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Size Does Matter (To Me)
Part V: It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on. Just try your best, try everything you can.
Three things never failed this time of year. Someone gets too drunk and kills someone or themselves. Someone gets hurt playing with fireworks. And the community pool gets over crowded. With the fourth of July coming up this weekend all of the Sheriffs department were working overtime. The yearly festival at the high school was being set up with a small carnival going on all weekend. The fireworks display put on by the fire department got bigger every year and with it the crowds. Every deputy was dreading it. When ever a big event came around the Sheriff turned into a dictator. He treated all the guys like they were his private army and he their general. At times like these he was called Howling Herb behind his back.
Monday:
When he gathered everyone together for a meeting on Monday a black cloud settled over the building. "As y'all know I'ma retiring come the new year. And if anyone wants to get on the ballot which is empty right now, you have till the end of the month." Herb glared at Alex. He felt almost every eye turn in his direction. It was no secret herb was trying to groom him for the position. "If none of ya put your hat in then the county has ta open it up to outside the community. I highly doubt any of you want some stranger coming in and making changes." A few murmurs of agreement followed. "Now we come to the big shindig this weekend. I am getting to old to handle all that stress so im putting Alex in charge of it. I will get final say on all the big decisions but he will be the boss for this."
The entire room was silent. Herb scanned the room and it was pretty much the reaction he expected. Eyes were all wide and just about every jaw had hit the floor except one. Alex was on his feet note pad on the floor eyes blazing and mouth tight grinding his teeth. Alex thought that son of a bitch I should have known he would try something like this. He knows I don't want the job so he is going to force it on me one way or another. "Alex sit down your not in charge yet we will cover all the basics here now then you can get together with your team leaders when we finish. As usual we have lots of volunteers signing up so there will be no shortage of people on hand. Just make sure they know they have no real authority we don't need a repeat of you know what." The rest of the meeting went by quickly and quietly.
As it broke up Herb left for his office and the ranking deputies started asking Alex for their assignments. Before they could overwhelm him he stormed off after Herb. Not bothering to knock he let himself in and slammed the door. Herb had his back to him not bothering to turn around he continued walking around his desk. Alex to furious to be polite just yelled. "What the hell was that about! I've told you way to many times I don't want your job! Now I am going have to deal with all the resentment from the older guys that have been doing this for years and years. I've only been here a few years! You've been telling all your friends to push me haven't you!? How do you think that makes me feel. I'm not ready for that kind of responsibility. Too many people treat me like I am their own private cop. I can't walk down the street without someone stopping me. I think I know everyone in the county by first name now." Throughout the triad Alex paced the office losing steam as he went on as he finished he collapsed on the couch burying his face in his hands.
Herb stood back up and slowly stepped over and sat down and place an arm around Alex, well as best around the big guy as he could. "Are you done? For one thing everyman in that room has the utmost respect for you. Second when I started talking about retiring so many of them came to me saying they thought I should ask you to take over. I had about six guys I was going to start the ball rollin to see who could do it. Five of them came to me first and suggested you. The sixth says he won't do it." Alex looked up at him his eyes a little wet seeing the old man in the same condition. "You need to have more confidence in yourself. You remind me of me when I was about ten years older then you. I knew everyone around here too. Having everyone know you and bring their problems to you shows how much they will trust you to run things. And you've done it at such a young age for this kind of work."
He stood up and called his receptionist telling her they were going to be in a private meeting for the rest of the day. Pulling a bottle of Jack and two glasses out of a cupboard he poured them each two fingers worth. He sat back down and told Alex to drink up they were done for the day. "I don't see how a big grizzly like you can be scared of anything?" Downing his drink Alex coughed and helped himself to another. "I am not scared I just don't want that kind of responsibility right now. I want to have a chance to have a life and do what I want before I get too tied down." Sipping his own Herb shook his head. "Bull shit your scared out of your mind. You don't think you could do the job but every goddam man in this building, including myself knows you can."
"Do you know that your the only guy on this force that has discharged his gun only once since you started here. And that was to shoot a coyote that was terrorizing some cows. You have fantastic judgment. With only one exception and I believe you will still get that bastard someday. That you have the highest arrest and conviction record in the tricounty area." Alex sat back feeling the liquor. "I had no idea. I just do my job and hope I do enough. I just want everyone to be safe and happy." Herb shook his finger at him. "That's why you do such a great job. You don't do it for the glory or praise. You do it for the sake of it needs to be done. As for having a personal life that's the biggest bullshit line. Sure the first few months will be hectic getting settled in and getting your agenda on track. Look at me I am on my second wife and have six kids my youngest Kevin is just a year younger then you. I see them all the time. And I have more hobbies than I can keep up with."
Shaking his head Alex sighed. "You don't get it I like my life being private. If I take this office from you everyone is going to know my business." Herb stifled a giggle. "You know your life isn't as private as you think. I know your gay." Alex's eyes went wild and his heart started racing. He could feel the sweat beading on his forehead. Trying not to stammer and keep a level tone Alex slowly let out "What are you talking about? I'm not gay. What would give you that idea?" Seeing the sheer panic from Alex he couldn't help but laugh. Alex was confused. What was the old man up to now. "Please son don't think you can pull the wool over my eyes. Back when I was in the army they called me the spy master. The FBI tried to recruit me but I wanted to come back home and be with my family. There have been rumors about you for a while now. More then a few times I've been asked about you. Pretty much every eligible woman around and a few married ones have tried to get their hands on you and you haven't gone on so much as a date as long as I have known you."
Alex let out a breath he could see a way out of this. "So what just cause I haven't met anyone around here doesn't mean I'm not looking." Herb reached out and smacked him across the head. "Give it up boy you are gay capital G A Y and we both know it. A few of the guys have noticed you checking other guys out. And Kevin my son your age is gay. He lives out in the city. He told me he saw you at one of the gay clubs over there. Don't try to deny it, you don't exactly blend in with the crowd." The tears were let loose. Silently Alex wept whatever life he thought he was going to have was gone once everyone found out. Herb handed him some tissues. Once he calmed back down. Herb refilled their glasses and had him down it. "Who cares, I don't." Alex looked him in the eyes. "Oh I'm sure people are going to care. We live out in the boonies people are going to have a problem with this." Nodding his head Herb sat back. "Of course you're right. Some people are going to have a problem but nowhere near as many as you think. This community is more open minded then you want to believe."
"Before school let out a few weeks ago I had a few students in here wanting to talk to me. They want to start a gay straight alliance next year and asked if you could help out with it. They suspected that you were gay. I didn't tell them you were by the way I know how to keep a secret. But they said even if you weren't they wanted you as an adviser or mentor of sorts cause the kids look up to you and think the world of you." Alex stood up he couldn't handle much more of this. He had no idea what kind of influence he had on people. He always thought his size just kept people in their place. It seems he was the only one clueless to how he affected those around him. Herb put the bottle away and sat back down at his desk. Putting his serious face on he spoke with a fatherly tone. "Get yourself cleaned up and go home. You have a lot of thinking to do. Come back in tomorrow refreshed and get going on that festival. We are all behind you on this. And when this weekend is done we will sit down again and discuss your future." Alex just nodded wiping his face and went home.
Later that night as Alex sat petting Mini and contemplated his life the Lords of Hyrule were practicing their asses off. They had four songs to learn and master by Saturday. Thanks to them the Dirty Jug was packed every Friday night. They were getting lots of attention but never expected to be asked to play the Fourth of July festival. Throughout the day the various school band from around the county would be playing then from 7:30 till 9:30 they would be on stage before the grandstanding by officials and fireworks started. Then a DJ would take over to finish out the night. They could play anything they wanted as long as it wasn't offensive but the first two and last two songs were already picked out for them so they only had a week to learn them.
There was some tension in the room. Before they got started there was an argument about what they should wear to the concert. So far they just wore something comfortable with the exception of Shane who was always so buttoned up. One guy wanted to have shirts made with their name on it and just wear shorts. Jeff thought they should go shirtless instead but everyone vetoed that. It got really heated before they just dropped it and began playing. Shane was the only one not to express an opinion but he thought about it as they played. As they were packing up for the night he don't know what came over him but he blurted out his idea. Stunned to hear him really say anything about it at all they are looked at each other and wondered why they hadn't thought of it themselves. One of the guys worked as a tailor in his moms shop and said if they all came in and were measured tomorrow he could have everything made in time for the show.
After the guys had left Shane sat on his bed he couldn't believe he had said anything at all he always just went with the flow. Not only did he have an opinion at all but they liked it and were all for it. He was pumped. His heart and mind were racing filling him with nervous energy. Feeling all sweaty from being in the warm humid basement and moving around as they played he decided to take a shower before trying to get some sleep. Stepping in front of the mirror he took a good look at himself. He didn't like what stared back. The greasy black hair was getting too long and stuck out at odd angles. He always wore the plastic framed glasses with the small scratch. He wanted to save the black metal frames for special occasions. The eye doctor said they made his green eye pop whatever that meant. His beard was out of control he kept it somewhat trimmed but it was growing out uneven now.
Grabbing some clippers he ran them over his head giving himself a high and tight like he used to do before he stopped caring how he looked just leaving a bit on top so he could spike it up. As for his beard it was time to try something new. Starting with the clippers and then a razor he shaped it into a pointed goatee like you would see on a devil costume and topped his lip with a thin mustache that curled slightly at the tips. He grinned thinking wow I look like some evil hacker from a cheesy movie. Turning on the shower he took off his shirt and ran his hand over his lightly hairy chest and down his thin treasure trail. He had thought about trimming it or shaving it off before but just like every time he couldn't do it. Having some body hair made him feel like a man and not a little boy. Opening his belt and dropping his pants he turn around and looked at his ass in the mirror. The white briefs he wore made it look firm and tight but as he lowered them he could see the scars from the beating he had taken from belts and whatever else his dad or Todd could get their hands on. They both had been careful not to leave marks anyone would notice.
Turning around he was not going to let that get him down he was determined to let that part of his life go. Continuing to pull the briefs down he ran his hands over his legs the only other part of his body with any hair other then his pits and pubes. Standing back up he was surprised to see he had an erection. Pointing ninety degrees from his body at a thick seven inches it was hard as iron. It had been a while since he had one beside a piss hard on in the morning. Not wanting to waste a spontaneous hard on he jumped in the shower and using the shower gel lathered himself up. With one hand tweaking his nipples and the other gliding up and down his cock he let out a moan. Slowly at first and quickly building up speed the intense feelings became to much for him and sank to his knees. As the water cascaded over him he blew his load it just seemed to go on and on.
Finally spent he got back up on wobbly legs and finished cleaning up but his hard on had not gone down. Drying off he walked to the bedroom and laied down the stiff dick leading the way bobbing along. Just laying there arms spread his dick throbbed to his heart beat twitching by itself begging for more attention. Taking it in a loose grip he stroked it trying to imagine that someone else was there with him to give him pleasure for once. The guys that popped in his mind were all pretty generic none really bringing him that excitement to bring him over the edge again. He thought about the guys in the band but they didn't fit. Nor did any of the guys at work. There were the guys he saw at the bar all the time but yet still nothing was working. So instead of a specific man he tried to think about what he wanted to be doing. He wanted to be held and protected to be wrapped up warm in snug in a guys arms and gently made love to. A warm mouth kissing him all over bringing him to ecstasy. Getting close he stroked faster it was working and a face was coming to him. Opening his eyes he the face that was there surprised him and even through the shock he lost it and the cum erupted shooting rope after rope of cum. The first shot went over his head leaving a trail across his body and face. The next landed right in his mouth and the rest loosing power covering his neck chest and stomach. Not wanting to deal with what he just thought he quickly cleaned back up and slipped between the sheets.
Tuesday:
The next day Alex got up early after a fitful sleep and drove over to his moms house. As usual she was already up and eating breakfast. Being a nurse in the maternity ward she was used to early and odd hours. With his mind made up he sat down with her looked her straight in the eyes and said "Mom I've decided im going to run for Sheriff and im gay." She just took another bite of her eggs and sighed "That's nice dear could you pass the coffee." As he poured her another cup he wasn't sure she really heard him. "Mom did you hear me? I'm gay and I'm running for sheriff." Taking a sip of the bitter brew she just shrugged "I heard you if that's what you want I think it would be a great job for you. As for being gay its no surprise a mother knows these things I was just worried you would hold it in for the rest of your life and it would hurt you." Looking up the look on his face was priceless so she couldn't resist the jab. "It is too bad I wont get grandchildren but I suppose you could adopt I won't mind as long as you bring he or she by often for me to spoil."
Unable to control it she just laughed slapping the table. Eventually he saw just how stupid he sounded and joined her. "Well I had no idea how you would react do you think dad would have been okay with this?" Taking his hand she lovingly squeezed it. "Honey your dad was one of the kindest most compationat man I have ever know. When you left for school he told me not to be surprised if you brought a boy home. He never talked about it because it hurt so bad but he had an older brother that was gay. Back then things were different you couldn't be open about it and when he was in high school some of the other kids found out and it was bad. One day they beat him up bad and he couldn't take it anymore and hung himself." Alex had a tear in his eye. "I'm learning a lot of things this week. Why didn't dad ever say anything to me?" Sighing she looked to the picture of him on the wall. "He was scared if he pushed you something bad would happen. He could not risk losing you." Looking at her watch he jumped up. "We need to get going I have babies that can't wait and I'm sure Herb will want to hear yours news right away."
When he got to the station he found a folder on his desk. It was all the paper work he needed to run for Sheriff and it was all filled out all it needed was his signature. There were petitions with hundreds of names and recommendations from many of the other deputies as well as his commendations. Looking up Herb was leaning on the door to his office and just nodded and mouthed MOM. Shaking his head Alex signed everything and took it over to Vicky the receptionist. "Could you see that this gets sent in please darlin." With a wink and a grin the plump woman said "sure think sweety and its about dam time you had us worried." Then the clapping started turning around he just shouted over the din. "Get your asses back to work we have a festival to prepare for."
The day had been long, one fire after another had to be put out. Some idiot on the executive floor had downloaded a virus and it spread to all the servers. Shane's department was in panic/recovery mode. At the end of they day they had saved almost everything and stopped the virus. It was going to take the rest of the week to reload everything. Making his way over to the mall where Zach's mothers tailor shop was. He had walked by it many times and had never even looked inside. In the back he could see a tiny gray haired woman plugging away at a sewing machine. Behind the counter Zach was measuring and cutting some green material. Looking up he said he would be with him in a second. "I'm in no hurry you said to come in to get my measurements."
"Sorry were we altering a suit for you or something I don't remember your order." Raising an eyebrow Shane didn't get the joke. "Dude you told us to come in so you could make our outfits for the concert." Zach's eye went wide "Holy shit I didn't recognize you, what brought on this change?" "I just needed to do something different. Is that green for us?" Gesturing behind him "Ya the other guys have already been in and im making sure I have enough for the tunics and hats the pants will be a lighter green. Just step back to the dressing room and ill get you sorted out."
Pulling at a tape measure and a notepad Zach had Shane stand with his arms and legs spread and went on taking down the numbers. As Zach wrapped his arms around Shane's middle to take the chest and waist Shane felt a stiring. It made his think of last night and his fantasy of being held and taken care of. When Zach got on his knees and ran his hands up and down his leg by then he had a hard on in his tight briefs. He hoped Zach wouldn't notice through his baggy trousers. It was such a turn on actually having a man run his hands over him even if it was just for a fitting and if it didn't end soon he was going to cum. That's when Zach placed the tape at his ankle and dragged it up the inside of his legs and bumped his balls that's all it took and he came. Jumping away he went red with embarrassment. Zach just thought he had hit him in the balls too hard. "Sorry when guys where baggy pants it hard to tell when to stop your not the first guy I've hit. But your all set." Alex left so fast hoping he could get to his car before the stain could start to show.
Wednesday:
The next day Alex woke up to the Mini licking his face wanting out. Letting her out he got the paper finding his picture taking up the front page. The headline said Our New Sheriff??? he scanned the article which just highlighted his brief career and his standing in the community. Needing to get his day started he quickly got dressed and headed out. Before he got to the end of his street he saw three signs on lawns supporting him. All he could think was how the hell did they get those so fast?
Arriving at the high school he was going to meet with all the volunteers and hand out assignments. The traveling carnival was there setting up. A lot of the local businesses were setting up booths but one caught his eye. Next to the stage were two booths one was for the Dirty Jug. Jessica was setting up tables for both booths. The other booth said Grizzly for Sheriff. He just waved to her and headed over to the gathering. It only took about an hour to get everyone situated and a map drawn up of where everyone needed to be. The rest of they day he walked around with the deputies making sure all was well.
Another day done and Shane was exhausted. One more day and the company's computers would be cleaned out and safe again. His bosses were impressed with all the hard work his team put in. He was just glad he insisted that all the systems be kept backed up every week. Now he had to get home for another practice. They almost had all the songs right. But driving home he was distracted all day by the gossip then driving home he saw all the signs. The one man he didn't want to think about and he was everywhere. Then when he got home the guys all wanted to talk about him. He ended up going to bed rather frustrated.
Thursday:
Things were going rather smoothly. Alex was running drill after drill all day making sure nothing went wrong tomorrow when things kicked off. All that was left was for the celebration to start.
Shane raced home. Just after lunch his phone rang. It was the security company letting him know the alarm was going off at his house and the police were on their way. Pulling in the driveway he could see a young boy of about ten in the driveway playing with a basketball. A cop was standing on the porch questioning someone sitting in the rocker. As he approached the officer asked if he knew the woman. "Ya she is my sister sorry you had to come out here." "No problem that's my job. Mam next time I suggest you call ahead first." As he left the boy came around and hide behind his mother. Shane hadn't seen him since he was about four. "What are you doing here Trish? You cant just show up like this I'm too busy right now to have you around."
Taking the boys hand she scowled. "Why Trish how nice it is to see you and Max. You both look great why don't you come in and have a drink. You are such an asshole. I have been calling you for months. You couldn't just pick up the phone and let me know your okay." He walked past her and opened the door. "Well come in since your already here."
Damn that was a lot of emotion there. Hope I don't scare anyone off with the direction im taking this. I am having fun writing it. The next part will cover the festival and will have a surprise twist at the end I don't think any of you will see coming. This part is dedicated to Leon he was the first to let me know how im doing and has been supportive. And the title from the last chapter was the song Drive by Incubus. If you have anything to say let me know or if you just want to guess what song the chapter title comes from. chefinthewild@yahoo.com