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College was going great. I enjoyed my time there but i also enjoyed the time spent with my band and friends. On the other hand things weren't so well with sara. Her and i had been getting into more arguements and most of the time they were about stupid things.
"listen cindy, i don't think it's fair for you to be out all night with the guys and with others i dont know. I mean god you could cheat on me if you wanted to!"
"Sara, you know i'd never do that and besides the time i spend with my band and friends is just us getting drunk and acting stupid. You know, being loud and being funny. It's not like we're having some big orgy."
"oh ok so you think it's funny then?"
After she said this i could tell she was very serious and at the same time very worried that she'd lose me.
"listen babe, you are the one for me. Nobody will take your place ok?" As i said that i walked up to her and leaned in and kissed her. I didn't think she was really in the mood but she responded back and we began to make out. While kissing i let my hands roam free and they found their way to her wonderful ass. yeah, she has an AMAZING ass. the kissing continued but became more heated. we began to head towards the bed. once there i removed her shirt and bra and was amazed at how wonderful of a body she has. i was lucky enough to be able to kiss every part of her. she began to kiss my neck and move up to my ear while i'd rub her breasts. i soon became on top and thenr emoved whatever other clothing she had. as i moved my way down i kept kissing her body. at this point she was just moaning and rubbing my shoulders. I began to lick her clit and she kept moaning and moaning. after that i put into three fingers. while doing this her and i began to make out even more. i could tell that within seconds she'd be done but i loved every second of it. finally she calmed down but we continued to kiss for hours. finally we just cuddled there and fell asleep for the afternoon.
I awoke to my phone ringer and for some reason i was in a hurry to answer it.
"hello?" i said.
"dude cindy it's me fred and i have some news to break. this summer we're gonna be goin on a southwestern tour with a couple of bands! guess who the bands are!!"
"God frank i dont know!"
"fine! anyways it's the starting line and yellowcard. how fucking amazing is that?!"
"you got to be kidding me! when does the tour start and what venues are we going to?" "well i do know it starts in a week and we will be hitting up our own home town..."
"shit though, i dont think sara can come and i think she'll flip!"
"who gives a shit on what she thinks, cmon dude!"
"Yea you're totally right but i have to go but i'll call you later."
After hearing this news i was quite shocked but also worried about what sara would think. I decided to go talk to her about it and see how she'd react.
"Hey babe listen i have some good and bad news. I'm going to be on tour for two months and i leave in a week."
"Cindy you have to be kidding me. I mean i'm very happy for you but you'll be gone! what the hell am i supposed to do?"
"well i will be in tucson for one show so visit me there and at a few other places."
"still babe. well i guess you'll have fun with the boys but promise me you wont do anything stupid. I love you so much and it's just i don't want to lose you ok?"
"Alright honey, things will be fine."
Two weeks after i recieved that call i was in my hometown and i had two days before the gig just to relax and wander around. I decided to meet up with some friends for dinner the first night.
"cindy, i can't believe you've made it this far!" breanna said.
"i mean it was just yesterday you guys were barely starting up and now look at you miss rockstar!"
"ha, yea time goes by fast but at least i'm doing something i enjoy. anyways has anything big happened while i've been gone?"
"oh nothing really, i mean we're all in college now but besides that nope." breanna said.
"any of you up for a bar tonight?" i said.
"yeah dude let's go! it's been awhile since i've had anything to drink, i've been so busy!" amber said.
Once we arrived to the bar and order all of our drinks we began to recall old memories.
"haha dude, remember during spring break and how wasted the rest of us got? god that was amazing...oh wasn't nicole there? didn't you two date or something along those lines?" breanna said.
"haha you kids were dumbasses that night...but yea we did but it doesn't matter anyways." i said tyring to play it off.
"whatever you say capn!" said sierra.
After a few minutes of us drinking and being the normal rejects we are i decided i better call it a night since i had to visit my family in the morning.
"Well i'm out kids but give me a call tomorrow and don't forget the show in two days ok?" I said.
As i walking towards the door this beautiful brunette that was very atheltic and tall walked by me. at that moment i looked at her and realized it was someone i knew from way back when. I was trying to find the words to say to to her but she found them first.
"cindy, what are you doing here?" nicole said this smiling and gave me a huge hug.
"hey! I just finished up some drinks with the girls...anyways how are you doing?" i said trying to be polite but really i was i had so many mixed emotions going through me.
"Hey why don't you and i go somewhere quiet to talk, oh say a cafe?"
Once we got to the cafe i was wondering how we'd act in front of each other and what would be said. I was actually excited to see what would happen.
"cindy how are you and sara?" nicole said.
"oh we're doing great. it sucks though because i'm not gonna see her for two months since i'm on tour and she has summer classes back in cali."
"you're on tour? whoa...you're gettin pretty famous huh? haha i'm sure you could get any girl you want." nicole said.
After she said this i had to laugh to myself because we all know that there was a girl i wanted but she screwed that up herself.
"so nicole any handsome guys for you now days? i mean last i knew was that you and mike were dating or maybe that was fooling around." yeah i was being a smartass but cmon!
"listen cindy, that was a long time ago and you know i fucked up! jesus, i mean you knew i wanted you but no you like to keep me hanging." she said this with some bitterness but also some sadness.
"me keep YOU hanging? wow babe you have it backwards. i mean who was it who told you they cared for you first and yet you turned your back on me. who was it who cheated on me? oh yea, you. So don't even try to blame this one on me." I said this and decided to leave because i wasn't about to have some big arguement in front of people i didn't know with this girl. As i was walking outside i got a phone call from stephanie.
"hey cindy, you ok? You sound very upset."
"yeah i am actually. hey old on i'm gonna put ya speakerphone because i need a cigarette and i need to find my lighter."
"Ok so cindy what in the fuck happened? Why are you so upset?" Stephanie said.
"well i ran into nicole tonight and lets just say it was bittersweet. I mean we all know i'll always have feelings for her. I mean she was what made my life complete and nobody, not even sara has done that yet. Thing is though we also know that nicole betrayed me and i lost all hope for her."
"Cindy give her another chance. I mean you'd be even happier and just look at you, you know you want her back."
"fuck it dude. We all know that if i did go back with her she'd crush me again and again just like she use to. that's all she's good at, brekaing hearts and ruining love. ha yea, i dont know what drugs i was on in the first place to fall for someone who'd just fuck me over in the end."
"whatever you say cindy...just be happy ok? Well i love ya dude but i'll talk to you later."
After her and i hung up i finished my cigarette and said outloud, "i hope you kill me before nicole has the chance to kill any other feelings i have."
I then stood up and got in my car and drove off because i was way too tired of all this bullshit.
During my whole conversation with stephanie, nicole had been around the corner and heard everything that was being said. She had finally felt so much guilt that it killed her. She hadn't realized how much cindy loved her and how bad it hurt her when nicole cheated on her. Nicole realized she had to do something big to make it up but that's if there was even a chance.
i called stephanie up the next day to see if the plans were still on. "ok dude so is the party still on for tonight?"
"fuck yes it is, there's gonna be about 50 to 75 people coming over." stephanie said.
"yessssss finally i get to get wasted with you fools again. it's just like highschool!" I said.
While at stephanies that night all of my best friends and i got so wasted that we decided to play the dare game. our dare game was basically for dumbasses because the things we did were, well dumbass. So it was my turn and my dare was to jump from the roof to the the nearby tree in front of stephanies house. haha dumb as hell but we all thought it'd be funny. So there i was laughing my ass off on the roof with everyone cheering me on. I got a count down and when it came to 2 i decided to just jump. well i made it to the tree but i didn't stick to it so to say. The next thing i knew i was on the grass and saw everyone laughing.
"cindy, get up. cindy!"
Some voice was calling my name and i didnt know who. I opened one eye and realized it was the next day.
"no fuck that...im tired." i said to whoever tried to wake me up.
finally the person grabbed me and stood me up. thats when i opened my eyes to see nicole. I was also still outside and i guess i passed out after the tree incident.
"what are you doing here?" i said.
"i live down the street and i drove by this morning and saw you passed out front. did you have fun last night?" she said.
"haha wow...yea though, it was a blast. wow i gotta sit down or something." i said. the headache was kicking in.
"c'mon, lets go to my house and get you fixed up."
When we got to nicoles house memories such as when i first kissed her started to come back. If only things were to have worked out...
"Cindy where in the hell did you get these cuts from?" she said worried.
"Oh i jumped off the roof to a tree last night. you should have seen it, it was so rad."
"wow...ok letme clean em up."
She then got some alcohol wipes and band aids. i had one cut on my chest and i told her i could clean but she said it'd be better if she did. i didn't argue after that. while she was cleaning i noticed she'd take her time. Nicole then stood up to throw away the wipe but before she realized it i grabbed her arm and pulled her closer to me. there we were only a few inches apart and i had to do it. we both just looked into each others eyes for a few moments but finally gave in and kissed. it was slow at first but soon it got faster. before i knew it there i was laid out on her kitchen counter top with her on top of me. god it had been so long since her and i had even kissed but let alone had sex. nicole removed my shirt and she had a huge grin but tehn began to kiss my neck. meantime i had my hands printed on her ass. the girl had a nice body, i mean she was in every sport during highschool. she moved from ym neck to my breasts and started to suck on my nipples. wow did it feel good. i began to moan and i saw her grin after that. from there she moved down farther and undid my pants. oh was i overly excited. she slipped in two fingers but then one. she was doing so well and then we started to make out. her tongue was so amazing! right when i was about to climax i got a phone call.
"fuck me, who is it?!" i said.
"oh i'd love to fuck you..." nicole said.
I did a double look because i would have enver assumed for her to say something like that. Anyways i looked at my phone and it was sara....shit!
"hey baby! how are you?" i said.
"guess what love!!! im in town right now!!! i wanted to come visit you for your show tonight and see your friends and what not! aren't you excited?!" after she said this i felt my heart sink.
"oh, yeah thats wonderful! where exactly are you right now?"
"i'm at my parents house but listen pick me up in about 30 minutes and i'll go to yuor soundcheck with you! ok well see ya then!"
after i hung up i just got dressed and looked at nicole. I didn't know what to do. I mean i liked sara so much and she was so loyal but i loved nicole. what in the hell was i to do?
"so who was that?" nicole asked.
"oh it was sara...i guess shes in town and is gonna go to my soundcheck with me...i guess i have to go but listen im sorry...i didn't think things would be like this..." i said this hoping she'd understand.
"no it's fine, whatever though. I'll see you later."
After i left nicoles house i had to go pick up sara. on the way to sara's house i kept thinking of nicole and how perfect she was. it'd be so hard for me to decide but i'd just have to wait for the right moment.
When i walked into sara's house i was greeted with a big hug from her.
"baby i missed you so much! you don't even understand!" sara said.
"i'm glad you came babe..." i said.
Sara and i then decided to head to my sound check since my band had to get ready. I wasn't nervous at all about the show but more worried about nicole. that girl always had me and i think she always will. anyways the sound check went fine and sara and i just walked around downtown tucson while we had time to waste. it was fun being with her but i kept thinking of nicole. While sara and i were walking back to the venue a line began to form and i was kinda suprised so many kids would be there that night. well it just wasnt kids i mean sure there were some college people too and even some people who were in their 30's or older. while sara and i talked with some of the people there i could have sworn i saw nicole. Maybe i was losing it but i would have given anything for her to be there. I don't even think she was going to come after what happened this afternoon.
It was around 7:00 when my band finally went on. we were doing great and the crowd was also going crazy but before we knew it we had one song left. oddly enough i wrote this song a long time ago about nicole. i laughed at first thinking what if she was hear right now. anywho we played the song and ended our show pretty well. the rest of the night was fun with friends and the other band members but i was still hoping to see nicole. finally the show was done and the crowd was moving out. i walked sara to her car and i was gonna get a ride with our drummer but as we were walking to her car i ran into nicole finally. sara didn't notice nicole and kept talking away but i froze and looked at nicole.
"listen sara i gotta go but call me later ok?" i said this and gave her a hug and hurried off.
"where the fuck is she? fuck! god how did i lose her again..." i was so pissed that nicole walked off and that i had lost her.
I decided to head back to the venue and help the guys.
"cindy pass me those cables dammit!" our guitarist tom said.
I was too busy thinking about nicole.
"dude honestly what the hell is wrong with you?" tom said.
"you wouldn't understand...i lost nicole again and i think this was it..." we were on stage discussing this when i heard soemone in the back of the club say, "no you didn't."
"you didn't lose me babe. If anything i'm scared that i lost you."
After nicole said this i ran towards her and picked her up and kissed her so much.
while her and i were hugging i began to cry. this was the girl from way back when that meant so much to me that i had to learn to function without her.
"nicole i'm so sorry...please forgive me...listen im going to sort things out tonight with sara but you are the one for me..." i said this and continued to cry in ehr shoulder.
"cindy don't worry, i love you."
after we left the venue we went back to nicoles. right as we entered the door she threw me against the wall and plunged her tongue in my mouth. my hands went straight for her ass. we were going everywhere in her house and ended up on the couch. we couldn't wait any longer. She was on bottom this time and i started to lick her ear but then went down her neck and kept sucking it. i could tell she enjoyed it because her hands were digging deep in my back. i'd tease her and stop just to see what she'd do and i guess she didnt like it. after the neck i sucked on her nipples for a long time and would lick them and she'd just moan then. i knew she wanted me to go down on her so i finally i removed her pants and began to lick up all her sweet juices. she wrapped her legs around my head and i just licked faster then. after that i finally slid one finger in, then two then three. i knew she was really having fun. while fingering her i went back up and kissed her like it was the last time we'd ever kiss. we continued to have sex for hours on end until we finally fell asleep in each others arms.
after that night i had to go back on tour and nicole would visit me whenever she got the chance. sara and i broke up the day after the concert. of course she was upset but she realized it was better for me to be dating the person i loved and not faking love with her. i hear from her every once in awhile and i think she became straight because she's been dating some guy for awhile. Nicole and i are still dating and i'm as happy as can be. i've finished college and she too. we're living in san diego right now along with my band. my band finally got signed and life is great...the only thing left is to have kids...haha that's gonna be a funny one to try.