Disclaimer: If you are not allowed to read this, Don't. If you don't want to read about a homosexual relationship, leave. This is a work of fiction, there are not claims about the sexual orientation of any member of NSYNC especially Lance Bass. Permission is granted to post this anywhere as long as it is free. Copyrighted March 2000 by tamtaylor_2000. Thanks Rachel, I appreciate the help Some stories I like are Escape, Choices, Rob and Lance, Ryan and Lance and Others.
Chapter 3:
Lance lay on his bed thinking about the kiss. "why did I just leave? I bet he hates me know and I don't blame him. I need to talk to someone about this. I know, I will call JC, he can help me." Lance starts looking for his cell phone. He finds it in the night stand next to the bed. He quickly dials JC number. On the 3rd ring a groggy JC answers "Hello". "JC Lance asks?" "Scoop, It's 2am, what's up?" JC asked. "I need to talk to you" Lance replied. "OK Scoop, shoot". JC replied. "JC I fucked up, I met this guy here, he is the most incredible person I have ever seen. He just captured me and I cannot get over the hold he has on me. I saw him when I got here this afternoon, and later after they got me settled in I took a walk around the place to get acquainted and I heard this music and followed it and there he was playing the piano and singing "Music of my heart" and I started singing it with him. He must have realized he was not alone anymore because he stopped and I told him I liked it. We introduced ourselves and he passed out when he realized who I was. I got a nurse and we moved him back to his room and I waited until he woke up and told me he was a fan. He likes us, BSB, and Savage Garden. He told me he had lost his wife and children in an accident and he started to cry, I could not help it, I just wrapped him up in a hug and let him cry it out. When he got composed he kissed me and I liked it. Then I just walked out. God what a dumbass I am." Lance broke down at this point and started sobbing like his heart was breaking. JC just sat there stunned he knew that Lance was gay, they all did, but this was the first time he had ever found someone that he liked. JC knew that he needed to help Lance with this. "Lance, Lance" JC called. " I need you to listen to me, calm down and go to sleep, I will be there in the morning and I will help you work through this. We will go back and talk to this guy and you can tell him what happened and how you feel, OK?" JC said. "OK, JC I will do that. See you in the morning. I just hope I can fix this" Lance sobbed. "I am sure you can Scoop, see you in the morning." JC said. " bye JC", "bye Scoop". The bed next to JC moved, "What was that all about, lover" JC bed mated asked. "I will explain tomorrow, let go back to sleep" JC stated and then rolled over and snuggled up to his lover and they fell asleep.
I lay awake under the covers. Sleep just would not come. All I could think about was that stupid kiss. How could I have been soo stupid and do something like that. I kissed Lance Bass. I will be lucky if he don't have me arrested. I kissed another man. I am not gay am I? I was married for 13 years to a wonderful woman and within 3 months I am kissing a man. What has happened to me. All I can think about is those eyes. They have had me soo captured and I lose my mind when I look into them. The big problem I see for myself if I don't end up in jail is that I liked kissing Lance and Lance kissing me. I don't believe in labels, so I guess if I like it, I must be BI at least. I could not believe I was entertaining these thoughts and the most difficult thought was that if Lance forgave me (YEA RIGHT) I would love to do it again. But we are talking about Lance Bass, a singer in one of the hottest bands in the world. He cannot be gay. That's why he left the room you dummy. I never believed that a person could hold this much power over me, but damnit Lance does. How can I possible get over this. I am so obsessive about this. Tam you are a dumbass, I told myself. I need to sleep and forget this ever happened, because if I don't I will never let this go. I am afraid I am falling I love with this hot little guy. I cannot believe I think that. Where are the sleeping pills when you need them. Maybe if I go to sleep when I wake up in the morning, this will all be a dream and I want have ruined my life. Lets hope so.
Let me know what you think of this. This is my first attempt at writing so be gentle. Sorry so short, I needed to get this on paper. I hope to hear from someone on this story. I need feedback and some ideas of what all to add to this. I have a basic plot but I want to expand it. Take a guess at who JC's bed mate is. Emails to tamtaylor_2000@yahoo.com. See ya soon.
Tell me that I'm Dreaming
Author: tamtaylor_2000@yahoo.com