and it totally blew me away.

"Hi there." He said to me with a smile on his face. I can't believe it.

"Justin?" I said not believing what I just saw. But it was really Justin. Justin Timberlake is in front of my door. He was my date?!

End of Chapter

2nd chapter! Well, I hope everyone likes this one and take note that it wasn't a very heavy cliffhanger even if I was itching for one already. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this chapter like I enjoyed writing this one. It's a little fast paced coz I don't want it crammed in a day or something like that.

Thanks to all of you who took the time and emailed me. It was so sweet and very much appreciated. From the bottom of my heart, I thank y'all.

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Also, here are my suggestions of other cool stories in the archive that influenced me in my craft.

• Brian and Justin (Brian/Justin)

• The One (Brian/Justin)

• Jamie's Romance (Justin)

• Love Thru Chat (JC/Justin, Lance)

• Josh and Just (JC/Justin)

• Lance in Shining Armour (Lance)

• My New Life (Lance)

• Because I Love You (Brian/Nick)

• Double Take (Brian/Nick)

• Bad Boy B-Rok (Brian)

• Justin's Dark Angel (Justin)

• My Surprise Romance (Lance)

• Heir to the Darkness (Brian/Nick)

• Life with Justin (Justin)

• Kevin and Dustin (Kevin)

• French Kiss Me (Brian)

• Millennium Love (Brian)

• Forever (Kevin)

• JC's Hitchhiker (JC)

• Get Another Boyfriend (Kevin)

• Jimmy Needs Assistance (Lance)

• Lance, JC and an Astral Fan (Lance/JC)

• Lance's Search (Lance/JC)

• Heir to the Darkness (Nick/Brian)

• JC Dreams (JC)

• On the Streets (Kevin)

• Sans Vous, Je Suis Rien (Justin)

• Insecurities (Nick)