This is pure FICTION.
Suddenly by Thor Krasinski
I live in a very simple suburban place in RC. I've got 3 friends, well best friends but unfortunately we haven't been able to hangout like other friends does since we have other things to attend. So I resort to online for fun aside from school and work.
Oops I forgot, my name is Crowe and I just recently turned 21. I'm 5'11 in height and I weigh about 170 pounds. I'm the type of guy which people refer as a studly man. Well in our country for a guy standing like for say, 5'9 is like something to be envied of. Lucky for me I'm 5'11 HAHA. I'm have a very nice wavy jet black hair wherein I just use my hands to basically style it...but sometimes its like shit (no kidding). I have this wolf eyes that modeling agents are dying to book. It was like the guy in Tigerland...yeah Colin. That is his name. All in all I'm quite simple as you say but I really never consider myself a stunner not unless my friends or my sister tells me that some chick or guy is checking me out.
Honestly, I've seen some eyes prying on me but I was too scared of confronting them...I mean what if I'm not they're checking-out? So I guess it is plain to be safe.
And oh I like to beat-off...like I can't concentrate if I skipped my ususal beat-off schedule. I like porn. Like every guy does...though sometimes I venture most of my attention to the guy. Okay most of the time. But emotionally I am attracted to girls...like I've had 5 girlfriends and I loved them like the way they should be treated. I just find guys sexually amazing, reason why I am attracted to them. But if you're gonna ask me if I'm willing to settle down with a guy...the answer is a firm no. I just like having the chance to get-off amazingly and guys does that WAAAAAY better than chicks.
So here is my story...
Chapter 1 - The Day We FINALLY Met
I've been trying to get a job for like 3 months now and its been total shit. I just don't know the reason why my former douche boss fired me. I mean he's abusive...making me do things way beyond my contract...it pays less ughhh I just want to fuck his damn ass to get even. I mean just fuck the hell out of him. Nothing else. Just revenge fuck, if ever there is a fuck out of revenge that is what I want to do.
"Hello."
"Zup?"
Gus is on the other line. I met him on DN. Particularly in the chatroom (yes, where all horny guys hangout to show off and beat-off or whatever they want) We've been talking for like solid 8 months. And I find the guy cool though...so cool I trusted him with my personal phone number HAHA.
"Hey Gus, zup?"
"You're offline last night." Sighs "I'm worried."
"Sorry, something came-up" Actually I just fell asleep early...yes, bad. "Anyway, thanks for the concearn Gus. You're very sweet."
"You have nothing to thank Crowe" Chuckles "Uhhh..so..."
"Yep?"
"So its been eight months right?"
"You know I know when you have something going on your mind man. Spill it out."
"Alright, I mean I'm actually in your town and I was like wondering if you want to meet ya'know?"
Anyway as I've said earlier Gus and I have been talking for like 8 months and yes thought I have a girlfriend I still use DN. C'mon I wanna show-off! So to describe Gus well we're of the same age and though its only our cocks whose up on our DN page due to personal issues we've seen each others faces like since we skype. He's blond and had the same body type as I am.
I am totally stoked to find out that Gus is actually on RC. I'm so tired of letting some stranger stoke my cock in the subway mensroom.
One cool thing about Gus and I: we talk on cam a lot but we jerk-off with just our faces being seen. Meaning the only time Gus has seen my dick as only on profile pic in DN...just to add something to be excited of. We don't care about the other guys, as long as we're both online we don't give a shit about others.
"What?! That's nice! What are you doing here?"
"Well I just happen to pass by and I was on a three day trip for my aunts and you're place is on my rounte so I guess it just took the chance to finally meet you up. So you available?
"Aww man I'm going to get my pussy" Yes that was my nickname for my gf Ash HAHAHA "to dinner."
"Oh." I can see the disappointment in Gus' voice. "Its cool man. I left Melody home too..."
"I'm sorry."
"Nah, its fine with me man HAHAHA" Chuckles "Go get your pussy to dinner."
"HAHAHA ikr!?"
"Yeah, anyway I gotta go. Bye Cro!"
"Later Gus.
"Alright" Hangs-up
I don't know I feel sad for the guy I mean he lives far from my place and this is the only time we can finally see each others in person and I fucked it up. But I have to take Ash out...and I would've understand if Gus' gonna do the same thing with Melody. I just shake off the thought and continue with my day knowing that Gus is just around the corner.
I wore my best pair of semi-skinny jeans, the one models wore HAHAHA (which my sister Bella gave me) and a plain A&F shirt. Its not a fancy dinner just taking Ash out to eat like what we usually does every sunday night.
So as I walk up to her place I saw a truck, it is something familiar to me but not that kind of familiar that a name would've pop out of my tiny brain to call. So as I walk to her door I heard thumps.
"Ash!"
Nothing. Just thumps. So I walked into her bedroom door and the thumps gets louder. Now I can also hear moans and grunts...from the guy. Now I can remember. It was Devon. Someone I met at the sub we sucked each other and I know that it is his grunts. Now I'm pissed. I opened the door, my guess was confirmed. It was Devon pounding the hell out of Ash. I was in no mood to make a scene so I just stood there and watch them do the "scene" until Ash, the bitch, saw me.
"Oh my God! Crowe! Let me explain!"
Then I turned my eyes to Devon. Suddenly I felt tired. I know basing on his looks that he is shocked. I can see it by his cock. He hadn't cummed yet but his cock flurfuted. I don't give a fuck.
"Hi Devon. So you knew Ash."
"Fuck, Crowe you know Devon?" She rises up from the bed covering herself with the blanket.
She walks towards me but I turned my head away.
"Ask him." I made a few steps rearing to the door. "We're over Ash. You just fucked some 2 serious years." And I walked-out.
I can still her calling my name as I walk away but I am too tired. I mean I fuck with guys (yes it is cheating) but I stay loyal. For some reason I felt the pain that I am implying on Ash. It is so painful it made me think as I walk. I even forgot that I parked my car nearby and I just left it there. Ughhh shit who gives a fuck, I'll just walk.
It just sink-in that we've been fooling on each others at the same time. What I find bizarre was that when I fuck with that bi Devon I don;t feel the guilt. I just walk as if nothing happened. But after I see Devon pound the hell out of Ash's pussy it all went back. Suddenly I felt her pain though she doesn't know. Plus the pain I felt knowing that she's cheated. I just want to go away...and so I walk.
I picked-up my phone to play some music. And maybe make a call to my friends for some support when I remembered Gus. I can still remember that he's sad knowing that I won't be able to hangout with him. Sex aside, I know Gus just want to hangout.
I wonder if he's still here. I'd just waste his time. What if I just get myself drunk and go to bed and be a regular single guy tomorrow?
Fuck it. I'll call him.
So I did.
He picked it up immidiately.
"Gus?"
"Cro?"
"Gus?" For no reason, a tear came down from my eye.
"Are you alright man?"
I was sniffing trying to shake it off. God damn I'm a man whose crying for fucking crissake!
"Crowe? Are you there? I know you're crying. I can hear you sniff."
"Hell no." But I can't help it I broke down. "I'm not crying. Just checking-out. Bye!"
I hit end. And cried on the side of the dark alley.
I was just walking from a deli nearby when I phone vibrate. It was already 9 in the evening and it was Crowe on the screen. Oh maybe he's just checking out on me. I feel sad that I wasn't able to meet him though. I mean we jerk-off together alot but I felt like we've known each others forever. I understand him. If I'm on a date with Melody too I'd do the same thing as well.
"Gus?"
"Cro?"
"Gus?"
"Are you alright man?" Something's wrong. He's crying. "Crowe? Are you there? I know you're crying. I can hear you sniff."
"Hell no."
"I'm not crying. Just checking-out. Bye!"
WTF just happened? I can't call him back...fuck it I'll just head to my motel room and ask him about it tomorrow.
It was so embarrassing that for no reason I cried while checking out on Gus's visit. I know I am in pain but why did I fail on controlling? Fuck, what would Gus think about me? I'm such a pussy.
So I stayed the for good 15 mins trying to cool the hell down. What happened awhile ago was totally gay and I am so embarrased. So I finally stood-up and walked my ass off near to the deli near the motel; maybe they have a bottle of whiskey there which I can down as I walk back for my car. I was looking down when I hit a person.
"Fuck man!" I was so mad for fucking crissake the sidewalk is so wide!
"Oh shit man, sorry!"
I froze.
The guy froze.
"Gus?"
"Crowe? Dat you?"
"Fuck man. Sorry! Damn!" I was shocked and dumbfounded. He's more good looking in person that in webcam. True to his stats we're the same but I find him stunning. "Are you alright?"
Gus hugged me out of nowhere.
"No. Are you alright? Why did you end the call Crowe? What's going on?"
Still wrapped in his arms I felt queasy. His warmth just melt all of my barriers. The pain came back again...and so as my taers.
"We're over Gus. She's with Dev now." Finally I had the guts to return the hug. This time tighter. No letting him go.
"I'm sorry."
Suddenly I felt something in my neck. He's crying too! God what was going on?! But from the realms of doubts and fear of someone who might be seing us we just fell on each others arm trusting each other. I cried as he cry. After awhile we broke the hug and I asked him where he's heading. He said that he was just out to get some frozen dinner from the deli when I called and he was so worried he bumped on me along.
I finally had the guts to ask Gus: "So you wanna drink?"
"As long as you'll tell me the whole story, then yes HAHA!"
"Yeah. C'mon let's head back to the deli I'll grab something to eat too."
"Well since I got some ribs here why don't I buy you a frozen diner too?"
"I'm on jacks your in-charge of the snacks!"
After we buy four 6-packs, 2 frozen ribs and lots of chips, we headed back to Gus's room in the motel. he showed me his truck which I thought was cool since it was vintage contrary to the modern ones that I have. As we finally settled in to his room I remembered the first time I sneaked Ash out of her house to have some alone time with her...yes, that happened on Gus' room so I felt silent. Gus immidiately noticed my silence so he asked me if I'm alright. God, I feel like a girl now fuck HAHAHA
"Nothing. Its just this room...we use to sneak in her dad's and head in her to we can hang."
"Oh? Wait there. I'll ask Unc Simms for another room."
"Wait. You know Mr. Alcor?"
"Yes, he's my uncle. Sorry for not telling you."
"Uh its alright. I just thought that you have no one in this town."
"I'm sorry. I haven't been able to see Unc for like 15 years literally. When my mom asked me to stay here for the night that is when I realized that I should call you so we can hang. Wait there I'll be right back with another key. I figure theres 2 more vacant rooms in here. Fuck, I didn't know that this is the place where the magic use to happen."
I grabbed his hand. And he looked at it as I grip him. "No its fine. Cmon man lets eat I'm starving!"
He smiled. "HAHA alright! if you say so."
And so we ate our frozen dinner and started to drink. I told Gus everything about what happened tonight and he felt really sad about it.
"I felt the pain for the first time Gus." My eyes are watering. "I loved her for 2 years! Fuck!"
"But let me remind you man, you're cheating with her as well...with the same man."
"I know. The feeling of being cheated wasn't the very nicest feeling at all." I looked at him "What about you Gus? Tell me more about you and Melody. You're cheating with Melody right?"
"Yeah. I know she wasn't into me too so I guess its a win-win in our part. It is different with you Crowe. You love Ash just that you go to other guys...like me or Devon or the other guys in the subway to get the extra satisfaction but you love Ash full-heartedly. Melody and I we're not like that."
He held my hand and caressed it softly. He countinued: "But in a way we're the same. We seek for the extra satosfaction."
I was offended.
"Fuck man! It wasn't like that!"
"It's not what I meant!" He stood-up and held me by the shoulders drive me off the table.
"The what?!" I'm getting mad now. I know in a few secs we'll be rolling over the floor exchanging punches on each other.
"We cheat. But we love our girl...but it turns-out we get cheated too and we finally felt the pain."
Now I understand where Gus is coming from...
"Then why don't you leave her?"
"Because of you." Now he's staring at me directly in the eye. I can feel the tension going on between us.
"Why?" I held his arm tighter. "Why me? I fucking don't understand."
For some reason it is the beer and jack talking but we all know that we're speaking nothing but all truth.
"You know Crowe. 2 years. Yet you are still seeking from others..." He sighed "Because you settled on the second best. That is why I did it too."
"Gus, I've been emotionally attracted to girls but sexually on to both sexes you know that. You are like that too right? Are you gay?"
"Fuck labels Crowe! Fuck labels!" Then he kissed me square in the lips.
I tried to fight it. I love Ash and yes I do have sex with guys but I fucking love Ash. He continues to kiss me for like 20 seconds when he broke it.
"We've been talking 8 months. You got 5 gfs. You like gay porn morethan straight porn. You love your gf yet you talk to me and fuck with outher guys. Crowe you're gay...we're gay."
Then I a tear escaped my right eye. He's right. For those 2 years if I realy love Ash then I wouldn't be sneaking in the subway to fuck or even use DN if I was straight. We're not actually gay looking but yes we're gay. This time I returned the kiss...now I'm banishing all the thoughts of Ash how we meant to be. The thought of trying to explain that I'm gonna settle with a woman if I fuck a guy every now and then.
No inhibitions.
Gus is right.
In someway this fucker released the real me...the ones whose been hidden for a very long time.
And so we kissed.
TO BE CONTINUED.