The Mennonite 20 CGW
It was early in the morning and I was on my was to the office to finish up some last minute orders when out the window I saw Zeak struggling to walk straight it was obvious to me he was having a little problem in the sex department. I motioned for him to come in and have a cup of coffee he said; that he was fine and needed to do a few chores at the barn, I said; those chores can wait get your ass in this office now, he entered the office and struggled to sit down. Not getting any easier is it. Nope he said; in fact I think it's getting worse every time we have sex. I said; that's your first problem you two should never be "Having Sex" you should be making love instead. Your body is reacting to your minds perception of sex like it's a chore that your body must endure, tell me Zeak do you truly love Izaiah and does he mean more than anything else in this world even yourself. I guess so answered Zeak, then that's part of your problem; you're not for sure of your love, do you feel unworthy of his affections. Yes; Tell me how do I get over these feelings of worthlessness asked; Zeak. It's called communication you two need to learn how to talk to each other, express your deepest darkest secrets to each other, let your guard down and bare your soul to him and be vulnerable and let him see the scared little boy that is hidden so deep inside of you, even you aren't aware that he is hidden there. When you do, you will relax your body and you two will no longer be just having sex but instead you will start making love to one another. Now the next part on of your problem, stand up drop you pants and underwear and bend over spreading your cheeks. Just I thought his hole was bruised black and blue, there were also bruises from where Izaiah was gripping his hips so tightly. Are you using plenty of lube inside and on his cock, Zeak said; yes but he still struggles to be able to sex me. Zeak it's called fucking, screwing and even making love, when you let your mind convince you that it's "sex you" your whole body tenses up causing you to fight it and not relaxing to have fun in the bed or shower. Also clean yourself out in the shower and prepare yourself for Izaiah, and when you can use this, I opened the side desk drawer and removed a long slender box. He opened it and out slid a cock shaped dildo complete with balls Zeak; he turned red in the face. I said; use it together, it will make the sex easier because I know Izaiah is very well blessed in the cock department and that thing tries the most experienced hole. So go home, you have the day off and get ready for your man because you and him have a whole lot of Lovemaking to do tonight, in fact since its Friday I don't want to see you again until Monday morning at work and that's an order, he said; yes sir, grabbed his box and left the office in a hurry. I called Izaiah and asked him if he could stop by the office we needed to talk. He said okay, I'm headed back from a delivery now, good I said see you when you get here. Izaiah walked into the office covered in dust and sweat just like a real man should be. Have a seat Izaiah I said; as I looked up from the computer on my desk, how's it going I asked as I looked back down at my computer. It's going great at the plant if we keep getting orders like we are we're going to either have to expand or add an extra shift maybe both. Izaiah; that's not what I meant by how it is going. That's what I was afraid of when you asked the question, I don't know I'm so damned confused about the whole situation one day he was fine and the next day he shut down just like someone turned off a switch in him I've tried everything I know oral, rimming, and starting with my fingers to get him ready but nothing seems to help him take me. Izaiah now listen to me closely and answer all of the questions truly. Have you ever forced yourself on him in the slightest, No never I understand boundaries. Does he ask for sex or do you always have to start it. He almost always starts it and when we get going he just seems to shut down. Izaiah if for all of your life you were told that you were worthless, no good and would never find anyone to love you because you were a mistake that you would be better off dead, just imagine that after hearing this for 21 years the people that you loved more than anything else in the world suddenly cast you aside with just the clothes on your back. As you were lost in this blinding snowstorm of emotions someone, came into your life and treated you like you had never known, they showered you with love and attention just because you were you. Do you think that your mind which had been programed to feel that you were worthless might be confused and you would be feeling guilty because of the joy in life you were experiencing? Izaiah broke down and cried he said; he thought he was doing something wrong to Zeak. No Izaiah you are the right thing for him, but it's going to take him a while to work through his emotions of guilt that he feels for being happy. Take the rest of the weekend off and just be there for him, but no sex, but you can make gentle tender love to him and when you feel him tense up stop and remind him that his joy and happiness is the most important thing in the world. Love comes naturally and is slow and gentle never forced or rushed, now go get your stinky ass cleaned up and see Zeak he needs you. Izaiah left the off in a hurry he was a man on a mission, to save the person he loved. We didn't see the two of them all weekend long, and when anyone asked about them I told them they were okay and not to bother them or there would be Hell to pay. Micah said; are they having a rough patch. I said; yes and no but they were working through their difficulties if needed they would ask for help from me and you until then steer clear of rough waters. Micah said; that I will, don't want to be between you and anyone that you are helping because you know what's best in this matter. Thank you for understanding Micah this means more than you know. I was sitting behind my desk and the door opened I wondered who was up this early, Zeak stuck his head in the office and asked if he could come in for a few minutes, sure we have all of the time you need so what's going on in your world. I want to thank you for the talk the other day you help me and Izaiah more than you will ever know, he walked over to my desk hugged me and cried on my shoulder. Zeak said; if things hadn't changed I was going to leave Izaiah and even thought about ending the hell that I was going through forever, you saved my life on Friday when you called me into your office. We have just started to heal and it will take time but if you don't mind I would like for us to talk on a regular basis. Only if you don't mind Micah sitting in on the talks, he is an Elder in the sect now and hearing how you were treated growing will make him understand where the confused young people are coming from and what they had to endure. Zeak smiled and said; I would be honored to have him here. Zeak stood up and left my office I went back to work on the invoices, I was way behind I was going to need an assistant soon. It was still early when Izaiah dropped by the office and asked if he could talk to me, sure come in and have a seat. He started to sputter about with his words when I asked if they made any progress in their relationship during the time they had together. Izaiah said; I believe that we have, I discovered a lot of things about Zeak and myself during the conversations we had. I cannot believe that for someone so young he has had to endure so much in his life, I cannot even rationalize that someone would treat their own child that cruel. I understand, Izaiah and when you and Zeak work through your problems one day the two of you will have a child of your own to raise the proper way, teach them love and tolerance. Clayton have you gone loco, we can't have children it doesn't work that way. Izaiah are you that thick headed, what I mean is that the Elders are starting a pilot program and in this program young children that are recognized as not normal and are to be cast out later on if they don't change will instead be placed with long-term couples to raise them and help them to develop into successful adults. Now it was Izaiah's turn to sit there with his mouth open, so I want you and Zeak to realize that you now have a goal to work towards. I've discussed this with Micah and we will be the first two couples to be allowed to enter into the program and if it works out there will be more allowed to participate in it. So I have a feeling that section of open land in the middle of our complex will be needing a daycare and playground facility built on it, and that will your and Zeak's project to handle, that is if you want to do it. Izaiah was speechless all he could do was shake his head in agreement. Well now that that's settled go tell you significant other the wonderful news, poor Izaiah was so excited about the prospects of becoming a parent that he stumbled out the front door forgetting to close it. In a minute Micah walked through the door and said; what's wrong with Izaiah. Micah, it's not every day that a man finds out that he will soon become a father, to which he replied oh okay that's nice not understanding what he had just heard. Wait a minute, what do you mean a Father! Just what I said; He is going to be a Daddy soon just like you! With a loud thud Micah hit the floor; he was out like a light. No sooner than he hit the floor Isla came into the office and said; oh I see that Micah has found out about his impending fatherhood. I laughed saying; yes he has and it hit like a ton of bricks. Isla said; I still cannot believe that the council of Elders approved your program, to which I responded, like the late Elder Smyth said; happy wife-happy life, miserable wife-no life so I had a lot of help, we both laughed. I'll let him come around on his own; he is going to need the rest; now Isla I need some help with these books are you ready. Through Micah a meeting was called by the Elders of every Sect in the meeting hall, certain couples throughout all of the sects were required to attend; I was asked to explain the program, The program that is being implemented throughout the all Mennonite Communities of Belize, nothing is for granted but death; we are born to die when it's our time, nothing happens without a reason, no child is conceived without a purpose, every child is born the way that the master has decreed that it should be. Because God makes no mistakes, but the perception of man is dictated by his free will, I'm not saying that it is wrong but some people have become lost along the way and cannot accept Gods ultimate plan for their child's life, these children are sometimes treated differently by strangers and even their own families. They are not different; they are special gift and will need your help to become productive adults in your communities. We are asking you to open up your heart and your homes to these children that God has blessed us with no matter what their difficulties are. Some are known at birth and then some are discovered later on in their childhood / young adulthood these individuals need the love, devotion and courage that you have demonstrated throughout your lives. Elder Micah and I have agreed to take in 2 children to begin this program, and which you can see by the look on his face he has just discovered he will now be responsible for 2 new lives, not the 1 that he was planning on. We in the Giving Community will be building some new larger homes and adding on to others so families can be accommodated there, again he looks surprised knowing that it means more construction because children need their own space they cannot simply be hung on a nail or stuffed into a closet due to shame, on the table here you will find some brochures and a sign up forms for those interested in the program, but remember this won't be easy and it is a lifetime commitment not to be taken lightly, you will have a complete support system to help guide you along the way if you choose to do it; and I sat down. Every Elder from every sect stood up and gave their individual feelings and blessings to the program. After the meeting the sign up forms were completely full and there were even signatures and contact information written on the back of the pages. Several of the younger Elders families signed up for the program. I was rounding up all of the paperwork that was located on the desk when Micah spoke up and asked me; are you really ready to take on this Dad, Yes Daddy I am very ready I responded. Well then said Micah; I better get started on the remodeling and additions in the morning then. Micah; have I told you lately how much I love you. Clayton; have I told you how blessed I am to have you in my life. We left the meeting hall, went home and made passionate love all night long.