Paulina Rescues Mary Part 3A -- Saturday Morning
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This is part 3A of the multi-part story "Paulina Rescues Mary," which takes place Thursday evening through Sunday evening. This part covers Saturday morning. Please read the prelude "Paulina and Mary's Pain" first, as it will provide some context and background for the entire story.
This story takes place about four weeks or so after Paulina gave her virginity to Bernard and two weeks after her train trip to the country to visit Big Jim and Mary Sue.
Please let me know what you think. I have received wonderful feedback on my other stories. Email me at deviantigusti@yahoo.com. If you have criticism, please be constructive.
Be patient, dear readers. The story builds slowly before reaching the sex scenes.
Here are the main characters in this piece:
Paulina/Empress, 15: Pretty crossdressing boy.
Mary S., 15: Classmate of Paulina. Formerly included in the group of friends. Disliked by every-one due to her bitchy personality and her abuse of her best friend Hilary. Victim of harsh sexual and physical abuse by her uncle over a long time.
Ann, 25: Long time friend of the family.
Shawn and Dawn, early 30's: Friends of her family that Paulina is closest to.
Big Jim, 30, and Bunny/Mary Sue, 30: Paulina's friends in Picayune that she met the same night she met Bernard at her house. Jim was a soldier in the Special Forces ("Green Berets") during the Viet Nam war. Bunny is his fiancée. Paulina's train trip was to go visit them.
Carolina/Carrie and Hilary, 15: Classmates. Couple who declare their love to everyone. Carolina is one of Paulina's colonies. Hilary is her girlfriend and ex-friend of Mary, who sexually abused her for a couple of years. Part of the group of friends.
David, 15: Mary's twin brother. Classmate. The only person aware of her sexual abuse in their family. He does his best to love and comfort her. They have an ongoing incestuous relationship.
Mary R., 15: Classmate. Carolina's best friend. Part of the group of friends at school.
Saturday Morning
I woke up at about seven to go pee. Mary made an almost silent little "uwuh" as I carefully got out of bed. I slipped on the pink camisole set she pulled out for me when we talked to Carolina and Hilary earlier this morning. I brought my right hand up to my nose and sucked my fingers. They smelled and tasted of Mary's delicious pussy. I couldn't help but smile. I never would have remotely thought of having her as a lover. But since it did happen, I knew we would probably do it again. She was so fun to touch and lick and suck. She was also very skilled in giving pleasure as well.
As I stepped out of my door, Ann was stepping out of the guest room. She was in panties and a lightweight t-shirt. I could easily see her boobs and nipples through it. I gave her a sleepy smile as I looked her over. She returned it.
"Going to the bathroom?" I asked.
"Yeah, gotta pee pretty bad."
"So do I. But I'm not gonna make you wait. Come on."
Before she could respond, I took her hand and pulled her into the bathroom and locked the door. I pointed to the toilet.
"Girl, what are you doin'?"
"We both gotta pee bad, so I'm gonna go as soon as you're done. So pee already!"
"Alright." She pulled down her panties and sat. As soon as her ass touched the seat, she started letting out a strong stream of urine. It sounded like a little hose. I watched her with sultry eyes as I listened to her fill the bowl.
She was watching me watch her. Going to the bathroom together really wasn't a big deal. Women did it all the time. But she was intrigued by how I was paying such close attention to her peeing.
"That's really hot on you, girl" she said as she gave me a once-over.
"Thanks. I like your panties. I really like that t-shirt. I can pretty much see everything."
"You too."
I was still a little tipsy, and probably still feeling the contact high. I suddenly felt bold and playful, and figured I had an advantage since she was still peeing. I walked directly in front of her and ran my fingers through her hair and gave her a sly smile.
"Ann, I want to watch. Let me see you pee."
"What?" She cut the flow off.
"Come on, I really like it. Let me see."
"You really want to see? Looked like you were into it listening to it too."
"I was. I...just love it. Pretty please? You can watch me pee after." I giggled.
"Not really my thing, but what the hell. Take a look."
I backed up slightly to have a better view. She spread her legs wider and reached down and ran her fingers through her black curly bush before pulling her lips apart. They were a light pink, which went with her very fair skin. A second later a strong, light yellow streamed resumed.
"Mmm, looks good."
"You wanna taste it too?" said jokingly.
"Sure, if you let me" I replied slyly.
"Girl! I was joking!"
"But I wasn't..."
"You're a freaky little bitch! Fine, have a taste!"
Her eyes were wide as I reached down and passed a fingertip through the stream. As I brought it up to my face, I let it brush her lips and clit. She let out a shiver.
"Now I get to taste!" I slowly sucked the tip of my wet finger, tasting her salty, acidic urine. It wasn't bad. I licked my lips a few times.
"Not bad. You taste alright. It's not gross like you'd think."
"Okay...if you say so. Like I said, not my thing."
"That's cool. I know most people aren't into it."
"Alright, I'm done. Your turn."
I slowly pulled my panties down, almost making it a show for her. Sitting with my legs wide, my soft big clit didn't hang down much. I "mmm"d as pushed and my stream started. It was lighter than hers. She watched with an almost amused look. I gave her a sneaky smile ass I passed a finger through it and sucked it clean.
"Do you taste different?"
"Yes. Mine's...lighter? Like more diluted, I guess. Good though."
"I'm gonna have to start calling you `wet one'." She laughed.
"Hmm, I like it!" I giggled along with her.
I was still peeing when I got another naughty thought.
"Ann..." I reached out and touched her stomach. She flinched slightly but didn't move. I drew a little circle around her belly button as I looked up at her. "Show me your pretty boobs? They look so nice through that shirt but I wanna see them bare. I mean, I've already seen your pussy..."
She looked at me with an expression I couldn't quite read. I couldn't tell if she was irritated or excited by this whole experience. After a moment she gave me an exaggerated eye roll.
"Alright, here. Look all you want." She pulled off the thin white shirt to reveal a beautiful set of full 36-C boobs. They were milky white with dark pink areoles and nipples. She stuck out her chest a little and pushed them together, making a beautiful cleavage valley.
I looked at them deliciously. They sat up high with no sag. I could see them slowly rise and fall with each breath. I was about to speak when she cut me off.
"Go ahead, touch `em. That's what you were about to ask, huh?"
"Yep, you read my mind!"
I reached up and caressed them from underneath with my palms. They were warm and heavy. Her skin was silky with no birthmarks or blemishes. I began to knead them all around. My fingers found her nipples and I began to roll each one between them. They began to harden. She let out a little "mmm".
After about half a minute of fondling them, I looked back up at her with an inquisitive face.
"Nope. You're not sucking them. Sorry, girl."
I gave her an exaggerated pout.
"Please? With cream on top?" asked with doe eyes.
"Sorry, P. But I don't let chicks suck my tits."
I gave her a little smile.
"That's cool. I just wanted to ask. They're as pretty as I thought they would be. Thanks for letting me see and feel them. They're very warm. Your skin feels good."
"Well I told you they were pretty. I get a lot of compliments on `em."
"I bet. Speaking of which, how did Benny like them?"
She gave me a little smirk. "He was all over em. He's definitely a boob man. Sucked and played with em for a while. It was nice."
"And what about the rest? Is he...big?" I giggled.
"He's got a nice one. Not small, but not the biggest I've seen. But it works. He's nineteen so he has a lot of energy. He kept up with me" she said smugly.
"Cool. He looked kinda shocked when you touched and kissed him. Rick said he's had the hots for you for a long time."
"Oh yeah, since he was seventeen. I flirted and teased him a lot, but finally decided to let him have some. And I got a good fucking out of it. He probably would have gone twice more if we didn't pass out."
"Did, um, Shawn and Dawn do it at the same time?"
"You're full of fuckin' questions this mornin'. I mean literally!" I giggled along with her. "Yeah, they were goin' at it too in the other bed. But we were all too busy to pay attention to each other."
"Sounds fun."
"So what about you? Get lucky with your hot little wife that all the guys were drooling over? I gotta admit, she is a little fox."
I blushed and smiled.
"Yeah. It was wonderful. She's fun. And she tastes good too!" I giggled heavily.
"Did you fuck her? I know that little dick of yours works. I seen you get hard in them tight shorts you wear."
"It's my big clit. No, we didn't fuck. But she did suck it. It was...really good!"
"Big clit, huh? I like that. So she's good? Is she a spitter or a swallower?"
"She swallows, just like me" I answered mischievously.
"You? Suckin' dick already? Well I guess it's no biggy. I sucked my first when I was fifteen, too."
"Cool! I really like doing it. Plus, I heard that cum is good for your hair!" I started laughing as I shook my hair and pulled a few ends into my mouth.
She ran her hand through it. "Girl, you got gorgeous hair. How many dicks you been suckin'?"
I tried to keep a straight face. "Only five. I mean six. My hair's naturally beautiful."
We looked at each other before bursting into laughter.
After a few moments I had a question for her.
"Ann, can I ask you something? And be honest."
"Sure. What?"
I sucked my lip before asking. "Do y'all...and a lot of people who come over think I'm...just like a little tease? Or like a little freak or something?"
She looked at me for a moment. "Where'd that come from?"
"I don't know...I just wonder sometimes. I'm pretty sure y'all all like me. I know I'm pretty and cute and all, but I know strangers usually don't know what to make of me. I think sometimes I'm too much for people. Or too exuberant, like Karen said. And a lot of them might think I'm just a bratty little tease. But I, um, like to be nice to people. I like to make people feel good. You've probably noticed that I like to touch them, and um, be touched back. I like it when adults are nice and give me attention and don't treat me like a child. I like how they look at me sometimes. And touch me. But not always. I just hope y'all think I'm cool and a good person and not like, bratty or irritating or anything."
"Huh. Well, yes, we all like you. You're cool with all the crazy shit that goes on here and you don't bitch or whine and complain like some fifteen-year olds I've seen. Everybody likes it that you act mature and can handle yourself. Even when you're almost drunk!" She playfully poked my chest. "But I ain't gonna lie and say we don't worry about you sometimes. Nobody wants anything bad to happen to you. We know you think you're really tough and all, but bad shit can still happen. I know Hank worries that somebody's not gonna be cool with you really being a boy and might start some shit. Or try to be a little too aggressive and hit on you. I mean you're a hot little thing, and guys can be pigs and go overboard. But I know he or Shawn or the rest of us won't let anybody get away with that if we see them. But we worry a little bit about when you're not here."
"I usually don't have any problems handling myself." I gave her a full Wolf smile. "When I'm at school I have my boys who look out for me. Out of school sometimes too."
"Still, you have to be careful. You seem good at reading people, so just pay attention. If you get creepy or bad vibes from somebody then go the other way and don't let `em fuck with you."
"I will. Someone I know and really like is teaching me how to pay attention to everything. He said he learned how in the Army. He calls it `situational awareness'. He said if I can pay attention to like ninety percent of the stuff around me, then I probably won't have any trouble."
"Who told you that?"
"Someone I met one night."
"Here?"
"Um, yeah."
"There's only a few Army guys that Hank and Marie know, and I know `em all too. So who was it?"
"Promise you won't tell?"
"Why? Did he do something?"
"No, no. He's been super nice. It's just that I wouldn't want Hank to be mad because I talked to one of their friends by myself, not when they were here."
"I don't think he'd be mad. But if it ever comes up and asks, you gotta be honest about it."
"You're right. I guess it doesn't matter. It was Big Jim."
"Jimmy from Mississippi? When did you start talking to him?"
"I made friends with him and Bunny -- Mary Sue -- and they were telling me about living in the country. They told me I could call and talk to them whenever I wanted. He was a soldier, and I had some questions about things."
"What were you asking him? Jimmy wasn't no regular soldier -- he was in the Special Forces. They did all that covert secret shit."
"I was...just curious, that's all."
She folded her arms and gave me her `bullshit!' look.
"Girl, I know when you're bullshittin' me, so don't. What would you be askin' him shit for? Wait a minute. Does this have to do with you lookin' like a little secret agent and leaving your girlfriend for us to watch while you went and did something?"
"Maybe..." I replied sheepishly.
"Alright, tell me what the fuck's going on. What did you go do that you had to ask Jimmy about?"
"I'm not gonna tell you. But it was something to help...a friend."
"Well that's obviously Mary. Was she in trouble?"
I looked down and wouldn't answer.
"We all thought so. Is she alright now?"
"Yes. Everything's better. She's not going to have any more trouble" I said in a cool voice.
"Okay...I hope you didn't do anything that's gonna come back and bite you in the ass."
"No...it's not."
"It sounds like whatever it is, it's pretty heavy. If it's serious trouble then you need to tell somebody."
"There's no more trouble anymore. I took care of it."
She gave me a concerned look for a few moments.
"Are you really alright? What did you get into?"
I took her hand and held it in mine and gave her a sweet smile.
"I'm okay, really. The problem was fixed, and she won't have any more trouble. I'm sorry if I made y'all worry."
"You're not gonna tell me more, are you. Alright I'll quit askin'. One more question though."
"What is it?"
"You got the guys all hot n' bothered with that little striptease of yours. Jonny and Rick sat there with hard dicks for the next ten minutes. What was all that about?"
"Um, I was like, fired up. I get excited when...things I take care of get done the way I want. They were looking at me...and I liked it. So I wanted to give them something really good to watch and like."
"Huh. I'll tell you, we were all surprised. There you were dressed like a boy and stripping like a chick. But you had everybody in the room watchin', not just them two."
"Yeah, I know. Shawn yelled at me for it."
"Well he loves you and don't want anybody gettin' any ideas about you starting to strip when you feel like it."
"I know. I won't do it again. Not in the living room anyway." I giggled.
"We better not see your little ass up on the table strippin' like a chick in the Quarter!" She laughed.
"Hmm, maybe I could make some good tips if I did!" We both laughed some more.
"Alright, girl. I'm goin' back to bed. You better get back to your wifey. And don't you say a fuckin' thing about me lettin' you feel me up!"
"As long as you don't say anything about me watching your pretty pussy peeing and letting me taste it."
"Deal."
"...Ann?"
"What?"
"Thanks for not thinking I'm a freak or anything. I really like everybody and would be sad if y'all didn't like me anymore."
"You're a cool lil' chick, Paulina. We all like you the way you are so don't worry about that."
"K. Are you gonna have some more fun with Benny before y'all leave?"
"Nah, I don't like daylight sex. I'll catch you later."
"Bye." I shook again and washed my hands before going back to bed.
I carefully crawled in bed and snuggled up close to Mary. She made a little "mmm" as I wrapped my arms around her waist and put my hands on her stomach. I love girl's belly buttons and drew a little circle around it before gently poking the tip in. She had a cute belly. Mostly flat, but not totally. Especially when she was not standing up straight. She made another little "umm" and smiled but didn't stir. I didn't think I was going to sleep any longer, so I got back up. It was about 7:30. I knew Big Jim and Bunny would be up, so I decided to call them.
"'Ello?"
"Hi Bunny! How are you?"
"Hey there, ya lil' fox! You's up early. Wat'cha up to?"
"I couldn't sleep anymore and didn't want to wake my...friend up, so I got up."
"Hmm, I bet you gots a real perdy one in y' bed, dont'cha?"
I blushed. "Yeah, she's beautiful. She's got the same color hair and eyes as me. Not as tan. She's taller than you but not as tall as Tammy. Kinda has a bubble butt, but like for a white girl. She's got big 34-Cs that are real pretty."
"And whut about that lil' peach? Ah'm bettin' you had a taste o' that sweet thang, huh?"
She could probably hear me blush. "Yeah. It was delicious! She smells so good, too. I wish I could bring her up there to meet y'all. But, um..."
"Whut, hon?"
"She, um, she's why I was asking Big Jim my questions."
"Oh. She the one wit' the piece o' shit uncle that likes leerin' at lil' girls an' messin' wit her?"
"...Yes."
"Well, she'd be welcome t' come anyway. Maybe she'd like seein' some country folk who ain' all fucked up an' all. Specially if she likes sharin' nat lil' peach. She, um, wuz alright wit' playin' wit you? Ah mean, she ain' got no aversions or anything to messin' round?"
"No, because she knew I wasn't trying to hurt her. Her uncle...did. He wasn't just fucking with her. He was cruel and hurt her."
"That poor baby. Jimmy said you wuz takin' care o' her?"
"Yes. I've been taking good care of her. She needs it. And it makes me feel good to do it."
"Pauleena, you got a big ol' heart o' gold. Sounds like she wuz lucky t' be havin' ya help her."
"I think so. You know what's funny? We've always hated each other at school. She was a real bitch to my some of my girls and would get pissy with me sometimes."
"Really? Then why'ja help her?"
"Because she needed my help. No one else would have...understood. I couldn't not help her. If I didn't and something terrible happened to her again, I'd never forgive myself."
"Ah hear ya. Ya done tha right thang. You'ra special girl, you. In'na best way. Jus' another reason t'be lovin' ya. Ah mean along wit'cher tastee lil' peach!"
"Bunnnny!" I tried not to laugh. "Thanks."
"Hol' on a sec. Ah'ma go fetch Jimmy. He's in the garage." She put the receiver down but I could hear her. "Baby girl! Come see, Ah got somebody on'na phone fer ya."
"'Ello?"
"Tammy!!!!"
"Pauleena? Hey! Ah'm missin' ya! Whin ya comin' back up here? Ah wanna see ya!"
"Hey sweetie! I miss you too! I wanna come up there soon. I can't wait to see you again. How's everything living with Bunny and Big Jim?"
"Pauleena...ah...ah can't tell ya enuff how good it is'. They bein' so good ta me. Ah done realized that ah never had no daddy since mah momma passed, or even b'fore. Bunny said he jus' mah biological father' but Jimmy's bein' a real daddy t'me. An Bunny's bein' so good t' me too. She remine' me a mah momma alot. She so sweet. It be a lil' funny sometimes cause she try t'be strict n all, but ah'm a good girl an' do ever'thing she say so she ain' got nuthin' ta fuss bout. Then she say she jus' playin' wit me. Ah love em so much. Ah wish ah would'a came `long time ago."
"It wasn't the right time, I guess. But this time it was. I'm so happy that you're there and doing good. They love you so much, too."
"Ah know. Ah feel really blessed ta be havin' em, an' for em wantin' me, too."
"I'm so glad. You deserve it, girl!"
"Thanks. Here comes mah Daddy! Ah love ya. Come up here soon, k?" She handed the phone to Jim.
"Pauleena? Hey lil' darlin', how you doin?"
"Hey Big Jim! I mean Big Daddy!"
"Haw! Yer funny, gurl! But'cha know, ah'm tha Big Daddy cause ah'm takin' good care o' mah girls. Ah liked it whin Tammy started callin' me Daddy. Ah feel real good cause we makin' her real happy. It's a'real nice seein' her perdy smile all th' time. Ya know whut else?"
"What?"
"We got that lil' girl eatin' and puttin' on'na a lil' weight! She still too skinny but we's a workin' on'nat."
"Oh, I'm so happy for y'all! I'm glad y'all are getting her to eat. She is too skinny. I can still feel her hip bones on me!"
"HAWHAWHAW!!! You too much! Ya know Bunny's gonna' have `er all filled out wit some curves in no time. You watch!" We both laughed some more.
"So, Specialist Paulina -- thass' a lil Army rank right there -- Did'ja get yer mission completed?"
"Yes sir, Big Jim! I got everything done that you said to do. They're expecting him to get on the road about 3:00, so if it's like an hour and fifteen minutes or so back to Ozona, where do you think things might start happening?"
"15:00 hours, huh? Ah'd say a lil' ways past Slidell, after he gits on 59. Maybe `round Pearl River. Not alotta road help fer a stretch once ya over tha swamp there."
"Good. He might have to do a little bit of walking if his van died, huh?"
"Sure would."
"And his welcoming committee?"
"They gonna wait a day er two. Might be a chance t' catch em lookin'na wrong way at a man's lil' girl. Then he gonna git talked to, fer sure."
"Ask your friends to tell you how he tries to weasel out of things. Listen to this -- I was at my girlfriend's house and that sleazeball touched my ass not once, not twice but three times! Now I let him go with the first two, but he had to pay for the last one."
"An' how'd he end up payin'?"
"When he went around a corner and no one was watching, I hit him from behind right in the kidney. He tried to lie and said touching me was all accidents, but he knew I wasn't stupid. Then I drove my size seven into his balls. I probably kicked them into his stomach! I was gonna punch him in the face but he cringed like a pussy. I showed him my Wolf's teeth and he got scared. I told him it was an accident. I thought he was gonna piss his jeans right there." I sounded very pleased with myself.
"THAT'S MAH GIRL! Good shootin' darlin'! Sounds like he got whut he had comin' to `em. Bunny's gonna be so proud'a ya. Ah sure am!"
I blushed. "Aww, thanks. I couldn't leave my girl's house without hitting him at least once!"
"Good deal! Ah woulda' hit that sumbitch too. Is yer friend alright wit all this?"
"Yes. She's happy about it. He's had this coming a long time."
"Well thass good ta hear. Hopefully she'll be feelin' even better once we have some news. You an' I gonna have ta have us a lil' After Action Report' whin ya up here gain."
"What's that?"
"Jus' like it says. We go over what'cha did, and how things turned out. We used it t' make the next mission go better. You know, learn from your mistakes an' all that."
"That'll be fun. I look forward to telling Bunny all about it."
"Ya know, whin ah told her bout havin'some boys in Ozona go have a talk wit this piece o' shit, she wanned to go join in! Ah tol' her no cause she cain't be gettin' in no trouble nowheres."
"Did she do something or have some trouble way back that's keeping her little girl from her? Do you think she'll want to tell me about her? Or why she doesn't have her? I could tell she'd be a great mom. I really want to meet her to. She'd be like my little cousin. And I know Tammy would love to be her big sister."
"You jus' gonna have to ask her. Ya know it ain't mah place t' be sayin' nothin'. She gots her troubled past, jus' like we all do. She'll prob'ly tell ya."
"I will then. I hope I can come see y'all soon. I'm gonna try my best to get up there."
"We's lookin' fo'ward to it, fer sure."
"Big Jim?"
"Whut, darlin'?"
"Thank you for helping me. You didn't have to. Anybody else would have just dismissed me or said I was being foolish or even crazy. But you didn't. I haven't told anyone here what I was really doing. I'm not sure they'd understand. I mean really understand. My girl is very grateful for it. She already seems different. It's really nice. And I feel good about it. I actually hope that things go as bad as possible. He deserves it."
"You's welcome, Pauleena. Ah get the feelin' nat things like this are close ta ya heart, huh? You's got conviction bout whut ya had t'do. Thass why ah had no quams `bout helpin' ya."
"Yeah. It...happened to someone very close to me, but I couldn't help her. And no one helped her. So I had to help my friend. No one was gonna help her, either. I just couldn't let that happen."
"I unnerstand. If ya ever wanna tell me an' Bunny `bout it, ya cin. But ah'm thinkin' ah might know already."
"But I haven't said anything about it. How would you know?"
"Member whut ah told'ja bout bein observant? Whin we wuz at'cher house, ah lissened to people talkin', all diff'rent conversations, an' picked up some lil' tidbits here an'nare. An nen whin you wuz here, too. It's kinda like ah see a puzzle takin' shape. Ah start gatherin' lil' pieces, even when ah'm not tryin'. It might take a while ta see whut the whole picture looks like, but ah cin start t' git an idea perdy quick. Ah jus' keep addin' to it, seein' where it goes or whut it becomes. Turned out that them puzzle pieces I wuz collectin' were bout you."
"You...you're the only person who's notices anything. I usually have to be direct and tell people about things. Why don't they see? I see it clearly. I meet people and see so much so fast. Their feelings are like, like I can touch them. Like their visible. It's usually good. But sometimes I don't know what to do with it. And sometimes it hurts. I can see or feel that someone's in pain or being hurt but I can't help or do anything about it. So I just watch. Sometimes it's...awful. I wish I couldn't see things so easily sometimes." I was getting teary eyed and starting to sniffle.
"Don'chu never say that. You gots a gift that most folks don't have. Ah think you an' me's a lot alike wit that. Ah see an' feel most ever'thing round me. It's a'hurtin' sometimes, but ya gotta balance the hurt wit the good ya cin do. Ah member in Nam, some of our boys saw things an' did things that tore their hearts out. Worst part wuz that ah couldn't help many of em. But ah saw it an' ah felt it. Ah still feel it now, an'nat wuz over ten years go. Mah point is that ya gotta fine nat balance, so ya don't get overwhelmed by either side. Whin ya cin do that, things get a lil' easier."
"Is that why I like you so much? As soon as I met you I liked you. I felt comfortable. You were this big mountain of good and...peace. You're calm and peaceful, Big Jim. I wish I could be. I feel like there's a hurricane in my head sometimes. And I'm full of fire when I get mad. And then I feel everything. It's so much. I-I don't know what to do with it all, most of the time."
"Ah felt th' same for you, darlin'. Ever hear the term kindred spirit'? It means somebody whose so much like you that ya feel like y' known em all yer life. Like ya don' have t' explain ever'thing you seein' an' feelin' `cause they feelin' it the same an' almost knowin' whut yer thinkin'. An' wit people like us, when we's seein' an' feelin' ever'thing, sometimes iss jus' like an' instant connection. Ah seen it in ya whin we wuz in th' bathroom an' you wuz getting' me that aspirin. It wuz like I felt ya feelin' mah pain an' wantin' t' help. Ah knew right then that you an' I was prob'ly alike in'na lottta ways. You been provin' me right so far."
"So...you know? You know who I...who I couldn't help?"
"Yes, darlin'. Ah'm perdy sure ah do."
"She's...better than she used to be. I...we...we're getting closer. We're gonna make up all the time and everything we lost. We're gonna try real hard. Both of us."
"Cin ah tell ya somethin' ah know that you don't know?"
"Please."
"Ah saw her once. Perdy lil' thing, wit them green eyes an' light brown hair. 'Bout thirteen or fourteen, ah reckon. You don't member me but ah met yer daddy an' yer momma sev'ral years back. Went t' yer house a time er two. She wuz real quiet, hidin' in'na background, stayin out'cher momma's sight. Ah could tell she wuz scared'a just bout ever'thing. But ah saw her lookin'nat me a few times. An' whin ah looked back at er, ah gave er a frien'ly smile. She wuzzn't so scared. More like curious. Like she knew ah wuzzn't gonna hurt er, but she didn' know whut t' make o' me. Some lil' uns think ah'm a giant thass comin' t' eat emer somthin'. But ah also saw sumthin' else, an' ah could feel it. She wuzzn't jus' scared o' yer momma, but somma nem men roun nare, too. She wuz like a gazelle an'na hyenas were after er. It hurt watchin er an' knowin' ah couldn't do nuthin for er."
"...Me too. I-I was little but knew she was so scared. I wanted to help her feel better but just couldn't." I was trying my best not to cry. I was teary eyed and sniffling but trying to be quiet about it. I didn't want to wake Mary up. I wanted her to have as much good rest as possible.
"Ah went a long while b'fore ah saw yer parents again. Th' nex' time I wuz visitin', ah noticed she wuz gone. Yer momma and yer daddy never said nuthin' so ah didn't ask."
"I...I came home from school one day and she was gone. All my mother told me was that she had to go live with our father. She never told me why. I didn't understand why my sister had to go away. Or why I couldn't have her like my friends had their sisters and brothers. I missed her so much. But I was kinda glad she wasn't here anymore. No one else would hurt her anymore." I got some tissue to wipe my eyes and blow my nose.
"It sounds like y'all got plenny o' time t' be catchin' up. Make the best of it when ya cin."
"We are. It...feels good to be with her. But..."
"But whut?"
"Well...you and Bunny know how affectionate and...touchy feely I can be."
"Sure do. But we love that `bout'cha."
"I, um, want to be that way with her. I want to touch her, feel her skin against mine, kiss her pretty lips -- which look exactly like mine, by the way -- and to just love her. But she's not used to being touched...in a good way like that. I'm afraid I'll be too much for her and will make her feel something bad like she did before. I would hate that and feel so awful if I did."
"Hmm." I could almost hear him stroking his beard like Bernard did. "Ah think ah know sumthin' `nat might help some."
"Really? Please tell me!"
"It might sound hard or like it's goin' against whut ya want at first but it'll prob'ly make sense whin ya try it."
"What? What can I do?"
"Yer so close that yer blindin' yerself, so ya cain't see or read the feelin's yer gettin' from `er. Ah bet whin yer with her an' yer girls are there that'cha can tell how yer friends or others are feelin' jus' like normal, huh?"
"Yes. Just like always."
"But with her, ya don' know whut she's feelin' or thinkin'. Right?"
"That's exactly right. What am I doing wrong?"
"Ah think yer too focused on how you wan'nit t' be, so yer not readin' whut it actually is. Y' unnerstand"
"I...I think so. I mean my mind's so overloaded when I'm with her. I think that if I hold her tight and touch her and kiss her that my mind will slow down and clear and then she'll feel all the good things I'm feeling. It can be overwhelming but I want it so much."
"But that's prob'ly not whut she's thinkin' an' feelin' at that time."
"But I can't tell with her. I don't know when's right and when's not."
"It's `cause ya wan'nit ta always be that right time."
"Oh. Yeah...I do."
"Ah want'cha ta try sumthin'. Iss gonna sound a lil' weird but try it anyway. Whin ya know yer gonna be around her or spendin' time together, go get'cherself off b'fore hand. Go make yerself cum b'fore ya see `er."
"But...I don't want to have sex with her. I just want to be close."
"But it's a physical close too, huh?"
"Yes."
"Thin nats the part this'll be helpin'. Yer brain ain't always sortin' things out th' right way. You wanna be close and feel love an'na connection by touchin' and feelin' her. It's physical pleasure to ya, but yer brain don' know iss not sexual. An' th' way yer brain satisfies physical pleasure is by wantin' t' cum. Now, once ya cum, yer kinda lettin' out that overwhelmin' flood o' feelin's ya have for er. This'll help clear yer mind an' settle yerself down. Thin whin yer wit er', pay attention to th' feelin's she's showin'. Tell yerself ta read er like ya would other folks. It'll take a lil' practice, but ever'thing `ll feel diff'rent the first time it works fer ya."
"Okay I'll try it. It makes since how you explained it."
"Pauleena, you don't `member me at all, do ya."
"You knew me? We met? I-I'm sorry I don't remember you."
"Thass alright. Ah didn' spect ya to. But ah member you. T'was that firs' time ah wuz there. You wuz a cute lil' boy, with yer long hair an' long eyelashes. You still got em. That first time I went t' yer house, you came an' sat on mah knee. Ya wazzn't scared or nothin'. Ya started talkin' an' askin' questions and wantin' t' know ever'thing that wuz goin' on round us. Even though ya wuzznt knowin' who ah wuz. Ah had an inklin' that you wuz gonna be a lil' diff'rent thin other kids. Ah could tell ya saw and noticed more than others did. Like ah do. Ah decided that ah wan'ned t' know ya whin ya wuz grown, so ah could see if ah wuz right. But ah didn' have ta wait that long. Yer jus' like ah thought you'd be. Well, except fer ya bein' a hot lil' fox. Ah didn' put ever'thing t'gether whin ah saw ya a few weeks ago till ah got home. Then ah knew that lil'un that ah met long time ago wuz you."
"But Jim, why didn't you say something?"
"Ah wuz waitin' t' see if you'd `member me."
"I'm trying but I just don't."
"Ah knew that yer mind and feelin's were dealin' with other stuff at the time. Worryin' bout yer sis, bein' scared fer er, bein' scared'a yer momma, an' other things. So ah don't spect ya t' be memberin' me now. But it might come to ya now that we talked bout it."
"I'll tell you when I do."
"Ah'm lookin' fo'ward ta hearin' whut ya `member whin ya do."
"Big Jim? When I see y'all again, can you teach me more? I mean stuff like this? No one else knows or understands if I try to explain how I see or feel things. You just told me so much that makes sense. I want to be able to settle my mind down and be able to see things and feel things more clearly. I usually do okay with it now, but I want to be better. And teach me more about getting good `situational awareness'.
"Sure, darlin'. Ah'd be happy t' teach ya. Ya think ya gonna wanna do this b'fore or after we all done payin' nat lil peach o yers some attention?" He laughed.
"Big Jimmmm! You're bad like Bunny!" We both laughed.
"Seriously though, we cin make a lil' time fer us t' be alone an' quiet. Ah cin teach ya what ah know works fer me."
"I'd really like that."
Mary was waking up and he heard her stir.
"All right, lil' lady. Go take care o' yer friend. Ah'll let'cha know what ah hear `bout things up thisaway."
"Thanks. Love you. Hug and Kiss Bunny and Tammy for me."
"Ah sure will. Love ya too, darlin'."
"Hey love, you okay? Were you crying?"
"Hey. Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you. That was my...friend in Picayune. We were talking about some things. About you, about...my sister, about me, about a long time ago. It was kind of a lot of heavy stuff there at a few times. But I feel better."
"Come see." She patted the bed next to her. I went and lay next to her. We lay close, face to face, our noses almost touching. Our hands held each other's tightly.
"Whatever I can do to help you feel better my love, I will. Just tell me. You make me feel so good. I want you to feel the same."
"You already do. By letting me help you, you already do. I feel warm and good inside when I help you and you're feeling better. I can see it. And I can feel it. You really are a ray of sunshine. You were just blocked by the clouds for so long. Now you're radiant. Do you know what I've noticed?"
"What's that?"
"That you've smiled more in these last three days than I remember seeing you smile for like the last three years at school. Not even with Hil. I think that's why I never noticed your beautiful smile -- no one ever saw it. I feel lucky to be the first one to feel your sunshine again."
I felt a large, hot wet drop on my cheek. Then another. It was her tears. She tried to hold in a sniffle.
"That...that's so...nice and sweet and thoughtful and...so special. You just made me feel so good. You're the only person besides my mom that mentioned, or even noticed that I didn't smile anymore. You see so much. I feel like I have sunglasses on at night. I can hardly see anything."
"No, Mary. You see things just like others do. I'm just different. My friend and I were just talking about that. He's the same way. Remember when we talked a few weeks ago, when I told you that I saw that you were hurt? I could feel it so much that it seemed like I could actually see it. It was clear as day to me. If someone's hurt or down, or if they're high and really happy, then I can see' how they feel pretty clearly. When they're feeling normal' or towards the middle of those extreme feelings, then I don't see them as clearly. I can a little but not like when they're like amplified one way or the other."
"Hmm. That's pretty cool that you can even see that in yourself. I can barely sort out how I'm feeling sometimes. I'm usually kinda oblivious to how other people are."
"Even though it seems to come natural to me, it takes practice. Like I gotta sharpen my observation skills. Most people can see some things if they work on it."
"Maybe you could teach me a little bit?"
"I can try. But I'm getting a friend to teach me more. I'm kinda like him with all this. He sees and feels everything, too."
"Two of you? That seems like it's rare or something."
"He said the same thing. He also said that people like us will know that each other are similar when we meet. That's why he's gonna teach me to handle it all better."
"He's your...friend in Picayune? Y'all sound close. What's he like?"
"His name's Jim but I call him Big Jim. He's big -- tall, like more than six feet and real big and strong and muscular. He's got a little bit of a beer belly, but it looks okay on him. I think it's cute. I met him here the Saturday night Benny tried to fuck with me and Yvonne. It was early and I was about to sneak a drink. But he saw me and asked if he wanted him to make it for me. He was drunk and didn't know how old I was. So I said yes. He made me another one later."
"When Yvonne and I were going to bed, Benny saw me and came over and hit on me. He was drunk and didn't listen when I told him to leave us alone and go away. I was about to hit him when he tried to touch me, but Big Jim walked up and saw what was happening. He grabbed him and told him that he better leave or else he was gonna throw him out. Needless to say, Benny ran for his life! I thought he was gonna piss himself right there. Anyway, I was so happy that I jumped up and gave him a big kiss. He got all bashful and blushed."
"I got up a couple hours later to use the bathroom and literally ran into him when I was coming out. I was a little embarrassed because I was wearing my blue camisole and matching panties. He looked at me, but not in a creepy way, so I was okay with letting him see me. I knew right then that I liked him. I knew he wasn't feeling good before I asked him. His head was hurting so I got some aspirin and made him some water. He was very sweet and let me take care of him, even though it was only for like ten minutes. He told me when we were talking a few minutes ago that he could tell I was one of those people like him that picked up on other's feelings easily."
"That was cool of him. He sounds really nice."
"He is."
We lay there quietly for a few moments before I noticed a mischievous smile appear on her face.
"So...he's one of your `gentleman friends'?"
"Um...yeah. But I really can't say just him without mentioning his wife. Or soon to be wife. It's like their married already."
"And? I know there's more to that. Come on..."
"I shouldn't be telling you this..."
"Please, my love?" She gave me her own doe eyes.
"Alright. But again, you'll never tell anyone about this, right?"
"No. I pinky toe promised."
"Okay. Big Jim and Bunny -- her name's Mary Sue -- were getting up the morning I met him. They were sleeping on the couch in the family room. I washed Jan and Yvonne's clothes, along with another woman's. Jan is a good friend. She...sleeps with me the most."
"Oh? One of your older girlfriends then?"
"Yes. The first one, actually. In fact, you two are built the same, except her eyes are greenish and her boobs are just a little bigger. Anyway, when I was bringing the clothes back to my room, I stopped and talked with them before they left to go home. Bunny was very...flirty. She almost slipped me the tongue when we kissed each other goodbye. They told me they lived in the country by Picayune and that I should visit them. She said we'd have a lot of fun." I giggled.
"One weekend, I really wanted to see them so I called and asked if I could go up there. Of course they said yes! So I took the train up there. That was the trip when I met the two businessmen."
"You went by yourself?"
"Yes. As you've seen, I have a lot of freedom to do what I want. I do feel kinda bad that I lied to my parents about what I was doing that weekend."
"What did you say?"
"I told them I would be gone all weekend with a friend whose parents owned a campground on the north shore."
"But would they have cared?"
"I don't know. I didn't want my dad to know that I was going see one of his friends without telling him, kinda like behind his back."
"Oh, okay."
"When I got there, they took me shopping and out to lunch before going back to their place."
"Shopping? For what?"
"Clothes that would make me look like a "Rodeeo Princiss!" I imitated Bunny's voice.
"Really? I wanna see!"
"Alright, I'll put them on for you in a few minutes. After we ate, we headed to their house. It was a big old farm house from the 20's. They taught me how to shoot guns."
"Was it fun?"
"Yes, lots. While we were doing that a girl who lived close by came over."
"Who was she?"
"Her name's Tammy. She would go to Big Jim and Bunny's sometimes to get away from her father. He was a drunk and...hit her a lot. They would take care of her."
"Where was her mom?"
"She died a few years before. Anyway, Tammy and I liked each other as soon as we met, and---"
"Just how much did y'all like each other?"
I gave her a sly smile. "About as much as you and I do. The last few days, anyway."
"Really? Tell me more! What does she look like?"
"Okay, okay. She's tall like Hil, but skinny. Too skinny. She's got sandy blonde hair and pretty brown eyes. Her boobs are like Carrie's I guess, but with really big sensitive nipples. She's super sweet. After shooting for a while, we took a walk to the pond behind their house. I started teasing her when we saw a snake. She doesn't like them. I started tickling her. Then..."
"Then what? Come on, keep going!"
"We ended up laying in the pine needles making out. Real heavy like."
"And?"
"She liked her nipples played with, um, hard, so I bit one. Kinda hard."
"What?!? Like, with one of your big teeth?" She poked one with a finger.
"Yes. She let me. I was helping her finger herself. When I bit her, she came right then. It bled. Kind of a lot. I sucked it all up and then kissed her. We kissed until we couldn't taste it anymore."
"You, um, you like the taste of blood? I mean, like when you bite people? Why?"
"I, um, don't know how to explain it. I mean when I'm angry and fighting and bite somebody, it's...satisfying. I know that I hurt them when I taste it. If I'm really upset I don't wanna stop until I do. When I'm not mad I try not to bite hard enough to make someone bleed. If I do, it's like having a part of them. They become a part of me. In her case she wanted me to. So when it bled, neither of us minded. The taste is okay. To me, anyway"
"Oh."
Later that night after we ate, Big Jim gave us some champagne because he asked Bunny to marry him and she said yes. It was super sweet. We all got pretty tipsy and...ended up in bed together."
"WHAT?!? All four of you?!?"
"Yes. I found out that Jim was Tammy's first. Bunny was second, kinda."
"Kinda?"
"Well, she fucked her with her toy. A strap on dildo. She let them have her virginity a few months ago."
"Oh."
"That night, we all sucked Big Jim's dick -- it was huge! Then we all took turns eating Bunny's pussy. Then Tammy's. Then the girls sucked my big clit, and, um, licked my ass."
"Really? Did it...feel good?"
"Omygod yes! My little rosebud is probably as sensitive as your pussy. I love having it touched and licked...and fucked. I bet yours is real sensitive too."
"Um, yeah, it is" she said with a little blush.
"After all that, Tammy wanted her little ass fucked for the first time. They called it her black cherry'. So Bunny fucked her first, using a toy that wasn't big, to get her ready for Big Jim's dick. I helped get her nice and slippery for it. We used this stuff called KY. I use it on my toy when I fuck myself. When they were both all lubed up, Tammy got on her hands and knees. I sat beside her and started playing with her clit. Jim got behind her and put it in. It hurt when he did because she yelled owwwww!'. But then he started to push it in slow. After a minute it must have not hurt much anymore because she was moving her ass back on him. Pretty soon they were fucking fast just like it was her pussy. I kept on playing with her clit. It didn't take long before they both came at the same time. When he did, he pushed in as far as he could go. She screamed, but it was a good scream. She squirted a little and shivered and twitched until she slowed down. You know, like you last night! I mean this morning!" I pinched a nipple. She let out a big "eeep!"
"She said she could feel him fill her up with his cum. After that - wait. I need you to answer a question."
"Um, okay. What?"
"I know you know I'm kinda freaky, like I like blood, and tasted my pee. But I don't want you to think I'm gross or disgusting, okay?"
"Um...okay. Why would I think that?"
"Well, after Jim was done fucking her, I kinda, um, sucked his dick clean." I felt a little embarrassed telling her this. I don't think most adults would do this, let alone teenagers.
"What?!? Was it, um, nasty? Was there like, poop on him?" she whispered.
"No, she was totally clean. We all used the bathroom earlier. It was...good. It tasted like his cum, but kinda like her pussy too, but different. Kinda like me."
"Like you? What do you mean?"
"I, um, lick my toy clean after fucking myself. It never tastes bad."
"Oh. I always suck Dave clean after he fucks me, but it's just my pussy juice."
"Anyway, we all rested before playing again. This time, Tammy licked my little rosebud and got it real wet. I was already wet. When I'm excited I kinda get wet like a girl's pussy does. Then Bunny started fucking me with her toy. It felt so good. She knew how to do it just right. Tammy sat on Jim's face and he ate her pussy for a few minutes before I told him it was my turn."
"He fucked you too?!?"
"Of course! I wasn't gonna let Bunny and Tammy be the only girls to get fucked!"
"What happened? Tell me!"
"So I was sitting on Jim's stomach looking at his feet. Bunny was sitting next to Tammy fucking herself with her little toy. Then I bent over and she put a big dollop of the KY on her fingers and the two of them fingered me for a minute. Then I scooted down to Jim's cock. Bunny held it and guided it in while I lowered myself down on it. It didn't hurt as much as it would have because she got me ready with her toy. Once it was in a little, I started to sit down on it. As it when in further, the pain went away and it started to feel SO good. It was like that fire I feel inside when I'm mad but it was all pleasure. Do you get on top sometimes when you and David are fucking?"
She was no longer embarrassed about it since I encouraged them to do it.
"Yeah. I really like it. I feel like I'm in control."
"Good. Do it like that some more. Anyway, I was kinda doing the same. When it was all the way in, I started to wiggle my hips like in a circle. I have this spot inside, kinda like you have up in your pussy, that when you touch it you kinda have like a wave that's gonna make you cum if you keep going. When I was moving my hips, it hit that spot every time. Then Jim held my hips and started pulling me up a down a little. Every time, he hit that spot. After a few times, he made me cum. I wasn't even touching myself. I came like you did last night. My cum shot over the end of the bed. It was so intense that I thought I was gonna pass out!" I had my dreamy face as I told her about it.
"Did he cum too?"
"Oh, no. He wasn't done yet. He flipped me over and I got on my knees. Tammy put a pillow under my stomach. Bunny laid back and she started eating her pussy. My ass didn't hurt from Jim's big dick anymore, so he grabbed my hips and started fucking me from behind. He wasn't pushing all the way in yet. I pushed back hard every time he pushed in. It felt like he was fucking my stomach. He was hitting that spot again. After a minute I felt my insides getting hot and ready to cum soon. He started pushing harder and deeper. When he came he yelled and drove it as hard and as deep as he could. I felt his hair on my little balls. I came at the same time. I felt my inside fill up with hot cum. It felt like it was like almost boiling. My brain got fuzzy and I'm pretty sure I passed out for a few seconds. He started to slow down but didn't pull it out yet. When he stopped, he pulled it out real slow. When his head came out, I squeezed my ass tight so none of his cum would leak out."
"I bet was a lot, huh? Dave doesn't cum a lot but I can feel it sometimes."
"Omygod yes! His balls are huge! It felt like a cupful! But I know it wasn't that much. Tammy and Bunny sucked his dick clean and then they both kissed me. They Bunny got a sneaky look on her face. She put her lips around my little hole and told me to push while she sucked out some of Jim's cum. Tammy opened her mouth and she squirted some in it. Then she gave me some. We all swallowed it down before kissing some more."
"Y'all shared his cum? That sounds kinda...hot" she said in her sultry voice. Her hand was unconsciously rubbing the front of her shorts.
"It was. He tasted really good. After that we all rested and lay there kissing and hugging each other. After another half hour or so, Jimmy was hard and ready to fuck again. This time Bunny wanted her ass fucked. She took my place on her knees with the pillow under her. Tammy and I lubed her little hole good with the KY before he fucked her. She was more used to his bigness so they started fucking right away. She's loud, so we could tell how much she was loving it. They fucked a good ten or fifteen minutes before they both came together."
"While they were fucking, Tammy started sucking by big clit. When I was fully hard, she got on top and took it all the way in, which was easy since I'm small. I tweaked her nipples while we fucked. She loved it. We fucked about five minutes before I came. You've seen that I don't make a lot of cum. After cumming twice earlier, I didn't have anymore to shoot but I did come. She came at the same time. We collapsed right after, all hot and sweaty and tired. It all felt so good."
"Paulina, that's...that sounded so hot! You're always having so much fun! I would have...loved that" she confessed with a blush.
"Well you know..." I drew little circles around one of her hard nipples, "I told Bunny earlier that you slept with me last night. She said I could bring you with me next time I go up there, if you would be up for a lot of fucking and sucking. It sounds fun but I don't know how I could bring you with me. I don't drive so I take the train up there. Plus, you don't have the freedom I do. I mean, would your parents even let you go somewhere with a friend they really don't know? And on the train? We'd have to make up a pretty believable story. That's all assuming you'd be up for all that. Of course you wouldn't have to do anything you didn't want to do."
"Oh...Um, I was gonna ask if I could maybe go with you one time. But you're right, I don't know how I'd be able to."
"Let's think about that. I'll let you know when I'm going up there again. But would you be up for the sex? It got pretty hot and heavy last time. I wouldn't want anything---"
"No, it would be okay. I like it when it...feels good. It-it wasn't sex when my uncle forced me. It was just him hurting me. It always hurt. I just want it to feel good."
"I promise you none of it would hurt. It got heavy but Jim and Bunny and Tammy are real gentle and caring and attentive. Not pushy at all. They're wonderful people. I wouldn't want anyone I know to meet them if they weren't."
"I know. I trust you with all this." She gave me a sweet smile.
"So, do you really wanna see me dressed up like a country girl?"
"Yes! Let me see!"
"Okay." I took the orange plaid shirt and belt out of the wardrobe and showed her.
"That's cute. I like the orange."
Jeans and boots were next. I slowly slid the indigo Wranglers on. They were kind of tight and hugged my ass and little hips perfectly. I threaded the belt on, making sure the big silver buckle was centered. I then pulled on my boots, tucking in the jean legs.
"Those are hot! They look like they were made just for you!"
"Bunny is an expert in picking things out, like Carolina. She knows sizes just by looking at you. She got mine right on the first time."
Mary didn't seem to notice that I used Carolina instead of Carrie sometimes. I don't think she cared anyway. I was used to calling her that and almost didn't think about it anymore.
Next was the shirt. I put it on and tied the bottom in a cute knot just above my belly button. Then I got the hat box down and took it out. Bobby picked the exact size for my head. Before I put it on, I remembered to pull my hair into pigtails on each side. Then I put it on my head with a cute tip to the front.
"So whut'cha think, city gurl?" I imitated Bunny's voice. I gave her a twirl and then bent over in front of her, showing off me jean clad ass. She reached out and grabbed it, causing me to giggle.
"Oh. My. God! You're so hot in that! I couldn't imagine you looking like a country girl before, but it looks great on you! Come here, cowgirl!"
She pulled me into a hot kiss.
"Ah'm so glad ya like it, darlin'" using Big Jim's voice. After a moment we both burst out laughing.
"Paulina, you're so...so cute and pretty no matter what you're wearing! Are you ever gonna wear that to school?"
"Maybe not all of it at once, but the girls want to see me in it. People might think it's a costume or something. And I'm surely not gonna wear my hat. It was expensive and I don't want anyone messing with it."
"Would you wear that here? Like when you're with everyone?"
"I might wear some of it. I doubt my parents would ask about it, so probably."
"Cool. I wanna see you when you do!"
"Hmm. Maybe it might be a night when you were over early..."
"Really?!? Please please!" She gave me her doe eyes. "I want to come have fun with you here again, even if we can't stay out with everybody long."
I gave in to her cuteness. "Alright, I'll see if you can come next time. But remember what I told you earlier. We really might not be able to stay out late. And if my handsome, distinguished gentleman is here, then I'll have to figure something out."
"Yesss! You're the best, my love!"
"I can't promise that it'll be okay, so don't be upset with me if we can't."
"I won't, sweetie. I understand. But do you think it'll help that your parents know me now, and that they like me? They watched me with everyone and didn't seem to mind. Even your mom."
I made an almost unpleasant face.
She saw my expression and I knew she was going to ask about it.
"Love, you and your mom aren't close, huh? It's like you, um, don't like her. Um, some of the other people who were there too. Why?"
I had to take a deep breath. "She hates that I want to dress like a girl. Always has. I was the only planned kid. She wanted a boy but wanted him to be that `All American Boy' type. You know, like playing baseball and football, and when I was older to have that bad boy edge but still be nice and good. As you can see, that's not me. She also hates my sisters. My oldest one tried to choke her when she was fourteen, so she had to move out to my grandparent's house. Then she was mean and hurt my middle sister. Well, I told you about that. But with other people, and my sister as well, she usually doesn't like other women here. She's the Queen Bee. She sees all the others as competition. But not all of them, like Dawn or Ann. Dawn's her best friend. But that's why I got so worried when I saw her talking to you. I thought she was gonna be mean and tell you to leave. If she was drunk, she might have tried to slap you. But she seems to like you. I'm glad but I don't understand. Neither does anyone else."
"Anyway, we had an...altercation a while back. You remember my bruised face. She hit me. That was the only time. I confronted her later and we reached an agreement."
"What was it?"
"We almost fought. I...The Hungry Wolf was ready to hurt her. My dad stopped us. I made some demands and she agreed to them. Now I have my independence and she leaves me alone. We're civil and not rude to each other even though I know that she still doesn't like me looking like a girl. But lately..."
"What?"
"She's been, I don't know, nicer?" Not as mad about it? We're not chummy and friendly but we haven't argued in a long time. It's nice. I mean you saw her last night. She even cracked a smile when we talked about you. I just want to be how I want and have peace between us."
"Do you hate her? Do you love her at all?"
"I do hate her for what she did to me and my sister. I don't think I can ever forgive her for that. But, like you, people hurt her when she was young, and nobody helped her. So she's still hurt after all these years. I think the only way she knows how to deal with it is to be mean to others. So I can't hate her for that."
"Kinda like, um, I did to Hil, huh?"
"Yeah. That's why I told you that time that you needed to find some help somehow. I didn't want you to be like her when you get older."
"Oh. I think I'll be alright. You and Dave helping me makes me feel good. And hopeful. Especially since I know it's gonna stop. But what do you still love about her?"
I had to sit and search my thoughts and feeling about this before replying.
"She has her moments of niceness and can be almost sweet. She's pretty loyal to people she likes. Maybe that's why it's so important to me. And I got her strength and strong will and intelligence. So I love her for that, I guess."
"That's good, love." She caressed my cheek. "Since you talked to me that day, I didn't realize how much the hate was eating me up, along with the hurt. Like you don't want that to happen to me, I don't want it to happen to you."
"It won't. I have so many people who love and care about me, who I love back. My dark side has some hate, but my good side is so much more."
"Um, will it bother you if your mom likes me and talks to me again?"
"No, as long as she's nice to you. But I don't trust her and I'm gonna keep you close and keep an eye on her. Especially if she sees us when she's drunk. She gets real mean, even violent sometimes."
"Okay, I promise I'll stick with you." She gave me a kiss.
"Alright."
"Um, my love?"
"Yes, my sunflower?"
"You know it's Saturday. And if I'm with you later, maybe I'll still be here before the party starts?" she said in her childish, innocent voice as she sucked her lip.
"Oh, you're a bad girl sneaking that one in on me! But you're right, it is. Maybe you can. We'll see."
"Yes yes yes!!!" She pulled me into a tight hug and gave my cheeks several wet kisses.
"But like I said, it depends on several things. Let's see how the afternoon goes."
"Okay!"
Before the day could go on, I had to talk with her about something serious. I wasn't sure how she was going to react, given the closeness we've had for the last two days.
"Mary," I said in my serious voice, "We have to talk about something important. Come sit."
We hopped up on the bed.
"What is it?" she sounded worried.
"It's about next week. Carolina and Hil are cool with us making peace but I plan on telling the rest of the girls Monday or Tuesday. It might take a few days for them to react. I told you I'm gonna work on them while you're being civil and nice."
"But?"
"There's my girls, Kathy and Tina. They're very important to me, and I'm very important to them. I have to be honest and tell you that it might take a little longer for them to accept our peace. Kathy more than Tina. The point is that I'm...conflicted about it. It's only been a short time, but I care about you and...starting to have feelings for you, but in a different way than for them. I'm not nearly as physical with them as I am with you. It's much less. I mean we've kissed and touched and felt each other but there was no sex. But I care for Kathy very much too. We're connected in a different way. Like you asked, she pretty much is my girlfriend. But...I'm kinda feeling like you are too, even though I didn't want it, and had no idea that it was even possible to happen between us."
"...Oh." She had a sad, disappointed sound in her voice. She looked like she might get teary eyed.
"Wait, love. Listen to everything, okay?"
"O-okay."
"I'm not giving up my feelings for you, so don't worry, sugar plum!" I pinched her thigh, trying to get a little smile out of her. It wasn't very successful.
"But I'm not giving up my feelings for her either. Tina too. So I'm going to have all three of you. I just have to figure out how it's gonna work."
"I-I trust you, love. I-I'll go along with whatever you want. Just...just still love me, okay? And I, um, I still want to be with you here. I feel really special that no one else gets to. I'm getting a part of you that no one else has. It...really means a lot. I feel good with you. Your parents and your family friends too. I feel good here."
"I, um, I feel the same way. I like having you here with me." This got me a big smile. "I know Hil and Carolina know, but you can't tell anyone else, like I asked you in the beginning. We also need to make sure David understands this as well. Can you make sure he does?"
"Yes, he'll listen to me. Plus, I'm pretty sure he'll listen to you too for all the...help you've given us. He might not be as straight forward as me in telling you but it does mean a lot to him, probably just as much."
"I know."
She looked down and twisted the ends of her hair. I could tell she had another question.
"Um..."
"What, love? You want to ask something, so just ask. Come on, out with it."
"Um...what if, um, Dave changes and starts being nice to you? Would, um, you be nice to him? I mean, like if he wanted to hang out with us some time?" she asked meekly.
"I'm totally open to us being nice, and maybe seeing y'all at your house, but he can't come here. You're special for me to even consider letting you come back. The only one. I'm not flexible about this. Are you okay with that?"
"I know, I just wanted to ask. You know, with us being twins, and being so close. I just always expect to include him."
"Well I'm not having sex with him, so I hope you weren't even considering that!" I pinched her.
"Wha?!? Oh, no, not that! I meant just like regular fun stuff. But I understand."
"Hmm. Maybe if he's a REALLY good boy, we could suck his dick together in the future."
We both looked at each other seriously before bursting into laughter.
"Omygod, he'd probably love that! And he'd never tell that he let a girly boy suck him off!" We laughed more.
"You know, I forget you two are twins since you don't look like each other at all."
"Most people forget, too. Some people don't even believe us. But I love him so much. He's always trying to take care of me, especially with what my uncle did."
"I was happy to know that since the time we fought that he tried to help. I know how much he loves you, too. Do you think he's jealous that you and I have done it?"
"Hmm, not sure. Maybe, but probably not much. I'll make sure he knows that nothing'll change between us."
"Good. Back to my original question. Since it'll take a few days for things to sink in or settle with the girls, and maybe longer with mine, can you handle us not talking at school until then? I promise it won't mean my feelings have changed for you, but we need to go about this in a way for it to work and not cause any turmoil for anybody."
"O-okay. But you promise? Pinky toe promise?"
I held my foot up to hers and gripped her toes with mine.
"Pinky toe promise."
"Okay, I can handle it. But I'm not gonna like it though." She gave me a playful pout.
"Thanks. That pleases me."
"I love you for everything, Paulina" she said in her most sincere voice.
"And I love you for everything too. It means just as much to me. It really does."
"So, my dear, what do you want to do today? It's not lunchtime yet but I am hungry."
"Yeah, me too." I heard her stomach growl.
"We can make something, but I just don't want to be too loud. We probably have to clean up some first. Let's see who's up. I doubt my parents are yet, but Dawn and Shawn might be. Ann was up for the bathroom earlier. Not sure who else is here."
"Do they all just stay the night?"
"Yes, usually. They'll go home and change and stuff but will probably be back by the late afternoon. Or sometimes they come right back."
"It's kinda like they all live here?"
"Yes. Dawn and Shawn did live with us for a while, after my sister had to leave. They had this room and I had the guest room. But other people have stayed with us from time to time. Never very long, or at least not recently."
"Oh."
"Hey, do you cook?"
"No. My mom does."
"Do you at least help her?" I gave her a stern look.
"Um, not really." She looked down and played with her hair.
"Mary, that will not do! You're not crippled, so don't be a spoiled brat. Help her do things. Now, you're gonna come help me cook. I assume you like pancakes?"
"Yeah, a lot."
"Good. Now put on your clothes so we can be presentable. We need to go to the bathroom and wash up, unless you want everyone to smell your delicious pussy on me." I pinched her nipple.
"Oh, yeah. We should. I didn't think about that" she said sheepishly with a blush.
I put on shorts and a big t-shirt and gave her one as well. We went to the bathroom and washed our faces and hands. Someone would have definitely smelled sex on us if they got close.
As we left my room I noticed that the door to the guest room was mostly closed, but I heard someone stirring. I decided it would be a good idea to make coffee. I usually did it when I was up early on the weekends.
The kitchen was messy, but not as bad as it would be on a Sunday morning. I told Mary to pour out all the glasses she could find and put them in the dishwasher and then to wipe off the counter space we needed. I prepared the coffee maker.
Shawn was the first one up, as usual.
"Hey girl, hey Mary" he said, not quite awake. She looked surprised when he gave my butt a pat and I didn't seem to mind.
"Hi Shawn, coffee's brewing" I replied in my sweet voice. "Dawn up yet?"
"She's getting there. We're not hung over, just moving slow."
I gave him a sly smile. "Must have...wore yourselves out after going to bed, huh?"
"Hey now! I could say the same for you two, by the look of things last night!" He playfully messed up my hair. Mary blushed and hid her face a little with hers.
"Well, no one seemed to mind, so..." We both laughed.
"Are Ann and Benny awake yet? She used the bathroom at seven wi- just before me." I almost said "with."
He caught that and gave me an inquisitive look before answering.
"No, they're still knocked out."
"Well, I'm sure Benny's having good dreams. Or at least had some answered!" We both laughed.
"Has he been liking her?" Mary asked.
"Yeah. He's had a big crush on her for like the last two years or so. Dawn and I were a little surprised to see her pulling him by the hand into the bedroom with us."
"Oh." She looked a little surprised that they were all in the same room. I gave her a look as to say `I'll explain later'.
"Ann goes after what she wants sometimes pretty hard, so she got him. He sure looked happy about it!" We all laughed.
"I wonder if Rick will believe him if he tells him what happened."
"No, probably not. He'll just think his little brother is talking shit."
"Well, I need to get Mary cooking our pancakes here. Not sure how many we can make but I'll save you one if you want."
"Sure, if there are any left. But if not, don't worry about it. I'm gonna bring her some coffee." He filled two cups and went back to the guest room.
"Paulina, were they, um, having sex all together?" She sounded surprised.
"No, I don't think so. I mean they were in the same room, but they weren't all doing it with each other. Dawn and Shawn rarely fuck anybody else. They do sometimes though. I'm not sure if Ann does or not. And I doubt Benny has."
"Oh."
"I told you it's pretty free and open here with sex and stuff."
"Yeah, I totally see that."
"Anyway, time for you to cook, my little trophy wife!" I pinched a nipple, earning me a little "eeep!"
She looked down as she pulled a few strands of hair in front of her face. "But I, um, don't know how."
"No worries. You'll follow my instructions and it'll come out good."
"Okay, if you say so. But don't be mad if I mess it up." She actually sounded nervous.
I cupped her cheek with my palm. "My love, it would take so much more than that for me to get displeased or upset with you. Or even disappointed. If they don't come out perfect, then they're not perfect. No big deal. So don't worry, okay? I have confidence in you, so you should too."
"Okay." She gave me a little smile.
"First, get the big mixing bowl from over there. Then the measuring cup and spoons." I pointed out where they all were. I got the box of pancake mix out while she did that. I would ask Shirley to show me how to make homemade ones in the future.
"Grab an egg out of the fridge, as well as the milk." She got them and brought them over.
"Now, measure out a cup -- no, a cup and a half of mix and pour it into the bowl."
I was amused to see how unfamiliar she was with doing this, but I made sure not to let her see it. I didn't want her to think I was laughing at her. She scooped out a big heaping cup out of the box. I showed her how to scrape the excess back into the box with the back of a butter knife, resulting in a perfect one cup measure. I had her do it to the remaining half cup as well.
"Very good, dear. Now break the egg and put it in but be careful not to get any shell pieces in there with it."
She carefully tapped the egg on the edge of the mixing bowl. It cracked open but a few shell shards fell into the mix. She looked disappointed.
"No biggie. Fish them out of there." She got them out with a spoon.
"Next add one cup of milk, then another half cup since we have a half cup more mix as well. Stir it well until it's all wet and almost smooth. But not all the way smooth -- you want some lumps in it."
Once she was done with the mixing, I had her set it aside.
"Now I know our stove is a lot older than yours, and it doesn't work like it used to. You need to light it with a match." I handed her the box of matches. "Turn the knob until you hear the gas and hold the lit match close until it catches."
She looked very nervous. "It's not gonna blow up or anything? It's not gonna burn me?"
"No, sweetie. I do this every day. Just trust me."
"Okay..." She lit a match, turned on the gas and held it close. The burner lit immediately.
"Oh. You were right. It just sounded a little scary."
I patted her butt. "It's okay. Now get the skillet from the bottom cabinet there and put it on the heat. Shake it out first."
She looked confused.
"Bugs."
"Oh."
"Now we have to grease the pan as it heats up. Grab the margarine and put a big spoon in the pan. Lift it up and swirl it around so that the whole pan is covered."
She tilted the pan and got the whole thing coated.
"Alright, we're ready for the first pancake. Pour some mix into the pan so it makes the size you want. I usually make them this big" I held out my hands in about an eight-inch circle, "but make them whatever size you want. But not too big, as they'll be too hard to flip over."
She poured out about a six-inch circle.
"Now you have to watch it close. Flip it when it makes no more bubbles. You can also check the color if you lift up the edge a little. You know what pancakes should look like."
After about a minute, the bubbles stopped forming. She checked underneath the edge and saw the golden color and flipped it. It looked just right.
"This side should go a little quicker, so watch it closely."
It was done in less than a minute. Satisfied with how it looked, she took it out and placed it on a plate. She gave me a warm smile and looked very pleased with herself.
"Very good, my dear! That looks great. Now we continue until there's no more mix left. The last one will always be smaller, so it's for the cook."
She continued until all the mix was used. While she cooked them, I got the syrup and margarine out and brought them to the table. I also took out two plates and glasses.
"My dear, what would you like to drink?"
"Can I have coffee?"
"Yes sweetie, you can." I poured her a cup and added the amount of cream and sugar I saw her use the morning before. I poured a glass of milk for myself. I brought them to the table and set out forks and napkins for us.
"Um, they're all done. Do I just bring them all to you?"
"Since you cooked, you can make the plates right there. Take as many as you want. Make sure you keep that last small one for yourself."
"O-okay. There's seven. I think I want two, plus the little one. Can I give you three?" She still sounded hesitant.
"Of course, my dear. Don't be so nervous -- there's nothing to get wrong. Bring the plates and we'll put what you like on them."
She brought them over and sat down next to me.
"Okay, sweetie. We'll take our first bites together. You ready?"
"Okay."
We each took a bite. I had only margarine on mine, while she had syrup.
"Mmm, very good my dear!" I reached over and squeezed her thigh under the table. They were as good as boxed-mix pancakes could be. She flipped them at the correct times to be golden on each side.
"Yeah, they are pretty good." She sounded pleased with herself.
"I told you, you had nothing to worry about. It wasn't a chemistry experiment."
"I know. I just didn't want them to come out bad for you."
"I knew they wouldn't. My mother was right -- you listen to instructions well and you follow them. You do what they say, which most people don't really do. But because you do, you get whatever it is right."
She looked very pleased with herself and gave me a bright, happy smile. I could tell that she really liked being praised for her efforts.
Shawn and Dawn came out of the guest room for some more coffee and smelled the pancakes.
"Hey, that smells good. Are there any left?
"Yes, there are two. Take a taste and let us know what you think. They're Mary's first effort. I just told her what to do."
They each took one and had a bite.
"These are good, Mary" Shawn said.
"Yeah, perfect on both sides" Dawn added.
"See? I told you." I poked her knee.
She blushed a little. "Thanks. I never cooked anything before."
"Well, you have a good teacher in P then. She's always cooking something good." He gave me a thumbs up.
"So, what are you girls up to today?" Dawn asked.
"Hmm. Not sure yet. Any ideas, Mary?"
"No. I mean I liked your idea of going swimming at Carrie's house, but we don't even know if they're doing that."
"Looks like a good day to go swim. I'm sure you two beauties look great in bikinis" Shawn joked.
"Down, boy!" Dawn playfully poked him in the stomach.
"Yeah, it would be. Our friend has a pool, but we don't know what her and her girlfriend are doing."
"Are they the ones you told us about a few weeks back?"
"Yes. They're still in love and up each other's butts." Mary and I giggled.
"Well, when you're in love, that's a great place to be" he replied in a deadpan voice like Pervert would. We all laughed after a few moments.
"But if they're busy or just not up for company, we'll find something else to do. We don't want to intrude or anything."
"Whatever y'all do, have fun. Mary, you coming back tonight?"
"I hope so. I mean, if Paulina lets me" she poked me in the ribs.
"Hmm, that depends on how nice you are for the rest of the day. That includes no poking me!" I poked her back as we both giggled.
"I guess we'll see you later then. If not, we're glad you had fun last night. See you later, P." They both gave me a hug as they left.
"Come on, let's clean up. You get yourself more coffee. I'll load the dishwasher and get it started."
Cleaning up didn't take long. Since she cooked, I took care of the rest. When we were done in the kitchen, we went back to my room. I didn't really have a plan for us before her uncle left and was gone long and far enough and not be able to return back to her house if something happened.
"Darling dear?"
"Yes, my love?"
"Is there anything you really want to do today?"
"Not really. I mean, not until later. After he's gone."
"I'm not letting you go home until he is. Let's check with David and tell him to call me when he leaves."
"Okay. I want to talk to him anyway."
She called and he answered on the first ring.
"Hey you" she said in her loving voice only for him.
"Hey you" he replied back sweetly.
"Hello, Dave" I said over her shoulder, using my HAL impression. I wasn't sure if he got it or not.
"Oh, hey Paulina." He didn't sound very enthused to talk with me.
"Um, he's not gone yet, is he?"
"No, he's up looking for something to eat. Mom didn't make anything yet, `cause he's still here. He'd probably eat it all anyway."
"Well guess what I did? Paulina showed me how to make pancakes. And I cooked them!"
"Really?"
"They were very good" I added over her shoulder.
"They were. Maybe mom'll let me make some for us. You can help too."
"Sure. I love pancakes."
"Anyway, I don't know what we're doing today. What are you up to?"
"Don't know. Might go hang out with the guys or something."
"Would you, um, wait to go?"
"I guess so. Wait for what?"
"We, um, we want you to call us and let us know when he's gone. I'll come home after. I'm not coming before he leaves."
"Yeah, good idea."
"Is dad going to be there? If he leaves, would you, um, stay close to mom? I know he'll probably try something."
"Yeah, I'll stay. I don't want him doing that either."
"Okay, thanks. Well, we're gonna find something to do until then. Just call us here and leave a message if we don't answer."
"Mary?"
"What is it?"
"Is everything really good? I mean with you and her? Sounds like she's really being nice to you. I...just can't say I trust her totally."
She gave him a sweet smile that he couldn't see. "Yes, Dave. She's really being wonderful to me. Her family and friends too. I never imagined she'd be so nice. So please don't worry."
"Okay..." He still didn't sound sure.
"You know what else?" she asked mischievously.
"What?"
"If you're a good boy and really sweet, you might get a present later. From both of us" she giggled.
"Mary! Don't---"
"What?" He had no idea what we were talking about.
"Never mind. Anyway, call us later, k? Love you" she said sweetly.
"Yeah Dave, love you! Smooch smooch smooch!" I said cheesily as I blew loud kisses into the phone.
"Oh, um, yeah. Catch y'all later." He was very confused when he hung up.
"Mary!"
"Paulina!"
"You weren't supposed to tell him that! I'm not even sure I was serious!"
"Well, you shouldn't be playing with him and blowing him kisses and telling him you love him like I do!"
We both burst out laughing.
"So, my love, we have a few hours to kill. I don't have anything planned for us, so let's hang out here for a while. Oh -- I know what we can do now!"
"What?"
"Let's check up on our sexy playmates!"
"But you said none of us could say anything today about it."
"True, but that doesn't mean we can't...refer to it. We just can't say anything directly about it."
"Oh, okay. If you say so."
"I do" I replied in my imperial voice. She smiled and giggled as I dialed the phone.
"Hello?"
"Good morning, Carolina. How are you and your...Tiger this morning?" I kept my imperial voice.
"Oh...um, we're good. Tired. We didn't get to sleep till late." I could almost hear her blush.
"Us neither. So, what are you two lovelies up to today?"
"Don't really know yet, We, um, just got up and dressed."
"Of course you did. We've been up for about an hour. I taught my little sugar plum here how to make pancakes. They came out well. She did an excellent job. She listens extremely well to instructions. Even my mother thinks so."
"Your mom?!? She talked to her? I thought she was always mean."
"She usually is. I was nervous about that, but she was actually being kinda nice last night. Recently too. It's weird, and I don't trust her, but I'm just gonna go with it until it changes. Anyway, she took a liking to Mary and taught her how to play pool. I asked my dad to do it since he's so good, but she took over. Mary followed all her instructions and was playing well in no time. Better than me when I learned."
"Wow. That's one more thing we'd never expect, huh?"
"Yeah. So, I had this interesting dream last night that I was with three girls and we were playing Twenty Questions. It was a lot of fun. We found out all kinds of things about each other. Do you ever have dreams like that?" I said innocently.
She blushed before answering. "Um, yeah...one time. It was an interesting dream. All kinds of things happened. I was with my girlfriend and another girl we know, and her girlfriend. We...didn't know each other well but had fun talking about stuff. I mean we knew each other, just not about certain things. Know what I mean?"
"I do. In my case, it was so nice to wake up snuggled with my...girlfriend. She's so warm and cuddly. I know you have a big tiger you cuddle up with, don't you?" I giggled.
"Um, yeah. She's very cuddly" she giggled with a blush. "But, um, I'm curious about something"
"What's that, dear"
"What, um, what will your real girlfriend do if she finds out you have -- I mean are with another girl?" She obviously meant Delaware.
"These last few days and this weekend have felt like I'm Alice and I fell down the rabbit hole and wound up in Wonderland. I know that when the weekend ends, I'll be back to the real world and will look back on all this like it's some crazy dream. But I really want to remember the good parts - like how I rescued a girl who was gonna get hurt, or like how me and three other girls decided we'd try our best to be nice to each other. Or that we all had some sexy fun together! Of course since it was all a dream, I'll never tell anyone about it. I'm sure you feel the same way about your private dreams, don't you? I know Hil does, too. In the future I might try to have that dream again, but I don't know if it would ever happen. Know what I mean?"
"Yes, Emp. I understand. Dreams can be so much fun, but we always wake up. But sometimes they come true. People can even help them come true. Mine did. I have Hil now and I dreamed of having her for so long. You helped make it come true. So maybe...depending on how things are...I could help you with yours?"
"That would be most pleasing." I replied imperially.
"But, I'm not gonna help do anything that would hurt my friends' feelings. They're...special and close and I don't want anyone to feel bad. They're too sweet and I would feel awful if I did. You know what I mean?"
Her answer was surprising on one hand but not surprising on the other. I didn't expect her to offer any help, or even acceptance of things repeating themselves. But I did expect her protectiveness and loyalty to show. I loved this about her.
"My dear, I wouldn't want anyone to feel hurt or sad either. Especially anyone so close and important to me. My loyalty to them, like yours, will not falter." I clearly meant Delaware like she did.
"Good, Emp. I'm glad."
"Carolina, your loyalty means so much to me. Can I rely on you to help me with all this? The girls will be easier than our...close girls. Would you talk with Mary if she has objections? I know she was as unhappy with her as you and I were, so I expect her to have reservations. I want you to tell her honestly what you think and feel about it so she can make up her own mind."
"Yeah, Mare's pretty smart, and almost as...intuitive, I guess, as you? She'll listen to me and decide how she feels about it."
"Good. Now for the harder ones. Can you help when me, you, Del, and Sen discuss all this? I know a certain someone who will be very reluctant to try to be civil and make peace. Sen will be okay with it, I think, since she wasn't involved with everything before."
"I, um, I'll try. She's gonna be as confused as Hil and I were. Um, are you gonna tell us what happened? I mean to Mary? I think I know, or at least have an idea, and Hil definitely seems to know. But that's all real personal. Will she want you telling us about it?"
"I'm gonna ask and find out how much I can reveal. I will tell you this -- I am fixing things so that she won't have to worry about all this in the future."
"Emp, what do you mean?"
"The...cause of her troubles will be learning a hard lesson soon. I think the lesson will get through and stick. She will not have any more troubles, at least not the ones you and Hil may have speculated correctly about." I replied in a very cool voice.
"Emp...you're not telling everything. What exactly are you doing?" She sounded very concerned.
"You know how I feel about things...of this nature. You also know that I'll go to great lengths to protect those I care for. I got to see the root of her troubles myself and decided to do something about it. If it's...successful, then I'll tell you more details. But for now, I have to wait and see. Not long though."
"You, um, sound a little mysterious, Emp. Can you...get in trouble over it?"
"Theoretically yes, but I don't think it would be looked into. I've said too much already. I just want you to know how important all of this is. I couldn't do this for someone else, so I'm gonna make sure I do everything I can for her, regardless of our recent past."
"You mean your sister, don't you."
"...Yes."
"I understand. I'll help as much as I can then. I, um, well we both feel a little different towards her since last -- I mean that dream we had. Not totally different, but a little."
"I know. I greatly appreciate you and Hil doing this. I'm very pleased."
"I'm glad we can help. Even if it is her. Oh -- hold on a sec." I heard her and Hilary talk in the background for a few moments. "Hey, can we call you back in a few minutes?"
"Sure."
"K. Talk to you in a few." She hung up.
Sitting on Carolina's bed, she and Hilary were unsure if they had a good idea or not.
"Hil, do you think it'll be too weird? I mean, we promised we'd try but it's gonna be hard for me to be nice in person. At least not yet."
"I know. I, um, it still hurts to think about what she did, but what I did to make her stop still feels good. I...feel bad for her a little. You know what a bitch I was because of all that. I want to think she's in the same position. I want to give her the benefit of the doubt, but I can't pretend everything's okay all of a sudden. But we did promise to try, so I'm willing if you are."
"Okay. I think the really weird thing is gonna be seeing them together after what happened this morning. I mean, it sounded like they're real close now, don't you think?"
"Yeah, but you know how P is. And somehow, I know that she's telling the truth that her feelings for Kathy and Tina won't change. But I can also tell that she's having feelings for Mary, too, and that they're not just gonna go away Monday morning."
"Right. Um..." She sucked her bottom lip.
"What is it, Princess?"
"Are you, um, okay with what we talked about, and what we did? I mean listening to them? And them hearing us? I mean, they were doing everything we did. And now we know kind of a lot about them, especially Paulina."
"I was a little weirded out at first, mostly because it was her and Mary, of all people. But they were so lovey-dovey and cute that I couldn't not like it for long. And sometimes they sounded real sincere. But then the sex...it was really hot! Enough for us to do it again while they were doing it and we were all still on the phone!"
"I know!" She exaggeratedly fanned herself with a hand. "I forgot we didn't hang up!" They both laughed.
"Hil, do you think it's okay that Emp...does things with adults? I mean really older ones. Like older than our dads? I can't imagine having sex with one of my parent's friends. She sounds like it's no big deal. I guess it's not to her."
"I know, right? I can't imagine that either. But she seems to...like it. It didn't sound like anybody's made her do anything she didn't want to do. Well, we know that that's not gonna happen."
"True. I bet there's a lot she didn't tell us. I mean I didn't know she had older girlfriends. And not just friends, either. You know they're probably hot, too. Maybe...if she has another weird week like this one, she'll tell us more. If we get to talk to her while its going on."
"Yeah."
"So, should I call them back and ask?"
"Um, sure, why not. We both trust her, and she trusts us. I feel pretty confident that she wouldn't have done any of this if it didn't feel right or at least okay to her. I really don't think she would have let Mary anywhere near her if she wasn't sincere. Or at least mostly sincere."
"I know, you're right. It's gonna be weird but...we can deal with that. Um..." she sucked her lip.
"Princess, what is it?"
"Was Mary ever nice to you? Ever since you told me what she did, I can't or don't want to remember much of anything with her before that. And I've been in classes with her for years."
"When she wasn't trying to hurt me she was nice sometimes. We'd hang out and do stuff. But she got meaner over time. When she hurt me that last time it was the worst she had ever been. But I think she was like acting out what was happening to her."
"I'm glad. It sounds like her and Emp are being very nice and sweet to each other."
"Yeah, it does."
"Alright, I'll call them back."
"Emp? Hey."
"Carolina? It's so good to hear from you. It feels like I haven't talked to you in a while. It's been so long!" I giggled.
"Ha ha. You're soooo funny. Anyway, we, um, were thinking..."
"What? Come on, out with it."
"We, um...would you and Mary, um, want to come over and hang out for a while? We can eat lunch and hang out by the pool. Maybe even go in if y'all have bathing suits. I mean, if y'all want" She asked nervously.
"That's a very sweet invitation. And a really big thing for you to consider. I appreciate you doing that. Can you hold on a minute? I'll ask her."
"K."
"Sugar Plum?"
"Yes, my love?"
"Carolina is inviting us over to eat and hang out by the pool. Would you like to go?"
"Really?!? Um, yeah, if you do. Are they sure? I don't want it to be weird for everybody."
"I know her. She wouldn't have offered if she didn't really think it through. I think it'll be good for all of us."
"Then yes, I want to go."
"Excellent, my dear." I stroked her hair, earning me a smile.
"Carolina, we would like to join you but Mary's worried that her being there will make it weird and uncomfortable for everyone. I told her you wouldn't have offered if you didn't mean it."
"We talked about it and think it'll be okay. I mean, after last night -- I mean that strange dream I had, I don't think it'll get any weirder."
"True. I do have another concern though. Will your parents be okay with me? The way I am? Not being a real girl? I don't want to make them uncomfortable or bothered. We can leave if they disapprove or anything."
"My dad's gone for the day, and I really think my mom'll be cool with you. She pretty much knows everything between Hil and I and is seems okay. She kinda encouraged it a little, I think. She's more open about stuff than I thought she'd be. She's kinda...cool."
"Great. Mary knows where you live so we'll head over in a bit. She doesn't have a bathing suit, and I know nothing of yours or Hil's would fit her. So we can just get our feet in the water or something."
"Okay, that sounds good. Just bring whatever. Se y'all in a little bit."
"Carolina?"
"Emp?"
"This is very gracious of you. Hil, too. Mary is surprised but very appreciative that you two are even talking to her. I truly believe that she's past a point of being who she was before, if that makes sense. It doesn't excuse everything, but it means that going forward will be different."
"Hil kinda said the same thing. She said she feels a little different about her now, like with some sympathy. If she's okay with her, than I am. We talked and thought that last night was fun. I mean not having to worry about any of the past. Oh -- I mean in my dream."
"I'm glad. You know I was just as furious with her as you were. But when I saw her Thursday afternoon I saw all the way through her. Her troubles, her fear, all of it. I couldn't not help her. Now that I've seen so much of her -- literally too -- my feelings about her have changed. So things were different from that point on. Does that make sense?"
"Yeah, it does. I trust Hill and you, so if y'all are okay with her then I'll try to be."
"Thank you, my dear. We'll head over to your house around 11:30, so we'll see you soon."
"K. Smooch!" She blew me a little kiss before hanging up.
Hilary got dressed while Carolina went down to the kitchen to tell her mother that we were coming over to eat and swim, and that her and Hilary could help her make lunch.
"Care, is your pretty girlfriend up yet? You two slept in late" her mom asked cheesily as she pinched her daughter's cheek.
"Mom! We-we're just---"
"Carrie, you can't hide things from me. I can see right through you. You two are definitely girlfriends."
"B-but...um...I-I...a-are you---"
"Upset? Mad? Disappointed? Of course not, dear." She pulled her into a tight hug. Carolina was tearing up. "Honey, I knew it that day she was here and helped with your ankle. You two seem to really care for each other."
"We...do." She blushed a little.
"Then it's okay. I like her. She's a really sweet girl. Very pretty too! I see why you like her!" She poked her in the nose, earning her a bigger blush.
"I-I thought maybe you wouldn't like it that we...like each other." She sucked her lip.
"Honey, remember what I told you that night? That I had crushes on girls too when I was younger?"
"Y-yeah."
"Well, I'll tell you a little secret. I had a girlfriend in college once." She gave her a wink.
"WHAT?!? Y-you had one?!? Like a girlfriend girlfriend?"
"Yes dear, a real girlfriend. This was a while before I met your father. This girl I had a class with always sat by me and talked to me. Pretty soon she started flirting. She finally asked me out one day, and I thought to myself `why not?' I'd never been with a girl, and all the guys I dated were jerks just trying to get in my pants, so I said yes. I'd try something new."
"Wow. What was she like? Was she sweet? Was she pretty?"
"She was pretty...but kind of a tomboy. She had short hair and didn't dress girly. She looked kind of tough, too."
"Y-you mean she was kinda...butch?"
"Exactly. So, you know what that is, huh?"
"Um...yeah" she sucked her lip and looked down at her feet as she replied.
"Well it sounds like you know more about all this than I did then. Anyway, we went out on a few dates. It was fun. I did things and met people I never would have met. But she wanted a relationship more than I did, so we quit dating. We stayed friends through school, though."
"Oh." She was still trying to hide her surprise that her mother had a girlfriend in college.
"You know what else?" she asked mischievously.
"What?"
"She was a great kisser!" she giggled as she pinched her thigh.
"OMYGOD, MOM!" She blushed with embarrassment hearing her mother say she kissed a girl. She was thinking that she probably did more than what she was saying.
"What, sweetie? I've been kissing since I was your age, you know. Just like you are doing now" she said smugly.
"Eeee!" Carolina turned beet red and pulled her hair over her face to hide. Her mother giggled at her, enjoying the fun she was having with her.
"Sweetie, I'm just playing. But seriously, it's okay. You two do whatever feels right. Like I told you before, I just don't want your feelings to get hurt."
She gave her mother a sweet then relieved look. "I-I was afraid you wouldn't like it and would tell us to stop liking each other." She sucked her lip again.
"Honey, only you two can stop liking each other, regardless if we approve or not."
"B-but I want it to be okay."
"It is, sweetie. Don't worry about it."
"But what about...dad? He's not gonna like it, will he? I don't want him to be mad at me for it." She looked like she was about to cry again.
Her mother pulled her into another tight hug.
"Honey, your dad won't be upset. He might tease you a little, but he'll just be playing. Promise." She handed her a tissue to blow her nose.
"O-okay, if you say so."
"I do. He loves you no matter what. And so do I." She gave her a big kiss, earning her a little smile. "So what are you girls up to today?"
"We invited a couple girls over to have lunch and swim and stuff, if that's alright? Hil and I can help make something."
"Sure, that's fine. Who all's coming?"
"Two girls from school you haven't met. They're in all our classes with us."
"Okay. Do y'all want to make something? It might be easier if I go get pizza for you."
"Oh, yes! That would be better. Thanks!" She gave her a big hug.
"Sure, dear. Now you better get back upstairs and check on your girlfriend. Don't want her to get lonely, do you?" her mom laughed.
"Mommm!" She tried to sound embarrassed but ended up laughing with her.
While Hilary got dressed, Carolina's phone rang. She knew she wouldn't mind if she answered it.
"Hello?"
"Hil? Hey. Where's Carrie?" It was Mary R.
"She downstairs talking with her mom. I'm still getting dressed -- I mean getting up" she blushed heavily.
"Uh huh. You know I know what you two are doing, right?"
"Oh, um, yeah" she replied sheepishly.
"Don't worry, girl. It's you two, so it's cool. What are you guys doing today?"
"We, um, were going to hang out by the pool."
"Cool. I'll grab my suit and come over in a little while."
"Um, Mare..."
"What?"
"Can you come over now? There's, um, someone coming over...Shit, we'll tell you when you get here. Hurry up, okay? They'll be here at like 11:30." She hung up the phone.
Whatthehell? Mary thought to herself as she grabbed her one-piece and a beach towel and walked over two houses to Carolina's.
Carolina saw Hil's nervous look when she walked in.
"What's wrong, Tiger?"
"Just talked to Mary. She coming over. I said we'd tell her when she gets here."
"Oh. Well, we'll just have to tell her. They're gonna be here in a little while."
They heard a knock on the front door. Mary ran up the stairs as soon as Carolina's mother let her in.
"Alright you two, what the hell's going on?" She said in a faux stern voice.
"Um, Mare, someone's coming over. Um, someone we never expected." She sucked her lip.
"Come on, out with it! What are you talking about!?!"
Hilary stood up. "Paulina rescued Mary from some bad shit. They've spent the last two days together. We talked on the phone and all kinda made peace. They're on their way over now. There, it's out." Both she and Carolina looked relieved for it to be out in the open.
"Mary?!? Who we all quit being friends with? Who Paulina hates? Who hates her? Who you two hate? Holy fuck! Wow. Um...just wow. What happened? Y'all talked last night? She slept over with her? Y'all made peace? How?"
"Paulina just threw everything out there like she does. Mary apologized for being...the way she was to me. She also said she was sorry for giving my Princess and I dirty looks and shit `cause we're together. She even said she was glad that we were happy with each other."
"Paulina asked if we all would be able to be civil and not bitchy or mean to each other anymore. She promised she wouldn't be, so we said we would try, too."
"Mare, Paulina asked me to ask you how you feel about it after I told you what I think. I can't say I totally trust her, but I do trust Paulina. If she's cool with it and thinks she'll stop being a bitch, then I'm okay with it."
"You're cool with this too, Hil?"
"Yeah. I trust Paulina too. If Mary fucks it up, then she'll have to deal with her. I'm sure she doesn't want to do that again."
"Okay. Well...I guess we'll just see how she is then."
"There's, um, more." Carolina put her hand on her arm.
"More?"
"Yeah. They're, um...together this weekend."
"What? What do you mean?"
"Like together together. Like Hil and I." She couldn't help but smile as she thought about everything that happened.
"WHAT?!? Wait a minute, hold up. You mean...like you two? Like girlfriends?!?" How? Ugh! My head's starting to hurt!" She exaggeratedly rubbed her head and made painful faces.
"Yeah, we were thinking the same thing. But it's kinda...sweet. She said Mary needed some love and caring, so she's been taking care of her. But Monday everything's supposed to go back to normal."
"Fat chance of that, though. Stuff like this never just goes back to normal" Hilary added.
"So we're telling you because they're probably gonna be sweet and cute and affectionate. Remember when I told you how sweet and caring Paulina was with her sister? And how different it was from how she acts at school? I think this is gonna be the same."
"How do you know how's she's acting?"
"She, um, told us straight out. Said they were gonna be like that all weekend, and for us to not get freaked out."
Mary looked at them suspiciously for a few moments. Carolina knew that expression and looked away, sucking her lip. Hilary started looking around the ceiling, trying not to look at her.
"You two aren't telling me everything. I know it. So?" She folded her arms and gave them a stern look.
"Mare, we promised we wouldn't say anything. If they want to tell you then they will. Okay?" She gave her doe eyes. Hilary threw in her own. It was overwhelming.
"Alright, alright. Enough with the cuteness. I'll ask her myself. But thanks for the heads up. I think seeing them and not knowing beforehand would freak me out."
"Yeah, us too."