Author's Note: Hello again. This is Wes. This story was inspired by some one I used to hold dear to my heart but... Oh well. Any way, there are some great stories out there. Some are When You Say Nothing At All, Just Beginning, Brian's Seven Sea's of Loneliness, and others. If I was to mention all of them then I wouldn't have time to write. I'm not quite sure how to title this so if someone can think of a better title let me know by sending it to wesleym2@yahoo.com. Who ever sends the best title will get an early edition to every installment of this story.
Legal Stuff: If you are underage in your state or country to read sexually explicit material then you should not be here or if you have a problem with homosexuality then leaves as well. Also this is a pure fiction story, it is not to imply that any of the guys from NSYNC are bi or gay. (But we all can dream can't we). Also give NSYNC your support through their tough time. They are a good bunch of guys and they need the support of their fans. Well I'll shut up now so you can read the story.
To Love NSYNC
I awoke the next morning in familiar surroundings. I was in my own apt. I remember that it was quite late when me Justin and Lance left the beach. I had offered to let them stay with me the night. Lance had the hid a bed couch and Justin had the bed in my guest bed room. I looked at the clock and it had 10:3am. I never slept in like that. But I did. I sat up on the edge of the bed and looked at a picture sitting behind the clock next to my lamp. It was of me and Scott on my birthday. `Why didn't I see this coming.' That was the question that invaded my mind WHY?. I guess I knew the answer but refused to realize it. The feelings I had for Scott are not the same as I do for Justin. With Justin they are stronger and more...loving. But I'm afraid to love again, I am afraid of being hurt. I want so badly to love Justin but...I'm scared. I softly cried. I guess Lance heard me because he came to my room to check on me.
"Hey man, what's wrong?" He was very concerned, I could tell by his voice.
"I want to love him but I'm afraid to."
"Why are you afraid to?"
"Because I..." I was cut off by Justin.
"Babe, don't worry, I won't hurt you I promise."
"That is exactly what he told me but he lied." I just cried. Justin got up on the bed next to me and pulled me into his arms and held me. "It is okay Wes, Yes he hurt you but I'm different, I wont." How could some one so young be so wise? "Wes there is a saying that it is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all. I know you love me you said so your self, but you are afraid to. Well I'm scared to because this is my first relationship let alone with a guy. But it feels right. Last night was beautiful, and when looked into your eyes I knew then that I was in love." I let my head rest on his chest. I could feel his heart beat. I could hear his breathing. Yes he could have just let me be but he didn't he really cares. When I first met him I didn't know who they were. I knew Justin before I knew Justin of NSYNC. Granted I didn't know too much but I did see him first as a normal human being. At some point Lance had left me and Justin. My mind played back the events that happened last night on the beach. As we walked we held hands. When we looked at each other we saw love. In his eyes I could see the stars and moon. When I let a tear fall his touch was as soft as a feather and his voice was that of an angel. I quit crying and looked up at him.
"Justin, I'm sorry about how I have acted, I do love you and would very much like it if you became my boyfriend?" I looked in his eyes and saw the answer. I tilted my head and he leaned down and we had the most wonderful kiss that I imagine. But that was broken by an unexpected shouting from some one at the door.
"WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE!!!!" I looked and saw J.C., and Lynn. I was very surprised and hurt by the event. Again Lynn yelled out her question.
"Mom. Quit yelling and you might get an answer." Justin spit at her.
"Don't you back talk me boy."
"Mrs. Harlis please this is not how we planned on letting you know." With her anger at me and at Justin she slapped me across the face and then kicked me in the nuts. I immediately went down but first I hit the corner of the night stand and knocked the lamp off which fell on me. And it being glass it broke.
"NOOO!!!!!!!!" Justin yelled as I hit the floor. Lynn lost all anger and began to cry as she knelt down beside me and Justin. J.C. had called the ambulance. Justin was crying because I wouldn't wake up and he saw that I was bleeding. Lance had gotten a dry towel from my bathroom and had Lynn put on my head where I was bleeding.
I could see both Lynn and Justin crying over me but I couldn't speak to let them know I was okay. Slowly I drifted of to sleep and into a dream.
Dream
It was a bright shinny day and I was the pa for NSYNC. And I was in love with Justin, who also was in love with me. It has been 1 ½ years since we met. I had decided to stay on as the boy's pa. They didn't mind and Justin didn't mind. In fact he was very happy. Ever since I met the guys their shows have just gotten better and better. Jive has raised my pay and wanted me to stay with the guys for good. They of course knew about me and Justin and didn't care. All they asked was that we keep it quiet. It was the day I was going to pop the question. I had gone to a jewelry store and got two rings. I was walking to the elevator when J.C. stopped me.
"Hey Wes, you got a minute?"
"Sure what's up?"
"I don't how to tell you this but you and Justin..." He didn't finish because I heard the elevator ding and open. I looked and saw Justin hugging and kissing some man I had never met. My heart was broken. I let the object I was holding fall out of my hand. Tears were running down my face. I started to slowly go down to my knees. Justin just happen to see me and had a look of horror and happiness. I never made a sound. My head was pounding very badly and even though my eyes were wide open it was getting dark. The light was fading. Then I realized that Justin was my heart and he is gone and with out a heart a person can't go on. Slowly darkness came on me. The cold darkness of death. The emptiness in my soul, the sound of silence cut through me like a hot knife through butter. And finally nothing.
End of Dream
"Hurry we are losing him. The swelling in his brain is causing him to shut down!!!" The doctors were trying to hurry and relieve the pressure on my brain. Out side Justin was crying heavily on J.C.'s shoulder. Lynn was crying on Paul's. She didn't mean for this to happen. After a few more minutes the doctor came out with a smile. "Mr. Timberlake, Mr. Cook is still alive, Some how his vitals returned to normal. But he is in a comma type state. This young man has an angel watching over him because it was a miracle that the pressure went down like it did. Right now we are having him put in ICU for the night and if everything stays like it is now we will put him in a regular room. I think it is best for one of you to stay with him tonight." With that the guys felt a large burden be lifted off of their shoulders. Justin was the first to speak up.
"I will stay with him till he is able to leave." Lynn wanted to object but the look on Justin's face made her stay quiet. She knew she was very close to losing her son. The doctor took Justin to the ICU area and then pointed to where I was at. Justin walked over to me and I felt his hand touch mine. He was crying softly. "Please Wes don't leave me, I need you. You are my heart, if you go I do to." Those words meant words to me. I wanted to show him I was still there but I couldn't make anything work. `God please give me the strength to show Justin I'm still here. You are love and I do love him, please help me I can't do this alone.' I prayed. After that I got this feeling of peace and knew that God was there. Then suddenly a bright light appeared in the darkness that surrounded my vision.
"Wes, do not be afraid, I am here to tell you that God is here and He is going to give you the strength you need just trust in him." The light said. I looked in to the light and I saw a being that could only be an angel. "Wes I'm your guardian angel and Justin's too. It is God's plan for you and Justin be one. This is just a setback but it will be fixed. Now rest and you soon see the light of day again." Slowly the light faded and I fell into a peaceful sleep. I awoke to a steady beeping that seemed to come from my left side. I opened my eyes and saw a heart monitor. That was the source of the beeping. I turned my head over to the right and saw my angel sleeping in a chair. He had a hold of my right hand.
"My Angel... My beautiful angel." I said softly but Justin heard it and jolted awake. Normally he is really hard to get awake.
"Wes, your awake!!!" I saw the smile and the tears on his face. I heard some more gasps and soon all the guys from NSYNC was there and so was Lynn and Paul. I looked at Lynn with fear and she saw it.
"Wes I'm sooo sorry please forgive me?" I could see she was sincere and I nodded my head yes. I looked back at Justin and he leaned down and gave me a kiss on my lips.
"How...how long have you all been here?"
"Justin has been here with you for about a week."
"Yeah he never left your side, except for when he had to go to the bathroom." I heard Lance say. I smiled. I looked over at Justin and started to speak.
"Just, I do Love you and I don't care who knows about us or if we have to hide for the rest of our lives I just wanna be with you." Justin had tears coming down his face, they were tears of happiness. It is strange how tragedy brings people together. This was a small tragedy but it was a tragedy non the less. All who were involved learned something, the main thing is that love will conquer all. After three days more I was allowed to leave the hospital. I was restricted on my activities and all but that was expected. Lynn had accepted mine and Justin's relationship. We still didn't sleep in the same bed, that was at her request and it was very good one I guess since it was her house her rules. Yes I had primarily moved in with Justin but that was so he and Lynn could watch me and make sure I didn't do my self any harm.
It has been about three weeks since the accident and I had to go for a check up. This time if everything looked ok I would be set free. So we waited in the waiting room of the clinic.
"Wes, the Doctor will see you now." The nurse said. Both me and Justin went in to see the doctor. We were shown to an examination room and was told that the doctor will be in, in just a moment. So I sat on the exam table and Justin sat in the extra chair. We waited for about 15 minutes when the doctor came in.
"Hello Wes, how are you today?"
"Just fine doc, just hoping that you will let me go to work today."
"Well from the progress you have made I think you can but still do not get too stressed out or you may have a repeat. And we don't want that." I agreed and he smiled. He signed a paper and handed it to me and then left. I got up and walked over to Justin.
"Well now we can be together on tour babe." I said then kissed him. We were happy since the new tour would start in a week. What I forgot was that the week before the tour both NSYNC and me had a full schedule. They had rehearsals I had meetings with Jive and phone meetings with the hotels and what not. We hardly got to see each other during the day for the first part of the week. I walked in to the Jive office on Thursday to see what meetings I had today but got a rather good surprise.
"Hey Sara, who do I have meetings with today?"
"Well no one at all. In fact you are free for the rest of the week or until the tour starts." She smiled at me. She knew about me and Justin and was cool about it. "But you have something in your office that came in for you this morning."
"Thanks Sara you have made my day brighter." I smiled at her. Then I went to my office, yes I had my own office really I shared a couple of other people but anyway. When I walked in I saw a dozen or so red roses sitting on my desk. I went and read the card on it and saw it was from Justin. It read: To my Darlin' I love 12 * 12 * 12 * 12. Justin. I had a few tears running down my face from happiness. I grabbed the vase they were in and behind it was a small box. I put the vase down and picked up the box. I was about to open the box when I heard footsteps and someone clear their throat. I turned around and saw Justin standing in the door way with his trademark smile. He came on in the office and shut the door. Then he walked to me and wiped the tears away from my eyes. He took the small box from me and opened it up and there in the box was a diamond studded medallion that had heart on it with J and W inside the heart. It was small but it meant so much to me that I started to cry from happiness. Once he had the chain clasped on my neck I pulled him into a huge hug.
"Shhh, Babe it's okay." He said to me.
"Thank you, but I don't have anything for you."
"Yes you do you, as long as I have you I don't need anything in the world. You complete me and you are all I need." I looked into his eyes and then gave him a kiss on the lips that he happily returned. We broke when his cell started to ring. "Hello, oh I'm on my way back...okay and yes he is here with me ...no you idiot we aren't. Bye..." He said then hung up. "sorry about that babe, would like to join me at the studio and watch me work?"
"Sure Babe, I would love to, but lets get these roses to my apt. first."
"Okay that would be a good idea." He was happy. We walked out of the office and headed out to the limo he had and told the driver the directions to my house/ apt. And we were on our way. About 20 min. later we were at the warehouse/ studio were the guys were rehearsing for the up coming tour. They didn't fuss too much about Justin being a little late to rehearsal.
On Fri. I went to the guys rehearsal and watched them do some dancing. When lunch came around they were ready to start singing some more. I really wasn't hungry and I had already eaten so I went over to the grand piano at the side and started to play a little. There was also a mic. in front of me I thought it was off but it wasn't. I had heard the new song by Celine Dion I think it is called That's the way it is. But I could play it on the piano. I played the intro and then began the song. I sang it the way she had but the difference was that I was a guy. Anyway Justin heard me and got the guys to come over and they joined in where they were supposed to. By the end I had tears of joy. I looked over at Justin and he had this big grin on his face.
"That was great, How did you learn that?" Lance asked.
"Well I heard it once or twice on the radio and I just picked it up. If it has a piano part in it then I probably could play it."
"Okay let's try this song Music Of My Heart," J.C. said. I hadn't heard that one until a few days ago but I knew how it went. So I gently played the intro and then Justin began singing it.
You'll never know what you've done for me What your faith in me has done for my soul You'll never know the gift you've given me I'll carry it with me yeah, yeah
Through the days ahead I think of days before You made me hope for something better (yes you did) You made me reach for something more
You taught me to run You taught me fly Helped me to free the me inside Help me hear the music of my heart Help me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes You opened the door To something I've never known before And your love is the music of my heart Music of my heart (music of my heart)
I took Gloria's part. I took this song and the meaning to a new level. To a level that would last forever in my heart. As I sang, I sang to Justin I began to cry but my voice never wavered.
You were the one always on my side (always on my side) Always standing by seeing me through (always standing by) You were the song that always made me sing (made me sing made me sing) I'm singing this for you (sing this for you baby) Every where I go I think of where I've been (think of where I've been) And are the one who knew me better than anyone ever will again
You taught me to run you taught me fly (you taught me fly ) Helped me to free the me inside Help me hear the music of my heart Help me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes You opened the door To something I've never felt before (before) And your love is the music of my heart
What you taught me only your love could ever teach me And you got through when no one could ever reach me before Cause you always saw in me all the best that I could be It was you who set me free
You taught me to run you taught me fly Helped me to free the me inside (me inside) Help me hear the music of my heart Help me hear the music of my heart
You taught me to run you taught me fly Helped me to free the me inside Help me hear the music of my heart Help me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes You opened the door To something I've never felt before (never, never felt before) And your love is the music of my heart
The music of my heart The music of my heart Is the music of my heart
With the end of the song I got up and looked at Justin. We just stood there looking, but our thoughts were the same, that song made us realize that our love was something unmatched by anything before.
"Justin I meant every word of the song, I don't do songs just for the hell of it. You see I have problems with expressing things with regular words and sentences so I look for the things to say in a song. This song shows us how it was when we first met and into the future. You are the music of my heart, you are my heart." I had tears running down my face now. Justin couldn't say anything but he did pull me into a tight embrace and then gave me a very loving kiss. The kiss lasted for what seemed like forever. We blocked everyone else out. We were in our own world. But we were brought back to reality when we felt a bunch of water hit us. We broke the kiss and saw that we were soaking wet. The other guys were laughing.
"We had to do something you guys were kissing for 30 min." I looked at Justin in shock and then we both smiled. We had finally realized then that it the two of us to survive. We would be each other's cure when we were ill or hurt. A separation would mean the down fall of both lives. We (me and Justin) went to his dressing room to change into some dry clothes. He dressed in the bathroom I changed in the room. 15 min. later we were back out there with the guys and they started to warm up for more singing. They sang several songs and then decided the last song would be God Must Have Spent. As the intro was played Justin came over to me and then began singing his part.
Yeah Can this be true? Tell me, can this be real? How can I put into words what I feel? My life was complete I thought I was whole Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
Never knew that love could feel like this And you changed with just one kiss. How can it be that right here with me There's an angel? It's a miracle
It was a miracle that me and Justin fell so quickly in love. But that is how love is. It is unpredictable.
Your Love is like a river Peaceful and deep Your soul is like a secret That I could never keep When I look into your eyes I know it's true God must of spent a little more time on you
(a little more time yes he did babe)
While saying the last line Justin looked straight into my eyes, as saying that he knew I was God sent. I felt the same way about him. I was now shedding tears because the song touched me so deeply.
In all of creation All things great and small You are the one that surpasses them all More precious than Any diamond or pearl They broke the mold When you came into this world
And I'm tryin' hard to figure out Just how I ever did without The warmth of your smile The heart of a child That's deep inside It leaves me purified.
Your Love is like a river Peaceful and deep Your soul is like a secret That I could never keep When I look into your eyes I know it's true God must of spent a little more time on you
Never knew that love could feel like this And you changed with just one kiss. How can it be that right here with me There's an angel? It's a miracle
Your Love is like a river Peaceful and deep Your soul is like a secret That I could never keep When I look into your eyes I know it's true God must of spent a little more time on you
A little more time on you
When they finished the song Justin still standing in front of me pulled me into another embrace.
"I love you Wes." He whispered in my ear.
"I love you too, Just."
The guys gathered their stuff and was heading out when my new cell phone began to ring.
"Hello, yes this is he... Ok I will tell them ... Okay thank you and goodbye." I hit the end button. And then stopped the guys before they left the building. "Hey guys I got some good news, Today was your last day of rehearsal, you are totally off for three days before we leave to start the tour." That met with some shouts and hugs to me. I grabbed Justin's hand and I smiled at him. At that moment I decided to give him a special night tonight. But to pull it off I would need some help. I decided to get the guys to help me in this. As luck would have it Justin had to take a piss before we left so that gave me some time. "Guys I was wandering if you could help me out for something special for Justin tonight."
"Ok... sure" was the reply I got back. With that I told them as quickly as I could what I wanted and when. I left the major details to them but I did threaten them that if isn't romantic they will pay. They all got my drift. J.C. decided to get the small things like candles and roses. Lance said he would get a suite at the Hilton. Joey was going to get the music together. And Chris would get the food and transportation for the night. When Justin returned we were talking about the tour. I had a great plan in the works.
The guys gave their leave with different excuses to get the things done for me and Justin. Me and Justin decided to go down to the beach but first we were going to change clothes, so we headed for his house. We changed into more comfortable clothes and then he drove out to the beach. It was about 6:00 when we got there and our luck was still running because the beach was deserted. We held hands and just walked. Then around 8:00 I decided it was time for my part of the night.
"Justin, would you like to go to dinner with me tonight?"
"Sure, so this is like a date?"
"Yep, but is unlike any date you have ever had before." With that we headed back to his house. "Hey Just, make sure you wear a suite okay."
"Huh,"
"It is a formal place that we are going to okay."
"Okay, anything for you babe." Just then we pulled up in his drive way and all the guys were already there. We got out and Justin went to take a shower.
"Every thing ready?"
"Yep everything is ready, and here is your room key, it's room 501 it's the honeymoon suite."
"Okay well I'm gonna join Justin in the shower." I headed up stairs and could hear him in the shower. I had shed my clothes and stepped in to the shower and started to wash his back. He jumped but then realized that it was me. We didn't get sexual during the shower. When we finished we dried off and got dressed. Right at 9:00 I heard a beep outside and knew it was the limo Chris had arranged. I walked out side with Justin and we headed off to the hotel.
"I thought we were going to a formal restaurant?"
"We are but it is my kind of restaurant." He was very lost but he knew I would send him astray. Soon we arrived at the hotel and the diver opened the door and I gave him a tip and instructions to return here tomorrow morning around 11:00am. The front door man held the front door open and I went over to the front desk and let them know that I was here and had the key. They put it in the computer and we was on our way. We went to the elevators and I pushed the button for the fifth floor. The doors closed and then started up.
"Wes what are doing on the suite floor?" I just smiled at him and gave him a kiss on the cheek. Soon the elevator stopped and the doors opened and we stepped out. I lead the way to room 501 and opened the door. When I looked in the room I was shocked there were candles everywhere, rose pedal were on the floor on the path way that was there. When Justin walked in he gasped. "My God it is beautiful!!" Yes it was. There was some soft music playing. I put the DO NOT DISTURB sign on the door and closed it. I then grabbed Justin's hand and lead him to the central room where the food was. I sat him down first and pushed his chair in for him. I then sat down across from him. I took off the cover on our plates and there was spaghetti and all the trimmings. I took the towel off of the bottle chiller. And there was some wine. We ate what we could and drank about 3 glasses of wine. I stood up and grabbed the wine and two clean glasses and lead Justin to the hot tub. I put the wine down on the side of the hot tub and the glasses as well. I turned to Justin and I slowly slide his jacket off. Then he took mine off. The music changed and Savage Garden's Truly Madly Deeply started playing. I took off his tie and unbuttoned his shirt. He let it fall off of him. I then ran my hands over his chest. It was perfect. His nipples were erect. I leaned down and kissed his chest. I lowered my hand to his abs an then down to his golden trail that led to his pride. I undid his belt and his pants and they fell down around his ankles. I lowered myself and removed his shoes and socks and then allowed him to step out of his pants. All he had on now was his boxes. He pulled me up and removed my tie and shirt. He kissed me on my neck which by the way is a very sensitive part of my body. He ran his down to my belt and pants and undid them and let them fall. Soon the only thing we had on was our boxers.
"Wes are you ready?"
"Yes I am Just." With that he put his hands on the sides of my boxers and pushed them down. When they hit the floor I stepped out of them. I did the same for him. There was no lust for each other just pure love. I climbed into the hot tub and then helped Justin in. Once in we began to kiss a very passionate kiss. Our hands roamed over each others bodies. I messaged his back and he messaged my ass cheeks. All we did in the hot tub was kiss each other. Then I broke the kissing to ask the big question. "Justin will you make love to me?"
"I will babe because I want to show you how much you mean to me." We both got out and he carried me to the bedroom. He gently laid me down on the bed and then got on top of me. We started to kiss again. I then kissed my way down to chest to his abs and then his glory. I kissed the tip of his dick and then down the sides. He started to moan. I then took his meat into my mouth and began to suck on it. I got it well lubed and then I pulled off and kissed him. "Do you want to use a condom?"
"No you told me your self that you have never been with anyone and I haven't either, so we are safe." He nodded and he slowly pushed in. I could feel his head trying to penetrate. I tried to relax and let him in and he made it. The head went in and I was in pain. "I'm sooo sorry babe I'll pull out if you want." He said very concerned.
"No just let me get used to it." I relaxed and soon the pain was lessening and I nodded to him to continue. Soon he had all his length in me and I felt complete. I gave him the gift that I wanted only him to have. Yes I was in a previous relationship but we never had sex. He slowly began to pull out and push in. I put my legs around his waist and I put my arms around his neck. I started to moan and he began to kiss me. "Oh...Justin...I love...mmmmmmm...you" He had started to sweat and so did I. When he got close he stopped and we would just make out. Then he would start again. "Babe you feel sooo good!!" He said. "I want you to cum in me Just. I want to feel your love juice in me." He went down on me and was kissing me. I him pick up the pace and soon I could feel his dick expand. "I'm...close...I'm gonna cummmmmm!!!!" "NOW" and I felt the eruption inside of me. What followed was several grunts as he emptied his nuts of sperm. When he was done he fell on me. Soon his dick softened and he pulled out. I rolled him over on to his back and began to kiss him. He then pulled me up to him so he could lube my dick. I knew then what he wanted and I was gonna give it to him. After what seemed like hours we finally were spent. I looked over at the clock and saw we had been making love for four hours!!!. I turned to him and kissed him. We said our `I love you's and went to sleep.
TBC.
All comments are welcome. In this story Wes and Justin have unprotected sex but I want to stress that it is very unsafe unless you know for a fact that both you and your partner haven't been with anyone else or you know that neither one of have any std's. In this day and age it is dangerous to have one night flings with people you don't know and also wait before you decide to have sex with someone, sex is sex unless you have the one important factor and that is LOVE. So please be careful.