The Wounds Within My Heart By James
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The Wounds Within My Heart
Chapter 23
Nohea
After dinner that evening, Pietro and I spent some time in my room cuddling. It was really nice to have that time together. As we lay there in each other's arms, I found myself thinking about that up-coming weekend. Pietro would be at my house, and I couldn't wait to be alone with the love of my life.
Soon though it was time for Pietro to go back home. His parents arrived a little before 8:00 P.M. to pick him up. We shared a hug and kiss at the door, and after saying goodbye to everyone, they left. At that point, I went to get my shower before winding down for the night.
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Aiden
I awoke that Thursday morning, and though it was sunny out, the weather said that it would get cloudy later that morning. The weather was also calling for rain, and I was glad that I'd be at Beth's house. We were in the process of getting my clothes shipped from my old house, as well as various toiletries I'd need. For the moment, Beth was good enough to get five outfits for me, and we had gotten that done before going over to Nohea's house just a couple of days before.
I did ask Aunt Beth about where I'd be going to school, and she said that she was working that out. She went on to say that I'd probably be going to school with Nohea.
I thought that this would be good, and I was glad that I wouldn't have to go to any school for the blind. While at the school, I was too much into my Tough Guy act to really notice how much I hated it there. I believed at the time that I really enjoyed the school, and the power it seemed to love instilling into its students.
There were times when I'd be at home, and when I'd have time to think, I'd find myself doubting everything. I'd push those thoughts away as fast as I could. I couldn't handle the doubt, and what those thoughts implied. Looking back on it now though, I was beginning to quickly see just how unhealthy the school for the blind really was. While it talked of preparing blind kids for the "Real World", it in fact prepared them for a fantasy world. One which it confused with reality.
I was thinking about all this as I finished showering that Thursday morning. It was almost 9:00 A.M., and I had awoken a little after 8:00 A.M. Aunt Beth had been awake when I got up, and after breakfast I went in for my shower. Over breakfast, we had talked about going into town at some point that day to get stuff for that evening's dinner. She also wanted to get some snacks for the counter, and I said that that definitely worked for me.
For most of the day though, I helped Beth clean up around the house, and around 1:00 P.M., we sat on the couch after having a quick lunch of sandwiches and chips. We watched TV for a bit, though that was mainly flipping around the channels. We did find a couple of episodes of the show Sister Wives eventually, and we sat watching the chaos.
"God, what a freakshow," I said after Beth turned off the TV.
It was almost 3:00 P.M., and now it was time to head into town.
"I'm guessing you're talking about Cody Brown?" Beth replied as we stepped outside and I closed then locked the door.
"Yeah, absolutely," I answered as we walked to the car. "Talk about a total man child Asshole. I hope all four of those women leave his ass."
She laughed as we got buckled in, and she started the car pulling out of the driveway.
"That's a really disgusting system those pigs have the women living in," she said.
I could hear the pure anger in her voice as she continued.
"I always avoided watching that show whenever I could," she went on. "It was just trying to put a spin on polygamy that makes it look good. They were always trying to say that they weren't like Warren Jeffs, and that they were the kind polygamists. Everyone needs a damn reality check. Polygamy isn't bad because of that rapist Bastard Warren Jeffs! It's bad because of the fact that it's a male-oriented and man-centered religion that exists with the whole idea in mind to control and enslave women. It's sick, evil and absolute filth!"
"That sounds like something you're really passionate about," I said after a moment. "I won't give the response of the mainstream Mormons who say that they don't believe in polygamy. I mean, that's what they'd say. I'd hear them say that sometimes. My bio family are Mormons and would sometimes be asked about polygamy. Fun fact though, the mainstream Mormon Church still believes in polygamy. They talk about it though by saying that men can be sealed to more than one wife spiritually in the after-life. So when they get to the Mormon version of Heaven, they'll have all their wives waiting on them."
"How lovely," she said voice full of disgust.
"It never really sat very well with me at all," I went on. If you thought they treat women bad in even the mainstream Mormon faith though, you should see how they treat LGBT people."
"I've known a few LGBT people who had been disowned by their families. The families were Mormon, and were definitely not progressive when it came to LGBT people, so I know what you're talking about," she explained.
"I've had to work hard recently to get away from the Anti-LGBT crap my head was filled with while growing up around my family and their religion," I said. "Having the Anti-LGBT views I've had isn't something I'm proud of. That's been hard to work through."
"I'm sure it has been hard," she responded. "I'll support you as you continue to work through all that. You really do seem sincere about wanting to change that way of thinking, and I'm really happy for you."
"Thanks," I said. "I know we talked about all this over the last couple of days when I was at your house, but this is the first time I've really spoken much about the LGBT side of things."
"Yeah, and I'm glad you've felt comfortable enough to talk with me about it," Beth said.
"Me too," I answered.
At that point, we were nearing the store, but got stuck behind four cars at a fairly long red light. I then turned back to Beth.
"I've started to think lately that I might be gay," I said feeling nervous and wondering what would happen next. "I knew that my family wouldn't approve, and it was hard keeping it in all the time over the last few months. I mean, you know that being gay is why they tried having me sent to that horrible place that Doug and Terry were trying to take me to. That being said though, I probably am Gay."
Beth took my hand, and she looked at me.
"I fully accept you if you're gay," she said. "I fully accept you no matter what your sexual orientation though. The feelings you have for which ever sex or gender are those that are deeply a part of who you are. That's something to be treasured and affirmed, not degraded and forced to be hidden."
"Thank you for saying that," I said as I started crying.
Only up to that point did I really come to understand just how much I needed to hear that from someone. Beth took me in her arms, and she allowed me to get everything out. I was coming quickly to think of Beth as the mother I never had and should have had all along.
"It's okay Aiden," she said. "I'm here for you now, and always will be. You're a really amazing boy, and I'm truly glad that you've come into my life. I really do mean that, and I don't ever want to lose you."
Soon my tears subsided, and I then dried my eyes. At that point, the traffic started up again. We started driving along after that.
"Hearing you say all that means everything to me," I said looking at her. "I've only realized now how much I needed to hear everything you just said. No one's ever said that to me. Thank you. I'm really glad you've come into my life too. I don't ever want to lose you either, and I always want us to be in each other's lives."
"I'm glad we both feel the same about that," Beth replied. "I can imagine how hard all this must have been for you. I'm glad you know that you can depend on me, and that I'll be here for you whenever you need me."
"Me too," I said.
Soon we arrived at the store, and we both got out. Once inside, I went to look for the meat we needed. The store we were in was a small establishment, and it was owned by two Spanish people. They were a husband and wife team who introduced themselves as Mr. and Mrs. Guerrero. I shook hands with them when we walked in before going to get the meat. Beth did the same, and they seemed like really nice people.
As I went to the snack section, Beth pointed out the cookies we needed. I picked out a couple of boxes. I walked with them up to the counter, and as I sat them on the scanner to be rung up, I heard a door in the back open then close. Foot steps neared the area behind the counter, and there was a rapid exchange in Spanish. It was between Mr. Guerrero and someone who sounded like they were male, as well as around my age.
"Aiden, this is my son Alejandro," Mr. Guerrero said turning to face me. "Everyone calls him Alex though. His mom and I do for the most part as well."
"Hi Alex," I replied as I reached out my hand.
We shook hands, and his hand was bigger than mine. It was strong, but soft. That was the second thing I noticed immediately.
"Hi Aiden, it's really nice to meet you too," Alex responded. "I'm here to make sure everything is stocked up on a couple of the shelves. I don't have much homework, so after this I was headed back to the house. That is if you guys don't need me for anything else around here for the rest of the evening?"
"No, you can just check those two shelves, then you're free to go," his dad answered.
"Okay, thanks," Alex said.
"You're welcome," Mr. Guerrero responded.
Once Alex returned from checking everything, he came up to where I stood in front of the counter.
"I've seen Beth around here a few times before," Alex said as we moved away from the counter while Beth talked with Mr. Guerrero. "I didn't know you know her."
"I just started living with her a few days ago," I answered. "It's a long story. She's really nice though, and I'm glad to be staying with her."
"I agree," Alex responded. "She really is a nice person. I'm also glad that you're living with her right now. I hope that continues for you."
"Thanks, so do I," I replied.
"So, what are you doing after dinner tonight?" Alex asked. "You seem like a cool guy, and I'd like to hang out with you a little more. It would be really nice to get to know you better."
After we checked with Beth and Alex's parents, they all said that neither of us had anything going on after dinner.
"Is it alright if Aiden comes by my house after dinner tonight?" Alex asked his parents.
"Is that okay?" I asked turning to Beth.
They all agreed that it was, and I was really happy to hear that. Alex was glad as well, and we then exchanged numbers.
"Okay, I'll see you around 6:30 P.M.," I said.
"I can't wait!" Alex answered.
"Neither can I!" I responded.
After dinner, Beth drove me over to Alex's house. We greeted his parents, then Alex came out into the living room where we sat. Beth said she'd be back around 9:00 P.M., and after saying goodbye to us she left. At that point, Alex and I visited with his parents for a few minutes. Eventually though, we headed off to his room.
Alex's room was rather large with a double-bed. A computer desk sat across from it, and a nightstand sat beside the bed. Across from the foot of the bed sat a dresser, and beside that was a dirty clothes hamper. Alex also had a full bathroom that was to the right a few steps away when one first entered the room. I was really impressed! Alex described a couple of nature paintings that hung on the wall above his desk. The first one on the right was of a sea scape. It had several small fishes and in the center were a couple of coral reefs. The painting on the left was of a forest in the morning at sun rise. In the tops of the trees there sat several multi-colored birds. Two of them were green and yellow, and the three others were blue, orange and red.
On the opposite wall, there hung two posters. Alex described those as well. On the one hanging on the right side was a picture of the group Libera which was a boy choir group. On the second poster to the left was a picture of the Metal group Paradise Lost.
"Would I be correct in assuming from the two posters that you love many kinds of music?" I asked.
"Yeah, that would be correct," Alex answered.
"I really like that," I replied.
He then led me over to his desk on which sat a laptop which was opened. To the right of that was a music player connected to a set of speakers. On the left of the laptop, there was a desk lamp, and a few thumb drives. Alex sat down at the desk, and invited me to sit next to him on the chair he kept in there for guests. I did so, and we started telling one another more about ourselves.
I told him more about me, minus the possibly being gay part, as well as the craziness of my family. He told me more about himself and his family. He went on to say that he would be signing up for Track when that began in the Spring, since he was in to some sports. He also talked about how much he enjoyed playing music in his spare time, whether it be Rock, Metal or Classical. I thought that was really interesting, and told him so.
"Thanks," he said.
"You're welcome," I replied. "I'd love to see you at one of your track events once that starts."
"That would be really nice," he answered. "I'd really like that."
We talked a little more about different music groups we liked, and I told him that I was starting to get a little more into listening to Metal.
"You mentioned the group Paradise Lost that's on the one poster you have," I said. "I haven't heard their stuff yet, but have heard their name from time-to-time."
"I hope you get a chance to check them out some time," Alex said standing up. "My favorite album by them is called One Second. Some people hate it, but I think it's one of their best. It's mainly hated by people who are pissed off that there's not much Metal in it."
"Thanks for the suggestion," I responded. "I'll definitely be checking it out soon."
Alex went over to the bed, and he said I could sit over there with him. I stood and walked over to the bed. Alex was scooting his shoes under the bed enough so that they wouldn't be in the way. I did the same with mine, and sat down.
At this point, Alex asked if there was anything in particular I wanted to listen to, and I told him that I was good with whatever he wanted to put on. We both felt like something calm, and he selected a random playlist of songs by Libera. I listened for a moment, and was amazed at the beauty of the boys and their vocal ranges!
"I could imagine Heaven sounding like that," I said as Alex sat beside me closer this time.
"I've thought about that as well," Alex answered. "One of my friends told me about them a couple of months ago, and I've loved them ever since."
"I can see why you do," I said.
We talked a little more, mainly about other things we liked doing in our spare time. That conversation resulted in us agreeing to get together at some point over the weekend to do some working out. That was another thing we both discovered that we loved doing. Beth mentioned some work-out equipment in the basement of her house, and since it was in good working order, I figured that Alex and I could use it. We talked about him possibly coming over on Saturday, and I let him know that I'd check with Beth. He told me he'd check with his parents, and would get back with me.
We finished the visit with me telling Alex about my visual impairment, and he let me know that if or whenever I needed help, he'd be happy to provide it. He then told me to just let him know when or if I needed him to help me with anything, and I told him I would.
"Thanks," I said. "I really do appreciate that."
"You're welcome, and that's what I'm here for," he replied putting a hand on my shoulder then squeezing gently before removing it."
Soon it was time to go. Beth was there around 9:00 P.M. as we agreed upon. It felt like no time had gone by at all, and I couldn't believe how fast everything went. I found myself wishing that the visit wasn't over. Talking and hanging out with Alex had really been a lot of fun.
When Mrs. Guerrero called out that Beth was here, I let her know that I'd be there in a moment. I shook hands with Alex, and loved how big and soft his hand was. That was the second time our hands made contact, and I was finding myself wanting our hands to stay connected.
"I'll walk out with you," Alex said as we exited his room with him walking beside me at that point.
"Thanks," I answered.
"You're welcome," he said.
After we talked with Beth and Alex's parents, it was cleared for him to come over on Saturday. I was excited, and thanked all of them.
"Also, thanks for having me over for the evening," I said. "I really had a lot of fun. I hope we can do this again sometime."
"You're welcome, Aiden," Mr. Guerrero said.
"We were happy to have you here," Mrs. Guerrero added.
After Alex and I shook hands once again, I told him that I'd be in touch. After that, I followed Beth out to the car and got in.
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Alex
Soon after Aiden left, I said good night to my parents. They went to bed a couple of minutes after that as I showered then brushed my teeth. After checking my E-mail and text messages, I went through the house checking the doors. They were locked, and once making sure all the lights were off, I returned to my room. Shutting the door, I locked it then turned off the overhead light. I then went into the restroom where I urinated. Once I washed my hands, I dried them. Shutting off the restroom light, I returned to my room.
I lay in the dark, once the bedside lamp was off. I was just in my boxers, but wouldn't be for long. I had been horny off and on all day, and I had to sit down a couple of times as well as make sure I was standing behind a desk or the counter. This fortunately had the result of hiding my erections both half-and-fully hard.
As far as physical looks go, I stand around 6-1, and am around 170 LBS. I have a dusting of hair on my arms, legs and a really thick bush surrounding my thick and long uncut cock. My balls are covered in hair, and I would always wonder if anyone would find how I looked down there to be sexy. I hoped that someone did when I began dating and having sex. I also have black hair and dark-brown eyes. I kept myself clean-shaven, and I noticed how much people around me loved that.
As I lay there, I felt my cock harden once again. I was really horny at that point, and now images of Aiden flashed through my mind. His brown hair and green eyes were really cute, as well as extremely sexy. As I lay there, I let the images come. Mostly when thoughts of guys would start, I'd try to keep them out of my conscious mind. Now though, I allowed them to enter the foreground of my mind.
At first the couple of images of Aiden were replaced with an image of various guys in my class, naked and showering. That totally turned me on, but it was just as quickly replaced with more images of what I figured Aiden would look like shirtless. I then imagined him fully naked. Soon in my fantasy, he lay on what I figured was his bed. He was still naked, and his hands slid all over his chest, then stopped to rub his own nipples. He moaned softly, then smiled.
His cock was hard and twitching rapidly, and his balls were tightened up against his body. I figured that they must be full of cum which I desperately wanted to drink down. In my imagination, he lowered his left hand down to where his hard cock stood. He began stroking it slowly at first. At that point, I began stroking in real life.
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Aiden
I had been in bed for a while, and it was after 9:00 P.M. I was naked at this point, and my hand was stroking up and down my cock. I was imagining Alex and what he might look like fully naked. I thought about him stroking his cock, and as he did so I imagined myself sitting in front of him watching.
Though I'd try in the past to fight images of guys from coming into my mind, I couldn't make them come fast enough now, and I didn't want to fight it at that point! I kept picturing Alex in my mind, and then started stroking my cock up and down a little faster.
My body is smooth all over save for a little hair on my armpits, then a small nest surrounding my cock. A light dusting on my balls completed the full picture. My cock was long, and hung over my balls rather nicely I thought. It was also uncut, and at this point was soaked in precum! I continued stroking as I thought about Alex continuing to lay on what I figured was his bed. He was stroking his own cock faster now!
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Alex
As I stroked faster, my mind's image of Aiden began stroking likewise as well! I was close, and I knew that I'd be ready to explode soon! The feelings felt so fucking incredible, and I only wished at this point that Aiden and I could be together enjoying this!
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Aiden
I kept stroking, and the feelings were truly amazing! No fantasy of any girl ever brought me such pleasure before, and I couldn't get enough! I stroked faster, and knew that I'd be coming any moment now!
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Alex
I pictured Aiden stroking faster, and his body was covered in a light film of sweat! He looked so hot that way, and this only fed my lust! I stroked faster at that point, and I knew I'd blow at any moment!
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Aiden
It only took a few more strokes! In my mind's eye, Alex was stroking faster, and moaning loudly! His body was covered in sweat, and he looked so sexy like that! As I stroked, I could feel my orgasm approaching! I stroked once more, then I felt my cum blasting out of my cock! It exploded in four thick, hot and creamy blasts, then several smaller ones!
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Aiden
A couple more strokes, and I was there! My cum exploded from my cock! I felt several thick, hot and creamy jets of cum hit me on the stomach! Several smaller ones covered my left hand, and I kept stroking! I hadn't ever felt an orgasm this intense in my life!
After a couple more moments, I could feel my orgasm leaving me! I stroked a couple more times, but slower this time! After that I stopped, and just lay there feeling totally exhausted, but deeply satisfied!
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Alex
I let go of my cock after stroking a couple more times, but much slower now! I hadn't ever had an orgasm that intense before, and having Aiden in my mind as I jacked off made it even better! I then reached for a towel I used when cleaning up cum. Wiping myself carefully, I made sure that everything was cleaned off, then I put the towel back in the hamper. Returning to my bed, I got back under the covers then turned on to my stomach. I felt drained, and extremely happy! I fell asleep immediately!
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Aiden
Once I cleaned up with a hand-full of tissues from the bedside table, I turned on to my stomach. I felt happy, drained and deeply satisfied as I drifted off to sleep. I also remember thinking about how much I loved the thoughts of Alex as I jacked off! That made it all the more intense, and it was a truly wonderful experience! As I fell deep into sleep, I remember thinking how much I'd love for that fantasy to become a reality someday soon!
Author's Notes
So Aiden and Alex are getting to know each other, and clearly they have a strong attraction to one another. I can imagine that you're all probably wondering where things might go between the two of them. I do have plans for them, and I hope you like what happens between the two boys. In the next chapter, I'll be including more of their story, as well as other things happening between Nohea and Piettro.
All that being said, I hope everyone has had a good day. Everyone have a good evening, and I'll see you guys in Chapter 24.