The Pack

The Pack Chapter 1 -- The Loss

Look into their eyes, their heart, their soul.

I'm not really sure what made me notice my shoe laces we untied or the urge to tie them. At any point in my life it would have been called for but having your body being pounded into the group by four different guys at the same time wasn't one of them. I didn't feel anything anymore really...

"Ha little fag boy just got boring come on guys lets go for some food. All this "fun" is making me kinda hungry."

They all laughed and walked away just like that, as if bloody and beaten was a normal position for a fourteen year old kid after school. It seems, for me, normality had changed today. I think ill take a nap now.

Alone in darkens I went over my whole life and every little thing that made me, me. All the little things like being gay and other four legged `interests'. Wow I was a total looser and friendless to boot yup punching bag material. Oh hey light.

I woke up slowly as if someone was forcing me to stay asleep but of course I was too stubborn to listen to them. Big mistake on my part, having all the needles and stuff sticking out of my arms isn't the best thing to wake up to.

So here I am sandy brown hair and amber colored eyes and lost a shit in a hospital room. I put two and two together and figured someone found me but all of a sudden my thought process was completely rocked by a scream.

"Cody!" yelled my mom who unlike most people didn't know how or didn't care to control the volume of her voice "Oh my god you're awake." She looked desperate and aged since I last saw her but I loved her more at that moment or than air!

`Please don't hug me' was all I thought and then as if she read my mind and stole the idea she hugged the shit out of me.

"Ow mom please it hurts" I whispered or forced out more like it.

She recoiled fast, "Sorry honey I just wanted to hold you I though you would never wake up."

Thoughts of water crossed my mind but were stopped by the question I didn't want to ask. "What do you mean never momma?"

"Sweetie you've been in here for over three months, you were in a coma."

Oh that sounds like fun, I thought three months of missed school and lost opportunities the get my ass kicked again! No wait it was the SHIT!

"Three months? It feels like three hundred year mom." Gravity and the lack of muscle usage greeted me as I cried out in pain at trying to sit up.

"Don't!" She shrieked.

Don't have to tell me twice I felt like a train hit me and just for fun a few thousand runners from the local `race for what ever cause' took turns trying to find out who can make the most laps over me body, for that good course of course.

At the same moment the doctor came in and was surprised to see me up we had to go over tons of questions and stuff. He said all the normal's and told us that because of the physical accident that my brain had swollen and was the cause for the coma along with a little of me not wanting to wake up I thought.

"Three months...wow that's along time." Just as the words left my mouth I smelled dog. Not just the normal dog smell but the wet kind that most people hate but I, in a strange way, loved it.

Odd smell for a hospital I thought lost in my mind. It was a tingle at first then a total feeling of being examined and watched. Who?

I stole a glance to my right and notice I was sharing a room with someone else. He was looking at me no wait staring is more like it. My breath despaired as did my concentration on what ever my mom was talking about.

He looked like he was my age with reddish hair and the most moving green eyes ever. Deep woods came to mind when I saw his eyes and his face was perfect with little freckles here and there. His smile though took what was left of my breath and I coughed a little with an effort to breath

"Oh damn Cody I need to leave for work but I promise I'll come see you when I get off. I'm so happy you're finally back baby." She was crying when she left I didn't even realize time had gone by when I was looking at those eyes in the room.

"Hi." I finally got the courage to say. If his eyes were perfect then his voice was the material it all came from.

"Hi back." He said simply. "I'm glad your awake I thought I would never get to meet you."

Wow he actually wanted to talk to me? This is a trick...someone wake me now, nothing? Ok it's real!

"Wha...what's your name?" I stuttered oh kind of loudly my enthusiasm not even close to being hidden.

He looked at me for a moment to consider my question. "My names Mathew or Matt what ever you want." He said softly.

More of his voice...damn it was so beautiful and to think I was sleeping here forever and a god slept right near me. He must be straight sadly. In that moment I rebuilt my forgotten defenses and suddenly felt nothing for him, not even my want that was screaming for him.

"My names Cody" I croaked out.

He notice the change in me some how he knew I was instantly different than just a moment ago. Those eyes and that smile he was giving.

"Nice to meet you Cody and you don't have to hide with me here. You talked in your coma and said a lot of interesting' things, all at night though so only I heard you." He looked at me to see my reaction and as if to say your move'.

I started to cry instantly. Oh god what did he here, and would he tell anyone? My mind raced of all of my secrets. Oh yeah I'm fucked. Why me? I met some random kid and he is super cute and I go and fuck it up WITHOUT EVER BEING AWAKE FOR IT ALL!

My tormenting imagination stopped when I realized he was sitting on my bed in front of me. Those eyes...were locked on my amber ones as he reached over and wiped a tear off my cheek.

"Don't cry I'll never tell anyone, don't worry. Please?" he was actually pleading with me. "Plus we have a lot of `stuff' in common you know?" God please the THIS not be a dream was all I thought.

My lip quivered, "What do you mean?"

He smiled again, "Well for starters you've never been alone, not since you were brought here at least. Plus I'm gay too." A hint of fear crossed him and it hurt me a little. He really wants to be my friend and was afraid of my rejection.

Yup here comes my crying again. There is no way he is gay! And the fact he was sitting on my bed. Ok fucking wake me up from this great dream NOW...no? Wow.

Then he was hugging me so soft and warm and his smell, just like dogs. It hurt a little but he was really gentle. At first I was tense then I began to melt and cry harder. What the fuck was wrong with me this total stud was hugging me and all I wanted to do was cry.

"Its ok Cody" he whispered in my ear.

"I... I'm sorry f...for crying it just sorta can't help it sometimes" I managed out in between sobs. It was comforting though knowing I had no real secrets from someone.

Unexpectedly I felt him tense and his hair sort of sat up a little like on a dogs back it was cute. The door was opening and the nurse was in before we can separate I'm sure I was redder than an apple at that point.

I was about to pull away when Matt held me tighter if possible. Then let go just as fast it was odd to say the least almost like the hug was for him just as much as it was for me. He scooted over resumed his staring at me while the nurse was checking the charts and my vitals.

"Ok boys its lights out soon and Cody you need to rest your body is going to be coming back from being still so long ok?" All was good and she left without a further word but I saw a small smile on her face in the last crack of the door before it closed fully.

"So do you have a mate?" He asked out of the blue.

"Huh?" Oh yeah cute boy in the room!

"You know a boyfriend? I just moved here with my pa-... um family and I'm moving to fast aren't I?"

The look on my face was total shock to say the least and of course the battle of lust and fear was waging havoc in my head. Fast is one thing impossibly unbelievable is more like it.

"No and no your not I just don't have any friends accept my dog I really don't talk to anyone its kinda new to me. I'm lost for words you know?"

"Its cool I'm really blunt sorry, we can start slow if you want? What school do you go to?"

"Jamerson High School you?"

"Cool I'm starting there when summer is over...my brothers are making me they said no more home school I need to get out and fine out all the different smells. They are crazy FYI. You have any sibs?"

"Nope just me and my mom since my dad died." Well this is better than I thought I was making a friend.

"Can I kiss you?" Oh yeah he is totally blunt. "Sorry it sorta comes out."

PLEASE, but that would make me blunt right? "I've never kissed anyone before..." Fast, faster, fastest? I really am starting to like him and it's scaring me.

Lightning, bombs, and music with a little bit of dance and maybe a few works not thought of. His lips were so soft and subtle on mine and it was perfect. Our eyes never closed...we just looked at each other the whole time.

Then we parted like two magnets never wanting to let go... so slowly, he unsure if he did right plus me lost for words and crying again.

"I...wow that was..." I couldn't finish it words just might have ruined it.

Nope it wasn't me who did it. A random guy or should I say teen just waltzed in he had shaggy brown hair and grey eyes, maybe eighteen or nineteen, scruffy. "God Matt I leave you for a few hours to go check on the others and I come back to find you horn dogging your roomy." He said almost laughing.

OH here comes some really nice tears and now with a dash of shaking. I figured from that point I was about to stay at the hospital a while longer.

Matt noticed and grabbed my hand saying "Justin this is Cody, Cody this is Justin one of my brothers. He may look menacing but he is a really big puppy." He said in an attempt to calm me down.

It worked and now I noticed his brother smelled like dog too, that was really strange or something broke when my four `friends' were teaching me the finer point of melee combat.

"Hey its cool man I know Matt's gay and it's cool that he found such a little cutie to say hi to. Glad to see you out of coma as well." He ruffled my hair I love him already. Let's see, check in the `cool' department and in the awesome category.

"Nice to meet you Justin" I squeaked out.

Cody was looking at his brother in an odd way and cocked his head as if to ask a question then said, "What took you so long is everything ok?"

"Oh yeah just the others were getting antsy they wanted you back so I was calming them out and said you would be back in a few more days. Once your feet have healed." And just like that `poof' I'm gone from everyone's mind its odd thought they we talking but not really, like a formality rather than a necessity.

"Well at least you made a friend, ok well I've brought you some food and that's about it. I'll tell the family hi for you and such." He turned to leave but stopped. The mood got weird really fast.

"Oh yeah if choose to `invite' Cody here to join us just make sure everything is cool first...with everyone that is." And with that he walked out. Ok I'm not dumb but that was sort of creepy.

There was a light silence in the room then Matt started to fiddle with the lid of a small container. Food his brother had said. I watched and when he got it open it was strawberries... no wait that's not right.

I was meat bits, more like chunks of sitting in blood. Gross was it some kind of joke or was he really going to eat it. Yup he is eating it.

Remembering I'm here Matt looks up at me from his meal. His fingers had blood on them and a little trail with a drop at the end of it on his chin.

"Sorry this must look gross but it's a family recipe called blood steak. It's cured meat in a blood wine sauce; it's my favorite meal in the whole world."

Honestly though I think its kind of cute he had blood dripping from his mouth I know I'm fucked up but what can you do but join in?

"Can I try a piece?" I asked.

Scooting closer to me almost close enough to kiss again he said, "Here."

He took out a small bit of meat and put it at my lips, aw he was going to feed me. I think I'm in love. At that moment I could have sworn he read my mind just then because for the first time he blushed as I opened up for his gift.

First taste is mostly blood but then a hint of almost raw meat and pinch of spice. I freaking loved it! I normally have my steak medium rare but this was perfect as is. I wanted more but it seems he had something else in mind.

We kissed again and this time we opened our mouths and tasted each other and of course the traces of blood from the meat. Wow first kiss and French kiss in the same night that's lucky as hell.

Fate thought had worked against me it seemed just in the moment of pure bliss the door opened again and it was a police officer. He looked at us, if he disagreed with us being close he didn't show it, but he face did show sadness.

"Which...um, one of you is Cody Masters?" He asked simply.

My ears started to ring and the sound was turned down in the world as he walked towards me. I began to treble to badly my bones would have fallen apart trying to stop it but Matt held me.

"Son I've some bad news your mom was on her way here from work and she... was in an accident. I w...was first on the scene. Um... there's no other way to say it but she pasted before the paramedics arrived. The last thing she whispered was your name. . ."

What is sound? Can one really define it once you have forgotten it? At that moment I couldn't figure out who was screaming until Matt's hand pushed me closer to him. It was then that I realized it was me.