Sleepy Days, Come No More
Chapter 52
The few months that separate summer from winter had never been so long. Though Blake and I spoke everyday about everything, it wasn't the same as being with him. So when fall had finally faded away and winter arrived I was ecstatic.
Blake would only be staying for a few weeks but I wasn't thinking of time, just him. I took the afternoon off from work so I could pick him up from the airport. We embraced and kissed. Then I took him back to my place.
We entered the townhouse and left his luggage by the door.
"Are you hungry or sleepy?" I asked with a smile as I looked through the mail.
He came behind me and wrapped his arms around my chest, "You smell good." He said and started kissing my neck.
"Aww." I gasped.
"I want to get you out of all these clothes." He announced.
"So, that's a no to the sandwich." I said with a chuckle.
"Let me work up an appetite first." He said as he started to unfasten my belt and pants.
"You sure you have enough energy for the job?" I joked.
He managed to push his hand into my underwear and was fondling me. "I have a lot of pent up energy. I am ready to burn it off." He breathed into my ear.
"I think I would like that." I whispered.
I was so erect that my cock was throbbing and had started to leak. "Slow down baby, you're going to make me cum." I exclaimed.
"Not yet, I'm just starting." He replied.
"It's been sometime stud - I can't promise." I said.
"You want to do it right here?" He asked.
"In the hall? No! Let's go upstairs." I said.
"If you like we can do it in every room in this house." He offered.
"Okay, let's start in the bedroom . . . . . if you can catch me." I said as I snatched away from him and sprinted toward the stairs with Blake close behind.
We ran up the stairs and through the hall to the bedroom leaving a trail of clothes along the way. Once we were in the room Blake playfully tackled me to the bed. He hovered over me looking down into my eyes and began to kiss me.
I could feel his bare crotch rubbing against mine as he sent his tongue into my mouth. The heat from his body and the friction he created between my cock and his became too much for me, I was so aroused and excited to be with him that I prematurely ejaculated.
I would have probably been more embarrassed if it hadn't felt so good.
"Is that all it takes baby?" Blake asked with a smile.
"Apparently, when my lover is so virile and capable, it just can't be helped." I said with a slightly embarrassed smile.
He laughed and resumed kissing me. Eventually he worked his way between my legs and then into my body. Fortunately he was better able to contain his excitement and wasn't premature in his delivery. After we finished we fell asleep.
Once we awoke we showered together, like old times, then we dressed and headed out to meet up with Vanessa and Rico for dinner. We were actually running behind so we had them order for us. Once we arrived we talked until the food came.
"How was the trip Blake?" Vanessa started.
"No problems." Blake answered with a smile.
"You two look pretty happy, what have you been doing?" Rico inquired with a smirk.
"Well, we were . . ." Blake began.
"Resting. We were resting." I interrupted.
"It agrees with you." Rico added with another smirk.
"How was work?" I asked changing the subject.
"Long, very long - I don't even want to think about, just glad it's over." Vanessa informed.
"I had a great day, I slept till noon, had pancakes, worked on some music and now hanging out with some friends, tough job." Rico said.
We all chuckled a little.
"I took the afternoon off." I explained.
"Bravo." Vanessa said with a smile.
"Bravo?" Rico asked.
"That Steven took a few off of from work." Vanessa explained.
I smiled, "Well, I worked double duty the night before. No slacking ma'am." I replied with a smile.
"Hence the need for rest." Blake joked.
Another short bout of laughter followed.
"What are you guys doing for Christmas?" Vanessa inquired.
"Michael is coming to town and he is bringing a couple of friends and since Blake's here I thought I would do something at my place. I am going to get a big tree, lots of decorations, the whole bang." I answered.
"That's sounds good." Vanessa said.
"Do you have any plans? I thought that you two would come if possible." I said.
"I was thinking about going out of town to visit relatives but I only have a couple of days off, so that would be great. Let me know what to bring." Vanessa said with a smile.
"You want to cook something?" I asked.
"No but I can buy something." Vanessa laughed.
"So, what's going on with you guys?" Rico asked.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"I mean are you two just special friends or is this a reconciliation?" Rico specified.
"What?" I replied.
"I mean this is the second trip back and Blake is staying with you, I assume that he isn't in the guestroom." Rico said.
"Well, it is winter; we must all take care to keep warm." Blake said.
"How did we get from Christmas dinner to Blake and my sleeping arrangements?" I asked with a chuckle.
"It seemed like a sensible question, I wanted to know what I should get you guys for Christmas." Rico replied.
"And the status of our relationship affects what gifts you give?" I inquired with skepticism.
"Well, if you guys are just friends then I will get you two separate but cheap gifts, if you are a couple I will get you one reasonable priced gift that you can both share." Rico said with a laugh.
"Well, speaking of relationships, you two have been together for almost ten years and still no commitment." I countered.
"What's good for the goose." Blake said.
"I saw Sean the other day." Vanessa blurted out.
Her statement seemingly came from nowhere and it took us a second to adapt to the change of topic.
"Yeah?" I said.
"Yeah, we were at a financial conference downtown. He asked about you." She informed.
"Oh, how was he?" I asked.
"He looked well. He is very sharp." Vanessa replied.
"Most snakes are." Blake added.
"He isn't a snake. I don't know why you two never liked each other you are actually much alike." I said.
"Wow, why would you want to insult me?" Blake asked jokingly.
"I saw Sean not long ago actually, he asked me about you `rich boy'." I informed.
Blake laughed, "Such an asshole." Blake said.
"I told him that you were well and that um, you were working with children in Peru. He thought that was very charitable of you." I said with a smile.
"Then it has all been worth it." Blake said sarcastically.
"I think he was being sincere." I assured.
"He was probably just trying to get into your pants." Blake countered.
"Hey, keep it clean." Rico said.
"It was you who started the conversation about sex." I reminded.
"I never said anything about sex; I simply asked if you guys were rested." Rico replied with a smirk.
"Sure you were. As for Sean, I have seen him a few times and he has never been anything other than friendly. Actually he was with some young guy, must have been about 21 or so." I said.
"Damn." Vanessa said.
"Too young?" I asked.
"No, not that, I just remember being the young ones now we are the oldies." Vanessa said with a playful frown.
"Speak for yourself, thirty is the new twenty." I said.
"Yeah and in ten more years we will be saying the same thing about forty." Vanessa countered.
"I'm going out like Jagger, never aging." Rico said.
"No, Mick has aged he is just too stoned to realize." Blake said with a laugh.
"Honestly, on any given day I feel like I'm twelve . . . . . . sometimes eight." Rico said with a chuckle.
"This I know." Vanessa smiled.
"Hell, I feel the same many days myself, but there isn't a certain way that any age feels - I mean I'm 34 now but I am still the same person I was when I was ten." Blake said.
"Well, I think at our core we are the same person as far as character traits, but you get older and most of the idealism fades, at least that is the only difference I have really noticed." Vanessa added.
"I think we are all programmed to believe that we are suppose to feel or act certain way when we reach different ages, I think it is bullshit - I like that some days I feel the same as I did when I ten, hell - I consider it a huge accomplishment." Rico exclaimed.
We talked more as we ate. Then we went out to a movie and parted ways. There was a clear silence in the car on the way to the townhouse. Blake drove and I just veered out of the window. Blake asked me what I was thinking about but I just said I was a bit tired.
In truth I was thinking about what Rico had asked, what was our status? I sat there and thought about it and questioned myself about what I really wanted. It wasn't the first time I had pondered the subject, especially over the past few months but I had never brought it up. In my mind we were back together and it seemed as if the same was true for Blake, and the last thing that I wanted to do was rock the boat.
We spent the remainder of our night making love, making up for lost time you can say. The next morning I was awakened by Blake's movement. I had my arms wrapped tightly around him and he was attempting to free himself.
"What are you doing?" I mumbled.
"I have to take a piss." He said with a chuckle.
"Hold it." I said playfully.
"I have been." He confessed.
"Okay, hurry back." I instructed as I released my grip.
I watched him as he sauntered across the floor to the bathroom, his ass contracting with each step. I took a deep breath and turned onto my back and looked up at the ceiling. Before long I heard the toilet flush and the seat fall, followed by the sound of water splashing, then momentary silence before the sound of footsteps.
Blake climbed back into bed. He leaned over and gave me a kiss and then turned back over on his side. I moved in close behind him and wrapped my arms around him.
"I love you." I said as I started to kiss his neck.
"I love you too baby." He replied.
"Are you ready to have some fun?" I asked as I slide my hand down into his crotch and fondled his cock.
"Baby, I am so tired." He said.
"You don't feel so tired." I said and his cock a gentle squeeze.
"You've been a real sex fiend since I have been back." He said jokingly.
"You seemed to like it." I replied.
"I love it baby; you have just worn me out." He said.
"I missed you so much." I informed as I took one of his ear lobes in my mouth.
"Awww," he moaned, "I missed you too." He concurred.
"I don't want you to leave." I confessed as I continued to fondle him.
"I don't have any plans today." He assured.
"I mean I don't want you to go back to Peru." I explained.
There was no response. Then after a few moments passed he turned over to look at me. He smiled at me and said, "Baby, I want to be with you too. You know that I have to complete the next semester, let's just enjoy our time together. After this semester we'll talk about what we should do. Where is this coming from?" He asked.
"I was thinking about what Rico asked the other the night." I said.
"Which thing?" He asked.
"About our situation . . . . . about the nature of our relationship." I informed.
"I thought things were going really well between us." He said.
"They have been. I know that neither of us has said that we are committed to each other or talked about future plans, but I am under the impression that we are back together. Am I wrong?" I asked.
"No. No, baby, we are together." He assured.
"Do you not want to move back here?" I inquired.
"I have thought about it a little, I just, I have this life in Peru now and I have all these people that count on me and I just don't know if I am ready to walk away from that yet." He confessed.
"What does that mean?" I asked.
"It just means I love what I am doing." He affirmed.
"Where does that leave us?" I asked.
"I want to be with you, this has all happened so quickly, us being back together - there hasn't been any real planning or discussion about what we should do but I am committed to you regardless of where I am." He assured.
"I don't know Blake, I mean if it has to be like that then I will go along with it, but I don't know how our relationship can grow if we are so far apart." I confessed.
"Come here baby." He instructed extending his arm.
I moved over closer to him and he pulled me into his chest.
"Look, we are going to be talking all the time. I think we are closer than ever now." He said.
"I know, that is what I told myself and we will be talking to each other on the phone and video chatting and texting and everything else - but it just isn't the same. The last few months with you gone were miserable. The more we talked on the phone the more I missed you." I exclaimed.
"I missed you so much too. But baby, it won't be forever and being apart won't change how much I love you." He said.
"I know, I just don't like missing so much all the time. But it will be okay. I should probably let you get some rest; I need to finish a report for work." I said and kissed him on the forehead.
I went to the office and started my work. I tried to push the conversation out of my mind. A few hours later Blake went out to meet up with some friends. He asked if I wanted to come along but I decided to stay home and finish my report.
That evening Blake called to tell me that he would not be back until late and advised me not to wait up, so when the appropriate time came I went to bed. I was actually sleeping quite well before I was startled awake by the alarm sounding.
It stopped momentarily and just a few minutes later Blake was entering the room, taking off pieces of clothing as he walked. It was clear that he was trying not to wake me and I didn't let on that I was awake. I just watched him strip down to his underwear and seemingly ponder if he should take them off or not, eventually opting to remove them. He went into the bathroom to wash up or something and then joined me in the bed.
I had closed my eyes and remained quiet. Blake lay there still for a few moments but I knew he was wide awake. I reached over and grasped his hand.
"I thought you were sleeping." He said.
"I heard the alarm, it woke me up." I explained.
"Sorry about that." He said.
"No, I am glad that it woke me, that's why I have it. How was your day?" I inquired.
"Not very good really." He admitted.
I turned on my side to face him, "Why? What happened?" I asked.
"Nothing bad happened, I just kept thinking about our conversation this morning - I couldn't really concentrate on anything else." He explained.
"I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't have said anything about it or probably should have waited, I mean you've only been here for a couple of days and I am already hassling you." I said with a chuckle. "Forgive me."
"No, you have nothing to be sorry about; we are supposed to say how we feel." He said.
"Yeah, we did agree to talk about things. So what have you been thinking about?" I asked.
He turned onto his side facing me, "I love you Matty. You're the most important thing to me and I want to make you as happy as I can," he paused, "and I have decided I am going to finish the spring semester and then move back for good this summer." He announced.
"Really?" I asked in surprise.
"Yeah. I should be able to get a job at a school and if not I can always do construction or something until I get another teaching gig." He said.
"You don't want to do construction." I reminded.
"Construction isn't bad, I have done plenty of construction work in Peru and it was actually pretty cool working with some of the guys on the basement last summer, but if all else fails I am not opposed to being a kept man." He said playfully.
"Oh, baby I'll keep you alright, you wouldn't have to do anything." I said with a smile.
"I'm going to hold you to that." He said with a smile.
"You can start holding me to it now baby." I said flirtatiously.
"Come here." He said.
We made out and cuddled for a short while before drifting off to sleep. The next week was great. Blake and I did nearly everything together. We went hiking and swimming, we went to a couple of plays at the community center and I even played basketball with him and his friends a couple of times.
Michael came home two weeks before Christmas with his current boyfriend, Ray, and one of his roommates, Nate. I met both of them before and had a pretty good opinion of them. It was nice to have the place filled with life and there seemed to be plenty of people around most of the time, between Michael catching up with his friends and Blake doing the same with his.
It was also nice to have extra hands to help decorate the house for Christmas. We took a lot of pictures and Michael was very happy to catch up with Blake. He wanted to know all about Peru, he even said he was considering going abroad after he completed his thesis, and Blake was very eager to share all the details he could about the school and the children he was working with. He must have shown a thousand photographs.
I was really happy to have them both back in town again.
The Friday before Christmas was really hectic because I was trying to complete several tasks at work before the holiday. I sat at my desk shifting through a pile of client files when I was overcome with a type of grief. It had come from nowhere. I really didn't understand why I was sad, I mean the files contained some horrible events but they were nothing that I was not exposed to on a daily basis.
Then I realized I was crying. It was the oddest thing, if it weren't for the tears splattering on the documents I wouldn't have even noticed. It was a seamless flow of tears; it snuck up on me as if I were cutting onions. An hour had elapsed before I had any idea of what was bothering me - it was so obvious.
I managed to get a hold of myself and completed my work. Once I made it home I was relieved to find that Blake was the only one there. I knew that I needed to talk to him about the problem.
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