This is my third submission to Nifty, and about half the length of the previous ones, Chained and The Rescue. This is the complete story in one file.
Thanks to all who enjoyed the other stories and emailed to say so. Like the others, this one's about the corruption of a straight boy at the hands of a dominant man. Brendan, sick of his father and his boring farm life in Kentucky, runs away to California and meets a supposedly kindly, caring middle-aged cop with a different agenda on his mind. It's got lots of S&M, WS, NC, brainwashing, training, bondage, and other pervy touches to arouse the beast.
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TO MY KNEES
I was told to write this document, ordered to I should say, and I have learned now to obey orders. I was not always so obedient. I have learned to be. Learned to speak only when spoken to, and to pick up a pen and write what I am told, when I am told to do it. Normally I do not use a pen, am forbidden to, but I was told I must retain this skill -- even though ordered not to use it -- in case it should be of use to: Him.
This document is intended to relate my brief history. I say brief not because I am that young (I am twenty-one) but because my true history -- as he calls it -- began six months ago when I was picked up, rescued I should say, from the streets by the man at whose whim I seem tolive: Mr. Braxton.
I will use my old name for the first time in these months. I did not seek permission for this but was told to do it as a way of "reaching the reader." He has said I must cultivate a reader whom I will never see or know, to gain favor from an unknown entity, just as I try in every way I can to gain his approval. My purpose now, he says, is and must always be, simply to please him, in whatever way he determines.
My name is -- was -- Brendan and I was born on a farm in Kentucky. My family is -- was -- from Irish and Scotch stock, and there were eight of us kids. Four girls and four boys. We all learned farm work, hard work, at an early age, all of us, for this was one of those (I learned, rare nowadays) family farms. My father was a strict man (the distant neighbors hated him) and my mother suffered somewhat by his hand, although I rarely heard her complain. I realize now it is possible to suffer and accept your lot and even (though maybe not in my mother's case) to eagerly await the punishment you know will be given.
My father, like me, was a big man, over six feet, and like me he has a bull neck and thick sinewy arms from years of working the land. He knew the common name of every tree that grew on our land and taught this information to us kids. I have been ordered to forget this kind of "useless nonsense" and have mostly succeeded in erasing it now from my mind.
Even though my father was mean, I learned early to disobey him and follow my own course. I had no allies in this, because in spite of my brothers being as husky and strong as I was, they were too afraid of my father to buck him. My sisters avoided Dad for the most part and spent their leisure time with my mother. I always felt I could push with Dad -- that there was some special bond, like it or not, that let me fight him without getting strapped the way my brothers would, for the slightest infraction. Not that I was never beat. I was. I remember a big rubber hose he used on me when I got too out of hand, and I still have a small scar on my back from where he knocked me down in the yard and I landed on a piece of sharp metal. Had I been trained then the way I am now, I might have enjoyed his attack, and thanked him for it perhaps by getting down and licking his feet or lapping at his crotch, as I have been trained to do.
My earliest disobedience revolved around school. I disliked the regimen and hated to attend more than three days of the week. I learned to forge my parents' handwriting and even made lists of the excuses I had used so as not to repeat any. In the eighth grade my father discovered this list and grilled me on its purpose till I admitted the truth. He took his shirt off that time and beat the shit out of me. I never understood why he took his shirt off when I was the one getting the beating, but I've learned now not to question what a master does with his slave, for that's what any parent and child relationship is, if you think. At least until the child is old enough (or inclined) to fight back.
Although my situation was not that bad, not as bad as many (including my brothers'), it aggravated me that I had to conform at all to my father's wishes. What did he know? I objected less to the physical pain of his beatings than to the humiliation. I hated it when he would say (as he did often in my teenage years) "Son, I'm going to bring you to your knees." This was the phrase he always used -- I must be brought "to my knees." But it never happened. He couldn't break me; for some reason he seemed to stop short out of I don't know what feeling. I could see the frustration on his face as I grit my teeth and choked on my screams as he whipped my strong back. I vowed when I was eighteen (an age of vast maturity to a fifteen-year-old) to run away from Kentucky for good. I loved my parents, at least my mom, but realized I could -- no, had to -- survive without them.
I did not leave home at eighteen, nineteen, or even twenty; family life and commitments and farm work were taking precedence, I never forgot my vow and kept it resting low in my mind for when the time seemed right -- my wenty-first birthday.
Soon after this birthday, I confided my plan to my brother Lemuel. He agreed to keep my secret, but advised against my going. He said that unless I planned to run away to another farm, I might as well stay there. He reminded me I didn't have any skills outside of farming. I replied that I was strong and healthy and it was true, he agreed, I was "strong as an ox," naturally muscular from years of working the soil right alongside my dad
I had a girlfriend at this time named Molly, a black-haired quiet pretty girl, but she didn't mean so much to me that I couldn't leave her. She was more of a pal than a girlfriend, even though I did fuck her. I remember how she appreciated my big dick. She'd fool around with the foreskin, and run her fingers along the shaft like she wanted to scratch it. Even so, I thought she felt the same about me as I did about her, that I was more her pal, and she wouldn't miss me for too long. I wondered if I had "picked" her because she had that detached kind of quality. I asked Lem to tell her after I was gone.
I sold my baseball card collection cheap to a friend of Molly's father. I told him not to say anything to my father because he was "sensitive" and might kick my ass if he thought I was doing something strictly against his wishes. He laughed and said he'd keep our little secret. I guess he was happy to get a bargain.
I slowly got rid of most of the paraphernalia of my farm life, including some camping gear (but not my sleeping bag) and some expensive tools my father had bought me over the years. All in all, I amassed about two thousand dollars. This was a fortune to me and it made me happy and nervous at the same time. I thought if I hitchhiked across the country -- to California -- I could keep my other expenses minimal until I got a job.
The night before I left I told my other brothers and sisters, swearing them to secrecy. They all seemed to worry how my mother would react, but since they only tolerated my father (as slaves must) without considering his feelings ("if that bastard has any," Lem reminded me), they also agreed to keep silent. Actually, I knew they would tell, probably within a day of my leaving, but I figured if they all knew, Dad couldn't single any of them out for punishment.
The next morning, I assembled my gear -- sleeping bag, toothbrush and toothpaste, some tee-shirts and cutoffs for the warm California days, socks and underwear, my money, and a copy of the Farmer's Almanac. I always liked to read a little of it at night, and I figured the weather predictions were accurate enough to make it valuable in my travels. Funny, though, I must have assumed I was going to Los Angeles, for I never once checked the temperature listings in San Francisco -- which is where I ended up.
At five-thirty a.m., when my father and Gerard took the tractor into the field, I left. I walked the two miles into town, scrambled up the highway ramp and stuck out my thumb. Due West.
I had always heard truckers were friendly and would help a guy in need, and this proved to be true. I was lucky to get picked up by two truckers. Between them they took me from Kentucky to California, over a three-day period. I stayed one night in Colorado. The first trucker who picked me up, a fat older guy with a southern drawl, bought my food and even let me stay in his motel room with him.
The second trucker dropped me right in San Francisco. I spent a day wandering around and marveling at the buildings and the busy pace and all the well-dressed people. I had watched a lot of TV, but it's different when you see it up close. People seemed to move too fast there, and I started to feel like a fool in my cutoffs. Where was the beach? The weather wasn't nearly as warm as I thought, and there was a bone-rattling wind that made me seek the shelter of a subway station bathroom where I put on a new pair of Levis and flannel shirt. At least I'd be warm.
I inquired at several of the nicer looking hotels and was told they were either full up or really expensive. I couldn't pay a hundred dollars a night. I'd be broke too fast. I finally found a room for $40 a night in a broken-down hotel in the Tenderloin. I half-slept, because I was sure the guy at the front desk, who looked like a real creep, was going to steal my money. So I was pretty tired during the day.
I noticed as I walked around how much people stared at me. I thought they must realize where I was from, that I was a hayseed and didn't have as much sophistication as they did, and I thought it was strange that the men looked at you just as much as the women -- maybe more. I had never had an experience with a man.
I found the local Manpower agency and put in for some work. The guy who took my application seemed to take an instant dislike to me, for some reason, and told me I should come back next week when they had some jobs opening up. I tried to argue with him, but he just told me in a low voice to "get the fuck out." I still don't know what I did but walk in there. Nowadays if a guy talked to me that way, I guess I would get down on all fours and ask him if I could please lick his ass.
I was trying to eat just a moderate amount each day, but food here was expensive and my money was dwindling. I cringed each time the amount dipped below the next hundred. I had talked to some of the skinny kids who were prostitutes on Polk Street. They acted tough but their lives were a mess, I could tell, just the merry-go-round of drugs and booze and whoredom. Not a happy life, but one I began to fear was waiting for me unless I formed a plan, and soon. I could call home, I was sure Lem would send me some money, but that would be defeat -- it would bring me to my knees, a thing that must not happen.
I couldn't shake in particular the image of a bum I kept seeing at the plaza downtown, a young guy with blackened face and feet, his legs stiff like they were turning to wood or stone, walking around cursing under his breath and staring at people. I had seen him up close and his face looked kind of handsome under the layer of dirt and matted hair, and I wondered what on earth had brought him to that low state. Every time I counted my money now I saw his face in my mind.
I was sitting on a bench at the bus stop, waiting to go down to the ocean to think, maybe to plot a way out of my situation. I kept thinking how young a bum can be out here. Back home the few bums were pretty old and there was usually somebody to take care of them, they weren't on their own. While I was thinking about this, a car, a new blue Cadillac, one of those smaller ones, cruised by. The guy inside seemed to be staring at me and I didn't do anything but just waited for my bus. The Cadillac circled a couple of times, then pulled right up to me.
The guy inside was dark-haired, middle-aged, but strong and relaxed, maybe out on his lunch hour, and he rolled down his window and asked if I needed a ride. I said sure and got in. I was happy somebody wanted to rescue me, even though I didn't know what to expect.
He introduced himself as Mr. Braxton and he reminded me of a high-school football coach, or a police sergeant. (He was a policeman, I learned later.) He was big like me, with bristly black hair and a thick moustache, and strong and friendly acting, but kind of authoritative, commanding, as if he knew what he wanted and would go after it. I was nervous but I felt lucky to be in his great car.
I told him my whole story, just as I've told it here, and he listened and nodded a lot and laughed when something I said struck him as funny, even if I didn't think it was funny. He was on his own wavelength, I thought, but I liked being paid attention to by somebody who looked important or at this point maybe by anybody at all.
It was Friday afternoon. "I'm off for the day," he said. "You want to come by my place and crash? You look pretty ragged out."
"I don't want to impose," I told him but I was hoping some opportunity like this would arise -- any kind of change! Maybe he would take me under his wing, I thought, and help me get a job.
"No imposition," he said, "you strike me as a boy who'll do what's best for himself. Am I wrong?"
"No sir," I said, reverting to the formal addressing of my elders that my father had taught me.
"Good boy," he said, putting his hand on my head and rubbing it, kind of like you would a dog. But I didn't mind. I let him rub my head and I didn't care, it felt good to have a human being even touch me after so many days alone -- even another guy.
"You're a good boy," he repeated, making a fist and rubbing it along my cheek. I thought this was going kind of far for a stranger, but he did it in a friendly way and I didn't want to spoil maybe my best (or only) chance.
"Thank you, sir," I said, and felt funny now, as if I wanted to keep calling him sir. I thought he was demanding it, in some subtle way, without really saying it, like it was a secret condition of my being helped. It still struck me as strange how willing I was to go along, because even though I did it growing up, I hated it. I never believed I should respect every single older person, just because they were older, like my father told me.
Mr. Braxton put his hand on my leg (I was wearing my cutoffs, which badly needed washing) and kept it there as we drove through the city to his house in the Richmond district. When we did arrive, I was surprised at how nice it was. I don't know why. Since his clothes were really clean and he had an expensive car, it stood to reason he would have a fancy house too.
"You like this place, Brendan?"
"Yes sir," I said, again surprised at myself for calling him "sir."
"You like to call me sir. Good. I like to hear it. Good boy. Say it again."
"Yes, sir," I said, still jittery about this trend.
"Make yourself comfortable," he said, "I like to be comfortable, you should too." He took off his suit and walked buck-naked into the next room, where he put on a jock strap. I looked quickly at his crotch and saw he was pretty well-endowed. I thought I had a pretty big dick -- I had the reputation in school, and Molly always said so -- but Mr. Braxton's looked bigger through his shorts. His balls were big and fat and wrinkly and were partly visible through the jock. This must be a California thing, I thought.
"You want a drink?" he said.
"Sure, yes sir," I said, anxious above all to please my new friend. Anything to avoid going back to the street!
He left the room and returned with a tall glass of some sweet drink and another jock strap like the one he wore. He told me to get out of my dirty pants and put it on.
"Shouldn't I take a shower first, sir?" I said. I was ashamed of having to add, "I'm dirty."
"Don't bother. I'll scrub you down later," he said.
I shrugged and disrobed in front of him. I didn't want to be indiscreet but I could see him looking at me as I stripped down. He watched me, I thought, the way a farmer might appraise a prize hog. Not that I was fat -- just stocky. But I felt self-conscious about baring my ass in this strange house in front of a strange man.
We sat down together on his couch and I thought we must look like father and son, both big guys, both wearing nothing but jock straps and drinking these tall cool sweet drinks.
"Brendan, you've come a long way," he said, and I could feel the drink going to my head, and it was making me want to call him "sir, sir," over and over again, beyond my will. He put his hand on my naked belly and was rubbing it and I didn't say anything because the drink was making me too high to think clearly.
"You've had some rough times and I can tell you most kids like you don't make it in this city. Too much competition. Unless you want to peddle your ass on Polk Street. You're even a little old for that -- twenty-one, you said? You could pass for younger. I'm a cop. I see all this stuff all the time. There's not much alternative for a farm boy in a big city. Either make it on the city's terms, or back you go to the farm."
"Yes sir," I said, trying to grasp what he was really saying, nervous at what I felt was a veiled threat.
"I could take care of you, if you'd let me. But there'd have to be certain conditions."
"Conditions?" I said, and he left the room to get me another drink, even though I protested.
When he returned he was wearing only a pair of heavy black boots. Now I could see his dick plain and it somehow bothered me, the size.
"Well, Brendan," he said, scratching his balls, then making a fist and mock-punching my stomach, "what are you looking for in life? New experiences? Excitement? Or just a wife and some kids and a tract house?"
"Mr. Braxton, I want to be ... open-minded," I said, wondering how slurred my speech was becoming. I saw in my bleary-eyed way that he was eyeing me hard and had started rolling his foreskin back and forth over the head of his dick.
He took the drink out of my hand and put his hand under my chin and told me forcefully to "drink it all, straight down, now."
"Yes sir," I said and opened my mouth (I recall) like a fish in a tank, waiting (begging) for food. After I had drunk the rest of my drink, he stood up and put his dick into my mouth.
"I have to piss," he said, and even though I felt drunk and overly relaxed, I was alarmed as he let loose a stream of piss down my throat.
"A chaser, Brendan," he said, laughing as I sputtered and spit out the piss. I suddenly felt naked and alone and afraid in this expensive room with a middle-aged cop pissing in my mouth.
"Don't!" I managed to say, in a low wet pleading voice.
"Don't what?" he said. "Say sir and I'll consider your plea."
"Don't ... piss in my mouth, please sir?"
"Why? I like to piss in your mouth. It feels good. Look at my dick. It's hard now. Pissing in your pretty mouth gives me a hard-on. You don't want to deny me that, do you? Don't you want to please me? Or do you prefer the streets? There's plenty of room there."
"I do want to ... please you ... sir," I said, wondering how on earth I had got myself into this predicament and how I could get out. I was upset and felt like I was losing control, but Mr. Braxton seemed to sense this and he put his arms around me and said, "I'll try to take it slow. You're a beautiful boy -- my boy. You're what I want. And I'm what you need. You should relax. Anything I do will be for your own good, I promise. Even my piss -- it's good for you. Part of your education."
This made me feel better and I thought maybe I had best play along. Besides, as Mr. Braxton said, the taste of piss is not really all that bad, once you get used to it.
"I have some more piss," he said, "but I'll let you drink it from the glass, later." He pissed into his glass and set it aside. "Next, get down on all fours. I'm going to fuck your ass."
"I don't want it!" I remember saying.
I tried to stand up, but he grabbed me and pulled me down. I was afraid of him ramming that thing up my ass. He was stronger than me, though, and held me on all fours till I quieted down. I guess I had become too drunk on alcohol and piss to keep objecting -- he held me still till I relaxed -- because for some reason I did as I was told, and even though I felt like a dog (a female dog, at that), I obeyed him and lay my head on his thick carpet while he mounted me from behind.
I had never had anything like this happen before, but Mr. Braxton must have known what he was doing because even though my asshole drew up tight he kept at it and soon had the head of his big dick stuck in there. Once he got it in, he methodically fucked my ass until it was raw. And when he pumped his come in me and withdrew with a slow groan, I felt like somebody had doused my asshole with gasoline and struck a match to it.
"Go to the bathroom, there to the left, and clean yourself up," he said, rubbing my head in his friendly way.
I stumbled through the room and sat down on the toilet. My head hurt and my ass ached and I was crying low, but for some reason I didn't feel as bad as I knew I should have. I had come while he was fucking me.
That night I slept in the same bed as Mr. Braxton, but he positioned me between his legs, so I slept with my mouth on his dick. During the night he got a hard on and lazily jacked off in my mouth. I woke up when his sticky sperm hit the back of my throat. In the morning he had to piss and he grabbed my head and let it go into my mouth. I was surprised at how insatiable he seemed. I thought sex impulses declined in middle-age.
Shortly after he fed me his piss, he laid me out on the bed and put his big hairy ass on my face and ordered me to clean it with my tongue. What could I say? He seemed to be willing to put me up until I got on my feet financially, and even though what we were doing was weird, weirder than I ever dreamed, I was sure stranger things must have happened in this life, and anyway, what options did I have? I was in no position to object, and Mr. Braxton knew it
After that night Mr. Braxton taught me a lot. He lectured me continuously on the "eradication of my ego," which he said was very important. I was to stop thinking so much of myself and my needs, it could only lead to trouble (I had to agree with him there). I must view him as the provider of everything I needed, and think of myself as a "strong animal" that existed to please him (and his friends). The most important things about me, he said, were my mouth and my ass which, I have to say, he complimented me on and enjoyed using often. I had never thought of my ass or mouth as "commodities," but Mr. Braxton made me realize they were just that. They were important because he liked to use them. My dick and balls were of use to him occasionally, but most of the time he would tie them down with leather straps, so if I was standing up straight (which wasn't very often) my dick would be hidden and only my thick pubic hair would show, like I was a girl. Sometimes he liked to show me off to his friends this way, something I grew to look forward to in spite of myself.
He trained me to spend most of my time on all fours. He developed a series of hand signals and facial expressions that indicated what he wished me to do, so that if he came in from work he had only to lift his hand for me to begin lapping eagerly at his crotch. If a friend of his came by, whom I was to "service," as he put it, he had only to nod a certain way and I would crawl over to the guy with my tongue hanging out like a dog and my ass wagging like I was begging for a fist or a fuck.
I learned to accept and eagerly await his use of me. At first I was allowed to thank him for this but eventually he trained me not to speak. He said it was better that way, better if I just served and said nothing. I would be happier that way he said, and you know, he was right -- as usual. He would reward me by dry-fucking my ass, or locking me naked face down onto a table in the basement and inviting several of his friends over to pull a train on what I heard him call his "prime slab of meat."
I learned to accept beatings with a variety of implements, including a bullwhip. He said my body could take it and he was right. Those years of strained effort on the farm had given me a firm foundation for accepting any brutality that might come my way. I sometimes wonder if that wasn't the purpose of all my farm training. My Braxton says it was. I used to ask myself why I was willing to obey him, when I fought so much against my father's discipline, and I couldn't give an answer, then or now, except to say that he got me when I was desperate and vulnerable. Later I started realizing that it might really be because Mr. Braxton was stronger than my father and I respect him because he doesn't make idle threats.
After I am finished writing this document, Mr. Braxton is going to give it to some of his friends to read. As a reward for my writing in as articulate a manner as possible, as he says, he is going to let me spend a whole night servicing five men. I will be the "evening's entertainment," as he says, and he will not direct the action. He will only watch. What happens after the scene concludes depends on how successfully I serve, how energetically I degrade myself for his friends. I believe there is a veiled threat there, so I will double my efforts to please.
I will be encased in a hood and rubber body suit. He had to have one specially made, he said, because I'm so big and stocky. There will be openings only for my nose (breathing), crotch, mouth and ass (for servicing). For once, my dick and balls will be untied and exposed. Mr. Braxton says it is a good fat dick and somebody might want to sit on it, or whip it, or beat my big balls.
I am to respond in any way I am told. I must read their signals, he says, though how I can do this with my eyes covered is not quite clear to me. I will do my best though. If a man's hand starts feeling around my ass and pushing hard against it, I'll know to quickly get on all fours and spread my legs to accept what he wants to put in it, boot or dick or fist. If I feel a hard dick being slapped against my mouth, I'll open wide and greedily suck and gulp the piss or come he wants to deposit there.
I must at all cost reflect well on my Master. I'll show him I can obey his every wish and even anticipate how he would like me to react. I'm so grateful now that he found me and wanted to spend time training me, when I might have just wandered around the city and become a bum, like that black-footed man and so many others Mr. Braxton has told me about. He's made it pretty clear what my fate would be if I didn't go along. There isn't that much a farm boy can do in a big city like this after all. And I couldn't go back to Kentucky, not now. This is my real life forever.
I don't know if I should thank my father for paving the way for this, but I feel somehow he would approve Mr. Braxton's punishments and pleasure-giving. Sometimes when my master is "milking" my dick (as he does once a week, like he would a cow, in a clinical way, to wean me from the idea of my own pleasure), I think about my father and imagine the two of them taking turns milking me, laughing together and slapping my ass and congratulating themselves on having finally brought me to my knees.
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