The Wounds Within My Heart By James
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The Wounds Within My Heart
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Chapter Nine
Crawling rodents gorging on me Repulsive starving droves Shredding, stripping, consuming all I was Tissue pulled from bones Dying slowly, feeling every fang Shock has yet to come Cannibal Corpse Devoured By Vermin
Nohea
The car began pulling out of the parking space as Dad drove off. Pietro and I were in the back seat, and Triston rode up front. It was now the end of October, and things had been going really well the past several weeks. It had been only a few weeks since we left Sangger High, but it felt longer than that! I mean that in a good way!
We started school the week after leaving Sangger High, and once at the new school I immediately felt the change. Pietro felt it too, and we both felt truly safe. Alex and Aiden felt the same, and I was really glad that things were turning around! We began attending a school that functioned both as a place for education, as well as being a residential center for LGBT kids who had no place to go, or who had been kicked out by their bigoted families. It was owned and ran by Joshua and Michael Williams.
When I looked it up that first night after having been there that day, I learned that Michael and Josh began it largely with the help of their families back in 2007, when they both had dealt with a lot of Anti-LGBT bigotry. The information I found went on to talk about how Michael Williams, in particular, had been targeted by a murderous bigot called Lary Marks who was a part of a cult who were attempting to do medical experimentation on LGBT kids. It was some sort of fucked up brain surgery, and Josh Williams's mother was also involved in the cult. I was glad to see that Michael and Josh had founded the center, and was also happy that they stood up for what they believed when they went up against the cult. That group sounded like really disgusting people, and I was glad that they weren't in the picture now!
The bottom line though, was that the place was calm, respectful and was also made up of people who deeply cared for the kids there, both non-residential and residential. The classes were the right size, with enough kids there to learn, but the class size wasn't 20 or 30 kids to a teacher like in most public schools. They also not only helped disabled kids, but they also made sure that any co-occurring disabilities were dealt with for kids who had them. They did really well with addressing those needs as well as that of kids with just one disability. That detail alone made me really fall in love with the place! I wondered several times where that place had been all my life!
While going there for the last several weeks, Alex, Aiden, Pietro and I were all getting to know the other kids. We were becoming good friends with them, and the assignments we did were really interesting. I actually felt like I was learning things of true value.
An example of this was when Michael did a lesson in an Ethics Class. This particular lesson was about the debate regarding whether or not Autism was caused by vaccines. He covered it from a different angle though. Instead of him asking us to consider if vaccines actually caused or contributed to the cause of Autism, he spoke about how the debate was wrong on both sides.
Michael spoke about how the Anti-Vaccine position was wrong right from the start, given how Andrew Wakefield knowingly spread false information in order to bring in money for an attorney who was trying to discredit the MMR 3-in-1 vaccine. From there, Michael went on to say that it was also not just a wrong position, but an amoral one as well as a cruel viewpoint to have, for it ignored the public health and safety side of things. It put peoples' personal opinions, fears for their children and a problem needing of solving above the good of the public. It also persuaded people to cater to the above-listed hysteria at the expense of not only the unvaccinated, but that of the Autistic and other people who for various medical reasons couldn't get vaccinated.
Finally, Michael arrived to the main point about which he wanted us all to think. This was the main idea on which we would all write our papers. Michael explained that the whole debate about Autism and vaccines being wrong, as well as both groups there in were wrong. They and the debate were wrong in the end, for while both sides had disagreements on whether or not vaccines caused or contributed to Autism, each side was still wrong, because both groups assumed in arguing their positions that Autism is a disease in need of curing in the first place.
Michael concluded the lesson further, by saying that while Autism has aspects which can be disabling, such as lack of verbal speech, seizures and difficulty in dealing with certain sensory experiences, some of these issues such as seizures could be co-occurring disabilities rather than being directly caused by Autism itself. He said the same for some of the Self-Injurious Behaviors of some Autistic kids, such as when some of them slam their heads repeatedly against walls, hit themselves or run off with no understanding of what dangers they may face. When making this last point, Michael was referring to stims that Autistic kids and adults do. Some people believe that the Self-Injurious Behaviors are the same or equal to hand-flapping and rocking, but Michael pointed out that these Self-Injurious Behaviors weren't the same at all, and those behaviors were just that. Stimming was a thing that Autistic kids and adults do to calm themselves, or when they're excited about something.
That project took up several days over a period of about two weeks, and on the third week, we all presented. Michael did have people write their own thoughts for each paper, so I figured that there'd be some in the class who would stick to the idea that vaccines caused Autism, and possibly have views that they not only caused that, but also that they were to blame for almost everything from Diabetes, to Cancer and to AIDS. Unfortunately, there were three who gave the pro-Wakefield position, as well as their reasons as to why they believed as such.
Two cited having cousins who had Autism, and that the parents of said individuals saw that the kids' symptoms began just a day or two after their vaccinations. The third student cited the risk to people with different diseases and conditions for why she was against vaccines, and I noticed that she took a view of vaccines similar to that of Robert F. Kennedy JR. He started out saying that he was for vaccines, but he wanted to make sure that the corporations who released them did so safely, and that they weren't doing it in the name of furthering their bottom line of making as much money on the product as possible. She brought up the corporate angle similar to what RFK JR. did, and once she finished, I wasn't surprised at all when she sited Kennedy JR. as one of her sources.
I worked to hide my disgust. I had read some of RFK JR.'s supposedly more nuanced views about vaccines, but recently I saw that he has become completely Anti-Vaccine, and he did always speak of Autism in the same Ableist way as did the full-on Anti-Vaccine crowd. I figured that it would be only a matter of time until he went towards their way of thinking altogether. So it was for this third student who wrote her paper citing him as her main source.
As I said, I had to work hard to hide my disgust with the Bullshit she was saying! While the two other students were flat-out Anti-Vaccine people, her Bullshit reminded me of those who say that they don't have a problem hanging around Black people, but then go on to say something about Black-on-Black Crime. Either that, or the person who says they're accepting of gay people, but then go on to say something about how they're glad that their gay friend is a good person, and not like those gays who flaunt their life style in front of everyone for all to see. I especially hated that way of thinking! I never understood people who acted that way about shitty ideas! I would think in my head about why they couldn't just say they disagreed with whoever the group was they didn't like, because it was obvious that they didn't like which ever group it was. Otherwise, they wouldn't have the ideas they would babble on about!
So you can see the type of, and quality of the work we did at that school verses that of the usual public school. Everyone did well on their papers though, and Michael was really glad to hear all of what we had to say when presenting our papers on the above-mentioned lesson. We had other things on which we worked, but that went by really fast, and I was surprised at how fast time seemed to be going by! As I said a moment ago, it was now coming towards the end of October, and it was cooling down outside.
I was really glad that the weather was getting cool again, for this meant that Pietro and I could have an even bigger reason to cuddle up just in our boxers under the covers. Well, there were the times when we cuddled completely naked, but that was when we knew we would be alone for a long period of time, or if we were sure we wouldn't be disturbed for a while. Pietro and I also found time to enjoy making love which was nice!
We discovered more and more, how we both really loved being able to take a long time with the sex we shared with each other. Even if it was a 69, we loved doing it slow and sensual. Pietro and I could be quick about it, especially if we were up against the clock, but that wasn't as enjoyable. It was nice, but definitely not as satisfying.
Mostly though, I was just glad that we were out of Sangger High, and in a place in which we were safe. Pietro was glad about that as well. We spoke of that while laying in one another's arms on a Friday evening in the second-to-last week of October. Pietro smiled when I said how glad I was where we were now for our schooling. I smiled back, then we kissed.
Pietro gently stroked my hair, then tenderly kissed me on the lips once again. We had just finished making love that night after saying goodnight to his family then getting a shower. We fell asleep shortly after, and it was nice to be there with him like that.
I was pulled out of my thoughts as the car stopped. It was the last weekend in October now, and Pietro was going to be staying at the house with me that weekend. Aiden and Alex would be coming over the next day to hang out for a bit, and Chelsey, Evan, Collin and the others would be joining us later that evening for dinner. I was really looking forward to it!
Stepping out of the car, I couldn't believe how cold it was now! It was almost 52 degrees when I exited the school to get into Dad's car. Checking my phone's weather app, I couldn't believe that it was now down to 44 degrees!
"It's going down to 36 later tonight," I said as I pocketed the phone and closed the car door.
"It's a good thing we got the heater on and running in the house," Dad replied.
Unlocking the door, I opened it then stepped aside as everyone else entered.
"I love this kind of weather," Pietro added as we all hung up our coats and put our school bags away for the weekend.
"I love it too!" I answered.
Later that night after dinner, Pietro and I went into our room early, but not to go to sleep. At least not yet anyway. We did make some time for Dad, Triston and our other friends after dinner though. I think they knew that we did want to be alone, but it was still nice for us all to hang out in the living room for the couple of hours we did.
During all the Bullshit happening at Sangger High, Pietro and I in our time alone at the house did have time to make love. It was good like all the other times, but having all the craziness happening at that time, did make it difficult to really concentrate on each other in the deep meaningful ways we had been doing before. Then there was the fact that, once we got to the new school, we had been busy enough with school work, studying at home, and other related homework, so that by the time we had free time, he and I just cuddled a lot of the time. That was definitely enjoyable, and a couple of times in our cuddling moments, I let Pietro know that when we had time to make love at some point, that I was going to really make him feel so good. He really liked that, and that lead to us making out deeply for several minutes!
Those thoughts were going through my mind as Pietro and I showered and washed each other making sure to be quick so we could get into bed soon. The thoughts were gone now as I shut off the water, and got the towel to dry off my lover. He did the same with me, then we were going as fast as we could out of the restroom, and into the bedroom over to the bed. We were still completely naked, and Pietro was on me instantly with his lips on mine, and me flat on my back.
We moved so that we were full-length on the bed, and I wrapped my arms and legs around him wanting to feel as much of my naked skin against his as humanly possible! I wanted him so bad that night, and I didn't remember ever feeling this turned on ever!
We continued passionately making out, then Pietro began thrusting against me, and I pushed up hard to meet his downward thrusts! It felt so good, our cocks rubbing together, and when I felt his big heavy balls pressed hard against mine, I felt my lust grow even hotter! We thrust several more times, then I moved so that I was on top of him now! We rubbed from side to side which felt amazing, and our grinding against each other got even more forceful! I figured that there was a lot of noise, but I didn't care! At that moment, it was only Pietro and I! No one else existed in that moment, and time seemed to stand still as we continued rolling around gripped, tightly in each other's arms and rubbing our iron-hard cocks against one another!
After a couple more minutes, I broke the kiss, and I began licking and kissing Pietro all over, totally loving his taste and smell! He did the same to me afterwards, then we turned so that our cocks were in line with each other's mouths!
"I've really missed this!" I said totally breathless as I felt Pietro swallow my cock all the way down to the root! "Oh fuck! Son of a Bitch! That feels so fucking good!"
I practically shouted this, then did the same to his cock!
We lay there, hands rubbing and squeezing one another's ass cheeks, then as if operating as one, we both began circling around each other's rosebuds with our index fingers! It felt amazing, and that seemed to kick our lust into over-drive!
We sucked harder and faster stopping a few times to lick, nibble and suck on each other's balls! I even made sure to lick and nibble on the area behind Pietro's sack! He loved that, and when he repeated it on me, I immediately understood why he loved that so much! We did that a couple more times before returning our attention to one another's cocks!
I made sure to deep-throat the head of Pietro's cock several times which drove him totally fucking crazy! Him doing it to me had the same effect as well, and he definitely returned the favor as many times as did I! We kept this up, and soon I could feel Pietro fucking my mouth harder and deeper! That was his way of telling me he was about to come! I returned the movement, and I was definitely close!
The truth was, that we didn't really have a need for words at this point in our relationship while this involved making love with each other! It all came naturally. Obviously, we made sure each one was comfortable with what the other did, but we were totally on the same level with each other for the rest of it!
It didn't take long, just a couple more movements, and we were both flooding one another's mouth with our hot, thick and creamy cum! I loved the feeling of Pietro swallowing my load, and he absolutely was in love with me doing it to him as well! We swallowed for what seemed like forever, then gently kissed one another's balls before coming back up to lay in each other's arms!
I passionately kissed Pietro and he returned the kiss, and we just lay there tenderly kissing as well as lightly caressing one another's bodies. Soon though I relaxed into Pietro's arms, and he got the covers pulling them up and covering us both.
"I love you more than words can say," I said looking into my lover's eyes.
He was holding me close, as well as looking deeply into my own eyes when I said that. Turning for a moment, he got his device, then typed.
"I truly do love you just as much Nohea, and that love is so deep now that I don't think I can find many more words to describe it!" he said. "Your friendship truly means everything to me, and when you and I are together doing the typical things friends do, like watching TV, or out for a walk, it's so special. Then when we're together as lovers enjoying really amazing sex with each other, that's so lovely and beautiful! I really do love being by your side, and I always will!"
"I feel the exact same way as you do," I answered. "I also really love when we're just hanging out watching stuff, or listening to music while gently holding each other. I also feel our connection get even deeper when we spend time as lovers making love and enjoying one another's bodies! It's so special, and more amazing than I can describe in words! I also love being by your side, and it means everything to me Pietro! You mean everything to me, and you always will!"
We shared another deep and tender kiss, then after putting his device away, Pietro shut off the bedside lamp plunging the room into darkness. He took me in his arms, and I was asleep within seconds afterwards safe snuggled in his embrace once again!
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Walking down a darkly lit tunnel, David Swanson checked his bag of instruments and the bottles which were safely sealed. He didn't think he would need them, but they were fortunately there just in case. Stopping at a four-inch-thick metal door fitted with three huge locks, David unlocked each one. The entrance of the tunnel was sealed with the same kind of door and locks so no one would get in. Both doors had no windows, so no one could look in which was good! Walking through the entrance of the room, David came to a second door which was of the same material. Unlocking the three locks of this door, David opened it. Turning on the single shadeless light bulb situated in the middle of the room, David looked at what was before him.
Principal Karl Heins sat tightly strapped to a chair, and he was drugged. That was no matter though. The drugs would be out of his system within a few minutes. This is where he had Heins brought when David's men grabbed him from his home the evening that ended with Nohea and Pietro's last day at Sangger High.
The three other teachers who had started around the same time as did Heins weren't there randomly. When David investigated Heins, he saw that the man, along with the three other teachers, had worked for a private Christian Boarding school. It was one that took in so-called "Troubled Teens", but this was just a euphemism for kids who were LGBT, and who's parents disapproved of their orientations.
Upon further investigation David learned that Heins, along with Richardson, Smith and Spenser were planning to impose their own views on the students and staff at Sangger High. They also had a couple of higher-ups on the school board who had the power to allow them to do what they were doing. Those two had been dealt with weeks ago, and falsified documents fooled the public into believing that the two school board employees were out of the country permanently doing Christian charity work while living in another country.
Richardson, Smith and Spenser had been taken to this location at which David was now. After they had been questioned and their confessions taken and signed, Collin and Derrick dispatched all three. They also released forged documents on them as well.
Now as David stood there, he watched as Heins opened his eyes. The two men regarded one another for a moment, then David stepped further into the room, and sat down in a chair beside Heins's chair.
"Is it daytime out?" Heins asked voice weak with extreme fatigue.
"It's around 3:00 A.M. on Saturday morning," David said. "It's the last weekend of October. I can imagine that you feel like it's been an eternity while you've been here. Also, I notice that you've stopped screaming about wanting to be let free. Good. I have so many plans for you."
"You're obviously a violent man," Heins said struggling to speak louder. "Richardson, Smith and Spenser came to Sangger High to help the lost kids, and that was why I was there as well."
After David gave Heins food and a glass of water, he sat back down beside him.
"They weren't living God's way," Heins said after finishing his water. "You know that, right? Neither were you for that matter. Nohea and Pietro clearly believed that they could just live any old way they chose, and that they'd be free of any consequences. Obviously, you encouraged this sinful and satanic idea."
"I didn't encourage a fucking thing," David said sharply, but without raising his voice. "What Pietro and Nohea share is love, true and pure as any heterosexual couple. The fact that they can have that kind of love is beautiful, and I don't know of any God that would make them pay or punish them for that. People would try to make them pay and hurt them for it though. You certainly tried, but you failed. I saw to that. Enough talk though."
"Just one more thing," Heins said.
"What?" David asked standing before Heins.
"God really will make all of you pay for your sinful ways," Heins said, voice poisonous with hate. "The Lord had already declared over thousands of years ago in the Bible, that should man lay with man, he would be put to death! His blood shall be upon him!"
"You wouldn't know what those passages you all quote at us means, not even if they slammed you in your god-damn balls, you fucking Prick!" David said as he unstrapped Heins from the chair. "Now get up, we're going!"
"God's word also says that no one, not drunks, thieves nor homosexuals, shall ever inherit the kingdom of God!" Heins yelled as David began forcing him deeper into the room and up to another locked door.
"Duly noted Asshole," David said, sounding more distracted than angry. "I'll be sure to talk with him about it when I stand at his entrance desk some day when it's my time."
Unlocking the door, David shoved Heins through. As Heins stood there, he saw what was inside, eyes not wanting to believe what they were seeing.
"Oh god!" Heins screamed at the top of his lungs! "Oh God! Please! No! Oh God no!"
David grabbed him, and soon enough he was strapped into a chair unable to move. Even Heins's head was strapped to the chair, and he sat there unable to comprehend as the noises got louder and louder! Then it happened quickly!
Heins felt as two, three, then several hairy disgusting-smelling crawling bodies jumped on top of him. Two were on his thighs, two on his chest and three were racing up his arms. Heins let out loud screams as the filthy brown rats first sniffed at him, then he felt their whiskers twitching against his exposed skin on his arms, hands then one on his cheek! He screamed again in pure terror as the two rats on his thighs began nipping at his skin still covered by the pants he had on. Then the nipping turned into actual bighting as the rats sank their teeth into his flesh as the cloth gave way! He screamed long and loud. Now the rats on his arms were turning the skin to bloody ribbons as they began ripping into him!
Now more rats were jumping on him, and before long his body was nothing but a huge brown, wriggling, squirming mass that was soon turning far more red. David could hear Heins struggling to prey, and he felt nothing but gladness at the man's eventual death!
"That's it you bigoted Cunt, you fucking Anti-Gay sack of Shit!" David yelled over Heins's screams of agony! "Let's here you fucking pray to that imaginary friend you call a fucking God, you piece of shit!"
Heins was now screaming for his mother as more blood gushed as the rats continued to feed!
"Sorry, Mommy isn't here Bitch!" David shouted as Heins continued to scream and scream. "Also, I'm not your Mommy either, and if I were, I'd lift up my dress and piss on you right where you sit!"
Soon Heins's screams were silenced as one of the rats ripped open his throat and slashed apart his vocal cords. David continued to watch, and soon Heins was convulsing as he was now in his death throws. He seized once more, then was still save for the rats that were finishing up!
Eventually the rats began running back into their cages, and Heins sat there in the bloody chair, at least what was left of him. What sat in the chair was now nothing but some flesh, but mostly bones. Blood soaked everything, and David would have to make sure to wash carefully once he left this room. Looking at the sight a moment longer, he backed up, then pressed the button that would lock the rats in their cages once again. There were a few rats that hadn't yet gotten back into their cages, but that didn't matter.
David exited the room, and once he locked it, he pressed a button that was next to the door. A small covering opened in the wall above the control panel. It was a window, and it looked into the room where David had just been watching Heins be dined upon by the rats.
Now David pressed a second button and he looked closer through the window. Though he couldn't see it visually, David knew that a lethal level of Hydrogen Cyanide was now filling the air-tight room. The rats began running around in what David figured was fear, then terror as the gas began to poison their systems. Soon they were shaking, convulsing and several appeared to be bleeding from their mouths.
David stood watching, and after a couple more minutes, the rats were still. No movements were happening now, and David pressed a third button. This would release the gas from the room, thus rendering it safe once again.
David looked through the window one last time, then smiled.
"I hope you rats and your two-legged rat are having fun down in Hell right about now," David said his smile even more hateful now. "Please, no need for post cards."
Pulling out his phone, he texted Collin and Derrick to come and clean up everything. Putting his phone back in his pocket, he smiled. They knew just exactly what to do.
David then left the building, and got back in his car. He had planned this part of the mission, and he was able to get Beth to come over after telling her that a work emergency had come up. This had been around 10:30 when Triston, Pietro and Nohea had been asleep for some time. Fortunately, she believed him, and so she came over. Aiden was over at Alex's house for the weekend, so she didn't have to worry about bringing him along. This gave David all the time he needed to get everything ready. It was really more for him to make sure the finishing touches were in place, and it didn't take long.
Soon David was back home, and pulling into the driveway. Shutting off the car, he quietly entered the house, and he closed then locked the door. Looking in the living room, he saw that Beth was fast asleep on the couch. He then saw a note on the kitchen table that was from her. She let him know that she would probably be asleep, and the note had been written around 12:00 A.M.
David went into Nohea and Pietro's room, then after seeing that they were asleep, he checked on Triston. Satisfied that all was in order, David showered. He had showered in an area of the building after leaving the kill room, but he wanted to clean up again. Finally, he was ready to get into bed for the evening. He was glad that all had been taken care of, and that all was in order once again.
Author's Notes
So things are back the way they should be for the boys, and David took care of Heins and his crew. For those who have no problem with a horror element to your stories, I hope you enjoyed seeing Heins endure the blood-soaked ending he had coming to him. Also, I hope you guys enjoyed the time Nohea and Pietro shared together in the middle of the chapter. They certainly needed it.
As for the section dealing with what the boys were studying regarding vaccines and Autism, you'll be seeing that come up more, but not in this story. I figured that that issue belonged in this story though, given that Triston is an Autistic character along with his boyfriend Jack.
Spoiler Alert, I don't believe for one fucking minute in the idea that Vaccines cause Autism! I have nothing but pure hate and loathing for both Andrew Wakefield and Robert F. Kennedy JR. Even more sad, I actually used to take RFK JR. seriously when he used to be on a radio program titled Ring of Fire Radio back in the late 2000s. Yes, he did give a skeptical sounding view about the Swine Flue Vaccine when it had come out in 2009, but because he did say he was for vaccines, I didn't see that he was the threat to public health he was slowly becoming.
Now that this Ableist and Anti-Disability sack of Shit has been an intellectual fuck buddy to Andrew Wakefield for several years, I had began losing more respect for him back around 2021, then my respect went to zero a couple of years ago when I listened to him echo Wakefield's lies about Autism being caused by vaccines. Add in the fact that things are now coming out about RFK JR. seeming to have a history of sexually harassing women, then you can guess why I fucking despise him now.
I'm truly sorry to see that this Bastard is taken seriously by anyone, and I do hope that others who do follow him will come to see him for the dangerous Anti-Public Health, Anti-Autism and Anti-Disability scumbag that he is!
All this to say that that first section of this chapter was where I wanted to deal with the issue that the boys were learning about, and to show the kind of education they would be getting at the new school where education went beyond bight-sized facts that are little more than trivia to memorize for a test every few weeks. All that being said, I hope you enjoyed this chapter.
Finally, when I mentioned that the Vaccines and Autism issue would come up again, but not in this story that's for a very good reason. This story will run probably for about four or five more chapters. I'll be releasing the first chapter of a new story here in a few weeks. If things go on schedule, I should have The Wounds Within My Heart finished up by if not the middle of September of this year, then at the end of that month. I'll give more details regarding the new forthcoming story as it gets closer for this story to come to a close.
All that being said, I hope you're all doing well, and having a good evening. I'll see everyone in Chapter Ten.