Hi everybody!! A big thanks to all of my fans. Would like to say hi to Tonny, Nate and Andrew. You guys are the greatest!! Well the usual rules apply. This is fiction. It in no way implies that the BSB or Nsync are gay or bi. If you are a minor leave now. If you are a legal enjoy.
As the Last Stone Falls
Chapter 17 And the Truth will set you Free!!
The ringing of the phone peirced through my sleep. I heard Kevin answer the phone and than hang up. It was our wake up call. After hanging up he bent down and kissed my neck. I groaned and turn over the other way. "Come on babe it's time to get up," he gently urged me. I mumbled something and pulled covers over my head. He laughed softly. "Alright sleepy head I'll hit he shower first," he said climbing out of the bed. After about five minutes I decided to climb out of bed. Man was I sore. I shuffled over to the phone and dialed roomservice and ordered breakfast for the guys. I decided to do some stretching excercises to loosen up. I was really into them when Kevin came walking out of the bathroom. My back was facing the bathroom so I didn't know that he was done. He put his hand on my shoulder scaring the crap out of me. He laughed at me and kissed me.
"Man you scared the shit out of me," I laughed at him.
"What were you doing?" he asked.
"I'm soar and I'm doing some stretching excercises to loosen up," I explained. He started massaging my shoulders. I moaned and leaned back against him. I soon found that we were in danger of being really late. I gently pulled away. "We had better stop Kevin," I moaned. He looked disapointed but he let me go. Twenty minutes later the rest of the guys had arrived. I was curled up in Kevin's arms napping. Nick sat down next to me putting his arm around me. Kevin glared at him and he withdrew it quickly.
"Morning Nick," I mumbled. "Sorry about last night."
"That's alright Jason. I'll get you back," he giggled messing up my hair. Kevin started laughing. I looked up at him.
"Man I will never forget the look on your face when he started singing your solo. And you AJ, if looks could've killed Jason would have been dead," Kevin giggled.
"Yea well you should talk Kevin. You couldn't keep your eyes off of his butt all night," laughed Nick. Kevin blushed and looked down. "But all and all you did a good job Jason," Nick said lightly punching me in the shoulder.
"So what is on the agenda for today?" I asked.
"I have three letters for you, B U S," groaned AJ rolling his eyes.
"Bus?" I asked.
"Yea four hours up a concert and four hours back," complained Nick.
"When do we leave?" I asked.
"We leave in about an hour," said Kevin. "Don't bother to pack because we're coming back tonight."
An hour later we stepped onto bus. The thing was huge. It reminded me of a mobile home. A nice mobile home. Kevin grabbed my arm and smiled at me and pulled to the back room of the bus. Once inside I noticed that it had a double bed. He leaned and kissed me on the lips driving his tongue into my mouth. He reached behind me and closed the door. We could hear the guys cheering in the back ground. He slowly began to undress me. I moved to undress him but he stopped me. I looked up at him confused. "Let me take care of you," he mumbled at me as he pulled my shirt off. He bent down and took my nipple into his mouth and played with it. His rough goatee racked across my chest setting my skin on fire. I moaned out his name. His lips caught my lips and we continued our endless battle for control. Soon I was naked and he laid me down on the bed. I looked up at him with lust glazed eyes as he performed a strip show in front of me. He deliberatly teased when it came time for him to remove his boxers. I whimpered and he laughed and slipped them off. His erection smacked his belly. He reached down and started to stroke himself off. I watched in amazement as he worked himself into an orgasm. I thought any moment he would stop to let me help him or something. But to my pleasant surprise he kept going. Finally he bucked his hips forward and let out a grunt and stream after stream of his hot cum came showering down on me. The first one hit me in the face some of it landing in my eye. The rest of it landed on my chest. I looked up at his angelic face as he grinned down at me. "So did you like?" he asked. I took my finger and swiped some of his cum off of my face and licked it clean. He fell on top of me attacking me with his tongue lapping up the remainder of his cum. I was in heaven. He than attacked my cock taking the entire thing into his mouth. He started bobbing like there was no tomorrow. I reached down and grabbed his head and slowly started thrusting in and out. I could feel the orgasm building and I tried to hold it back. But he would have none of that. He reached up and pinched one of my nipples hard. I groaned and shot my wad down his throat. He swallowed most of it and kept the rest in his mouth. After I was done shooting he came up to me and pressed his lips to mine allowing the remainder of my cum to flow into my mouth. I accepted his treat with a smile. After cleaning me up and putting on my boxers and a pair of sweats he kissed me softly and ordered me to sleep. I wanted him to stay but he wouldn't. He did agree to hold me until I fell asleep.
(From Kevin's point of view.)
I walked out of the room wearing a goofy grin on my face. Nick started making gagging noices. I just glared at him. "Where is Jason?" asked AJ grinning.
"He is tired so he is taking a nap," I told him.
"So you wore him out again," laughed Nick.
"Alright guys lay off," I scolded.
"Grumpy aren't we," teased Nick.
"He had a rough performance last night and he is alittle sore so I told him to lay down for a while. Something you should do Howie. God man it looks like you haven't slept in weeks. What's wrong?" I asked concerned for my friend.
"You just concentrate on loverboy back there and I will take care of myself," he gumbled. A warning bell went off in my head to leave well enough alone. But stubborn old me I kept right on pushing.
"Come on Howie tell me what's going on. Are you on something?" I asked going over to him and sitting beside him. He got up and walked to the other side.
"Leave it alone man, you don't want to touch this," he warned me.
"Hey if it is going to affect the group we have a right to know. Now tell me what the fuck is wrong!" I shouted at him.
"I said leave it alone Kevin. Go back to fucking Jason that is what you do best," he shouted back.
"Come on Howie tell me what is going on or I am going to pull you from the band until you do tell us!" I hurled at him. I had never made that threat to anyone before but something told me that this was serious.
"It was me! Alright?" he screamed at me. "I killed him!" He was sobbing now. He fell to his knees burrying his head in his hands. "There are you happy now? I killed Brian."
I stepped away from him like he was poison. Silence reigned in the room. I sat there for a few moments confused as hell. I looked down at him. "Tell me every thing," I demanded hoarsly. He shook his head no. "Tell me!" I screamed. He looked up at me and than back down.
"I cut the break lines," he sobbed out. "It was meant for Jason. I never meant to kill Brian, you've got to believe me," he babbled. I stood up and walked towards him. I was seeing red. All I wanted to do is crush the life out of Howie.
"You were trying to kill Jason?" I asked. "But you missed your target and killed Brian?" I hurled at him. I tackled him grabbing him by the throat and started choking him. All I saw was Brian's face and Jason's face. The two people I loved the most in this world and Howie was responsible for the Death of Brian. I felt Nick and AJ trying to pull me off. I kept holding on. Howie was trying to get free. Finally his eyes rolled to the back of his head.
"Kevin! Stop please stop! You're killing him!" screamed Jason. His scared voice shocked me back into reality. I let loose of Howie and he dropped to the floor. AJ scrambled over me to check on Howie.
"He is still allive," he said breathing a sigh of relief.
"Get him out of my fucking sight!" I hurled at him. Jason grabbed me and pulled me away from the guys.
"What was that all about?" he asked shaking me. I lost it. I fell into his arms sobbing uncontralably. Jason led to a seat and sat me down.
(From Jason's point of View)
I held Kevin in my arms letting him cry on my shoulder. I was shocked awake by shouting. Than I walked into a scene from hell. Kevin was choking the life out of poor Howie. I was at a loss as to what was going on.
"Kevin?" I asked in a small voice. He looked up at me tears still running down his face. I reached up wiped them away. "Do you want to tell me what just happened?"
"Howie did it," he sniffled. I was still confused.
"Howie did what?" I pushed.
"Howie cut the break lines to your car. That is why is the car crashed and that is why Brian is dead!" he sobbed at me.
"Whoa, are you telling me that Howie is responsible for Brian's death?" I asked shocked. He nodded yes. "Why would he want to kill Brian?" I asked still not having a clue.
"He wasn't trying to kill Brian he was trying to kill---," he didn't finish.
"Who was he trying to kill Kevin?" I asked.
"He was trying to Kill you alright?" he shouted at me. I sat back shocked. I knew that Howie was mad at me but mad enough to kill me?
I got up and walked to the back where AJ and Nick were standing guard. "Let me through guys," I demanded. They shook their heads no. "I'm not going to hurt him I just wants some answers is all," I told them.
"I'm going with you. I'm not leaving that monster alone with you!" insisted Nick. He opened the door and we walked in. Howie was curled up in a corner. He looked up at me and jumped up and headed towards me. Nick jumped in front of me and slammed him back. "Don't fucking touch him!" he shouted at him.
"I want to hear it from you Howie," I said. "Did you kill Brian?"
"It wasn't supposed to happen to him," he said.
"I don't give a fuck who was supposed to die, I know you meant it to happen to me. "Did you kill Brian?" I asked again. I was starting to see red.
"Yes it was me!" he hurled at me. "I fucking killed my best friend. It was supposed to be you. You're the one who is supposed to be dead right now not Brian!" he screamed at me. He jumped towards me and that was all Nick needed. He jumped in and started swinging. I tried to pull him free and he pushed me away. I got AJ and together we pulled him out of the room slamming the door in Howies face. "Let me go!" he shouted at me struggling to get free.
"Calm down Nick!" I shouted at him. That seemed to calm him down. "This isn't helping anyone. We all need to calm down and decide what to do. We have a concert to do tonight," I reminded them. The door opened and Howie stuck his head out.
"Yea and I'm performing and don't try to stop me!" he hurled at us. Nick was on him again and AJ and I had to pull him off again. I shoved Howie in the room and slammed the door shut. AJ ushered Nick and I to the front of the bus where we found Kevin sitting by himself.
"Uhh Kevin we need to talk about what is going to happen tonight," I said. He looked at me like I was nuts. "Come on Kevin we have a real problem here. Howie wants to perform tonight!" I insisted.
"Let him!" he shouted. "I don't care any more. Just keep him away from me cause I'll kill him if he gets close," he yelled stomping off.
"Do you guys think you can perform with him tonight?" I asked.
"What about what he did?" He needs to be in jail right now!" yelled Nick.
"The crime happened in the states. I don't know how to handle that. Were going to have to talk to some authorities or something," I said. "In the mean time, there is not enough time to cancel a show. It must go on."
It was decided that we would perform as a group. AJ went back to tell Howie. I walked over to Kevin. He was still a wreck. He had just lost a friend in Howie. I pulled him into a hug and he buried his head in my shoulder. I just held him comforting him as best I could.
Chapter 18
The show must go on!
The lights went on we came running onto the stage. Each of us from different areas of the stage. The concert started. I was careful not to make any mistakes. Kevin kept an eye on me and helped me along to. Nick got to sing his solo this time. and I stayed away from AJ. But I noticed that Howie was trying to dance over to me. I kept dancing away from him making sure that I wasn't obvious about it.
It came time for the last two songs. I was dancing close to the edge of the stage. It was to "I want it That Way." I accidently touched Howie on the shuolder. That was all the excuse he needed.
"Get the fuck away from me faggot!" he screamed at me shoving me away from him. I heard a noise of a mike being ripped away and thrown across the stage. The next thing I knew is that Kevin was flying through the air tackling Howie. Fists were flying. Only this time Howie was fighting back. I jumped in to try and stop them from fighting. Howie slammed his fist in to my face. Kevin saw it and it enraged him further. Some how I was drugged away from the fighting. I looked around and saw that it was security. By this time the crowd was going nuts. Screaming and crying as their favorite boy band had been reduced to fighting on the stage. Nick and AJ were finally successful in separating the dueling singers. Once the stage the clear and the crowd removed from the stadium I went searching for Kevin. I found him in the showers being comforted by AJ. I went to him and knelt down by him.
"Are you alright?" I asked softly. He fell into my arms and I held him. I looked at his face and was shocked. His eye was swollen shut and he had a fat lip. Tears came to my eyes as I saw that he was in pain. "Damm him!" I shouted at the wall. The sound startled Kevin. "What are we going to do now?" I asked. "The press are going to be on this like flies to honey." Kevin just shook his head. "Let's get you cleaned up Babe," I sudgested. I helped him up and help him remove his clothes and turned on the water. I gently washed his face with tears streaming down my cheeks as he moaned in pain when I touched his lip and eye.
"I'm so sorry babe," I sobbed at him.
After cleaning him up I showered too and threw on two robes and headed out to our dressing room. The press had shown up. Camera flashes hit us square in the face. "Who the hell let the press in here?" I demanded.
"I did!" shouted Howie.
"Oh shit, the fun starts now," I grumbled. I led Kevin into the dressing room and slammed the door shut. I ignored questions being shouted at me. After getting dressed I stepped out in the hall.
"I just can't deal with him making passes at me, I mean I'm ok with the fact that he and Kevin are in love but leave me out of this." Howie said charming the press.
"What the fuck are you saying Howie?" I shouted at him instantly getting the press attention. "You guys want the true story or what?" I demanded.
"Don't do it Jason!" shouted Howie.
"Fuck you Howie!" I shouted at him. By this time Kevin was behind me.
"Please Jason don't do this," he begged. I looked at him.
"But they deserve to know the truth," I complained.
"But not now. Don't forget Brian's memory. Don't do this to his memory," he pleaded. I brushed by him and stormed into the dressing room. He followed me in. I looked away from him fumming. "Please look at me?" he pleaded. I glared at him. "Don't be that way Babe," he whimpered touching my face.
"Don't be what way?" I hurled at him. "Don't be angry? Don't hate Howie for what he did? What Kevin? Tell me what to feel and I'll bend over backwards to feel that way for you!" I hurled at him. "I hate him for what he did! And why did he do it? Because of some stupid idea that I was going to hurt you!" I was crying now. The door opened and Nick stuck his head in. Kevin motioned him in.
"The press have been removed," he commented. "How is he?" he asked Kevin motioning to me.
"I'm fine Nick. I'm here you know, you can talk to me," I tried to joke with him.
"Well the bus is waiting for us. We are the last ones to board," he said.
"Where is Howie?" I asked.
"He is on the bus," I looked over at Kevin.
"Do you want to ride the bus back to the hotel with him?" I asked. He shook his head no.
"But we have to go back on the bus. Management says we stay together," Nick reminded us. So we grudgingly headed onto the bus. Howie was sitting right up front. I glared at him and went to hit him but Kevin's strong arm stopped me. Nick stepped in between Howie and us.
"Get to the back of the bus Murderer!" he shouted at him. Howie shoved him and Nick punched him in the jaw. Howie went to hit Nick back and AJ grabbed him and hauled him back to the back room. After Howie was secured in the back we all tried to relax. Kevin curled up in my arms and was napping. I enjoyed the fact that I was holding him for a change. That didn't happen very often. Usually it was he that held me. Nick sat next to us his head resting on my shoulder. It was a long ride back to the hotel. When we got there we were met by huge crowd of fans and press. The bus pulled around to the back of the hotel and we headed inside. I could tell that they were pissed but we didn't care. Once on our floor we broke into two groups. Howie slinked off to his room and the three of us went to our room. Once inside I went straight to the mini bar and poured me a large drink and lit a cigar. Kevin looked at me with scolding eyes but didn't say anything. Nick took a cigar to and lit it too. After about fifteen minutes of silence I decided to break it.
"Ok guys what do we do now?" I asked.
"I don't have the foggiest idea what to do. I'm just going to wait until management calls. They should be calling any moment now," said Kevin taking my drink and taking a swig of it. Sure enough the phone rang and Kevin answered it. It took him two minutes to finish the conversation. He hung and walked over to me and sat down.
"Well babe, what did they say?" I gently prompted him.
"The tour is over," he whispered. "We leave first thing in the morning for the states."
"What does this mean?" I asked. "What happened?"
"Howie resigned five minutes ago. He is turning himself over to the authorities once he reaches state side. And management wants us home for some rest. They say we need it. Plus we might have to find a replacement for Howie."
"Jesus Christ!" shouted AJ. "First Brian is killed now Howie leaves. What is going to happen to us?" He got up and glared at me. "You know something Jason?" he asked me angrily. "Howie is right about something."
"And what the fuck is that AJ?" I asked standing up. Kevin tried to pull me down. I shrugged him off. "No Kevin. AJ has something to say to me and I want to know what that is. But first I am going to guess what it is. Let's see if I have this right. "This whole thing is my fucking fault. If Kevin hadn't bumped into me all those months ago none of this would be happening right now. Brian would be alive, Kevin would still be alone and lonely and the Backstreet Boys would still be touring and together. Did I forget anything AJ because if I did please tell me so I can blame myself some more!" I hurled at him. AJ sat down his head bent in shame. I looked over at Nick and AJ and Kevin. "I will not fucking apologies for falling in love with Kevin. I will not leave the man I love! And if you think I am going to than fuck the whole bunch of you!" I sobbed at them. I turned and headed out the sliding glass doors and onto the balcony. I leaned on the rail and looked out over the city. The door opened and someone stood beside me. "I would like to be alone Kevin," I muttered.
"I would like to apologies," spoke up AJ. I looked over at him.
"You want to know something AJ?" I asked. "There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about that man inside of there. I think about how he has changed my life. Before I knew him I hid my true self from the world. OH I played the normal good little husband and father for the world. Inside of me was a very angry man. When I met Kevin a whole new world opened up for me. I realized that the for the first time in my life that I could be the person I am and the world be damned." I blurted out.
"I shouldn't have blamed you for the things that happened," he said. "Can you forgive a crazy guy for being a complete ass?"
"Only if you let me choose the next color of your hair," I giggled.
"Deal," he said laughing back. "Now come back in and be with the man you love. He needs you right now." He grabbed me the shoulder and guided me back into the room. Nick had left for his room and AJ left too leaving Kevin and I alone. I curled up in his arms and allowed him to play with my hair. It was making me sleepy. I yawned and he kissed the top of my head wincing in pain.
"Do you really feel that way?" he quietly asked me.
"Feel what way Babe?" I asked back sticking my hand under his shirt and playing with his nipple.
"Do you blame yourself for all of this stuff?" He replied sliding his hand into my sweats taking my cock in his hot hand. I moaned softly and lightly pinched his nipple causing him to moan as well. I than slipped my head under his shirt and started to suck his nipple.
"Yea, kinda," I mummered as I lifted up his shirt. I gently pulled it over his head. I straddled him and reached for his waist band on his sweats.
"I don't blame you. I love you," he said huskily as I slid his sweats down. He lifted up so I could remove them completly. "None of this is your fault. Howie did this because he is jealous of our love." I looked down at him and saw the tent in his boxers.
"Well let's ask Kevin Jr. how he feels about this," I purred at him as I slid his boxers off. His cock stood in all of his glory. I slid down so that I was inches away from it. I took it in my hand and held it and looked up at him. His eyes were closed. "So how does Kevin Jr. feel about this?" I asked. He just moaned and looked down at me and grinned. I inspected his cock up close. I paid attention to the mushroom head. Than I traced the veins that surrounded his shaft.
"What are you doing?" he asked.
"I'm getting aquainted with Jr." I giggled at him. I leaned forward and planted a kiss on the tip. He hissed out his breath as my lips graced his head. I than took one of his balls in my mouth. I gently rolled it around in my mouth. Than I traveled to the other one. He was moaning and groaning my name out. I than traveled to his thighs gently tongueing them on the inside. Gently brushing the inside of his thighs with my tongue making him writhe in sexual agony.
"Fuck Jason, don't tease me like that!" he rasped out. So I decided to obey. With one gulp I swallowed his cock all the way to the hilt. He bucked his hips forward from the sudden sensation. I backed off alittle to avoid gagging. I than allowed him to gently fuck my face. I thrilled in the sensation of him using my face to give him pleasure. He held my head in place making sure I stayed there. 'Like I was in a hurry to go somewhere,' I thought to myself. His thrust were becoming more urgent. Precome was flowing out of his cock and it coated the inside of my mouth. My eyes were glazed over with lust as I looked up his sculpted body. His stomach muscles were tensed up as he approached orgasm. I could feel his balls tightening up as if preparing to open the gates that would send the flood. The head of his cock swelled even larger. The shaft began to twitch. My sences were tuned in to the reactions of his cock balls and body. His body was covered in a light sheen of sweat as he exerted himself further. Finally he pulled out all the way so that only the head was resting on my tongue. I opened my mouth so he could see his cock pump his juice into me. The flood gates opened and his cock twitched one final time and his seed came surging into my mouth. He came in thick powerful streams hitting me in the back of the throat. I closed off the back of my throat with the back of my tongue so I could catch as much of it as I could. I started swallowing as fast as I could. He was groaning and growling at the same time. Finally the flood stoped and his spent cock rested on my cum coated tongue. I cleaned him off swallowing the last of his gift to me.
"God Jason!" he breathed out. "That was Incredible. Now let's get back to the conversation," he said seriously. I nodded and snuggled up to him resting my head on his chest. "You know Jason, now that Management is giving us the extra time off maybe we should talk about the wedding."
I perked up right away. I looked up at him. "Really?" I asked excited.
"I knew that would get your attention," he giggled. "No seriously, I want to get married as soon as we can. I don't want to wait any longer." I looked up at him and stroked the side of his face. He leaned into my touch and kissed my hand. 'God that drove me nuts when he did that. He looked so sexy when he did that,' I thought to myself.
"Are you sure that you want to do something like this? I mean there is nothing I want more than to have you marry me. But you just found out that your best friend was responcible for your cousin's death. And your tour just got cancelled." I laid my head on his chest listening to my favorite love song. His heart beat. It picked up just a little and I looked up at his face. I saw that he was troubled.
"You still want to marry me don't you?" he asked looking down at me. I kissed his chest and nodded. "Than let's get married in a month."
"You want to make it a Valentines Wedding?" I asked smiling.
"Sure, but where do we want to have it?" he asked.
"On the lookout on skyline drive. It is fifteen miles up," I sudgested.
"Nope that wont work because Brian is afraid---" he stopped sobbing suddenly. "God that bastard is going to rot in hell for killing Brian." He grew silent and I pulled him in a comforting hug.
"It's ok Kevin," I tried to comfort him. He roughly pushed me away and stood up and walked to the bedroom. "Please Kevin don't push me away!" I begged him. The door slammed leaving me alone. I burried my head in my hands sobbing. He had closed the door to his heart again. He wasn't letting me in again and that hurt more than anything in the world. I crept into the bedroom and climbed into bed with him. I tried to snuggle up to him but he moved away. I got mad and grabbed the pillow and blanket and stormed back to the living room.
Chapter 19
A Heart to Heart
(From Kevin's point of view)
I woke up the next morning to the ringing of the telephone. After hanging up I climbed out of bed. I looked over to where Jason was supposed to be. He wasn't there, infact it didn't look like he had slept in the bed at all last night.
Than it came back to me. "God what a fucking asshole Kevin!" I scolded myself.
"Yea you got that right," Jason hurled at me. I looked up and saw him standing in the door way. He was wearing pair of sweat pants and a white wife beater. He was covered in sweat. He must of just came back from the gym. God did he look sexy. But he also looked mad. He had a right. I bowed my head.
"I'm sorry Babe," I mumbled.
"Apology accepted, but we are talking about last night later!" he said. "Now I'm getting in the shower."
"You want some company?" I asked. He just glared at me and I let the matter drop. I got up and silently got my clothes together and laid some out for Jason. After about fifteen minutes I had both of us packed. I looked at the clock and noticed that Jason had been in the shower for a while. I shrugged my shoulders. "He must have had a rough work out," I commented to myself. I called room serviced and ordered breakfast for us and the rest of the guys. It was going to be rough because Howie was joining us. We had to stay together to make sure the weasel got on the plane. Fifteen minutes later Jason walks out of the bedroom. His eyes were red and swollen. I knew he had been crying. He sat opposite of me and stared at the floor.
"You know what my mom used to say?" he mumbled.
"What?" I asked looking at him. My heart ached for him. But I kept my distance.
"Mom always said to my father, 'never let the sun set on an argument," he said softly. "That is what we did last night." I went up to him and sat down next to him and put my arm around his shoulder. He looked up at me with fresh tears in his eyes. "Why did you push me away?" he asked with tears flowing down his cheeks. I reached up and wiped them away.
"I've never been good at talking about my feelings," I told him. He shook his head no and stood up.
"But it is alright to open up my heart to you and spill out my feelings to you and go to you for comfort. But when it comes to me comforting you, it's go to hell Jason! I can take care of myself Jason! I don't need you Jason!" he hurled harshly at me. I was shocked. I had no idea that Jason felt that way. "Well I need you!" he sobbed at me. I didn't see the door open and Howie walk in. "I've told you a hundred times that I love you and I want to take care of you and most of the time you push me away! Do you have any idea how that hurts me?" Nick and AJ walked in. The rest of the band was listening to us arguing.
"Babe the rest of the guys are here. Let's talk about this later," I gently urged him.
"Why?" he shouted at me. "They all know everything about us. Shit Kevin, your best friend knows us so fucking well that he tried to kill me. And Nick is always riding my ass to be there for you at the same time he is trying to get into my pants. And AJ would rather I leave too so every thing can go back to normal. Hell! I don't even know what normal is anymore!" By this time Jason was just standing there livid. I looked around the room and saw three shamed face band mates. Jason looked around at the rest of the guys and mumbled. "I'm sorry for the outburst guys."
"Hey it's alright Jason," soothed Nick making sure that he didn't come near Jason.
"Yea somtimes we have stuff on our chests that we need to get off. So don't sweat it," spoke up AJ. Howie as usual didn't say anything. Someone knocked on the door and Nick opened it and brought the room service cart in. We ate in silence. Jason didn't touch the food. I got up and picked up a plate and put his favorites on it and walked it to him. He was looking at the floor. He had stopped crying and was just sitting there. I started humming softly to him. He looked up at me and smiled.
"You know that I love you," I told him. He nodded yes and I picked up a fork and stabbed a piece of ham and fed it to him. "And you know that I would move heaven and earth to make you happy?" I asked him feeding him some eggs. He took the plate from me and sat it aside.
"I love you too Kevin. I wanted to hold you last night. I saw that you were hurting and need to be held," he whimpered. "I can't stand the fact that Brian is dead. I know he was your best friend and cousin. You're hurting and I want to be the one who comforts you, I want to be the one who dries your tears. I want to be the one to make you smile. But I can't do that if you keep pushing me away. If this is going to work, it has to work both ways. I help you and you help me. Otherwise we should just stop right now and go our sepperate ways."
"I can't stand the thought of spending any time away from you," I said softly stroking his face. He leanded into my touch and kissed my hand. "I would die if we sepperated even for moment."
"I would die to if we sepperated. I love you beyond reason," Jason said looking into my eyes. He stared into them for about a moment. I felt a little strange. I looked away and his hand gently guided my face back to his gaze.
"What are you doing?" I giggled.
"Do you know that you have beautiful eyes, Kevin Richardson?" he whispered. I blushed. He leaned in for a kiss and than picked up his plate and continued eating.
"Are they still going to let us do the public memorial for the fans?" Jason asked.
"Yep, they've moved it ahead to the end of next week," I told him. I noticed that Howie was extremely uncomfortable. "What's the matter Howie? Talking about Brian upsets you?" I hurled at him.
"Please Kevin don't," Nick pleaded.
"No it's alright Nick, Kevin has a right to be upset," Howie mumbled.
"And don't you fucking forget it FRIEND!" I hurled at him. He cringed at the harsh words. I didn't care, Howie tried to kill Jason and got Brian in the cross fires. The two most important people in my life and he managed to hurt both of them. We ate in silence for the remainder of breakfast. Soon it was time for us to head out to the Airport. We got our stuff together and sent it ahead to the airport. As we stepped off of the elevator and into the lobby we saw the huge crowd. They were carrying signs blasting Jason. I saw red and went to grab one of the signs that read, "WHAT JASON? ONE BACKSTREET BOY ISN'T ENOUGH FOR YOU! PERVERT!!" But Jason grabbed my arm and shook his head no. The rest of the guys including Howie surrounded Jason and I. I put my arms around Jason and held my head high and Opened the door and stepped out into the mass of fans. The responce was instantaneous. Boos and hisses were hurled at us. I heard the sound of a broken bottle smashing against the sidewalk. The police moved and surrounded us and excorted us to the Limo. Word had gotten out that the concert was canceld. It would take along time to get the trust of the fans back. Once inside the limo we headed towards the airport.
"Obviously management hasn't released a statement regarding the true story about the fight last night," Nick commented. I looked at Nick and shook my head no. He nodded and looked at Jason and motioned me to do the same. I looked at my angel. He was staring out the window with tears flowing down his face.
"What's wrong Babe?" I asked pulling him in a hug.
"Well I've really done it this time didn't I?" he sobbed burying his head in my shoulder.
"Your fans hate you all now. And it is all because of me!" he sobbed.
"No it's not your fault," said a small voice. We all looked over at Howie. He was staring at Jason. "This is all of my fault. I am the one that single handedly destroyed the Backstreet Boys. None of this is you fault. You just got caught in the crossfire," he mumbled. He looked at his fellow band mates. "It is time I take responcibilities for my action. Jason is a great guy and you are very lucky to have him in your life Kevin. And I will always regret what I did to him. And I have the rest of my life to regret causing Brian's death. He was my brother and my friend and I killed him," he sobbed into his hands. No one moved to comfort him.
The Limo stopped and we got out at the Airport. We were met by the authorities. They hand cuffed Howie and led him onto the plane. The hundreds of fans who were gathered to see us off witnessed Howie being led off in cuffs. Tears flowed down their faces as they witnessed what they believed to be the end of the Backstreet Boys. The hatch to the plane was closed and we sat down. We were in First class and Howie was taken back to coach with the police. Jason was quiet all the way home. He just sat and stared out the window. I tried to engage him in conversation every now and than. But he remained silent. I was scared, I really thought I was loosing him. Once the plane landed and we headed out of the airport I noticed that there were two limos waiting for us. Jason headed for one and I went to follow. He stopped me.
"Kevin, I have alot of thinking to do. I want--no I need to ride alone," he told me. I sobbed and looked down.
"Are you quitting on me?" I asked. He smiled and wiped my tears away.
"Don't you know that I could never quit on you? Kevin, giving up on you and our love would be like ending my life. I can't do that. All I need is some time to myself. I'll see you later on tonight. I promise," he assured me. I leaned for a kiss and got one. We parted ways. I had the idea that all would be well. Jason still loved me and I loved him. Our love could conquer anything.
(from Jason's Point of View.)
I looked at Kevin as he got into his limo. His limo pulled away from the curb. And headed towards Front Royal.
"Where to Mr. Gibson?" asked the driver.
"To the oak tree," I said. He nodded and pulled away from the curb and towards the one place I knew I could always find comfort. The Oak Tree, my precious Nate.
(Front Royal Jail house)
Howie was drugg into the jail house. Two men stopped the police officers in their tracks. "Hold boys, we'll take it from here," said one of the men. He flashed a badge and the two cops nodded and turned Howie over to them.
"Hey!" Howie exclaimed. "What's going on?" he demanded
"There is more to this accident than you realize Howard. We are putting you in protective custody," said one of the men. They rushed Howie out the back door and into a black car and sped off.
This is it for this install ment. Is Jason going back to his old habits? Any comments or complaints e-mail me at frnceso@yahoo.com