Suburban Life 3
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Suburban Life 3
The home was older and spotlessly clean. Rusty was nervous to have me inside. Up the steps to his room and it was a monument to him, sports trophy's and posters, a long row of ribbons from the state fair . His bat and glove were in the corner. His bed neatly made and everything about his room was orderly.
"Wanna grab a shower", he said to me. "Is it cool" I asked him. "Yea he said folks won't be back from Church till after one at the earliest", he said.
I slipped outa my pants and shirts and then I asked "are we showering together". He shook his head and blushed then said "maybe".
I went in the bathroom and he handed me a towel . I was standing under the spray when I heard the curtain slide on the pole.
He stepped tentatively into the tub and I moved further under the spray and pulled him towards the water. I got shampoo and washed his hair. I then washed his back with a bar of Irish spring soap. When I washed his butt he jumped a bit. I slid my soapy hand between his legs and fondled his balls.
"Turn around " I said and I washed his face gently. Then his chest dragging my nail across his rather large nipples and they responded and stiffened. I washed his pits and he giggled . "I'm super ticklish" he said grinning.
I skipped his privates and got on my knees to wash his legs they are super hairy. I lifted a foot and washed each foot carefully washing his toes and soles of his feet.
I soaped his balls and cock and the held his erection as I washed away the soap.
I took his boner in my mouth and throated him. He pushed me back saying "not so fast let me wash you too".
He did me in the same steps I did him. He even licked my cock head .
I raised up and held his face and leaned in to kiss him. He kissed me back wrapping me in his arms.
We made out a bit then I turned and leaned over to the back wall. I took conditioner and slathered it on his cock. I pulled him towards my butt and he found the spot and pushed . I almost cried out but just breathed and forced myself to relax. He dove in and fucked me hard and fast . My head banged the tiles but I pressed myself back to meet his thrusts.
He picked up the pace and grasped me even tighter , he was close as was I. He buried deep and flooded my guts with that hot wash of cum. That's what I needed to cum and my orgasm hit like a crash. He leaned onto me kissed my neck and his breathing quickly settled. I reached behind and grabbed his hip.
"Oh my goodness I can't believe that just happened " he said. He slipped out of my butt and stood up straight . We both washed our respective parts and got out of the shower and wrapped in towels went to his room. He didn't look at me .
"You ok" I asked him. "Yea I suppose so , I mean I'm a bit freaked out right at the moment, I mean I knew I was curious and all , but dude I'm not sure I wanna be gay"he said looking at the floor. "I'm not sure I wanna be gay either " I said . "I don't think it's really a choice for me, I mean I don't really get all worked up with a girl like a do with a guy".
Rusty plopped on the bed as I buttoned my flannel, " I just need to sort out how I feel about what just happened ".
I got it , really we had done a lot in the past day and I remember the feelings of doubt that mixed with the excitement it was after all really new for me too.
"My folks will be home in a little bit , I need to straighten up and stuff" he said to me. What he meant was , git gone!
He walked me to the door and watched me drive away. I went through a burger joint drive thru for food . When I got home the family wasn't home . There was a note for me to come to the club.
I showered again slipped on some sweats and lounged on the bed . I opened up Grindr and the usual faces were on.
Mom messaged me wanting to know where I was . I just got home I replied , I need to study for classes. All I got back was a "OK" .
I slipped on some crocks and went to DQ for some ice cream. I'd gotten my studying done and well I wanted some .
When I walked in Dads truck was in the garage. I slipped into the den and Mom gave me the stink eye.
"We missed you for dinner", she said sarcastically. I just shrugged . Dad chimes in saying how it wasn't asking all that much for me to come to dinner. I just walked to my room.
Drew slipped thru the bathroom and helped himself to my sundae . "Moms pissed at you" he said . I shrugged at that .
They discussed you in the car asking me if I knew anything about why you don't date . I cut him a look but no more .
I didn't say nothing ok, it's up to you to be who you are and tell whoever whenever . Heck I don't know nothing anyway other than school rumors.
The rumor mill had me overdosing a while back. Besides now that you graduated no one cares really.
"Are ya gay" he asked me . "When I figure it out I promise you will know before the folks". "Deal" he said .
"You ain't out there hooking up with dudes are ya", he asked me . "I thought when I knew an answer I'd come to you" , did something change.
He handed me my almost finished sundae and patted my shoulder . That meant he loved me .
I was chilling when my phone chirped and when I looked it was Alan. He asked , busy? I messaged back , nope .
So my phone rang , when I answered and he asked me if I could help his old man with the pool cover . I told him to just call the pool company but he said if he had a hand he could sort it out. He specifically asked if you were available. Send me his number I said , I will swing over and have a look.
My phone dinged with a message . Then Alan said what ever you do don't say anything about what we do.
Who was that asked Drew , Alan from a few blocks away the swimmer . Somethings up with their pool cover he asked me to help his dad .
Drew said "his old man's a Perv I would not go over" . "Oh jeez how do you know that " I asked . "It's what I've heard , he likes little boys is what everyone says " he said in a low tone.
A couple days later after class I went by Alan's and quite easily straightened out the pool cover machine . I was on and out in less than an hour. I left the pool covered . The fall temps had cooled the water .
I hadn't seen much of Rusty since the camping occasion. I'd see him at school some but it was like he was avoiding me.
I had time between classes so I went to my study spot . I was working on theory problems when I felt a presence and I turned to see Rusty standing at the door. "Hey Rusty , what's up" I asked him. "Oh same ole nothings different " he replied. "Yea same here school work and bitchy parents" I said.
He eased in and grabbed his regular seat enough space to not seem weird. "Fall harvest has been hectic for us but that's normal", he offered.
"It's hard to keep up but I'm managing" he said. "Yea my parents are all of a sudden up my ass about everything, where you going , where ya been , who are you with" it sucks I said. "What's prompted all that", he asked. "Well I don't date girls, never really have, now all of a sudden it's an issue".
"You aren't openly gay or out as it were are you"he asked. "Beyond just getting by every day I'm not much interested in changing that, my life's complicated enough between school and my job".
"Wanna grab lunch after class" he asked me . "Sure sounds good" I replied . "You know where I park " he said.
He left the study room I heard the elevator chime and I went back to my studies. After class I walked to the lot and Rusty was there talking to several others. "Can you drive my truck battery is dead ", he said .
We walked to my car and headed to Mikes Sub's. He squeezed my thigh as I drove and I jumped.
"Look " he said , " I know I don't get a whole lot about what we did that weekend , I'm still not all that sure how I feel about it , what I do know is it was the best sex I've ever had . My folks raised me religious and that complicates it more for me. I'm not sure right now about a whole lot but I am sure I've missed the heck outa you"!
I blushed so bad , he poked a tiny bit of fun at me about how red I got . We grabbed subs and sodas and sat and ate . He laughed and leaned in closer and said quietly , " I've been a mess of uncertainty these last weeks , my Pops has been bugging me about it a bunch, my folks really liked my girlfriend and well they wanted us to get married".
"My parents are forever giving me grief cause I don't date, they are sorta shallow all about the appearances kind of people" , I offered up.
"Have you ever dated a girl" Rusty asked me.
"Nope I mean we'll I took a girl to both proms because we both wanted to go , I'm pretty sure at least according to my brother most of the school thinks I'm gay", I offered. "My parents were both jocks and are super competitive types , so I played sports to make them happy mostly, my brother is the alpha jock like Dad".
" My folks encouraged me to do my best and never put much pressure on me for more than that, I was a good athlete and got good grades and didn't get in trouble " Rusty added. "My moms a schoolteacher and my dads a farmer and part time electrician".
"My Moms a schoolteacher too , and my dad sells insurance he has his own business, they are the country club types " I added .
We finished up eating and headed back to campus , I had to go to work and Rusty has a class. "Call me later" I asked him. "Can I come by your work later". "Yea that be great, I'm putting GPS trackers in some vans for a company down the street" , I said .
I left campus and got to work. Boss had a bunch of work orders with keys for me . I joked a bit with the crew and they all left.
Boss man asked me about school and how was I and the usual stuff. He got gone and I grabbed a Van. I was on van number three when I saw headlights. The truck was quiet and I realized it was Drew.
"Hey Bro what's up " I asked him. "Can you remove the tracker Dad put in my truck" he asked me. "Sure just pull it in the empty bay" I said.
I was up under the dash , it was one of our units just like the one in my car. I handed it to him . The SIM cards out and the battery is unplugged . I suspect you will catch hell in less than a hour.
"Did he ever question you about the one in your car" he asked me. "Just a few sly snarky comments and then he let it go", I said.
I heard the truck before I saw the lights . Rusty , Drew I offered and they sized each other up. Rusty was pretty open and chill but Drew was sorta distant.
Drew leaned in the van I was in and asked "is he your boyfriend". Friend ok we go to school and hang out like everyone does. Rusty cut us a look and smiled at Drew.
"How about you lighten up on your brother " Rusty said. I saw the look in Drew's eyes and I grabbed his wrist. He let me hold him, he's stronger than me easily.
"Look Drew we are friends ok , let's leave it at that ", I asked him.
"Yea , whatever , it's your business , sorry I was interested " he said without his usual bravado.
Rusty spoke, " we are trying to figure it out to be honest, we like each other but aren't sure either of us are ready to have a coming out party " .
"Seriously" Drew said surprised .
"I suppose that sorta covers it better than I could have done it" I said .
"Now you know something no one else knows " I said to Drew.
He got this goofy look on his face, " dude be good to my brother , deal" . Then Drew announced he had to leave and he bro hugged us both .
I finished up Van number four and we checked the signals and parked it in there lot.
"Did we just come out to my brother " I asked Rusty.
"Sorta seems like it , didn't feel all that awful either , I suspect he knew you liked guys before this ", Rusty said.
" This place got cameras" he asked me. "Yep it sure does " I replied. "I'm almost done for the night I know a quiet place where we can sit and talk" and I winked .
We drove to the park by my house and walked to the bleachers at the ball field. We sat talking about things and feelings and life . A patrol car rolled by and we waved from the bleachers .
The patrol car stopped and the lights went out. A uniformed cop walked up tall and slender and young. He said, "hey Rusty ".
"Hey Mark been a while, so you are a cop" Rusty said.
Then Rusty added , " we played baseball together since little league, he's a cool guy , or he used to be" he added smiling.
Mark smiled, "its a job they keep me away from where I grew up mostly, baby number two is due next year" .
His radio went off and he talked into it, "gotta run traffic accident not to far from here"
We said our good byes and he fast walked to the car.
Rusty said "decent dude , can slip into asshole fast". We walked along the field out of the glow of the streetlights. I steered us to the shed and behind it to the place behind the shrubs.
We kissed , and I rubbed my hand along his boner. He groaned in my mouth . I tugged at the zipper and reached in to pull him out. I dropped down squatting and he fucked my face till he held my head and fired off a really big load. I raised up and he leaned in to kiss me . He squatted down and I fished out my boner and he bobbed on the head and the first few inches. I warned him that I was gonna cum and he kept going . When I blasted he gagged pulled off and hacked and coughed.
"Sorry I've not figured it out like you have" Rusty said. "No worries" I said and I kissed him.
"I need to head home we are planting winter wheat this week" he said.
He added," I really missed you a lot, will your brother tell your parents about us "?
I replied, " no , he's cool even tho I'm older he's sorta taken on the protective role with me, he won't say anything to anyone".
We got in our cars and headed to our homes.
I came in through the garage entrance and walked to the kitchen. I could hear sports center on the TV in the den. I stuck my head in the den and dad was asleep in his recliner a glass of some brown liquid , bourbon most likely on the table beside him. I picked up the remote and turned off the tv. He grumbled, he was watching it . I said why don't you go to bed and he got up and wobbled to his bedroom. I picked up his glass sniffed and carried it to the kitchen . I added some cola from a open can in the fridge and downed it in a swallow then drank more of the flat cola.
I went to my room and stripped and got in the shower. When I got out Drew was sitting on the vanity. "Is he your boyfriend" he asked me.
"Jeez Drew is this necessary " I asked him.
"I just worry about you" he said softly. " he's a guys guy like us, I like that".
"He's a farmer and played sports in school " I added proudly. "I mean he's cool and chill. His girl broke up with him when she left for college"
"Have you done the deed" he asked me. "Jeez Drew, that's really not your business or something I want to discuss" I replied. He smiled and smacked my arm. "No worries " he said smiling. He went to his room and the lights went out.
So my my days became as routine as most folks. School and work , lunches and Rusty and I hung out when we could. I realized that I was filling the rebound role for him. That realization came slowly but it was clear he was way more interested in girls than guys or me. Sure we were buddies and we did sex stuff. I hadn't crossed the emotional line but I was standing on it .
I wandered into the mall after a few weeks of not going. I saw that same hunky guy I'd creeped on and he was in a hoodie and jeans and still in flip flops.
He cut me a glance and I smiled back. He arched an eyebrow almost comically and tilted his head towards the back hallway. I followed along discreetly behind him. I paused to look at a display at a store , and he came back out of the back hallway and looked at me and shrugged. I sat on a bench as he looked at stuff . He sat after a few moments on the bench and I said , "hey I'm CJ " .
"Danny" he offered , "bunch of nasty old guys in there , they gonna ruin it for everyone"
He then said , "I know a place we can go that's pretty close by, where are you parked ".
"Over by sports locker" I said . "Me too, let's go , it's a office building and the third floor is vacant. It's a few blocks away, out of the way and no one is around".
He and I walked to our cars and he pointed to the building just off the parking lot.
I followed him and he parked amongst the scattered vehicles. A big space available sign was out front and leaned backwards.
We walked inside and he bypassed the elevator and we walked up. We went out the stairs and we stopped at a door and he pushed the handle hard and the door gave way. The office space was empty and in a corner space was a sofa .
"How did you find this place " I asked him?
"My Mom used to work here but they moved the office to a bigger newer building. The door has always been like that just put extra pressure on the handle and it unlocks".
"Will anyone show up here " I asked ?
You have to use a code to come to the floors from the elevator and the things loud as heck. I've only ever brought my girl up here , but she broke up with me ", he said.
"I'm not gay , it's just simple and easy to get off at the mall bathroom" he stated.
I didn't comment but my mind processed the statement and well I was beginning to get that most guys don't really care what mouth gets them off.
"Do you a blow job" I asked Danny ?
"Heck yea" he replied . He unsnapped the jeans and slid them and his boxers down.
I lowered to my knees and mouthed his hefty cock. He got steely hard , he kept his pubes trimmed and his balls were smooth. I lapped at the nuts he kept his hands pressed to his sides. I grabbed a hand and put it on my head.
I went back to his dick and swirled my tongue around the crown and he slow humped into my mouth. I slid my hand under the hoodie and flicked a nipple on his firm pec.
He groaned and held my head and thrust. I let my throat open and he pummeled my face. I used my other hand to slide along his hairy leg from his calves to his muscled butt .
"Dude I'm gonna cum" he said . He grasped my head in both hands pushed and swole and throbbed volleys of cum out.
He pulled out and pulled up his jeans tucking his meat in the boxers and straightened himself. I stood up , it was done I was a convenient cocksucker. "Want my number "I asked him. "Sure , hand me your phone" I pulled it from my pocket and handed it to him. He tapped away and said , " I sent a text to myself so you have my number, don't message me no dumb shit ok, just say ,hey, I will reply if I can".
He headed to the door and said "you give a great blowjob".
We got in our respective cars and left. I was super horny and wanted to get off. I jumped on the Grindr and scanned profiles . I got the usual pings of "Sup" and "Hi" .
One faceless profile asked me If I minded a more mature safe sane man. I responded to the message with , depends on several things really.
He replied back that he was fifty two lived alone and liked to give head and eat ass. He added all I want is no strings zero drama fun , come over get off and leave that he wouldn't ask me to do anything for him. He said I like younger guys and I like to make them smile.
He asked me if I was interested . I said sure sounded fun, he gave me a address and a door code number .
I put the address in my phone and followed the map to a taller apartment building. I parked in a visitor spot and used the code to access the door . The elevator took me to the twelfth floor and I knocked on the door.
The door opened and a handsome guy my height wearing shorts opened the door . Bald in pretty decent shape and his eyes were kind.
Come on in he offered and I slipped off my joggers at the door. Want a beer or a bong hit he asked me. A bong hit sounds great I said . We sat on the sofa and smoked.
Let's go in the bedroom he said and we walked into his bedroom . It was large a king sized bed and a giant flatscreen playing porn older guys and younger guys.
I slipped off my clothes and laid on the bed. He added some pillows behind me and got me comfy. He slipped off his shorts and he was sporting a nice slab of dick and he had this chrome thing around his dick and balls. He was hairless a point I missed till he commented that he kept himself smooth all over. He liked my hair on me a lot .
He danced his fingers along my torso teasing my nipples and belly button. Are you good on time he asked me . Sure I said I have time .
What are your hard stops he asked me ? Hard Stops , I'm not sure I understand . I'm honestly not all that experienced .
That's fine he reassured me , kissing is ok he asked me. Yea I said that's cool. Ass play ok with you he asked me ? Yea , tell you what, if something happens I'm not sure about I will stop you and ask questions.
He leaned in and kissed me softly . It was nice, a really passionate kiss and I felt his fingers teasing my cock and balls. He raised up and spread my knees apart and settled on his knees between my legs. He put this stretchy thing on my balls and cock and it sorta made it all super hard .
He guided me to raise my knees up asking if I was comfy.
He had a bottle of what I thought was lotion but it was a super large bottle of lube he said .
This was a process for him the art of seduction he called it . My dick was super hard and he pretty much let it be and would swat away my hand if I touched my dick. There's time for all that.
His own tool was nice and hard he was my size it looked average somewhere between six and seven inches it seemed .
He patiently and precisely touched and fondled my legs and balls and around my butt. He used the lube to massage my hole slowly sliding fingers inside me. He found the hot button in my butt and tapped and rubbed it . The more he played with it the more I leaked out .
He'd get me close to orgasm and then ease back or stop.
He pulled me to the edge of the bed and put my feet on his shoulders as he licked and chewed on my ass.
I felt like my ass was wide open and it was sizzling hot. I heard myself groan out "fuck me" .
He raised up holding my feet pushing them back and rubbing his raging boner along my crack , letting the head thump as it crossed my hole.
"You want me to fuck you boy" he asked me?
"Oh please fuck me Sir" I whined .
He set the crown against my hole and stopped at the place where it gets tight . "Tell me again" he said.
"Fuck me sir, please" I whined again.
He pressed forward and my ring relented, letting him past and he moved in slowly with short strokes , he wasn't in a hurry no matter what I wanted.
He pressed further and deeper till I felt his body fully pressed onto mine. Then he made his dick swell and it felt great.
I was so close to cumming it hurt . He stopped moving and said, "look at me , relax let it pass just look at me and breathe slowly it's too soon to cum.
I concentrated carefully on math equations and history dates and events to slow my roll.
He'd slow stroke me for a bit then just stop and caress my body. Teasing my nipples or slide a finger in my mouth and I would suck and lick it.
"Do you wanna cum boy" he asked me? "Yes Sir " I squeaked .
He took long full strokes pulling out and plunging back inside me. I felt his fingers on my throat and he squeezed slightly. He was in complete control of my body. I felt my body convulse and arch and cum rocketed out of my cock slit. Rope after rope splattered my face and neck then my chest and then it just dribbled out .
He pulled out and sprayed my body with his load , he came a bunch .
Want me to clean you up or just grab a shower he asked me. A shower I mumbled .
In there I will get the water going. I got up on shaky legs and slid the glass door open and let the warm water caress me. He said there's a clean out wand feel free to use it .
I saw it and figured out the how it works and I washed out my bottom .
I felt pretty good after the shower and I wrapped in the giant fluffy towel and walked to the living room. He had on what looked like pajama bottoms and was sipping from a wine glass a deep burgundy colored something, he seemed pleased with himself.
You are quite fun , I'd very much enjoy your company again sometime. I put a card by your pants with my phone number just in case you want to come back.
Would you like a soda I'm sure you aren't old enough to drink alcohol.
I sat in a chair facing him and said , you weren't concerned when we got "hi".
Well CJ you have me there don't ya. My towel slipped and my junk was exposed when I raised my foot to the cushion.
Naughty boy he said to me. I'm learning to be a naughty boy , dad. "So, are you turned on by role play" he asked me. I just shrugged at first I'd read stories about it and it always gets me worked up. "I enjoy role play a lot" he added. "We can experiment more on your next visit" he said plainly and I knew it was time to leave.
I got up and got dressed I checked out the card it was printed it said "Luke" and a phone number. I created a contact and sent him a text that said "CJ".
I walked out of the bedroom and he was refilling his wine glass.
I opened the fridge and grabbed a cola . He followed me to the door and leaned in to kiss me and I left.
I drove home hoping there was something good to eat. I came in the house and rummaged through the fridge . Mom came in and opened a container that had some Meat Loaf and made me a plate.
Did you hear that lady with the big house and apartment you wanted died suddenly. The place is for sale now . I cut her a look and added, "explains why I wasn't able to get up with her".
" You aren't ready to be on your own anyway she added". Then she went about discussing how much worse the kids are this year at school. I ate listened and nodded my head at the right moments. Then the why don't you date topic came us as I rinsed my plate.
I kissed her forehead and said I needed to get to bed. She headed to her end of the house and I went to my end.
I didn't need to shower so I brushed my teeth and looked in Drew's room he was at his desk writing something. "What's up " I asked ? "English paper" he stated , "it's got to be hand written" .
Ewe I said "I remember that assignment " .
"When's it due " I asked him. "End of the week, will you prof read it for me before I ask Mom to check it please". "No problem bro" happy to help.
"What's new with you, you and the farmer still hanging out" he asked.
We are still friends and all but he's going a different direction it seems, he and some girl are hanging out now, I guess" I said. "That sucks I suppose" Drew said.
"Is what it is really" I added . "I promise I won't say nothing to no one about any of this" Drew said looking at me, "it's your business "! "Thanks , I'm not ready to make a announcement or come out of the closet I suppose" I said.
"You should do the paper on your laptop in word, it will help with the spelling and punctuation, then you can hand write it , that's how I did it.
"Good idea " Drew said .
I patted his shoulder and headed to my room.
Given all the activities from this evening I was tired.
I laid in bed pondering the afternoons sex with Luke. He was older and confident and fun.
I walked in the kitchen poured a cup of coffee and sat with Dad. He had the sports section and I was scanning the headlines.
Dad said, "give some thought to joining the agency, we can open a second location , grow the business and it's a really good living"
I sipped the hot brew and finally said , "sure Dad I will keep that in mind". He lowered the paper and said , "that wasn't a yes".
"Dad, I like electronics and fixing things. I'm way more hands on right now"
"I get it " Dad said, "I just wanna open that option up for you son".
Then he added " you dance to your own music CJ, always have and I suspect you always will".
"Dad when I wasn't a the sports standout you hoped I'd be you told me , be you and be the best you possible, I knew you meant that then and I still believe it now.
I got dressed and headed to class , certain that his offer was mildly genuine but masked as a way to control me. He and Moms never ending attempts to control every aspect of my life.
I spoke to Ricky walking into class briefly , it was clear that all that , I really missed you really meant I missed the sex.
After my first class I went to my study spot with a paper to work on. Ricky had not come up there in a while and that was ok. I heard the door from the far end clank. Then I heard the mens room door groan. Curiosity won out and I walked to the mens room with my backpack. I slipped into the end stall next to the occupied stall. Well worn Converse sneakers and jeans a backpack was up against the door blocking the opening just like my backpack.
I put on some porn on my phone and played with my dick. The foot tapped , I tapped in response. He shuffled and his knees went under the divider and his boner appeared. Nice cut the color of Hershey's chocolate bar. I slipped off the toilet and swallowed him. A bit muskier than white guts but it smelled sexy. He humps into my mouth his fingers gripped the bottom of the divider . I heard his grunting then I tasted the salty spurts.
He came a lot fast hard jets of strong flavored cum. Then he pulled away lots of tugging and noise and he was gone before I hardly sat down.
The joys of random bathroom college hookups. No names no muss no fuss.
The boss stopped and asked how school was going along. I said my grades are real good and the theory is interesting .
He seemed pleased and I got a shoulder tap. "You have a bigger future than here with me", he said. He walked away that was one dude you never really "got".
I worked late and Rusty messaged me asking what I was up too. "Working" I typed. "Can I swing by" he sent.
I opened the door to the garage and heard the rumble of his truck and typed, "meet me at the gate " I hit the remote and the gate slid open and he pulled thru it .
"Let me clock out " I said to him. I walked inside put away what I had too and signed off the job I just finished .
I came out of the building locked the door and he was leaning on my car.
"Hey" he said . "hey" I replied , "how's it going".
"Why did you pick me " he said . "Pick you", I asked fully confused.
"To ruin my life " he said his head hanging low. "Look it was a moment ok, I didn't pick you if anything you hit on me " I said.
"Whatever "he grunted, it sucks I know that , I don't wanna be gay"he said.
I took in his words and the emotion they were wrapped up in, "look you think I picked to be gay? Well you couldn't be more wrong! I've tried to be straight and it don't work. Why don't you go back to the new girl or the old girl and just forget it ever happened " , I calmly said.
His words came out angry , "fuck you and damn you to hell" . His hands balled into fists and his knuckles turned white. "You gonna beat my ass" I asked him?
"I wanna " he said, "won't change nothing I reckon"
I calmed my voice and said "it's scary as hell , I know. My Granny told me when I was about twelve that there are genies hiding in bottles all thru our lives. Once you let them out ,you can't put them back in the bottle".
"What's that supposed to mean" he asked ? " Well I think it means that once you do something new you can't undo it" I said. He leaned up facing the truck bed and I think he might have been crying. I rubbed his shoulder and he turned to hug me and worked at gathering himself .
"Shit , Shit, Shit " he said . "I came here to beat the hell out of you" he said. "I wanna blame anyone but me". I think about Billy from school and how we all teased him for being gay, now I'm sorta mad at myself over it. When did you figure out that you liked boys" he asked me.
I laughed and said "when puberty hit a couple of us were doing a sleepover in a friends backyard in a tent. It was late and I heard this sound and Ross was jerking off. Mike was dead asleep and Ross he was a cocky tool just pounded away and I watched his phone screen light gave me a great view. I remember how fascinating it was to watch him tug it , then he grunted and cum splatted. The smell of it was making my head spin. The next day Ross told me he knew I was awake ".
I lied and acted dumb he moved away when his Dad changed jobs. "That and the internet was my only exposure to guy's until I started to cruise the mall restroom".
He looked at his boots his thumbs hooked into his jeans . So after that long awkward silence I softly said , "what do you want from me, Rusty"?
Finally he said "for you to move slam out of my brain" . I laughed lightly " dude you know I'm not in control of that". He sighed and said , " yea I know damnit to hell , I gotta go ".
He stomped to his truck and drove away fast black smoke pouring out, I think he called it "rolling coal "or something like that. I got in my car and pondered how I almost got a dose of the feels for him.
Out of the blue during class I get a message from the guy "Dale " I'd met at the river park.
"Hey CJ" he sent . "Hey Dale " was my reply. The bubbles floated for a good while then I got a message . He told me about school and his new guy friend . We caught up from time to time especially when he got a new boy toy. He said we should get together for a cup of coffee , sounds good but we never will.
I wasn't sure about many things. I was fairly sure that my life was going to be complicated at best.
I think this chapter might be to long. Thanks for reading and I hope you are enjoying what I create.
Cheers
CJ