DISCLAIMER: If you are offended by homoerotic themes, or if it's illegal in your location leave now!
Sorry guys that it took awhile for me to write this, i've been goin through some tough times myself, and my muse has finally come back to me. This is a very short chapter but it is to the point. Enjoy!
Feeling Gavin's hot lips pressed against mine was amazing. I've never felt so much love in a kiss, not since Tyler kissed me for the first time. I parted away from Gavin, and he started to sigh, "Im not done yet Bryan." He said with a smirk.
"But I am...Gavin, look that kiss was amazing but my heart is still with Tyler. I know we have some problems but I am willing to work it out with him. I'm sorry."
"Hey, no...It's ok. I know where you are coming from. You are an amazing person inside and out, and Tyler is very lucky to have you. The love you have for him is so strong, I just wish that I had that right now."
"You will Gav, sooner or later you will find the love of your life. You too are an amazing person, you will make someone very happy." I reached over and put my hand over his cheek, and grazed it.
"Um Gav...I have something to tell you." I went up to his ear and told him a dark secret that I have been hiding for a couple of years. He gasped and I looked into his eyes, they were welling up, about to release a torrential downpour of tears.
"Will you be ok Bryan?"
"Of course I am!" Trying to put on a brave face.
"I love you very much as a friend, you know that right? Hey...how 'bout we have lunch tomorrow?"
"Sure! Im glad that I met you Gav, you have become an important person in my life and I can't thank you enough on how you have helped me during this tough time." He walked out of my room and I am alone again.
Being away from Tyler was very hard, seeing him walk out of my room dissapointed turned my stomach into knots. I never knew how much I loved him and how much he meant to me. I couldn't take it any more, I packed my things and left to go back to him. I need to tell him that I love him very much, I need to tell him a secret that I've been holding back for years and I want things to work between us. I got back to the city and it was raining, the sky was grey, the sun was never to be found. I pulled up to Tyler's house, I sat in my car pulling myself together. This is it, my body ached to be near Tyler again, I got out of the car and walked to his doorstep. I'm soaking wet, but I didn't care. I rang the door bell and waited with baited breath for him to open the door.
"What are you doing here?" I grabbed him and gave him a long passionate kiss, right there and then I knew that the sparks were back.
"I just missed you so much Tyler, seeing you walk out of my room dissapointed made me realize that I love you more than everything."
"I love you too Bryan. I was worried that I was going to lose you to Gavin. I see the way you look at him, and I thought at that moment I was defeated. God...you're soaking wet! Come in, my parents won't be home for a couple of hours. I'll go get you a towel."
Tyler ran up to his stairs to get me a towel from the closet. As I was waiting for him I started contemplating about if I should tell him or not. I didn't know how he will take it, I didn't know if he'll ever look at me the same way again. My parents told me to be honest with everyone I love, to be fair with them and not hold back anything. I felt like this was the right thing to do. I see Tyler running down the stairs, telling me that he has a towel for me. This was it...
"Thanks for the towel Tyler."
"Oh! No prob Bryan. Are you hungry? Thursty? You want some coffee?"
"No...I'm fine" I looked down and I was silent.
"What's wrong? Look at me Bry, tell me what's bothering you."
"Ok...promise that you won't get mad?"
"Promise. Scouts honor!" He smiled.
"Well...I haven't been absolutly truthful to you." I said, my body started to tremble. Tyler then wrapt his arms around me giving me warmth.
"Go on..."
"Tyler, Im sick."
"What do you mean you're sick? Do need some tylenol or anything?"
"No..." The room went silent again.
"Do you need me to call a doctor?" Tyler asked in urgency.
Again I replied, "No."
"Then what?"
"Tyler...please listen for a sec. Tyler for the past 3 years I've been sick. I have cancer Tyler."
"WHAT?! NO!!!! Ever since I met you, you've been perfect! You were healthy!! I don't understand!!"
"Tyler let me explain. A few months ago, before I met you I stopped responding to the treatments. The doctor said that the type of cancer I have is rare, and the medicines that I've been given won't help me as much as I wanted it to."
"Why didn't you tell me earlier Bryan?"
"I didn't want to freak you out! I was afraid that I was going to lose you if I told you! You have to understand why I kept it a secret from you all this time! I didn't want to see you walk out of my life!"
"It's a little too late for that Bryan! You know how freaked out I am at this time? I would never had treated you any differently if you told me."
"I didn't know that at the time, but now I do. Im telling you now!"
Tyler's tears started running down his face, it hurts just watching him cry. But it had to be done, I couldn't keep it a secret anymore. My parents told me that if I got into a relationship that I should tell him right away. I didn't with Tyler, I was too caught up in the love that we had then it kept me going all the way.
"How much time do you have left?"
"I don't know, the doctor told me that it depends. Months...years."
"Aren't you scared?"
"To death..."
"Don't say that Bryan! That's not funny! Please...I just found out that the love of my life has cancer. It's not a time to be light hearted."
"I'm sorry, to be honest I'm not scared. I've come to grips with the fact that I will be gone. We all will, it's just my time happens to be sooner. The fact is that I'm not scared of dying, I'm scared of the fact that I'm going to lose you. From the day I first met you in 9th grade, I knew that we were meant to be. Now, all my dreams have come true."
"What am I going to do without you?" Tyler said trying to hold back the tears. "I can't imagine my life with you not being there. I had our whole life planned...get married, get a huge house, have kids, watch our kids grow up. Damn it Bryan!! We were supposed to grow old together!" Now the waterworks began, he couldn't stop. Then it made me breakdown.
"You think that I've never thought of that? Of course I did!! I wanted to grow old with you too, I wanted everything you just said right now. I'm trying to live a normal life, I was hoping that it would all happen. It's not fair to you, I've thought many times that if I didn't bump into you, I didn't have to go through all of this. I have no reason to be angry at God, this is how my path leads and I can't change it. I want you to be here with me till my last dying breath."
We are both still on the couch comforting each other, the truth is finally out. It hurts to see Tyler in pain, but it had to be said. Now we both have to do our best to live out our lives to it's fullest.
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