This is the first story I've ever written, I wrote it over the summer of last year and my writing skills have grown immensely. Although this is my first story I've wrote, I have published other stories on here and am currently working on one. Under the high school section, I have the One or the Other, which is a current project; Hayden's Story; and Gavin's Got Game. Under the college section, I have The After Party. The latter three stories all contain sexual content.
If you like this story, you can email me at wah.stories@yahoo.com. I love getting fan mail and can't wait to here from you all!
Chad and I were playing video games in my room as always. Ever since 1st grade we've spent the whole weekend together. He has always been there for me and I don't know where I'd be without my best bud in my life. We're now juniors at GFHS and loving every moment there.
Ever since I've known Chad he's always been the cute, shy kid. Don't get me wrong I'm straight but I can tell if a guy is good looking or not and in my eyes Chad is hot...for a guy. He's a natural blonde but he dyed his hair in 7th grade. It's now brown with blonde high lights. It's kinda funny that he dyed his hair like that because I told him just a few days before that brown with blonde highlights was my favorite hair color for a girl. Now Chad's eyes are a grayish color. Sometimes they are a blue-ish color but they are mostly gray. He is pretty muscular because he and I have been playing basketball for a few years. So yeah, he is pretty hot...for a guy of course.
"How about the next person who loses has to tell their biggest secret?" I said hoping to get something out of him. I knew everything about him but I just wanted to see if there was something he was hiding. Chad smiled and said it's on; he never could resist a challenge. Chad is pretty good at Mario Kart, yeah I know it's old but Chad and I have always loved it, but I was a little better than he was at it. After about 10 minutes I beat him and I did my little victory dance. When I stopped I saw Chad just sitting there thinking to himself.
"Okay Chaddy boy, gotta confess to your deepest darkest secret."
"Alex I-I-I'm gay." Neither of us said anything for about an hour. I couldn't believe my best friend just came out to me. I felt so bad for not knowing. It's so obvious now. He's never had a girl friend and when he likes someone he says "they" instead of "she." I was supposed to be there and support him no matter what. However, being the idiot I am I didn't hug him and tell him I was happy he came out to me.
All I said was "How?"
"I figured it out in 5th grade when Marcus was dared to kiss me. I actually liked it and had a crush on him for years. However, in 8th grade I stopped liking him because I realized I was already in love with someone. I know we're like brothers but I'm in love with you. Every time I see you I get goose bumps and think about kissing you and letting you hold me. I want to be with you for the rest of my life Alex. You are the only person I'll ever love."
He then started crying and this time I did better than just how. I held him in my arms and rocked him til he stopped crying. Finally, I was being the friend I should have been an hour ago. I kissed his forehead as if he were my little brother or something. "Chad, I want you to know that I'm flattered that you like me-"
"I love you..." He grinned through his tears.
"Okay I'm flattered that you love me but I'm straight. I only like girls and you are a brother to me. We've always been there for each other and I don't know what I would do if I lost you. I love you too Chad but in a different way." Next thing I knew Chad was on top of me and kissing me! His lips...they were so...so...so great. For a few seconds I was kissing Chad, my best friend, back.
I push him off me. "Chad please don't! You know I can't do this!"
"Why Alex? You told me you loved me.. w-w-were you lying?" Before I could answer Chad was running. Not just from me but from his secret, from his past, from his future, and his life.
Two weeks had passed since that night in my room. I haven't seen or heard from Chad. I've finally gotten things figured out. Yes I am straight but the feeling I have for Chad are mutual. That kiss changed everything for the best and I need to let him know that I loved him, no wait...I'm in love with him.
I told my mom everything and all she said was "I'm glad you finally realized." I couldn't believe my mom knew I was in love before me. I kissed her on the check then ran out to my car to get my boyfriend. I like the sound of that...my boyfriend.
When I pulled up into his driveway the cops were there. I jumped out of my car and ran inside the open door. A policeman was talking to Chad's parents. They were crying. They looked horrible. Mr. Applegate's eyes looked red and he was still in his pajamas. He usually was dressed for the day at this time. Mrs. Applegate...well compared to her husband she was a train wreck times 10. Her hair was messy, her make-up was runny, her clothes were wet with tears, and she just looked horrible.
I walked up to them and they noticed I was here. His mom ran up to me and hugged me tight with tears strolling down her face. I didn't know what had happened yet but I was crying too. Chad's dad soon came up and the three of us were crying together. It felt good to be there with them. The only thing that was missing was Chad.
When we finally sat down the policeman started to explain. "We found you son's car in the parking lot near the lake. The park was closed so I went to put a ticket on the windshield. Right as soon as I placed the ticket I saw something in the water. I called in back up and when they arrived they pulled the object out of the water. It was a body.
We identified the body as your son, Chad Applegate. We ran tests and found out that not only had he drowned but he had excessive amounts of pain killers in his system. I'm sorry for your loss ma'am, sir." I couldn't believe it. Chad was dead. My boyfriend. Dead.
Before I could start crying again a second cop came out into the living room with something in his hand. He said, "We found this note addressed to an Alex Marshall. It fell out of the journal from under his bed."
I took the note from his hand and slowly unfolded it. I was scared to see what it said. I was scared he was mad at me or anything among those lines. The note read:
Dear Alex,
I know I may have caused you a lot of problems for you after I came out. I decided the best thing to do was to end my life so you wouldn't have to deal with your best friend the "fag". You mean the world to me Alex. I joined the basketball team just so I could spend more time with you. I hate basketball by the way. [Insert laugh] Every time we slept in the same bed I never wanted to get up. I wanted to lay there and hope you would turn around and hold me. But you never did. You were my role model and the love of my life. I hope that now I am out of the picture you can live the life you've always wanted to.
Love,
Chad
~ IMPORTANT ~
This story is a precursor to the actual Shawn's Turn. It contains information that may come in handy for the next part. Also. there are four chapters written by a friend of mine and I will tell you if they were written by her. Please DO NOT contact me and tell me how different those chapters are from the rest of the story and they are written completely differently. If you do I will most likely insult you. :D