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Chapter 3. This is my chance.
"Why am I doing this," I asked myself. Temptations to cheat arose, but in addition to that, I felt considerable resentment about having to do something so difficult and so demeaning. Three minutes. Last night, I could barely manage two. "do I really want to go through with all this?" I asked myself more than once. The answer quickly came back, repeatedly: "Yes. It's Billy. The object of so much fantasy is now going to become a reality."
Something stirred within me, an inner sense of thrill. My inner slaveboy was awakening and whispering to me,
"Now is your chance. Now is the moment when you can become what you always pretended you wanted to be. This is what is meant for you by the Universe. Be the boy Billy wants you to be. Trust his judgment. He knows what is good for you. He has been planning your metamorphosis for ten years now, and how you have yearned for him! Do it. Don't fight off those handcuffs like you did back in the Hellfire Club. Surrender. Obey. It isn't really that big a thing. A lot of men take cold showers, it's nothing special. Or is your comfort more important than what Billy wants from you?"
My cock was hard but I had been ordered not to touch it. Again, I realized that I could cheat and he wouldn't know the difference. But I would know. "Surrender, Dorothy! Surrender, Alex. Get your ass up and into the shower and set your timer for three minutes. Let it soften your cock and make it useless. Submit. Oh, this would be so much easier if Billy were here watching me! But I have to prove to myself that I could let him rule me. Oh, how my insides quiver at the thought."
I got up off my slaveboy bed and, in a bit of a trance, I went into the bathroom, turned on the water and set the timer. And, taking a deep breath (and a hit of poppers), I got under the water. It was more difficult than accepting lashes from a Dom at the club. I remembered how I used to condition myself mentally to take the pain and how so often the pain turned into pleasure. Could I actually feel pleasure, standing here naked and cold and trembling. YES! I took another hit and imagined the cold water hitting my trembling flesh was Billy's whip. Almost forgetting myself, I picked up the bar of soap and quickly scrubbed myself. The scrubbing made it easier to take the pain of the cold. And then, suddenly, the timer went off. Wow! This didn't seem as long as the last time. Quickly I turned off the water and ran my hands down my body trying to push off the water that remained on my trembling body. Like a dog, I shook myself dry and left the shower.
I peed and brushed my teeth and started to shave. Surely it was okay to use warm water to shave? I couldn't cold shave or I'd have nicks all over my face. Would he want that? No. It felt strange, the warm water on my razor while my body still trembled, still wet. This was so damn humiliating! Did he know that? I heard my phone ding and as soon as I washed the shaving cream off my face, I practically ran to the phone. It was a text from Billy.
I want you to know that I would never ask you to do something I haven't done myself. The only way a true Dom can be formed is by serving as a submissive. I know what you are feeling and I can hear what you are thinking. I know what it's like. I am very pleased with you, Alex. You are going to be a good boy for me and a fine slave some day.
That was so reassuring. I replied:
Trembling on the outside from the cold and trembling on the inside from the reality of my obedience and my submission to you, Master.
Another text came through:
I have to train you how to think, how to write, how to speak. Instead of "my" when referring to yourself, boy, say "its," and capitalize any word referring to any Master at any time. Therefore, "You," not "you." Understand?
Yes, Sir. It has used these rules in the past. It will practice them well. Thank You, Master.
He sends through a "thumbs up."
Eat your breakfast naked. Remain naked until it is time to go shopping. Reread the instructions I sent you yesterday and make sure you obey them all. Get dressed in a pair of shorts, no underpants, a t-shirt and sandals without socks. Go and do your chores. Make sure the new jock is tight. Once you get back home you may wear it for the rest of the day unless you are wet. Take another shower when you get back home and then do what you need to do to notify people you will be away. When you clean out the refrigerator and put things in a trash bag, also throw away all of your underpants, boxers, etc. You will no longer be allowed to wear these things. They are for free men only, not boys like you. I will be in touch around lunch time.
Yes, Master.
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