The Bate Log By Benji Bright
3/27/16 - 11:49 p.m. Bedroom Had a weird idea to document my masturbation habits. I don't do it often, not with Julian around to take care of 'things' for me. Never been good at keeping a diary. Maybe this will keep me motivated. Haha. So today's jerk off was in bed, after Julian fell asleep. No porn, no lube, no problem. Felt ok.
5/25/16 - 6:15 p.m. Office Bathroom Kinda forgot about this record until today. Worked late, so when I finally made my deadline I excused myself to the bathroom for some 'recovery' time. Haha. I watched some studio porn scene I found on a tube site and made my dick spit into some toilet tissue. Sexy.
8/2/16 - 2:08 p.m. Living Room Yikes! I let this go by the wayside, huh? I'm home for a while with my knee, might as well take advantage of the peace and quiet, right? I spent about a half hour scanning through porn before I remembered I was supposed to be working from home. Shot off to a group scene. Not bad. Back to work.
8/5/16 2:15 a.m. Guest Bedroom Julian's asleep, but I'm still feeling pretty worked up, so I came down to the guest bedroom to take care of myself. I guess time kind of got away from me. I spent a while jerking off and trying to find the exact right 'thing' to get off to. Didn't manage to find what I was looking for until late. Felt pretty damn good when I finally shot.
8/10/16 5:35 p.m. Office Bathroom The stragglers in my office finally cleared out. I don't know what got me so keyed up, but I keep thinking about porn and about jerking my cock at work. I'm supposed to meet Julian for drinks with friends, but I'm going to be a little late. I couldn't help heading into the bathroom. I brought headphones with me and took my time stroking it to some fucking built cam dude doing the same. I managed to shoot all over the door of the stall. Awesome.
8/10/16 12:15 a.m. Master Bathroom Julian is on the couch watching TV. I thought he'd be in bed by now, but I guess he napped today after he got out of work, but before drinks. I'd hoped I could get another long jack session in after he fell asleep, but no luck. Had to go up to the bathroom and lock myself in with my headphones and porn. Felt good to block out the noise from downstairs and focus on myself. Started chatting with a buddy who likes jacking off, too.
9/5/16 3:32 p.m. Master Bedroom It started to get a little crazy for a bit there. Last month I definitely took it too far. I haven't really been chatting too much with my jackoff buddy and I've seriously cut down. I didn't document most of those sessions. Maybe I was feeling a little embarrassed by how much I was doing it. Anyway, I've decided to use this log to hold myself accountable for how much time I'm wasting on masturbation. But today, since it's been a while and Julian isn't around, there's no harm in some self-indulgence. I jerked off to a video of a guy with a beautiful ass fingering himself. Not usually my thing, but he looked like he was having a good fucking time. Haha.
9/23/16 10:35 a.m. Living Room I fucked up. I woke up early and started chatting with a new buddy from one of the sites. We have a lot in common and he sent me some stuff that really turned my crank. Julian went off to work and I figured I'd be right behind him as soon as I blew my load, but the chat with this new dude just kept getting hotter and hotter. By the end of it he had me trying to finger myself, which is something I haven't really enjoyed in the past. But this time it worked. I came so fucking hard. I also called out of work. Fuck.
10/2/16 5:45 p.m. My Desk I'm wearing the new butt plug, which had me leaking most of the day. I kept worrying that it would fall out, so I stayed at my desk most of the day, which of course meant that it was stimulating me through work. I kept getting texts from a few buddies, keeping me leaking in my boxer briefs. After a particularly heated exchange I reached down to give myself a quick grope and ended up shooting off in my pants like a teenager. Lucky they're dark.
10/8/16 11:00 p.m. Parking Lot Julian's out of town and my new buddy told me about bathhouse in town where you can watch guys get into all sorts of trouble. He dared me to go. So I did. I didn't do anything myself, just watched. It wasn't crazy busy but I watched a few guys go at each other. Including this one dark haired kid--I mean, 18, 19?--who kept saying he'd like to fuck me. I waited until I was in my car to jerk off. I kept thinking about that kid with his dark hair and dark eyes, mouthing the words: "I want to fuck you so bad."
10/9/16 12:20 p.m. Master Bedroom Julian walked in on me in bed, jerking off. He didn't make a big deal out of it, but I know he's upset because we haven't fucked in a while. But it's not the same with him. The sex feels good, but when I'm jerking off there's complete control. There's mastery. I don't know how to explain it to him. I don't know that I could. I finished stroking myself when he left the room. It took a while to get back into it, but once I turned the sound up and all of those moans, all the wet sounds of holes being filled, of bottles of poppers being huffed--they drew me back in and held on to me tight. I came harder than I have for a long time.
10/11/16 6:19 a.m. Home Office The downstairs bedroom is now my home office. I've been working from home more and more and figured that there should be dedicated space for me to get my work done. Of course, I've also been using it as my personal masturbation space. I spent all night jacking off. I couldn't sleep. If I'm honest, I barely tried. My cock wants me to be in the dark, watching Porn and being consumed by it. I almost came to a video of a beautiful dick erupting over and over, but I held out. I don't want it to be over. I don't want it to ever be over. My cock loves this and I love my cock.
11/1/16 7:23 p.m. Bathhouse A few of us met up and stroked off in the sauna. The dark-haired kid was there. His name's Eddie. We didn't fuck, I made it clear that that's not what I was looking for, but we sat side-by-side, legs touching, and exposed our bates to each other. I liked the way he stroked his fat cock and tilted his head back. His tongue kept tracing his lower lip. I jerk off faster than he does, but I made myself slow down to match his pace. I know he wanted to do more, I could feel him wanting more, but keeping him leashed to his own cock turned me on so fucking much. I made him focus on pleasuring himself while desiring me and when he eventually shot his load, it went everywhere. The other guys were as impressed as I was. Eddie is a fucking stud. I want to bate with him again, for sure.
11/3/16 6:50 p.m. Living Room Julian needs space, he says. So he's with his sister for the week. I'm sure they're talking shit about me, but I'm finding it hard to care. Eddie came over a little after noon and we smoked some weed and got our dicks out. He's turning into a real Bator. Even after hours of porn, he couldn't take his eyes off the screen or his hand off his cock. We took a break to eat and drink, but it was back to stroking before long. He's got such a hot, hungry cock and he likes to stuff his hole, too. I told him next time he should bring his toys. I'd love to see him jerk off while abusing that tight ass of his.
12/25/16 11:34 p.m. Living Room I spent all morning, afternoon, and night worshipping my cock. I don't see a reason to stop. Eddie said he couldn't come over, has stuff to do. He's not as focused as I am. I keep trying to convince him to go deeper. I accidentally shot my load on cam yesterday and the guys went nuts for it. They wanted me to start again right away, so I did. It was fucking hot. They're my real family. They know what's best for me. So I started jerking off for them again right away. It's the least I can do for all the pleasure they give me. For how deep into my bate hole they help me to go. But I can always go deeper. I will always go deeper.
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