It was supposed to be a lads night out, a chance for a group of friends who had not met up for quite some time, to reminisce about our years of friendship, what life is like et cetera et cetera. To be honest I wasn't really sure that I would bother going, because frankly my life had been recently a bit crap.
I have been married about 10 years, the last time I had seen some of my friends, but the marriage had not gone well. We had not been able to have children and my sexual limitations (tiny cock and latterly impotence) had been the nail in the coffin. While we were still living under the same roof we were living separate lives, and eventually divorce. I had not really found my sexual footing at that point, so really I was relying on a lot of pornography to help me through the day. It was in that process of exploring, and recalling my wonderful initiation into male sex which I had when I was 15 years old that I increasingly consumeded gay male pornography.
Anyway, my confidence was pretty low and I may not have gone out that night if one of the guys had not called me in the afternoon and made me promise to show up. Anyway, I knew while the lads might take the piss out of me for a while it would all be good-natured and maybe it was a chance to forget my worries at home. When I arrived at the pub, I have to say I was really pleased that I had made the decision to go out catching up with friends some of whom I had had since childhood was really good. As the night went on I ended up in a corner chatting to a guy called Tom who I only knew vaguely, he was more a friend of a friend.
He was very forthright, saying he had heard about my marriage et cetera and was wondering how I was. Anyway I was a little bit pissed and probably talked too much. At one point I went off to have a piss and he appeared beside me a few moments later. I was standing very close to the wall, in an effort to not dribble on my shoes and also to make it more difficult for anyone to see how small my cock was. That didn't stop Tom having a look which I returned when I saw him hold his monster, standing back a foot further than me.
He smiled as he finished and shook his snake and somehow fitting it back inside his trousers. Anyway nothing more was said but when the evening was breaking up and guys were heading for their trains home, Tom just asked if I would like to go back to his place and chill out for a while. I was really not in any hurry home so I was happy to go to his place which was nearby. We got to his flat he asked "will we watch some porn", which I tentatively agreed to. I have actually never watched porn with another guy, although my exploration of X hamster and other porn sites had certainly made me think about how good it would be, especially as I had reflected more and more on my early sexual experiences with my doctor and regretted not having the opportunity to explore my love of superior cock
"You know I'm gay right?" Tom asked, and when I told them there actually no I didn't, but didn't care he switched on some hot gay male porn. "tell me if this is too much for you," he said but I reassured the it would not be the first time I had enjoyed this genre.
"Cool, I'm glad you have an open mind"
The action on the screen was pretty hot I have to say. Two guys with enormous cocks were spit roasting a twink, I love the way in gay porn there is no BS, no beating around the bush, the little guy took each cock balls deep in one go. The same time he was attempting to take the other cock down his throat. One of the guys I have to say was my idea of male perfection, an athletic looking guy muscular and darker skin with a completely hair free body, and yes a long fat cock. He was beautiful. My meditation on his body was interrupted by Tom asking "you okay I have a wank, I love this video" I nodded and in a flash he had his own gorgeous cock in his hand. Now I really had a dilemma between wanting to see his cock without freaking him out or embarrassing myself, however when I stole a glance, Tom said "feel free to take yours out and enjoy, I love having a wank buddy with me"
Being the beta I I thanked him but said I was okay. Tom chuckled "don't be embarrassed, I know my cock can be intimidating to most guys especially if they are not as blessed as I am" he looked me directly in the eye and smirked. I flushed red in embarrassment, never having been called out directly about my inadequacy.
We watched for a couple of minutes and I soon gave up the pretense of watching the screen rather watching Tom with one hand on top of the other and a good 2 inches of cock head at the top jerk himself. Why don't you give me a hand he said and patted the sofa beside him. By this point my earlier embarrassment had fallen away, Tom was actually quite a sexy guy, and I was in awe of his cock. I moved over beside him and he took my hand and wrapped it around his cock and let me wank it by myself. It was incredible I had never had such a hard piece of meat in my hand before. I caressed it feeling it's girth, looking at the bulging veins and when I saw precum glistening, I made sure to coat his cock head with it using my thumb. "That's nice, you're good at this" Tom observed and pushed his trousers round his ankles. "Now don't forget my balls" so I reached over with my left hand and took his balls and caressed them. My heart was pounding in my chest and I have to say I was loving giving Tom pleasure.
"Have you ever sucked a cock?" He asked and when I shook my head no he asked "would you like to?"
To answer himi leaned over and took his magnificent cock in my mouth. I had butterflies in my tummy, nervous but also very very sexually excited. I loved the size, and soft texture of his cock and the taste of his pre-cum I only took three or 4 inches in my mouth initially and when I was beginning to wonder if I was doing a good job Tom grown "you're good at this, keep going see how much you can take"
In an effort to Get more comfortable it seemed like the natural thing to do was to slide onto the floor and kneel in front of him. Tom chuckled "are you sure this is the first time?"
I didn't respond, too busy relieving years of pent-up cock hunger. I had certainly thought about this exact situation many many times and watched countless hours of porn cock worship. I kissed, licked and nibbled up and down the magnificent shaft before taking his balls in my mouth, one by one, feeling their density and heat. I even lifted his ball sac so that it rested on my nose as I kissed the sensitive bridge between them and his anus.
Tom threw his head back and exclaimed "fuck man you are hot" I finished by taking as much of him down my throat as I could but to be honest was a bit embarrassed by how soon I gagged on him. Anyway quite soon Tom's breath shortened and he gasped "mouth or face ?" I answered by lifting my head partly off his cock keeping its head in my mouth licking and sucking, preparing myself for a cum explosion which duly came with three full shots followed by a couple more small ejaculations. I was able to hold it all in my mouth letting some of it dribbleIf back down his cock before swallowing. Tom took my head in his hands and kissed me on the lips, perhaps wanting to taste his own spunk but looking me deep in the eye said "we have got to do this again "
it was on subsequent visits that Tom explained to me how we immediately sussed out that I was beta submissive, and he was bit embarrassed to made that a new my confidence was extremely low and the combination of my mood and my true nature made him confident that by the end of the evening I would be sucking his cock. He was the first person I ever told about how the doctor used to finger me when I was a child. To my great pleasure and some embarrassment we re-enacted that seen a number of times, Tom using not just his fingers but also his array of anal toys. He chuckled telling me I should pay him for the therapy he was giving me.
He was a true alpha as I discovered on subsequent visits. For instance it was one weekend I stayed with him, we were having a shower when he turned off the water and had me to get on my knees when he started to piss on me. I was initially shocked but learned to really love it as part of our alpha beta relationship. it was with him that I rediscover the joy of wearing female clothing under my normal clothes every day. Unfortunately he moved a few years ago and I've only had a few occasions with him since then. But I love him for the confidence he gave me to suck cock and give alpha males pleasure.