Second Time Around Part 1 Hey Guys. I am taking a break with my other Story "Never Knew Love Like This Before" and I am starting something new. Each month it is something new with me and this month I am in love with Chris Kirkpatrick. This story will focus on him and his love affair with a boy named Cameron. All the pre-Nsync and early Nsync stuff ,in the story, is based on memories (represented by the italics). I hope you can follow me.
Of course I don't know the Nsync Boys. If I did, I wouldn't be writing little stories about them. This is a fictional piece any implications about the sexuality of the band members is pure fantasy. Also any mention of other celebrity characters, people, or places, is purely for the purpose of the story. This is all in my mind folks!
Enjoy
Second Time Around, Part 1
By Joseph Wallace
When he told me that it was over, I thought that my world was going to explode. I had loved this man for a year and had given him parts of me that no one will ever know. Was I just a fucking Psych experiment to him. I just know that Orlando would be a cold place with out Chris. When I am alone, I often think about the first time we met.
I was a Freshman and it was my first day on Campus. Chris was one of the Orientation Leaders and I was in his group. I remember when he first knocked on my door while I was unpacking with my parents. The loud rapid knocks startled us, so my dad immediately opened the door.
"Hi. Is Cameron here." Chris exploded
"Sure come in! You must be the welcome committee, or you had a lot of coffee this morning." My dad joked.
"Sweetie, Cut it out. Come in young man. We are just helping Cameron get unpacked." My mom said, inviting Chris into the room. "Can I offer you something to eat. Homemade cookies perhaps?"
"Wow. I would love a cookie."
Chris came in and sat on my desk and started eating my mom's cookies. She poured him a cup of milk and he just made himself at home. I am sure my mom was trying to size him up to see if he was gay, or not. Every since I came out to my parents, my mom had been trying to fix me up. Needless to say, I felt a little uncomfortable having my mom cruise for me.
Chris kept staring at me and my parents. I imagined that he was wondering who I belonged to. My mom was black and my dad was Italian, so we were used to people giving us weird looks. I was as tall as my dad which meant that I was about 5'11", even 6' on a good day, depending on the shoes. I had thick curly jet black hair like him as well. My skin was a rich almond tone and I had my moms brownish-green eyes. I was definitely a mixture, no one could say that I was the mailman's child.
Chris took one last look at us and shrugged his shoulders. Either he just decided to forget about it, or he put the puzzle together. I pretended not to notice him to much. He was a short little guy with to much energy for this early morning. I guess you could say he was kind of dorky but cute at the same time.
After cramming cookies in his mouth, he jumped off of the desk and came over and started helping me unpack. . He hadn't said a word to me yet. He just smiled
"If this is your mom and dad, you have to be Cameron." Chris said while folding up some of my tee-shirts.
"Yeap that is me. You must be my long lost other brother, because you sure made your self at home with my cookies."
I must have caught him off guard because he stared at me like a deer caught in head lights. I gave him a sly smile and I pushed him playfully. Mom and dad were use to my antics, so they just laughed at Chris' reaction.
"I can see that you aren't a shy guy, Cameron. We are going to get along just fine." Chris winked.
Right then, I knew that I was going to enjoy the company of this elf like guy with the colorful hair extensions.
Time flies when you are having fun
It was already midsemester and I was busting my ass studying for midterms. I was kind of sad that I hadn't seen Chris in a while. We were both pretty busy with study groups and extracurricular stuff. He was consumed with loads of rehearsals for this theater project, while I was constantly in planning meetings for this terrible Business class I was taking.
I didn't want to admit it, but I was really attached to Chris. Even though he had a girlfriend, we spent every other moment with one another. It was amazing how in sync we were. There have even been times when we have even fallen asleep in each others room and woke up in each others arms. Right after my parents left me in my room that first day in August, we became attached at the hip. We did everything together. Movies, parties and I even twisted my ankle when he taught me how to roller blade. If this man were gay, he would probably be the one. Unfortunately, I felt like he was withdrawing from me lately. At first I thought it was work and timing, but now I am not so sure.
Jared, my roommate, and I decided to go over to the dinning hall. It was about 2 PM and we had an hour before brunch was over. We had been in the library since 9 AM and we just put the finishing touches on our Intro. to Business Presentation.
On the way down the path to the dining hall. I saw Chris and his girlfriend Dani. I got really excited because I hadn't heard from him in like two days which was definitely out of the ordinary for us.
As we got closer to the couple I told Jared to go a head and save me seat.
"Hey guys! What's up?" I said embracing my two favorite people.
Chris grunted at me and Dani gave me the most uncomfortable smile. "Did I interrupt something?" I asked some what confused.
"No sweetie. Everything is fine." Dani said giving me hug.
"What's up Lug Head." I said shoving Chris playfully. "You have totally missing in action and you left your stinky basketball t-shirt in my room."
Chris turned and gave Dani a pleading look and she rolled her eyes so hard, I thought they were going to pop out of her head.
"I have to go Cameron and I will talk to you later Chris." Dani said before storming off.
"What is up with her?" I asked Chris
"Nothing. I have to go." He said starting to walk away.
"Can we hang later? We can watch Ferris Buller's Day Off?"
"No. I am going to be busy and I have a party to go to."
"Oh. Maybe I can tag along. Is it a party at Sean's house? He has the best parties."
"Cameron. You can't come. I just need a break." he said sadly
"Oh. I see. I will talk to you later." I said with a cracked voice.
Chris walked away and didn't even know that I was tearing up. He acted like I had done something to hurt him. "Does he need a break from everything, or just from me?" I thought sadly.
I didn't even go to the dining hall. I was to upset. I just let the tears run freely as I walked back to my room to take a nap.
When I woke up, Jared was listening to some music with his headphones. He must have noticed me open my eyes because he took them off and turned in my direction.
"Hey Cam. I brought you something from the Basement." He said softly.
The Basement was the loving name that we had for the dining hall because of it's 'interesting' cuisine. I looked at Jared and smiled. Besides Chris, Jared was my best friend. He knew I was gay and he didn't even care. We even made out a couple of times before he and his girlfriend started dating. He was bi with a preference for women. He was cool laid back guy and I loved him. He must of known that I was upset because he just stared at me with this knowing look.
"I was sitting by the window in the Basement and I saw you and Chris talking. You looked kind of upset. Do you want to talk about it?"
"I don't know Jared. He has been withdrawing from me. He even said something about needing a break. I am supposed to be one of his best friends. Why would he need a break from me?"
"Cam. I have watched you two and I think you know your relationship is more complicated then being best friends."
"Look, Chris is straight. Any feelings that I think I have for him are misplaced. He has Dani and I don't want to talk about this anymore."
"I am just going to say this and that's it, "Chris loves you too." Jared said with an emphasis on the word love.
Jared and I just sat there. I glanced at the TV and he new what time it was.
"Super Nintendo Time." We both yelled.
After a couple of hours of nonstop video games, Jared went to hang out with some friends. Apparently everyone had a life except me. I played for a couple more minutes and then I was getting bored. I wanted to give Chris his space, but I needed to just clear the air, so I decided to go over to the theater and visit. I knew he was in rehearsal.
I was in the same funky clothes that I had on all day. I was in desperate need of doing some laundry. I threw on a t-shirt that was to tight but showed off my chest. I wasn't one to show off my body, but I was glad that I did a couple of push-ups here and there. I couldn't find any jeans, so I just threw on some sweats, my sneakers and a baseball cap.
When I got to the theater, the cast must have been taking a break. Everyone was scattered about chatting or having a cigarette. In the distance I saw this red head named Molly. She was the skank of the department, but she was really sweet.
"Hey Molly. Have you seen Chris?"
"Hey Cameron. What is up?! You are looking kind of hot."