The Compliment Of Being Desired By A Man
This is a statement of the author's feelings and erotic needs.
I am a 68 year old married bi-sexual male, and I've been married to the same women for over 40 years. For the past six months I have been having sexual experiences with men and providing them with oral sexual pleasure. I've been with 21 men, and I have successfully brought 20 of them to sexual climax and eagerly swallowed their ejaculate. It has been and continues to be a journey of discovery and thrilling experiences of intimacy with my same sex. I've written 18 stories on the Nifty Erotic Stories Archive, and many of the stories are about many of the thoughts, needs, desires, feelings, and future hopes concerning my continuing indulgence in male-to-male sexual intimacy.
Intimacy....that's what I've come to strongly realize it's all about. When I'm peforming oral sex on a man and eagerly ministering to him in order to trigger that wonderful and profound involuntary response from him....his immeasurably pleasurable ejaculation, I'm so very much engrossed in my man and his feelings that I'm aware of almost nothing but him. I'm empathizing with him and trying to feel what he's feeling, and intellectually I know what he's feeling because like him, I'm also a man with the same physical and psychological makeup and design. But above all else comes the stark reality of desire. I sexually desire the man I'm sucking off. I find him the object of my affection, concern, care, and need to give comfort and pleasure to. What a wonderful thing for him to have happening to him! And what a wonderful thing that he should be so wanted, needed, and desired in such a manner.
So looking at it from the prospective of the man being serviced I am struck by what a compliment, honor, and tribute I'm being granted by being desired so much by the man working my body...pricipally my penis, to bring me to that exquisite height of pleasure....my orgasm. The man who wants to give me a blow-job, or who is giving me a blow-job, is feeling such needs for intimacy with me that he's will- ing to place his hands, lips, tongue, and entire mouth on the most private and intimate parts of my body.....my crotch, testicles, and penis. He's also, in many cases, willing and desirous of kissing much of my body, especially my lower body...feet, legs, knees thighs and inner regions of my thighs to feel and taste my body's essences. And on some occasions, the man I'm intimately loving and being loved by in this manner, is desirous of kissing me with passionate and intimate kisses of my upper body...chest, nippples, shoulders, neck, face and my mouth. The mouth kisses are often proof of a more profound intimate need my partner is expressing. He wants not only my sexual fluid...my seed, my semen, but to experience the intake of my saliva and the warmth, wetness, and taste of a man's mouth, and to feel that man's emotions through his breathing and expressive sighing mouth-to-mouth, along with the intimate eye-contact that is sure to occur and result in a most intimate touching of souls amidst such wonderful sensual passion. The man's embrace of my body, and the closeness and heat of his masculine sensual desire....these are such profound aspects of man-to-man sexual intercourse.
While all this is happening, I'm aware of how desired I am by this man. He wants me! He wants to taste me personally, intimately. He wants my spit inside his mouth to swallow, and he's on his way now to obtaining the most profound and personal gift a man can bestow upon another man...the gift of his seminal fluid given amidst and as a result of possibly the most wonderful feelings men can have......the feeling of ejaculating sperm...seminal fluid or cum. What makes the man who's cumming feel so wonderful, even more than just the ejaculation, is that a man like himself is on the receiving end, with open mouth and active lips and tongue, to swallow the masculine essence of the giver of the "gift."
When that moment of extreme joy and pleasure arrives and I'm about to cum into the mouth of my man, I'm swept by the strongest of emotions and feelings of empathy with him. We're about to become one! I've now been swept onto a path of falling in love with my cocksucker....that's right, I'm feeling a real love and closeness for him for giving me such pleasure, taking such intimate parts of me into his mouth, tasting the most private of my body parts, savouring the most intimate fluids of mine, and for wanting to do so and receiving pleasure from my pleasure and loss of control of many of my physical faculties, and, sometimes, mental faculties as well. I'm trusting my lover with my pleasure, my body, my most urgent and deep needs. I'm relinquishing control of my body to him as my ejaculation starts and overwhelms me...and hopefully him. While I'm ejaculating I know nothing but how wonderful everything is. A man is receiving me in the most spiritual and sacred of ways. I'm becoming a part of him, as he wants me to be...accepted, wanted, needed, remembered, cherished, and in those moments, sometimes loved.
I believe that all men who give oral service have many of the needs described in this article, and that some but not all men who need to be sucked off have the feelings and needs I describe as well. It is true that some men who enjoy being sucked off only relish the control they think that they are placing over the cocksucker. But the truth of the matter is that the cocksucker is the one with the control. He's often supremely needed by the man being serviced. The man being made to cum needs it badly...wants to get off, and must have it without any delay or interruption once the cocksucker begins his ministrations.
When my lover is reacting to my seminal spurts inside his mouth while I caress his head and shoulders, I'm in total surrender to bliss and intimacy with a man. When I see his Adam's apple move signifying his success at swallowing my seed I feel all the more close to him....a bond of inexplicable joy. A man has the most sacred and intimate part of me now as a part of him! It's simply wonderful beyond description. After he's finished pleasing me and, as often happens, squeezing the residual semen from my softening penis, I look at him with a sense of personal warmth knowing that such a connection with another man has now been established at such a deeply intimate level. After my completion with a man, the calm and satisfaction is of such value to me that all of the efforts to assure descretion, make arrangements to meet, and spend the time is well justified, and I will do it again with the same or with another man.
These are the thoughts, feelings, desires, and views of a fairly recently acting bi-sexual. Not all of the readers will agree with or understand these tenets put forth in this article, but for those who do I express my thanks and continued empathy with you in your ongoing quest for perfect intimacy and sexual joy.
All comments are appreciated.
Frank deperif@aol.com