The Change
As I followed my daily routine every morning before school... I had this deep feeling like today would be different. Like some big wheel of fate was set into motion. It made me anxious. I hate surprises. I live in a small town in pecos texas. Nothing much goes on here. It's boring to say the least. Everyone made it seem like high school was a big deal. You have your typical jocks, the popular group, the emomazing students that everyone are fond of, the nerds, and then you have me. I was a loner because I chose to be that way. I'm not into the superficial, lie to your face stab you in the back kind of people. So I made sure I kept away.
I'm not hot in anyway so it was easier for me to have my peace. See I am a little overweight but I'm cute. At least that's what my family say....
Not only has that not helped me with my social skills it attracts lots of harassment.
I'm used to it by now.
There's only one person who sees me for who I am though and his name is Bill.
He's the hottest jock around here, struttin his stuff like he owns the place.
It's ridiculous really. Like i said...not into the whole superficial thing.
but deep down inside I knew he was different.
When he looked at me.... he really looked at me. It gave me butterflies. His eyes were a golden brown. Almost like honey. I could get lost in those eyes for hours if I could.
He had the body of a god. It's funny though because up until we started high school he was always chubby. Then we return from the summer one year and he's completely transformed. I was jealous of course.
Not one girl gave him the light of day before. Now they're were all over him like the horny teenagers they were. typical.
He's a virgin. Which amazes me. It turns me on actually. He has all these girls who are more than willing to give themselves up, and he doesn't take advantage of it. I didn't realize I was soon to find out why.
Today is the first day of my junior year in high school. I hate first days. Everyone judges each other based on what they wear and what not. It sickens me.
As i pull up to the parking lot, I notice someone is waiting by my parking spot. I couldn't recognize who it was though. As I am driving closer I realize it's Bill. I feel nauseous. He's gotten so much hotter over the summer. I guess that shouldn't surprise me. He smiles once he notices me pull in. Oh that smile. I'm really going to be sick now. What could he possibly want?
I get out of my car.
"Hey" he says.
"Hey bill, how was your summer?"
"It was pretty boring, I just worked out most of the time."
"I've noticed." As I stare at his body I can't help but day dream about all the things I would love to do this boy. As I look up, he was staring at me with questioning eyes. I hope he didn't notice me staring intensely at his rock hard body. I looked away quickly.
I started to walk to the band hall, too embarrassed to say anything else. I really hope he didn't catch me staring. We have band first period together.
I hear him running to catch up to me.
"Hey where are you going in such a hurry?" What should I say?
"Um, I don't want to be late for class." Good excuse and it seems like it worked.
"Oh yea, so I missed you this summer." Did i just hear that correctly? He's got to be joking.
"You're joking right? We've never hung out outside of school grounds. You couldn't possibly have missed me"
"I'm not joking. I might not see you outside of school but I do see you everyday in class and stuff." I was never an entertaining friend so I still couldn't see how he missed me.
"Well what did you miss?" I was curious. He flashes a smile....swoon...
"I don't know. You don't treat me like other people do. I know I put on this facade of cockiness and arrogance, but you see the real me. I can tell by the look in your eyes when you talk to me and how you talk to me. You're a sweet funny guy, you know that?"
Woah, where was all this coming from? It caught me so off guard. It felt like my knees were going to buckle. I feel too weak to walk. I couldn't help but to shed a tear. Why was he being so nice to me? It was all too confusing.
I tried my hardest to keep my tear a secret but it was too late. He had this questioning, pained look on his face. Like he was afraid he had hurt me. Which he didn't.
"What's wrong? Was it something I said?"
"No one's ever been that nice to me before." This was getting highly embarrassing and awkward. I had a feeling he needed to tell me something and I don't think I was ready for whatever it was. I needed to set my head straight before I crumbled right in front of him.
"I need to..." RING. saved by the bell. I hurried off inside to find my seat.
"I'll see you later!" I yelled back to him while i ran off like a coward.
I looked back at him and he looked sad and sort of confused. What could possibly be going through his head right now? If only i knew. He seemed worried. I'm sure it's not that big of a deal.
The school day was dragging on and no matter how hard i tried i couldn't keep him out of my mind. I haven't had any classes with him so far. I don't know if that was a good thing or a bad thing.
The bell rang, signaling the end of my english class. I had biology next. I walk into class and took a seat in one of the desks in the back, then.... he walks in. There was something definitely wrong. I could tell it was eating him inside.
He looks at the back of the classroom and notices me. He smiles. His mood instantly changes. It seems like he was excited to see me. He makes his way to me. Oh no.
"Hey," he says, "do you mind if i sit next to you?"
"Um no. I don't mind. Wouldn't your friends be upset though? Because you're not sitting with them?"
"Who cares? They'll get over it." He's never done this before. I'm so confused. We've always had a small friendship nothing too serious. He definitely never sat by me in class before. I start to get some hope that he has some ounce of feelings for me, but i shot that down instantly. He's not into guys and even if he was he wouldn't be into me, that's for sure.
"So how's your day been?" He asked me with those questioning eyes from earlier.
"Fine I guess. Too long actually."
"I know what you mean. I was getting pretty depressed that I didn't have you in any of my classes. I was starting to get worried. Until know." He smiled but it was a half smile. I think i like that smile better. It was cute.
"You know, I don't understand why you're acting like this. It's kinda freaking me out." He lets out a raspy laugh.
"I don't really understand it myself." At that moment the teacher started the class bringing our conversation to a halt. I knew it wasn't over though. I had a feeling like we were going to have a lot more conversations from now on.
As class dragged on, i couldn't help but glance at him from time to time. I caught him glancing at me a couple of times which would make us look away fast hoping the other didn't catch them staring.
The bell rang and class was over. As i was packing up my stuff I heard him mutter something that sounded like "well that was interesting" but I wasn't too sure. It was an interesting experience though. I've never felt anything like it before. There was this sort of energy pull between us.
As I was walking out of class I felt his hand on my arm. He pulled me to the side so he could talk.
"Do you think we could hang out sometime?" His eyes were so intense.
"Sure" I blurted out before even thinking about what to say.
"Awesome, what about tonight?" He wasted no time.
"Um sure if you want. What do you want to do?" What could we possibly do? In such a little town, there wasn't anything entertaining. That's why every girl in this school is pregnant or on drugs. It's sad really.
"You can come over to my place. It'll be fun. We can watch movies or something." My heart was beating so fast. I was really nervous.
"Ok. text me later or whatever." I was elated. Words couldn't explain how i felt at this moment, like my heart would explode out of my chest. He put his hand around my shoulder and we walked to our next class.
"Don't bail on me now. I'll be devastated." I wanted to just kiss him right then and there.
"I'll be there I promise" He smiled his have grin again. I wonder why he started smiling like that. It's REALLY cute.
We break off and go our separate ways to our own classes. I was so excited i wanted to cry. I had a feeling something was going to happen. Something big. I wonder what.
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