"The alex series" book 2: Sweet Subjugation
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Chapter 31 Yet more emails and a side dish.
Slave,
you please Me with your words almost as much as you do with your tongue. But both belong to Me, so I will continue to enjoy both.
Don't worry about Michael. Someone is interested in him and it will be a very good match for both of them. And be assured that Gregor will no longer approach him. We are taking care of that, understanding that you slave bois do not have a lot of common sense when it comes to choosing Doms to hook up with. I hope you get the humor there, boy: you did not choose Me, I chose you. I could very easily have walked out of that bathroom after an unsatisfying blow job, but for some reason decided to take a look and see who it was who needed lessons in cocksucking. But then I realized that you needed much more than that; in fact, your yearning to be taken care of drew Me in, but not really in an affectionate way. I was responding to your need to be taken care of on several different levels. And you are adorable. That helped, too. But just let's keep the record straight. I chose you. And my inner intuition told Me I could handle this boi's neediness. So I took you captive, right there that night. Never delude yourself that something else happened.
I have to say that I am always sensitive to the fact that you are still grieving your father, but without tears. And, brandon, tears pull up a lot of stuff out of us. When you cry for Me or because of Me, boi, it is okay with Me if some of those tears are for your Dad as well.
Never think of me as a substitute for your Dad. That would be a most regrettable situation. I know that part of your kink is sometimes feeling like a little boi, but it is not a real little boi, it is just a feeling. Otherwise I won't allow it and will have make a few changes in My plans. This could become quite a problem. Please refuse to think any of those kinds of thoughts. They could ruin everything. Obviously, I am being very serious about this.
I shed a tear when I read your analogy about the little lost boi finding its home and then could begin to cry. This is a much better image for you to keep in your mind. Just a suggestion.
Punishing you is a major head-trip for me, slave. It is then that you are mostly like a real slave. It is a promise to Me of what is to come. And for you, it should be seen as a warning. And you were correct: The second lash was much harder than the first. I'm glad you realize that I am holding back. You need to find ways to show Me how grateful you are about that. But don't get false hopes: the severity will continue as I begin to understand where your outer points are when it comes to pain.
I am looking forward to our next time together. I am going to claim your body in a special way, and it takes a good long time. I want every inch of your body understand that I am its Owner. As for trust, slave, trust can't be commanded; it has to be earned. If I have not yet earned a large measure of your trust, you never would have surrendered to my punishing you last night. And this next session we have will also be about trust: trusting that I know what I am doing well enough that I will learn your limits without having to go beyond them all the time. (Only some of the time.)
Concerning your ability at foot service: I am pleased. I am also acutely aware that slaves perform better orally after they've been punished. Not just whipped; that can occur any time. I'm speaking of real punishment, just as you have experienced. But as I think of it, it's probably just the fact that a slave is more humble and wanting to please after a beating. And also, gratitude. I know you've been feeling that even before I read your email. It comes through in the way you obey Me. In all things.
When others see you in the showers, be proud of yourself, dude. How many of the guys staring at you would ever have the guts or the ability to take what you have taken from another Man? Or be willing to surrender their right to masturbate? And if any of them are actually interested, they will make their interest known in time, I assure you.
It is very important to Me that you are obeying My wishes when it comes to what you see or watch or read on the Internet. I am expecting you to read through "the alex Chronicles" this week. I dare you to do a book report on it! The Professor would be very pleased, especially if He hasn't read that book yet. But most guys in their 20's probably already have read it. I hope so! It will do them some good. Help them not be afraid of setting boundaries, and if they think they might be domineering, it will show them a good way to go about it without wounding potential subs physically or emotionally. You'll understand a lot more about that once you've finished the book. And obviously I will be happy to hear your reactions, just as I feel you should open to Me anything in your mind or your life for My knowledge and to help Me take greater possession of you.
I really enjoyed the look on your face when Professor Keaton opened the door when we arrived at His place. I deliberately didn't tell you because I didn't want to take away the joy of finding out for yourself. He is a valuable ally to all of the LGBT people on campus and also do those who share our own interests. I'm especially delighted to know I have yet another way to look in you whenever I want to. But most importantly, He is an ally for you in a very special way. Never hesitate to turn to Him for anything.
I don't need to say much about Chuck since we already discussed it in the car. As for me, it is just a reminder that many of the Dom friends I have are not interested in dealing with beginners or virgins, so it could be in some cases that the way our relationship looks at this point is not something they would want to have to spend time with. I know that Chuck was upset with me when I went back into the dungeon room to unclip you from the position He put you in. That's not what most of the Doms in My group would have done. I think I lost points in Chuck's eyes. Don't be concerned and definitely do not feel guilty about this in any way, brandon. You are going through the same thing, and probably even more repeatedly in your case. You are losing points with some of the fellows you know because of what you are doing as well. Our lifestyle isn't very well understood.
I am happy to know that you will surrender your balls to My binding for as long as you can. You can text for permission if needed. Just remember that they are telling you that you have a Master who is interested in your balls. I don't remember if I told you, but just in case, I'll tell you again: always try to keep your legs spread to give Me easier access to what is between them. This is standard slave etiquette. Observe it.
You are a good boi. and you are a sweet boi. And please consider the fact that yours isn't the only life that is changing in this partnership of ours. Think if you can about how much mine is changing as well. I guess that means we have a good thing going.
I'll sign off for now. I have no other concerns at the moment. I would prefer that you not eat any meat this week until I give permission again.
Master
---at school---
brandon wakes up later than he though he would and realizes he has to rush to get to his first class. Without even thinking about it, he jumps out of bed and runs down to the bathroom because he really has to pee. It's only when he gets there that he remembers he has to sit down to do it. Hey, that's a good thing! More privacy.
He decides not to take a shower because no time and too many guys around. A couple stared at him already. He rushes back to the room and when he opens the door, Michael is on the phone. "Okay, 7pm. Jeans and t-shirt? Sure. I can wear that. Thank You, Sir. See You tonight."
Right away brandon begins to worry, thinking it might have been Gregor, but when he sees the smile on Michael's face, he thinks it must be craig or someone else. He speaks to Michael, "so who is this Sir that is telling you what to wear tonight? You slut!!!
"brandon, you wouldn't believe!" Michael is besides himself. Quite a difference from the way he was last night. "I've been invited out to dinner tonight to a barbecue restaurant, and you'll never guess who it is with!"
"Well, Craig isn't due back until tomorrow and you weren't at the brunch Sunday so I have no idea, Michael. Tell me."
"It's with Andy."
"Justin's Andy?"
"Exactly. I'm gonna be a nervous wreck."
"That's okay. He's already seen you all nervous and upset. It won't bother him," Brandon jests.
"very funny. But can you believe?"
"Oh my. that's what Justin was talking about last night."
"About what?"
"About how somebody nice was interested in you."
"Nice?"
"Very nice. And Andy is. He always helps me feel comfortable. And he's packed!"
"brandon, you blew him?"
"Justin made me a couple times."
"Oh shit. Now this is embarrassing!"
"Oh, Michael, don't be silly. I'm just glad it's not Gregor who is taking you out. Shit, if Gregor was taking you out, you'd probably be what was getting barbecued!" They both break into hysterics."
"do you know what he's into?"
"All I know is that He really knows how to talk to a slave who is sucking His cock. Can't say much more than that. Oh wait! I think Justin told me that he was actually rougher than Justin used to be."
"Hot!"
"Michael? What are you telling me, dude?"
"Um, that I like it rough."
"How do you know that? Ever have it happen?"
"Lots in high school."
"I've got to get to class, but one of these days you've got to tell me all about high school and rough sex." brandon leaves to get to class. On his way to class, Justin's email pops into his box but he doesn't have time to read it. This prof has a "no cell phone" rule.
As soon as he gets out of class he runs over to student lounge area to read Justin's email. Damn! He just loves the way Justin talks to him in emails. Wise, funny, naughty, bossy. Dom-y. Suggestions, Advice and sometimes orders as well.
It isn't until after classes for the day that brandon gets a chance to answer Justin's email.
. . . . .
Dear (sweet) Master,
Your email was the high point of Your slave's day, Master. Your slave loves that we do this, Sir. And there has never been any doubt in this slave's mind, Sir, that You chose it. Not sure about what you say about vibes and yearning and stuff like that. I think that sometimes You read me more deeply than I can read myself. But then again, You have had a lot of experience and friends who make You think (That is obvious).
That Dad talk was very serious, Master, but You have nothing to worry about. If I really wanted a substitute Dad, I'd be looking for someone a lot older than us who would pamper it and treat it good all the time (but who would be sexually demanding, of course). Or I could just put myself out there and see if some older Dom might want to raise this kid. So, no, Master. No offense, but You are definitely not the "dad" type. I couldn't even think of You as a Daddy.
I'm glad You liked my story about the lost boi finding home, because that is what Your slave was trying to tell You last time, that last night when I was licking up my tears from Your feet, that is what I was feeling: home! Kissing the feet of the Man who punishes me. Wow. Good theme for a book, maybe. And I have been reading the "Chronicles," and I know now that Billy made alex do His feet and alex fell in love with doing it, also, just like what I'm feeling---and not just to imitate alex. I had the idea before I ever started reading the book. And yes, Master, Your slave is loving this book and is learning a lot from it too. And besides, at least so far in the book, Your slave thinks that You are a much better Master than Billy. Much better.
And as far as improving after punishment, it's true Master. It's like I'm a wild man after that, all I want to do is find a way to do something good to You to show You how grateful I am. And I don't think it would really have to be rough-like-a-punishment rough. We'll have to find out some day, I guess.
Your slave will have to work on feeling proud when seen in the showers. Just this morning, some guys were staring when I went in to pee, so didn't shower. Will shower after writing this email, when there are less guys around to stare at Your slave. Sorry, Master, it's not being naked. it's being bound and strapped that shocks them and brings some things up. Will get used to it.
Oh, and Master, I'm going to take the dare You gave Your slave. We have to write a book report for Professor Keaton about any book that has really had an influence on us. What better time or reason to write a report on "The Chronicles?" And I don't have to worry about being embarrassed by it.
Will be living on pizza and omelets this week, Master. Just for You because You ordered it.
Understand about losing points, Master. Your slave is losing them all over the place. Even at the table, but that won't stop me from being there. Maybe can open up a good discussion about it.
I am so much at peace hearing You admit that You know Your life is changing, too. I just wonder, could either of us be able to go back to the way things were? Or want to?
Happy Monday, Master.
Your grateful slave and possession.
brandon