Lucas was a quiet man. His demeanor around the farm didn't cause speculation at least not that Donnie knew about.
He disappeared in the winter and reappeared in the spring each year that Donnie grew from the cradle to his high school years.
Donnie sat in the window watching the older boy work in the yard. His body was strong and he displayed it as he sweated in the sun.
As years past Donnie's penis got hard as he watched Lucas working around the house. He remembered wrestling with Lucas when he was a little kid and that would fuel his solo times stroking off.
There were times when Donnie listened outside Lucas' door as he groand and moaned inside. Donnie peaked through the spaces between the wallboards and saw Lucas naked on his bunk doing the same thing that he did in his bedroom.
That was when he thought Lucas was gay.
"Are you uh you know, uh into guys?" he stammered that fall, the beginning of his senior year, just before Lucas disappeared as he did every year at that time.
Donnie sat next to the half naked man he had grown up watching, wondering and wishing about.
"Why would you ask that?" Lucas asked.
"No uh sorry, wondered that's all." Donnie stammered.
"Are you gay?" Lucas asked as he pulled his shirt on suddenly feeling modest.
In a moment of honest Donnie admitted "I'm not sure, there are times...." he stopped less he admit to jacking off watching Lucas time after time.
"It's ok if you are and ok if you aren't. You'll figure it out, just takes time" Lucas words were comforting and his hand on Donnie's bare knee sent warm shocks through him. Donnie wanted to admit his attraction, to kneel between Luca legs and do what he had only thought about doing or just to feel the guys arms around his own bare torso.
"Uh thanks, I guess so" he replied instead. "You comin back next spring before I take off?"
Donnie's plans to tour Europe with friends after graduation would be the first summer he wouldn't lust after Lucas in the back yard.
"Dunno, been thinkin about movin on" Lucas said inhaling on his cigarette.
"I'll be gone next summer, the folks will need your help" Donnie worried his revelation might chase Lucas away.
"Yea true, we'll see" Lucas said.
Donnie posed late May with two of his friends. Their caps and gowns waved in the spring breeze as their smiling parents took more then a few photographs of the threesome.
And standing behind the group of camera toting relatives was a tall, sun darkened man wearing a blue shirt and kakchi pants. Donnie didn't recognize him at fird.
"Lucas" he called out when he did and shook the man's hands. "You came back"
"What are you talking about, he comes in every spring, has been doing that since you were a pup" Donnie's father chidded him.
"Yea but I thought...." he realized what he was about to say.
"I told him I might go back to Alaska this year" Lucas interupted and explained.
"Well glad you didn't. I don't know what we'd do without you" Donnie's Dad patted Luca's shoulder. "You gonna join us for dinner?"
"No sorry can't, I have to see Sharon before I settle back in" Lucas replied "Just wanted to see the boy graduate".
"Not a boy any longer, his 18th birthday was two months ago" Donnie's Dad said proudly "he's on his own now and good riddance" the man laughed and swatted Donnie's butt.
The dinner with friends and their families was noisy and celebratory. Donnie and his friends took off for their own party of smoke and beer by the lake afterwards.
Donnie walked from their car to the house darkened due to the hour. Lights streamed through the bunkhouse where Lucas usually slept.
Donnie knocked.
"Hey, been celebrating I see" Lucas said as he answered the door wearing only a pair of boxer shorts.
"Oh sorry, just wanted to uh really welcome you back" Donnie said "I better go"
"Naw it's ok, come in and sober up, I'll make you coffee" Lucas offered.
"That's ok, don't really want to be sober, I like feeling like this" Donnie said as he loosened his tie more and unbuttoned his shirt.
"Yea so Europe huh?"
"We leave next weekend, gonna see Amsterdam,..." Donnie made the motion of smoking and laughed "...France, Germany,..." he made the drinking motion "...and Italy" he crossed himself even though he wasn't Catholic.
"Well whatever happens, remember this may be your only chance to uh do things, so don't hesitate"
"To do what?" Donnie asked
"Well you know what we talked about last fall? Whatever opportunity knocks, answer, so you can figure things out, That is if you haven't figured things out by now" Lucas said. He scratched his crotch which attracted Donnie's eyes.
"Oh hell. I figured things out a long time ago" he said and moved to the floor.
"Uh I didn't mean..." Lucas started to say but the feeling of Donnie's wet warm lips around his penis stopped him.
"Shit kid..." Lucas felt Donnie's months or years of desire as his balls were licked, kissed and sucked.
"It's ok, I'm 18" Donnie said as he pulled away and removed his shirt completely. His hands moved to Lucas waistband and yanked until the object of his adoration lifted himself so the shorts could be slid from his hips.
"I've been waiting for a long time for you" Donnie said as he removed his pants revealing his erection.
"Kid you got one hell of a bone" Lucas said.
"Don't call me kid anymore" Donnie pushed Lucas back on his bed. His lips and tongue moved over the bare chest he had seen tanned and sweaty every summer he could remember.
He pressed his lips against Luca's and stabbed his tongue as deep as he could down the older man's throat.
"Come on, I know you want to fuck me, I've seen you jacking" Donnie breathlessly begged.
"What? I mean, yea I thought about it but hell you have a cute butt" Lucas said.
Donnie was letting Lucas hard cock chock him again and again as he tried to push it deeper down his own throat.
"But you were a child, a kid, I mean I wouldn't do anything" Lucas said feeling more and more blood expand his cock.
"But I'm not a kid anymore" Donnie said "so fuck me"
He moved over Lucas and aimed his butt so Lucas cock moved inbetween and forced his butthole open.
"Shit that's big" Donnie said very loud.
"Shhhhh, your folks will hear" Lucas said.
"Let em, I don't care anymore I just need this, you" Donnie was anxious, begging for the type of fulfillment he had wanted for so long.
"OK but keep it quiet, I need this job" Lucas moved up and pushed Donnie back on the bed. Whatever he had hesitated to think about, what he had refused to let himself do and all he hid from Donnie in the past was different now.
Donnie's legs rested over Luca's shoulder, he was full of the man's cock jamming deep and deeper into him.
"God you're big" he said.
Lucas didn't respond. The images he had guilt about flashed through his brain as he saw Donnie's face contorting as he jamed himself in and out of the younger man's ass.
Donnie pulled his pants on and his shirt remained open as he left the bed he had shared that night. Lucas was gone. He always started his chores early. Today was no different.
As Donnie entered the kitchen he heard his father say "Don't worry, he's recovering somewhere on somebody's couch or floor. The boy had to celebrate...and here he is the graduate!"
"Hi Mom, Hi Dad" Donnie said as he let his mother usher him to a chair to eat the breakfast she had prepared.
"I uh been thinkin maybe I shouldn't go. I can work for you all summer, me and Lucas can do alot of stuff around here before I go to college in the fall" Donnie said.
He didn't notice his father look at his mother and her shrug response.
"No, you have to go" Lucas said as he held the naked boy in his arms two nights later. They had fucked every night since that first one. And they had found places and times during the day to explore their sexual needs as well.
The darkness of the storage shed and the sun baked grass over the hills in back of their farm surrounded their exchange of physical and emotional needs and wants.
"And if you get the chance, you meet someone or two or whatever, let happen whatever happens". He kissed Donnie's cheek.
"But you'll be gone when I get back" Donnie said.
"Maybe or maybe I'll burst in your dorm and fuck the living hell out of you in front of your roomates"
"That would be ok with me" Donnie returned the kiss finding Lucas' lips.
"Or maybe I could fuck you right now" Lucas threatened.
"You have to catch me first" Donnie jumped off the bed as Lucas pusued him.
"Henry what's that noise" Donnie's mother asked.
"Just Lucas and Donnie" he said as he looked out the window to see a naked Lucas running across the backyard chasing Donnie equally naked. "Boys will be boys" he added knowing that someday they'd have to tell Donnie they knew he was gay.
They had known for years.