The Experiment
I was fifteen when I talked to Bobby just after he announced that he had "come out". I asked him what it meant by coming out. He told me he liked guys and he was not attracted to girls. I asked him wasn't it disgusting, you know, guy-to-guy sex. He laughed and asked me a couple of questions, "Would you let your girl friend suck your dick?" I thought and replied, "hell yea". He asked "would you kiss her after she sucked you off?" I thought again and replied, "Yea, I would". Bobby then asked if I thought my girl friend was disgusting. I got his meaning.
I guess sex is only disgusting if someone else does "it". But it's "OK" between my girl and me. I had never thought of "it" that way. Because I thought of myself as a normal teen, I never was ready to try "queer stuff". Bobby went on to say even straight males and females consider some form of gay sex at some point. This was a challenge to my virility, as I answered, "I never have." He laughed as he said, "Sure, just thinking of it doesn't make you gay."
He went on, "You don't become gay, just like you don't become straight. I didn't choose to be gay. It must be in my genes. Other boys, never girls, have always excited me. In my sixteen years, I have played ball, I have joined scouts, and other normal boy things. These didn't make me straight. I like some girls and had dreams of dating. If I could choose, I'd be straight. But just like my cock, it don't work that way."
Later that day, I met my best friend, Jimmy. I asked him if he ever thought of trying gay sex. He gave me one of his looks and asked, "Is this an offer?" I laughed and told him of my talk with Bobby. He said he thought Bobby was right. He said he saw a program on Public TV that confirmed Bobby's statements. I then asked, "Well have you?" Jimmy's face was red as he said, "you're my best friend so I'll answer, but if you laugh at me or tell anyone else, I'll kick your ass, do you understand?" This mystery had me puzzled. What could Jimmy tell me.
I have known him since kindergarten. I looked at him and said, "I understand". He started his tale, "I've thought about doing things with other guy's. I've never tried anything but if I thought I could do it and no one find out, I would try." I asked him what kind of things he would try and who are the guys he would do things with. Jimmy went on "You know this is weird, I've never talked like this, you planning on becoming a shrink? Well anyway what did you ask? Yea, who, well Gary, I saw his cock in the showers after cross-country, He's hung, well don't take this the wrong way, but you. Um what would I do, um, maybe suck or fuck, I guess try anything."
This confession shocked the hell out of me. I looked into the eyes of my best friend. "You mean you would suck my dick if no one would find out about it." He looked at me kind of puzzled and said "That's not what I said." I replied back "yea it is, you just said it". Jimmy said, "If no one would find out. Including you." That caused me to challenge him, "How could you have sex with me and I not find out?" He didn't say anything for a long time, before I said, "I guess I went to far, huh?" This statement sent Jimmy into a rage. "You ask me a question and I answer honestly and you think I'm queer because I had fantasies of doing things. You don't have a clue as to the difference between straight and gay. You just act like a jerk, when I was serious. Go fuck yourself."
Well, we were still friends and after a while he asked me why I wanted to know what he and Bobby thought. He asked me, "You have questions about yourself?" I thought and replied, "Earlier I didn't think so, but after you, um, I guess, it kind of excited me when you said me. I mean you and me, yea, I guess I wonder." Jimmy just laughed and kidding said, "that's it then, well go get a motel room and blow each other, we'll both have our curiosity answered, huh?"
This caused me to react, "I was not making fun of you, I was just curious why someone like Bobby would suck dicks and tell others about it. You said yourself you would only suck my dick if no one knew, even me. That means you would have to drug me......, can you cum if you are drugged? ....sorry, just humor. Bobby tells everyone that he is gay, he's proud. I don't understand." Jimmy looked down "I didn't mean you'd need to be drugged. I'd want you to....um, what I did to you.
This is stupid, we started out curious and now its like we are setting up a date. Are we?" I looked at my friend "Boy you get right down to the nitty gritty, Yea, I'd like to find out things. I know I'm not gay, girls cause my dick to harden, not guys. How about you?" Jimmy replied, "I'm not gay either, we should set up rules as to what and how." I answered, "You said you wanted to suck and fuck, each other, this means we've gotta cum twice or more, Can we do this with one meeting, and when?" "If you really want to do it, we should do it today, I'll back out later, this isn't just a movie or ball game, were talking about gay sex." Jimmy said. "OK, lets go, lets do it now, we can go up to the park overlooking the ocean, it'll give us privacy." Bobby looked into my face and asked, "You sure, I don't know...., how do we start...., you sure". I answered, "Yea, lets do it".
We went to the park, but both of us were unsure how to begin our experiment with guy-to-guy sex. Jimmy looked at me and asked, "You never answered how do we start?" I replied, "We should get naked first, I guess." Jimmy looked at me and started removing his clothes. I followed his lead. Soon we were completely naked. I started to regret my actions. "I don't know if I can suck your dick, Jimmy. I don't mind you going down on me, you can corn hole me. I just don't know if I can do anything." Jimmy said "Relax, just do what you feel comfort with. I'll take the lead." I replied, "OK!" I leaned back and spread my legs wide apart, my six inches sticking up towards my belly button.
So with a little more verbal prodding from Jimmy, "Come on, its only skin and muscle, no different than your thumb, OK? No one will know!" I looked at my thumb and placed it on my lips, I let it slide into my mouth, I thought not bad, but not good. I took Jimmy's hand, I pulled it toward my mouth, and I sucked his thumb into my mouth. Jimmy pulled his hand back and said wrong finger. He shot me the bird with his middle finger, placing the tip of his finger on my lips. I sucked his finger as he pushed it in and out of my mouth. He fucked my mouth with his middle finger.
Jimmy said, "look down". When my gaze fell, I notice our two hard cocks. I asked Jimmy sit on the rock before I lost my nerve. He spread his legs as I crawled up to his young body. I moved my lips over his cock head. Jimmy got real excited and thrust his hips up while I worked my young mouth for the first time on a swollen piece of meat. I don't think I sucked more than a minute when he suddenly pushed my head down on his cock and started to shoot in my mouth. I let him shoot, his hot cream spurting against the roof of my mouth. I tasted cum for the first time as I let him finish in my mouth although; I was determined not to swallow his load.
As he finished, he began to relax and lay back, and I pulled off his slimy rod. I started to gag at having his cum in my mouth. I moved my head and spit the cream on the ground, and then I licked my mouth and lips. Jimmy and I moved around where he was between my legs. I waited as he began to lick my cock. He took it into his mouth and started sucking. He finished me after a few minutes. He also spit my cum on the ground. After we shot our loads that day, the desire to continue went away and shame crept in.
Jimmy and I are still best friends. We have never discussed that day at the rocks nor have we tried to experiment again. While I'm still sure I'm straight and, girls still give me boners and guys don't, I think, I understand Bobby more now. For Jimmy and I, guy-to-guy sex was just an experiment. For Bobby, it was his sexual drive and for Bobby it was his sexual preference.