I know it has been a litte while since the last time I wrote a chapter but I had some writers block so I hope this chapters is good. Let me know what you think,.
When I woke up the next morning with Johnathan still in bed with me I was so happy that I had finally let him back into my life. That I had stopped pushing him away and told him what had been going on in my head since the beating. I was so scared that he wouldn't want to be with me after I told him but I knew I had to tell him, if I wanted to keep him in my life. I think he was shocked at some of the things that I had told him, but in the long run I think that this will help our relationship grow. I now know that Johnathan really really loves me, and we will make it in the long run as long as we are honest with each other.
As I lay here thinking about everything I keep looking at Johnathan he looks so peaceful laying next to me. I think god he he is the most beautiful man in the whole world I am so lucky to have him in my life. I start to stroke his chest, and I feel him stir alittle.
"Are you awake Johnathan my love?"
"mmm yes I am be sweet sweet prince.' Johnathan said.
"Thank you so much for last night it was the most wonderful thing to have you hold me again and love me again."
"oh my dear lover you are so welcome, thanks for finally sharing with me what has been going on with you.." Johnathan said as he leaned in a kissed me.
We kissed for what seem liked forever. Johnathan finally wrapped his arms around me and rolled me over so he was on top of me. He leaned in a kissed me more passionaltly, and began humping me. My cock was no getting erect as I could feel his ass move over it. He then started to kiss my neck, and down my chest stopping at my nipples. He licked and sucked them each "MMM JOHNATAN THATA IS SO GOOD." He then licked down my stomach and licked my naval. He then licked down the rest of my stomach. Stopped at my now hard cock and kissed the tip, and then looked up and me with a devilish smile. I wasn't sure what he was going to do what I knew what ever it was I was going to end up liking it. He then start to lick my inner thigh and down my right leg and then back up my left leg. Then he slowly licked the tip of my dick letting me feel is tongue ring. He licked around and then slowly down one side of the shaft and then slowly back up. I was moaning in pure ectasy now loving every moment of him on my cock. He then came back to the head and wrap his lips around it and slowly began to suck it. He got harder and faster in giving me head working my cock like there was no tomorrow. I was now screaming his name. "Oh SUCK MY COCK JOHNATHAN OH GOD YES." He continued with the blow job for a while, then he stopped and came back up to kiss me. We kissed for a little while then he moved got off me for a second moved to the nightstand and got some lube. He then put some lube on me dick, and then lubed up his ass and then straddled me and slowly lowerd himself on to my cock. When he was all way on my cock he just stayed there, and then leaned into me and kissed me again, and then slowly started to move up and down on my cock. He went slow for a while then he picked up the speed and really started riding my cock hard. He was riding my cock like a harely on the bad road. I know that sounds kind of funny to say but that is just want it was like. When he would sense that I was getting close he would stop completely lean in to kiss me and then start again. We made love like this for a while till I rolled him over on his back never pulled out of him, and start to poud his ass. OH JOHNATHAN FUCK ME FUCK ME HARD. MMMM MAKE ME CUM. THAT'S IT BABY I AM SO CLOSE." I continued to fuck him then I felt my balls tightened and I knew I was cummed. "OH JOHNATHAN I AM SO CLOSE CUM WITH ME." He said when you are ready grab my cock and I was cum. I pounded his ass a couple of more times and then grabed his cock and then I came and right after he came too. I collasped on to him and just lay there for a second.
I rolled off of him and pulled him close to me, and we just lay there in bed. I held him tight and while I was doing this I felt him start to tremble. This scared me a little because I didn't know what was wrong with him. Did he not want to be with me now. Did I do something, did what I tell him last night finally sink in and he was regretting what just happened, and he was going to leave me. I had to ask even though I was scared to know the truth, but I owed it to him to comfort him to be there for him, after all he was there for me all those months that I pushed him away. I took a deep breath and then asked.
"Baby whats wrong, did I do something, do you hate me, do you want me to leave? Please tell me I can handle it I love you."
He was quieter for a while and he just kept crying. I was scared that he was going to tell me something bad. I decided that it must be me that he was crying about that he wanted me to go away I was going to get up and leave.
"Johnathan I am sorry for everything. I love you so much thank you for comforting me all those months even if you wanted to leave me, or did not think I love you. I do love you and I am sorry for everything. I guess I can not fix all those months of pushing you away. I am going to go now, I will come back later I just don't want to cause you any more pain"
I started to slowly pull away from him but he just held on to my arms so tight that I could not get up. I just lay there next to him and held him now realizing that is just what he needed.
"Benjie please don't go. I am not crying cause I don't want to be with you. I am crying because I love you so. Yes you pushed me away for so long that I was starting to get scared you may never come back. Last night I was thinking that I love you, but if it hurt you so much to have me around or if you were never going to be able to love me again that I needed to give you some more space, maybe I needed to leave. Maybe I shouldn't be telling you all this now but I have to so you can realize how much this has meant to me. He kissed me and then continued telling me what was on his mind I know I told you I was going to stay and I wouldn't leave you once you got help, and I was so proud of the progress you were making but you still wouldn't let me go near you. I thought maybe your progress would go faster if I was gone so that is what I was deciding to do. I laid in the spare bedroom for so long thinking of what I should do I just go so tired everything of the last few months hit me and fell asleep. When you came in and started to kiss me I was so happy, but so scared. I thought maybe you were doing this because you sensed something was wrong and you wanted to make it right, then I looked into your eyes and knew that you wanted to do this more for your self then for me. You wanted to do this to make your self feel better so I let you. I let you kiss me and touch me, and feel me. When you told me you wanted me to make love to you I was so happy. I thougth wow this will be great he is getting so better I love him so I will make it happy. So I made love to you and it was great. I loved you so much, and I was so proud of. So proud that you had allowed your self to do this. I thought we could get through this now together. When you feel asleep in my arms I was so happy you have no idea. Then you had a nightmare.
He paused for a while and started to cry harder I just held him. I had no idea he was going through all of this, I was to preoccupied at getting myself better then to realize what was goin on with him. I thought after the first time that he said he was going to leave and we got that all worked out, I thought things were better. I just don't understand why he didn't tell me about this. Maybe it was because he didn't want to scare me, and make me do anything I didn twant to do. Oh how I love him for that, but I am so sad that I couldn't help him. I sat up in bed and pulled him up with me so that we were now facing each other. I wanted to see him when he told me the rest. I wanted to wipe away his tears as they ran down his face. He looked at me quizzically as I pulled him up with me. I just kissed him and asked if he could finish.
"Yes Benjie I think I can finish now. Just don't speak till I get it all out please."
I nodded my head yes and he kissed me once more and then started again.
"When started screaming and thrashing about in the bed I was so startled that I wasn't sure what was going on. I started to get really scared and tried to wake you up. All that while I was thinking damn I guess this was all to good to be true you were not really ready for me to come back ready to give yourself to me completely. You told me it wasn't my fault that this had happened but I still wasn't sure. I was so scared I didn't want to leave you, but that nightmare made the thought of leaving you come back, because I didn't want you to be in pain anymore. So when the nightmare happened I had really made up my decision. You then told me that you were so sorry for putting me at arms length for so long but that you felt you had to, that you did love me but you were scared. When I asked you why, and that I needed you to tell me you did. You finally opened up to me I felt like such an asshole for thinking about leaving you again. I realized that I did love you and no matter what I was not going to let you push me away, and even if you did I was going to stay no matter what. Then ask me to go make love to you again in our bed so I was so happy. I feel in love with you even more. That you would open your self up to me like that, and you were still going to want me to make love to you. It was perfect. Then this morning when I felt you touching me, I wanted you to make love to me. It was just so perfect. I knew that we were going to be alright again. The pleasure I felt was just so unbelievable. I love you so much. So that is why I was, and am still crying."
I took Johnathans hands into mine and kissed them, and pulled him into me and kissed him passionately on the lips to let him know that I do love him.
"Thank you for telling me all this I had no idea that this was going on with you. I wish you had said something but I realize you didn't because you wanted to protect me, and you didn't want to do anything to hurt me anymore. There is still going to be some times I get scared but I do love you, and I think I am much better then I was. So thank you. I am going to do something really special for you and you can not say no because I want to show you how much I love you, and how special you are for standing by me like that."
"Benjie just telling me you love me if find with me. You do not have to do anything special for me just being here with you is all that I need."
"Well honey I am still going to do something special no matter what. So make sure you keep tonight open for me please."
I kissed Johnathan again and then laid back down with him in my arms. I was so in love with this mad.
"Well Ben I am all your tonight but I have something I need to get done at the office today, so I will need to get up soon to get them done so I can be with you tonight."
"Okay sweet pea. I can handle being with out you for so long. I love you so much."
We lay in bed for a little while longer till Johnathan had to get up and get ready to go to his office. I watched him get ready. I love this guy he is so beautiful. I am so glad he didn't leave. I am going to try to do anything I can to keep him here. He looked over at me while I was looking at him and thinking.
"Hey stud whats going on in your pretty little head?"
"Just thinking of how much I love you my prince."
"Well baby I need to go to work now so I love you and will see you soon. Bye sweetie."
He kissed me and then left. I laid in bed for a little while longer before getting up to start on my surprise for him.