This story is pure fiction and involves the members of Westlife. I am in no way implying anything about the sexuality of any of their members. This is purely a fictional story. Enjoy!
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Westlife Romance - Part 21
"Is there anything left to talk about, Kian?" Nicky asked in a weary voice. He was tired. Emotionally and physically. He really didn't want to get into another argument with Kian now. For some reason, Nicky felt it emotionally draining to even be near Kian. Perhaps it was because he had to try so hard to keep in emotions in check.
"Yes, Nicky. There is. Please..." Kian practically begged.
Nicky sighed. He wasn't going to be able to avoid this upcoming chat and so reluctantly, Nicky opened the door for Kian to walk in.
"Nicky...I want you to know...I need you to know how sorry I am for what I have done. It's killing me to know how much I've hurt you," Kian said sincerely.
"I trusted you, Kian," Nicky began. "And I believed you when you said you loved me."
"I did love you. I DO love you, Nicky. I love you more than anyone that I've loved before."
"Then what about Derek?"
There was a pause. "Any feelings that I had for Derek doesn't even come close to how I feel about you."
"Do you love him?"
"I love you, Nicky!!"
"Then why were you in bed with him?"
"I don't know how to explain it," Kian answered with anguish. "Everything just happened!!"
Nicky stood up to face Kian. He was resolved not to back down this time. "Things don't just happen, Kian. They only happen because you want them to happen or because you allow them to happen."
"Nix, you have to believe me!!" Kian pleaded.
"I did believe you," Nicky answered, his voice shaking. "And it was because I believed you that I ended up the one being hurt."
"But Nicky..."
"I might not be as smart as you, Kian," Nicky continued, his voice filled with emotion. "But I'm not the naïve fool that you thought I was. You still have feelings for Derek. You just can't let go. Well you know what? I don't want to have any part in your games."
"Nicky...please!! I'm sorry!!! I love you. I LOVE YOU!!" Kian exclaimed.
"Well, Kian...maybe I don't feel the same way anymore," Nicky answered softly. At those words, he could see Kian's face turn pale.
"No...it can't be," Kian sobbed. "You're lying!! Tell me you're lying!!!"
Nicky turned away from Kian, unable to keep control of his emotions. "I loved you, Kian, but instead I ended up as one of your many sexual conquests. It's over, Kian."
Kian fell on his knees, holding on to Nicky's legs. "Please, Nicky!! Give me one more chance. Please!!! I'm begging you!!"
Seeing Kian so emotional threatened Nicky's resolve. He knelt down by his former lover, brushing the tears from his face. "Kian...we need to move on. Both of us. You'll always have a special place in my heart...and we'll always be friends. But what's past is past."
"Tell me it's not true, Nix...tell me!!"
Nicky pulled Kian into a hug. "I'm sorry, Kian..."
Bryan, Mark, and Shane walked out of the elevator as they returned from their night out. As they walked down the hall, they saw Kian leave Nicky's room.
"Wonder if everything worked out?" Shane asked, his eyes full of worry.
"Well, now that they've had time to cool down, maybe a nice, long talk could mend their relationship," Mark suggested.
Like Shane, Bryan wore a worried look on his face. "I hope so. Nix loves Kian so much. I don't know what would happen if they didn't make up."
As they walked closer to their rooms, they could see Kian struggling with his keys, trying to open his door. Even from far away, the lads could see that Kian was trembling.
"Oh shit, something's wrong," Bryan mumbled. Before they could get to Kian, he had gone into his room. "I'm going to check on Nix. You guys make sure Kian's alright." With that, the three lads moved into damage-control mode.
Bryan walked into the room that he shared with Nicky, unsure of what to expect, but prepared for the worst. The lights were dim, but he could see Nicky sitting on his bed. As he walked closer, Bryan could see a blank look on his band mate's face.
"You alright?" Bryan asked softly as he sat down beside Nicky.
"Bryan...I didn't see you come in..."
"Nix, are you okay??"
"Yeah..."
"What happened?" Bryan asked, careful not to upset Nicky.
"I told him, Bryan."
"Told him what?"
"That it's over..."
Bryan was shocked. This just wasn't possible. Nicky couldn't...he couldn't have broken up with Kian. "But why? Nix, he means the world to you!!"
Nicky sighed at Bryan's comment. "He does mean the world to me...but...it's just that every time I see him, all I can think of is him being in bed with Derek. I've tried so many times...I keep telling myself to forgive him...but I just can't..."
Bryan knew how Nicky was feeling. Even though he wasn't romantically involved with Kian, he could not forget the scene that he saw that fateful night. If he couldn't forget, how could he expect Nicky to forget? There wasn't much that he could say or do, so Bryan just pulled Nicky into a comforting hug.
Nicky began to weep softly as he sank into Bryan's hug. "I wanted to forgive him, Bryan...I did...but I just couldn't...I feel so horrible, Bry...I feel like such a jerk!! I hate myself..."
Nicky's words brought tears to Bryan's eyes. He knew that there was little that he could do to ease his friend's pain. He felt so helpless as he watched Nicky suffer. "It's okay, Nicky. It's okay to feel this way, Nix. You were hurt...and you weren't the one in the wrong. Quit blaming yourself..."
Before long, Nicky had drifted off to sleep. Bryan laid his friend down on the bed, gently brushing the tears away. "God, Nicky looks so angelic when he's sleeping," Bryan thought to himself. Bryan began to caress Nicky's face with his hand and then, he leaned in and brought his lips to meet Nicky's in a kiss. Then, in shock and horror, Bryan pulled away abruptly. "Oh god, what did I just do???" Bryan whispered in a panic. In state of confusion, Bryan rushed into the bathroom. He needed to get away from Nicky, who was still sleeping, oblivious to what has just transpired.
...to be continued....
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