I looked at the photo of me and Chris. I could see more of these photos in the near future. Not one when we were just smiling together as fans of each other but as lovers. We would do nude pictures and take photos while kissing and looking at each other with eyes filled with love. I wanted someone like that in my life. Someone to love and cherish me like I deserved. We would make love by the fire all the time and have loads of fun. I would tell him how he had always been my dream man and how my wish had come true now that he was mine. My hand wormed its way into my boxers and I found my dick already hard. I pulled down my boxers imagining it was him doing so and then I began stroking my cock slow but sure at first then fast and heavy when I was about to come. My breathing got heavy and in less than three minutes I had shot cum all over myself and it felt so good.
I must have slept after that because I woke up in the morning and began preparing for my day. I would just go shopping and then wait for the time he had set and we would have our studio session or other sessions of something special.
My day passed by in a blur. I was absent minded as I did all that I was supposed to do that day. I went home and had dinner at seven then began preparing for my session with Chris. What I felt was beyond excitement. Time was moving slowly now and I was getting impatient but in the back of my mind I knew that patience paid. I went and took a shower using my strong smelling lavender bath essence. I soaked myself in the hot water and let the flavours of the bath sink in. Very soon I would be taking these long baths with Chris. I smiled at that thought and then got out and dried myself. I applied my scented lux lotion and when I was done I sprayed myself with Brut musk deodorant I dressed in my skinny jeans and ankle high boots then put on a black formal shirt with gold cufflinks and a jacket to complete the look because I feared it would be chilly when I got outside. I always felt luck and naughty in skinny jeans and today called for lucky and naughty.
I needed a strong perfume. One that would leave an impression on his nostrils. I took my bottle of Beyonce's heat rush and sprayed it. I was now a combination of smells and I had mixed them so good the result was a very superb sweet smell. I left when I was confident and ready to go then got a cab and handed the driver the address. The cab life would be over with my first pay check and I would be living large. My heart began to beat fast and the butterflies in my stomach got worse as I thought about what lay ahead of me. How was I to make a move on Chris and make him mine? I knew this was probably the first and last time I would be alone with him during the night. When the recording was done then we would part ways and if we ever met then it would be just to make a video if we decided to release the song as a single. I doubted with his busy life and ways he would have time with me.
`Okay sir we are here.' The cab driver said and I realized I had been caught up in my thoughts to notice.
`Thank you.' I said and paid him. I stepped out of the cab and began walking towards the front gate. I was wrapped in thought as I walked. Why would he invite me to his home studio unless he had something? Had Justin; Trey and all the other people been invited to his home studio? Or it was just me?
`Music on your mind?' he asked and I nearly melted as soon as I heard his voice.
I laughed awkwardly. If he knew what I thought he would take me right now because it was more than music. `Yes. I didn't expect you to be waiting for me.'
`Well I know how confusing it can get to be in a new place. Especially one you are not familiar with so I decided to spare you.' He smiled.
`I appreciate that thank you.' I flashed him a smile and then after awkward silence he spoke.
`Shall we? Time is not on our side.'
Why was he treating me like a lady? I know I had sharp feminine features but my build and voice and everything were masculine. Love was in the air and we had a chemistry. I could tell from our previous studio session. If Jane had been absent something would have happened.
We walked side by side in the moonlight. Lord knows I wanted to hold his hand in that moment. We entered his house and he showed me around from where he hung out to his basement. It was pretty nice I saw myself living here cooking for him and preparing his meals with that special ingredient, Love.
`Right, let's heard to the studio and get this over with.' He said and I followed him like a sheep to the slaughter, I was down for whatever he was in the mood for.
His studio was nice with a little chest freezer for the drinks and all the equipment I dreamt of my whole life. He introduced me to Benny and said he already had the beat to the song and all we needed to do was record. We mentained eye contact as we sang and this inspired me to give it my all and I put up my best vocals and showed him how badass I could be.
`That was awesome. I swear your voice is one I have never had of. Unique, original and so natural I wish it were mine.'
I just smiled and said thank you avoiding blushing. If he knew what I knew he would be happy. He would have more than my voice but he would have me as a whole and I would make him the proudest man alive.
`Let's get a drink from the bar. You drink right?'
`Yeah sure. I do.'
`Good. Let's go.'
I followed him to his bar and he asked me what I was having. I told him I wanted Jack and he smiled and told me it was his favourite too. That was just awesome. We would get drunk real quick and get it going. He poured to glasses and half filled them then we began sipping. We were silent at first but as the alcohol kicked in we both began to feel comfortable and wanted to just hang out and let loose.
`Don't you usually have people over. Friends and all?'
`Yes but I told them I was working and didn't have time to hang out so I will see them tomorrow.'
`Sounds okay. So you bring artists over to record at home?'
`I want to but you are the first who has accepted my offer. All the people I have worked with don't usually want to record at home with me they want high profile studios. I was shocked but happy when you agreed.' He said.
I was happy to hear that. My heart smiled and it felt so good. `Not even Wayne and some folk who are closer to you?'
He shook his head. `Well you must know that I have a bit of a reputation after Rihanna and Drake and Frank Ocean so I don't get people wanting to hang out with me and I don't have that many friends so I am mostly alone.'
This was my chance to show him how much I wanted to be there for him and even if I said something that would just make it awkward I wouldn't care. I would blame it on the liquor. `I'M sure you have done a few sessions with Rihanna just for fun right?'
`Yes but things are complicated right now and I don't need her in my life she just brings out the crazy in me so I have to let her go and that leaves me with no one.' He said and looked at me.
`You can't be that lonely.' I said wanting to know exactly how many people were in his life and were he stood with Rihanna.
`I am actually. Most people just judge me before they know me and it makes them keep their distance and they all seem to side with Rihanna. Enough about me. How about you. What makes you tick?'
I wanted to say YOU but I held back. And told a brief history of myself and left the gay part. He would know about that when we were together. I told him how I was trying to make it in the biz and lied and said it was the reason I had no friends because I had no time for them.
`We are similar.' He said.
`Yes. So where do you stand now when it comes to love?' I asked moving the conversation to another level.
`I am single at present I am just waiting for the right person and when I find them I am going to do right by them and not make the same mistakes that I have made in the past. Maybe I could marry them. Who knows?' he laughed and I eyed him. Our eyes met and we held each other in that moment and the laughter faded. I saw a longing in his eyes and he saw the same in mine. As we stared at each other I silence I saw a side to him, one that was more than what he displayed in the media and I loved it, it was what I was looking for the whole time and I had finally found him. There was an emptiness in his eyes and I could tell they were searching and I was willing to give all to fill his empty heart and be the key to what he searched for.
`I am single. I want the same thing you want.' I said without thinking and wished I hadn't.
`There is one room I have not shown you.' He said in a husky tone.
`Which one?' I asked looking at him.
`My bedroom.' He said in a seductive voice.
I knew where this was headed and I was loving the sound of it. Well I was wondering when I would see that.' I said then I stood up. We ain't got all night and tomorrow.'
He smiled, a smile I had seen in his videos when all those girls were making out and doing stuff with him. It was my turn now. He stood up.
`Follow me.'
`With pleasure.' I said and laughed.
We were about to make it to his bedroom when Benny came with a worried look on his face. He had to be quick. I couldn't contain myself and my dick was already throbbing.
`Yo Chris! Something is wrong man.'
Chris stopped and looked at him. I was leading the way and I stopped and looked down from the stairs.
I heard a voice that I usually heard on television and I knew my night was ruined. All my hopes of getting him tonight had been crushed and I didn't know what to do. I wanted to yell and tell her to get the fuck out and never return because he was mine but that was not plausible, I just sucked it up and mentained my cool. When would I get another chance with him? Maybe he was gay after three beers and straight when he was sober and now that this was ruined he would know I wasn't good for him and he would try to avoid me.
I looked down at her with utter disgust resisting the urge to go down and slap her for ruining my night and my love life.
`People don't look happy to see me.' She said then put on a sinister smile on her face.
`Well that should tell you something.' Chris said.
She laughed. `Please! I know you don't mean that.'
I had to get out before it got more awkward.
`I have to go. See you around.' I said to Chris and then began my walk of shame down the flight of stairs.
I passed her and then looked back when I was holding the door open. `Nice to meet you Rihanna.' I closed the door without waiting for a response. I knew this wasn't the last time. I would be seeing her.
THREE DAYS LATER...
It had been three days since the incident and I had not heard anything from Chris. I was disappointed and I channeled all my anger into my work and I finished recording all but one of the songs. The songwriter had told me he would get back to me and I was waiting for two calls. The other call I was not sure I would get. Chris didn't have my number and there was no hope of ever getting to hear from him except if work came along. Maybe he had realized it was a mistake to try that with me and he would avoid me and I was a negative thing in his life that he wanted to avoid. I was resisting the urge to go and see him at his house. It would make me look desperate and above all I feared he would tell me he didn't swing the way I swung. I feared the walk of shame again so I just decided to kill myself in regret and thought of what could have been had Rihanna not come along.
My phone rang and I rushed to it. To be honest I wasn't expecting the writer but I was expecting him though the probability of that was a complete zero. Nothing else mattered besides him, not even the career that was just ahead of me. All I wanted was him and I swore I would rather die young than live my life without him. I would rather not live at all.
It was the songwriter James and I picked up reluctantly.
`Hello.'
`Hie James.' I said.
`Meet me tonight I have the song ready you are going to love it and guess who you are working with.'
`Chris Brown?' I said without thinking and then wished I hadn't.
James laughed. `No. Trey Songz.'
I chuckled. 'Okay. What time?'
`I am free at around ten. I hope that's fine by you. It won't take long I just want to run you through the song.'
`No it's fine I am more comfortable working at night than day so I will see you.'
He said his goodbyes and then hung up. It was already eight so after fixing myself something to eat I took a shower and began preparing to go. It was times like these that I wished I had a stylist to make me look good, when I was stressed or thinking about something I didn't like playing dress up because I didn't care much. I took a cab and got there in time. James greeted me with a big smile on his face. He was not the only one with a smile on his face.
Trey had a huge smile on his face too and that smile was killer it nearly made me melt. Those dimples were to die for and his teeth were milk white. I had always mused about how hot he was from his videos but seeing him in person was a joy. He was like an Archangel with his muscular build and his biceps and abs stuck out from under the black t shirt he wore. His jeans clung to him showing of his big firm butt and thick thighs. I swear I saw his dick making a dent on the fly of his pants.
`Trey this is Shawn Peterson the talented new artist I was telling you about. Shawn this is...'
I laughed. `Trey Songz. I know all about him let me just say I am a big fan and it is a pleasure to finally meet you in person.' I flashed him my smile too knowing he would find it amazing.
Believe me.' he paused, The pleasure is all mine.' He eyed me and held me in his gaze. James cut the moment short and began telling us about the song. It was an up tempo club hit and the lyrics were all about unwinding on a Friday night after a week of feeling like a zombie from work. It was called T.G.I.F. the beat was awesome and Calvin Harris had made it but he wouldn't be featured on the track. I liked this song and I had some great choreography for the video if we released it as a single.
`I like this. I wanna record as soon as possible.' I said not feeling the urge to go back to that empty apartment.
`I like your energy. I'm down for whatever I didn't have any plans today.' Trey said.
We worked in the studio through all the takes and it came out good because it was just groovy song and I didn't worry about vocals that much. I couldn't get over the way Trey was checking me out and the way he stared at me as we sang. It was making my mind wander off. I just acted as if I wasn't noticing it yet all the while I did all I could to get his attention and seduce him. We got done at around twelve and called it a night.
I was walking when I heard footsteps behind me and before I could turn to see who it was he was already walking besides me.
`That is quite an interesting song.' He started.
`Yes it is I do just that whenever I can after a long week or day.'
`The best way for me to unwind is sex.' His tone had changed.
From my experience with Chris I knew what that tone meant. I could get lucky tonight if Kelly Rowland didn't come to have her share from what they didn't finish in heart attack.
`I said alcohol because that's what's acceptable but my best remedy is hot steamy sex.' It takes away all the stress.
We were in a park now and it was dark with no one else around. `Today was long and quite tiring for me.' He said.
I liked where this was going. I saw a bench nearby and stopped. `I was going to sit and relax if I were alone but since I am with you I think I will do that once I am home.' I said and then crossed my fingers for the response I wanted to hear.
`My thoughts exactly.'
What thoughts? I said in my mind then hoped it was to sit and not go to our homes and relax. I smiled when he sat then I joined him and sat besides him.
`This temporarily relaxes me. Sex does the trick.' He said.
`Yes I get you. It always works for me.'
I could tell we were both scared to make the first move but I didn't want the small talk anymore all I wanted was action but I didn't have the courage to make a move on him. I feared I could have misread this and he would be talking about a woman and I would think he wanted it with me and then make it awkward when I had tried to fuck him.
There was silence. Only our breathing could be heard and the crickets that chirped in the moonless night.
I wish I could get it right now.' He said. I'm just so tired it would bring me to life.'
I laughed thinking of the most appropriate thing to say. `Yes that's my only wish right now. I want nothing more.'
`If we were both gay I would have my tongue down your throat right now, but there is only so few of them it's a rare possibility.' He said then sighed.
I put my hand on his crotch and rubbed it and felt his dick come to life. I drew my head closer to his ear and whispered. `As luck would have it I'm one of the few. I licked his ear and he grabbed my head with his strong palm and did as he wished, run his tongue down my throat. He tasted good, a strawberry flavor in his breath. His lips felt cotton soft as they interlocked with mine. I sat on his laps and hung both my hands on his strong neck. I felt his firm hands on my soft butt and he began squeezing me. I began to grind as I felt his dick get harder. Mine too was hard.
`I have waited all night for this.' He said after breaking the kiss.
`I can top that, I waited all my life for this.' I said then kissed him again.
`Lets get out of here.'
`My place or yours?' I asked.
`Mine.' He said and without wasting time lift me up and placed me on the ground.
I couldn't contain myself. I couldn't believe what was happening and I had to act fast before I woke up from this dream and realized I was still in Texas. As soon as he opened the door I grabbed him and began kissing him passionately. He dropped the keys and I pushed the door close with my leg. He lift me u, making me feel very light and turned around then pressed me on the door. He held me in that position and took control of the kiss now working his tongue and nearly vacuuming my tonsils. His lips tasted good and I would kiss them all night if I could. I broke the kiss and tilted my head up such that his lips pressed on my neck. He kissed it wildly and I closed my eyes when he went behind my ear and began nibbling on the most sensitive part of my body. I was experiencing outbursts of pleasure as he worked me in a way that no one had. My breathing got heavy and I hung my hands round his strong neck and enjoyed myself resisting the urge to let out a loud moan.
He took me away from the door still kissing me. My eyes were still closed I had no idea where I was going and when I felt my back on the soft surface I knew he had laid me on the couch. My legs were hung around his waist and I parted them when I lay so that he lay between them on top of me and my hands still hung on his neck. We took the time to look deep into each other's eyes. Mine were filled with passion in the heat of the moment but his told a different story. They had completion filling them and I could tell in that moment that he was complete and he wanted nothing more than me and that made love fill his eyes too. I held the back of his head and drew him closer to my lips and we kissed briefly then he lift me up and we made it for the stairs and he looked at me in a way that I hadn't seen before. Nobody had looked at me that way and it made me feel like I was the most important thing in his life.
As I was cradled in his arms I could see he held me like treasure. A rare Diamond that he had just found and was willing to keep at all cost. It was a bitter sweet moment for me. Before I could think any further he put me on the ground and we stood face to face. At 5'11 we stood the same height. He placed his palm on my cheek and ran it through my hair then drew me in for a short but passionate kiss that made my blood boil. I wanted more of that and I kissed him, this time for long. I couldn't wait. I wanted to feel his naked body, his skin on my skin as we felt the heat from each other. I wanted him in me and then we would sweat and rub in onto each other while locked in passion and exchanging essences. I wanted nothing more than that in that moment and as we kissed I began taking of his clothes beginning with his t-shirt and pausing there a while to feel the ridges on his abdomen.
His chest was broad and shapely and his nipples firm. I greased it and then gave it gentle squeezes and when I was satisfied I moved to his abs and ran my hand up and down for a full minute. He loved my soft and tender palms on his abdomen and he groaned inbetween the kiss. When I was done I moved my hand to his crotch area and rubbed it gently. He was hard already and it looked as though his boxers would explode at any time. I began squeezing inbetween rubbing and he liked it for louder moans came from his mouth which was still in tongue action with mine. Rubbing him aroused him because his kissing became violent and hungry. He began tried to take of my t-shirt and he failed then he tore it off and threw it on the ground. I had just unlished the animal in him and he undid my belt and rushed his hand into my boxers and began squeezing my ass hard I moaned out of pleasure and pain at the same time. I took my hands off his crotch and pulled down my pants and boxers then stepped out of them.
I was completely naked and I hugged him as he ran his hands all over my naked body and we were now chest to chest as I felt the warmth of his upper body on my upper body. I wanted that on our lower bodies as well so I undid his belt and pulled down his pants. His dick might have bounced up upon release because I felt it hit mine. I wanted to touch his manhood and feel it. I had imagined what it would be like for so long and now that I had the chance to see it and do more I had to do as I pleased with it.
We stopped kissing and took the time to look at each other. I couldn't explain my feelings for him I just wanted to show him. I hugged him and felt the warmth of his chocolate brown skin on my whole body then gathered all my strength and turned him around then pushed him on his bed and he lay facing me and his dick pointing up. I went and slowly positioned myself on top of him and kissed him on the lips. I went down and stopped on his neck and I kissed him there and then put my lips on his ears and nibbled on them. Next I went to his abdomen and started with his chest. His skin tasted of lavender, the same I had on my skin the night I went to Chris's house. I bit his nipples gently and he sighed. I went further down on his abs and then to what I had awaited for so long. I held his massive uncut cock in my hand and shook it playfully. It was darker than the rest of his body and it was thick and long about nine inches and with its foreskin intact.
I pulled the foreskin up and down in a slow rhythm and then took a sneak peek of him. His head now lay back and his eyes closed with pleasure. I pulled it down for the last time and forced its big mushroom head into the warm wetness of my mouth. I went down on a shorter length of its long shaft and stopped there, that was all I could take. I took my right hand and placed it on the remainder of the shaft and my left on his heavy hung balls and they filled my hand. When I was done I started to move my head up and down taking the foreskin with me at every movement and working my hand in the same rhythm as my head. My left gently squeezed and cupped his balls.
I was slow but sure for the first two minutes taking him out when my jaws got tired and when I took him in again I went fast and hard and I felt his hand in my hair playing with it and his breathing heavy. I had to leave him begging for more. I stopped and went for his lips then we kissed. He wanted in, I could tell from the way he kissed me. He rolled me over and came on top of me. I instinctively parted my legs and accommodated him. He kissed me began licking my neck with his wet tongue then the rest of my body. It was good and got my blood rushing.
He took my six inch cut meat in his hand and then his mouth. He began sucking me. Trey Songz was sucking my dick! He was good at it to and I felt his tongue rubbing the underside of my dick and the warm wetness of his mouth. If he went on like this for long I would come and ruin it. I pushed my head back and closed my eyes. I searched for his head and found it. There was not much hair to play with because his hair was cut short, very short you would just feel his scalp. When the pleasure began to intensify I took his head in both hands and began shoving it up and down my cock following his rhythm and making sure I wouldn't choke him. I began thrusting my hips up and down as well, face fucking Trey Songz from under him.
Yesss get me good like that. Oh yeah I like that.' I moaned as I felt myself closer to my goal. Keep it right there Trey. Aaaaaaah.'
Sensing I was about to come he stopped and I wanted to finish it off myself but I didn't. I simply took his cock and guided it to my mangina and slipped it in, yes I was no virgin. He was on his knees when he started fucking me. Slowly getting hi dick all the way in and then taking it all the way out. I was in no mood for that I wanted him to hit my prostate, my male g-spot fast with his massive cock and make me cum. Not many men had it all but he did, he had the looks, the body, the cock and he was good in the sack.
I put my legs up on his shoulders raising my fuck hole and I began jerking forward and backwards. He read this move and increased his pace as well. This position enabled us to keep eye contact and we stared at each other as he was deep inside me without any condom and I felt his hot throbbing cock reaching places I never knew I had. Sex was good. He began going fast and I could tell he was coming and as his pace increased he hit my g-spot more and I knew when he came I would too.
His breathing became erratic and he started going fast like a maniac all the while our eyes glued onto each other. His hip hit my ass cheeks fast and it began to produce a clapping sound and I could feel his nuts banging on my ass too. I took my dick in my hands and began stroking it and closed my eyes when I felt the cum erupting. I shot on myself and at that moment felt his seed warm inside my ass. He collapsed on top of me and kissed me with my eyes still closed and his manhood buried deep inside me.
As I reached the low of my orgasm I had but one question. What about Chris Brown.