"Carnal Knowledge"
I can't fight this feeling any longer And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow What started out as friendship, has grown stronger I only wish I had the strength to let it show
I tell myself that I can't hold out forever I said there is no reason for my fear Cause I feel so secure when we're together You give my life direction You make everything so clear
And even as I wander I'm keeping you in sight You're a candle in the window On a cold, dark winter's night And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I can't fight this feeling anymore I've forgotten what I started fighting for It's time to bring this ship into the shore And throw away the oars, forever
Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore I've forgotten what I started fighting for And if I have to crawl upon the floor Come crushing through your door Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore
I lay in my bed, listening to the radio, as R.E.O. Speedwagon's song played in my mind and seemed to fit so well with my thoughts. I had woken several times, last night after watching Robert leave. I couldn't concentrate, so homework had to wait. I felt too mentally and physically exhausted from all that happened in just one day.
Robert loved me and I loved him. I had wanted this for so long that my mind just couldn't accept it as reality. Then, I'd start thinking about what everyone would say and do if they ever found out that he and I were gay. He was the team captain for the swim team and I was just starting on the varsity football team. I was still an unknown at Ellison, but Robert...he was known by everyone. "Are we ready for this?" I thought as I turned to look at the clock radio. 6:13 AM shown in dull green digital numbers. The sun was just coming up and cast the sky outside my window in shades of gray.
With a heavy sigh, I threw the covers back and crawled out of bed. As usual my morning hardon was staring up at me as I stood up to go and relieve the pressure. "Not this morning buddy. I've got major plans for you this afternoon, if all goes well today." As if having waited for such knowledge, my hardon seemed to soften a little and I smiled as I thought how mental I was to be talking to my dick like it were a real person.
After relieving myself and showering, I checked my image in the mirror. Being 14 years old, I hadn't yet started to shave. As a matter of fact, I had very little body hair and doubted that I'd have to shave my face for several years to come. Blonds seemed to be blessed with an extended reprieve from this tedious task. I left the bathroom.
Not taking much care in choosing what to wear to school, I threw on a shirt and a pair of blue jeans. I looked at the clock again and it was 6:45. Robert should be here any minute. I went back into the bathroom and brushed my teeth, combed my hair and swiped deodorant under my arms to complete my morning toilet.
As I made it downstairs and headed for the kitchen, the front doorbell rang and then I heard the sound of the front door security keypad being used to enter the entry code. I smiled to myself and thought how funny it was that Robert had such free access to my parents house and he wasn't even one of their children. "I wonder how long that will last after they find out about us," I mumbled to myself as I continued to the kitchen to grab a pop-tart or something to satisfy my hunger.
In the kitchen, I poured myself a glass of milk and opened the blue berry pop-tart package. I'd eaten about half of one, when Robert came through the door of the kitchen and smiled at me.
"Not fair. I thought you'd still be upstairs in your room and I was going to surprise you. I was kind of hoping you'd still be in the shower," he scrunched his shoulders up and got an evil look on his face as he rubbed his hands together.
"I bet you did," I laughed, "as you can see, I'm all ready for you, and your evil plan has been foiled.
"Oh that's ok," he beamed, "just as long as my 'other' plans for this afternoon aren't foiled." Having said that, he made a grab for his crotch and winked at me.
"Your so damned cute when you do that. Has that worked on the girls you've dated in the past?" I teased.
"Of course it did. I had all kinds of offers from them. One offered to buy me some jock itch medicine; then there was the suggestion for cotton briefs to let the air penetrate better and not least among the offers, was the experienced girl who said that she always itched too when the hair started growing back after doing the BIG shave." As Robert was saying this, he was ticking off the offers with his hands.
"Alright already, your such a comedian. Are you ready to start this day?"
"I will be in about 3 seconds", and he walked over to me. When he was within reach, he took a hold of me and gave me my first kiss of the day. "Um...blueberry, and um...milk," he said. "I always knew that kissing you would taste great, but I never expected you'd taste this good."
I hugged him tightly and then licked his cheek. "I'll wait to taste you a little later. For now, we need to get going." My dick was getting hard and I thought we needed to get going, before my 'buddy' called in his debt early.
As we left the gate too my parents property, I asked Robert if we were giving Steve a ride to school this morning and of course his answer didn't surprise me, we were. "He won't be sitting on your lap this morning or ever again though. Your all mine now," and he reached over and rubbed my leg.
"That's so sweet Robert." I jibbed "Now take your hand off my leg if all your going to do is rub my thigh." When I said this, he moved his hand to my crotch and started rubbing my dick through the jeans. I blushed and said, "Stop that! I slapped his hand away, "Steve will be in the car in a few minutes and he'll see me with a fucking hardon!"
"So! He'll have to find his OWN boyfriend." He said and smiled at me.
"What is that supposed to mean? Your not telling me that Steve's gay?" Now that would be a surprise. Sure we jerked off yesterday in the boys' room, but hey, even straight guys jerk off with each other. Must relief that pressure somehow, and why not in the company of friends.
"How the hell would I know that? I was just joking Brent. You know, I'm not like the president of the Ellison High School Gay/Lesbian/Bi Club. Shit, every guy I know could be gay and I'd be damned if I'd know it. Look at you," he said and we rounded the last corner and turned on to the street that lead to Steve's house, "I hoped and prayed that you were, but when it came down to knowing for sure? I had no idea. When I told you I loved you yesterday, it was for broke. If you weren't, then I would lose my best friend and the guy I loved until my heart hurt," and he cast those eyes towards me, just a glance, and my heart melted. "So, don't ask me to spot who is or who isn't. All I care about is that YOU are. I love you."
"I love you too Robert, " and I leaned over and gave him a kiss on the cheek as he pulled into the drive of Steve's house. Steve was waiting on the porch again and came up to the car as Robert pulled to a stop. I gave Robert a hard look. I wonder if Steve just saw me kiss Robert? I opened the door and got out, so he could slip into the back seat.
"Hey Rob, about time you got here. Did the lady killer here take his time again this morning?" Steve poked me in the shoulder from the back seat as he said this. "At least it looks like he did a better job of it this morning than yesterday." And he laughed his smart assed way.
That was all I was going to take from this asshole, so I turned around in my seat and said, "Good morning Steve. Is your ass sore this morning? I would think it would be since you were moving it around so much in my lap yesterday. You must have bruises all over it from my DICK!"
Robert looked back at Steve and burst out laughing. I was laughing too because the look on Steve's face was all I could hope for and more. He was blushing a bright red and his eyes were looking everywhere but at us in the front seats. "Well," I managed to choke out and Robert laughed louder if it was possible.
"I...I don't know what the fuck you're talking about you little faggot." Steve stammered out, still looking everywhere but at us.
After Robert and I calmed down, Robert pulled out and headed for the school. Steve sat silent in the back seat and I knew he was steaming. Who the fuck cared? I got him and he was speechless. Robert looked sideways at me and gave me a wink and I beamed as I looked straight ahead. We pulled into the school parking lot and Robert parked the car.
"See you at lunch Rob," said Steve as he piled out of the backseat and headed for the school entrance. He was walking so fast that I doubt he heard me when I yelled to him, "Nice ass by the way!" Robert came around the car and looked me in the eyes.
"Brent, that was too sweet. Man you got him so bad, I don't think you'll EVER have to worry again. Did you see his FACE?" and he chuckled at the memory.
"I'm rather proud of myself too. Lets go. I have to get to class a little early. I, um...didn't do my homework last night." I almost blushed and saw a knowing look in Robert's eyes.
"I understand. I didn't sleep last night. Come on." Having said that, Robert led the way into the school. I told him bye and headed to my first period class and he went to his.
I saw Debbie in third period. I hadn't noticed yesterday because I hadn't met her yet; here she was in my Algebra II class. She smiled at me as I walked over to my seat, which was to the left of her and two seats up. I waved and sat down. I felt her eyes on the back of my head the whole period and thought that I'd better tell her that I wasn't looking for a girlfriend. I didn't want her to develop a major crush and going crazy on me.
When the bell rang, I gathered my gear and stuffed it in my backpack. Debbie met me at the door and said she'd walk with me to the cafeteria. What am I going to tell her? I better wait until I can think up something that won't hurt her feeling, but be enough for her to get the message. "Debbie, does Michelle not like me or something?" I asked.
"Why do you ask that?"
"Just the way she looked at me a few times yesterday. I got the feeling she wanted to cuss me out or something. I don't know what I did, but whatever it was, I didn't know I was doing it."
"Michelle's like that sometimes. Her and Robert haven't been able to spend a lot of time together and I think Michelle is a little jealous of all the time Robert spends with you. I know your best friends and have known each other for a long time, it's just she wishes he'd take the time to work on their relationship." Debbie said a bit more than I'd expected. Maybe she thinks I'll tell Robert and he'll realize he's doing that. If they only knew, I thought. I smiled at this and Debbie looked at me with a satisfied grin. Aha, so I was right. She thinks she's done her duty.
We got to the cafeteria and saw Robert, Michelle, Steve, Tim and the rest of the gang sitting where they were yesterday. This must be "their" area I thought as we arrived at the table. Steve looked up and saw me and then surprised me by saying, "Hey Brent. We were wondering when you'd get here. We saved you a seat." Robert looked at Steve and his eyebrows knotted together, and then he looked at me and shrugged.
"Thanks Steve. I appreciate it dude." Steve had a seat for me between Tim and himself. Debbie's was next to Michelle, and Robert sat on the other side of her, directly across from me. "So, did you tell everyone about the party this weekend?" I asked Robert.
"Sure did." He smiled. "Everyone at the table's going to be there and a few others that aren't here. Looks like there's going to be about 12 of us. Should be a blast!"
"Are we going to have tents and stuff?" Debbie asked.
"Sure thing. My father's got two that I'm going to bring and I think Brent's got a couple also. We'll have to share, but I doubt any of us will be sleeping much," Robert said and looked over at me.
What the hell was he saying and why was he looking at me after SAYING that! Robert smiled, "I plan on doing some night fishing if I can find a BIG worm out there."
Don't blush Brent, don't blush! I felt my face getting hot, but fought to control it. He's just talking about fishing. Nobody knows about us. They aren't thinking what I'M thinking. "Um...I'm going to go grab a coke. Anyone want anything?"
Everyone at the table had already gotten themselves drinks and Debbie had brought her lunch, with a Capri Sun drink. I got up and went to the soda machine. Calm down Brent. You had better handle this better or you're going to make people suspicious. I popped the tab on the Dr. Pepper and took a long drink. The coldness helped to cool my face off and felt it return to normal.
Lunch seemed to speed by and as we talked about the party and made plans on what games, food and music to bring. I kept looking at Robert as he spoke to Michelle and Eric about water sports. He's so damned good looking. Ok Brent, get a grip!
Debbie leaned over and whispered in Michelle's ear at one point, and then I saw Michelle look at me and give me a slight smile and nod her head. Women are so devious I thought as I realize that Debbie must have filled her in on our conversation earlier. Other times, I'd look around the table while listening to Robert, and Steve would be staring at me. When he noticed, he'd look away and appear to be listening as well. What's his deal I thought? The first notice bell rang and we all got up to head for our classes. Robert told me he'd see me after school and to meet him in the parking lot by his car, and then left with Michelle hanging on his arm. Debbie asked me where my next class was and I told her I had to go by my locker before the bell and then she left for her class as well. Freshman lockers were on the other side of the building, by the sports halls; too far for her to have to walk and make it back to class on time. Luckily, my next class was not far from the lockers.
As the fifth period ended and I made it to sixth, I started getting excited. This was the last class of the day and soon Robert and I would be going to my house to finish what had started yesterday. Time dragged on like it always seems to when you're anticipating it. Finally the bell rang, announcing the end of the day, and I gathered my stuff and almost ran to the lockers. I threw my books in and slammed the door. As I power walked down the side hall towards the main, I paused as I approached the boys' room Steve and I had jerked off in. Did he know it was me? I shrugged to myself and continued on and out of the building to the parking lot. I saw Steve get into Eric's car and they headed out of the parking lot, in the direction of his house. Robert wasn't at his car when I arrived, so I took my backpack off and set it on the ground.
After waiting for about 10 minutes, I looked around the parking lot and saw that several cars were still here and wondered where Robert was. Then I saw him coming from the same way I had towards the parking lot. As he came up to me he said, "Hey Cutey! Damn you look good enough to eat!" I rewarded him with the blush he was hoping for and he smiled from ear to ear. "Uh huh, now your even CUTER!"
"Where were you? I saw you come from the sports entrance. Did you forget I was going to meet you here and go by my locker to meet me?"
"Naw, I had to go tell coach that I couldn't make practice this afternoon. I told him I had cramps in my stomach and didn't think I could swim today. If he only knew they were more like butterflies and that they were there because I was going be making love to the most handsome and sexy guy at this school, he'd have kicked me off the team. Lets get going! Are you ready?" he asked and cocked his head to the side.
"I didn't even think about you having practice today. I'm sorry. You sure you won't get in trouble?" I asked with true concern. Usually, if you missed three practices, you weren't allowed to swim in the next meet. Robert was the best the school had and it wouldn't be fair if he missed out on it.
"This is my first miss, so it's no big deal. Besides, I wouldn't miss being with you if I got kicked OFF the team! Get in." Robert unlocked my door and then went around and opened his. He started the car and pulled out of the parking lot. My stomach was getting tight and I could tell from the look on Robert's face, that his body was reacting to the anticipation of our love making as well. I reached and took his right hand in mine and felt him softly squeeze it.
"Robert." Gosh, I hope this doesn't come out sappy. I swallowed the lump that was starting to form in my throat and said, "I just want you to know that this is my first time to have sex with anyone. I don't know anything about the right way or the wrong way to do any of this and I hope I don't embarrass myself. All I know is that I love you and want to show you how much. Do you know what I'm saying?"
"Yes I do, love." He paused then glanced at me, "You're scared. Guess what? I'm scared too. I'll promise you that I will take my time and be as gentle and loving as possible with you. Just promise me the same and we'll make up our own way of doing it right." He took his hand and gently ran the back of it down my left cheek, sending electric jolts of pleasure down my neck and all over my body.
"I promise." I whispered and tears began to flow unbidden down my cheek.
We pulled up to the gate and Robert entered the code. The gate swung open and he drove up and parked in the drive. I told Robert that I had to see to Sierra and I'd meet him inside when I was finished. I headed for the stables and Robert went to the house.
I feed and watered her and nervously walked back to the house. "This is it." I said to myself. "Nothing will ever be like this again and I'll remember this for the rest of my life." I opened the door and heard soft music coming from upstairs. I smiled and knew that Robert must have brought a special CD to play while we made love. I walked up the stair with a bit of trepidation and walked towards the open door to my room.
As I entered the room, my mind locked onto the lyrics of the song playing,
Love doesn't ask why It speaks from the heart And never explains
Don't you know that? Love doesn't think twice It can come all at once Or whisper from a distance
Now I can feel what you're afraid to say If you give your soul to me Will you give too much away?
We can't let this moment pass us by Can't question this chance Or expect any answers We can try But love doesn't ask you why
I saw Robert sitting on my bed. He'd taken off his shirt, socks and shoes, and pants. He was wearing a pair of blue shorts. "Come here Brent, " he spoke softly. I dropped my backpack and walked over to Robert. While he sat on the bed, he reached up and unbuckled my belt, then undid the buttons on my 501's. "Give me your left foot", and he looked up at me, "please" and smiled. I placed my left foot in his hands and he removed my shoe and sock. He took the other foot and repeated the process. Reaching up, he took hold of the waist of my 501's and pulled them down and I lifted my feet so he could remove them completely. Robert leaned forward and very lightly nuzzled my brief encased buddy with his nose. A moan escaped from my mouth as my body responded to his closeness. He stood up and took hold of the bottom of my shirt and pulled it up and over my head. He dropped the shirt to the floor and enveloped me in a hug and our lips met.
The heat of his body was flowing into mine as we stood there in my room. He broke the kiss, took my hand, and said, "Come with me." He led me into the bathroom. So entranced by Robert when I entered the room, I hadn't noticed that the shower was on in the bathroom. "Lets take a shower baby."
"Gosh Robert," I whispered. It didn't seem right to speak too loud. "You did all this? You sure you've never done this before?"
"Not until this very moment, but I've dreamed of doing this with you forever."
Robert removed his shorts and stepped in the shower and held out his hand for me to follow. I removed my briefs and took his hand in mine. He pulled me in and I felt the warm water flowing over my back. It seemed that every nerve in my body was in tune with the moment and every sensation I felt increased my desire for him. Embracing me, Robert and I kissed as the water cascaded down on our intertwined bodies. I felt his hardness against my own, as he moved his hands along the muscles of my back and down. I caressed his back as well, gently moving further down and applying slight pressure to pull him in closer to me.
Robert reached for the liquid soap and poured some in his right hand. "Hold out your hand Cutey." I held out my right hand and he poured some in it. After replacing the bottle of soap in the shower rack, he turned the showerhead towards the wall. He massaged the cool liquid into my back and worked the lather over my skin. I did the same for him as we continued embracing. Robert then leaned forward and I felt his lips on my neck. He parted them and I felt his tongue as he slid it along the left side of my neck, under my chin and then to the sensitive right side. "I love you Brent," he breathed into my ear, sending erotic pulses to my brain and the farthest reaches of my soul.
I slide my lathered hand down his back and onto his firm butt. Circling each cheek, I slipped my hand between them and brought my hand from the base of his crack, upwards. When my hand moved over his sensitive shoot, I felt him shudder and moan, as he pressed back on my hand begging for further manipulation. "I can't take much more of this Brent. Let's rinse off." I knew I couldn't hold out for long either and agreed.
Robert reached up and turned the showerhead towards us, rinsing the soap off and stepped out of the shower. I used a bath towel and dried the water from Robert's body as he did the same for me. My senses were still heightened as I followed Robert into the bedroom. We made it to the bed and as I lay down, I pulled Robert down on top of me. We were both still hard and I felt his cock slide along the inside of my thigh and rub against my ball sack, coming to rest along side my own. Our lips found each other's and we battled with our tongues, trying to drink in each other's essence.
Robert began kissing my chin and slowly moved down my body, using his mouth and tongue to reach the most sensitive areas on his voyage of discovering my body. He lingered on my sensitive, hardened nipples. "Oh God Brent, you taste so good. I can feel your muscles tighten as I kiss your body." He looked up at me, "your beautiful."
I never imagined that I could ever feel like Robert was making me feel. He seemed to know just what to do and say to cause the most erotic dreams I ever had to pale in comparison. "Don't stop Robert, I need you to take me, please!"
"You just lay back and I'll take care of you...I love you Brent," and the look in his eyes as he said this, told me better than any words could, that he didn't lie.
"God Robert, I think I've loved you all my life and will for the rest of my life." Just as I finished saying this, I felt Robert's hot breath flow the length of my swollen cock. A very loud moan escaped my throat and then I felt his tongue lick the sensitive head of my circumcised member. It jumped and a glistening drop of pre-cum came out of the slit and Robert kissed it away. I arched my back to try and maneuver my cock between those wonderful lips and gasped as I felt the warmth of the inside of his mouth envelope me. His tongue slide up and down the underside of my cock as he moved it in and out.
"Wait Robert," I gasped. "I want to do this together." If I didn't stop him, I'd cum to soon and I wanted to feel him and taste him too. I moved down and kissed him on the way as I turned my upper body towards the foot of the bed. I was now in a position where the scent of his young, strong body permeated my senses. I again moaned as I felt my cock enter Robert's mouth and I looked at his waiting to share the pleasures that I was receiving. I moved forward and slid my tongue along the vein-covered length of his shaft. His moans vibrated my cock as he swallowed it until I could feel his throat contract around its head. I couldn't wait to feel him in my mouth and took hold and lowered my lips to the tip of his cock. It was slick with the pre-cum created by his excitement and I tasted the salty sweet essence of his manhood. I encircled the base of his cock with my hand and applied pressure as I jacked up the length. I was rewarded with a large amount of pre-cum and I lapped it up like I was thirsting for life.
Robert moaned and asked me to please suck him. Needing no further prompting, I inserted his cock into my mouth as far as I could. I was only able to get about five inches in, before I moved my head back half an inch. God his taste and smell was driving me crazy as well as his warm and slippery mouth bobbing up and down my own cock. I felt a strong sensation moving from my feet, and up my legs and I knew it wouldn't be long before I spilled my seed into Robert's hungry mouth. I increased my own worship of Robert's blood engorged shaft and felt it expanding as I bobbed up and down.
"Robert," I moaned as I took his cock out of my mouth, "I'm going to cum," and felt his tongue circle the head of my cock.
"Ok Cutey." He breathed. "I'm ready for it. I want to take it in my mouth. If you keep up with me, we can cum together, but you don't have to take it in yours if you don't want to." He said.
"I want to. I've never wanted anything more than to have a part of you inside of me. " And I took his cock in my mouth once again and savored the feel of its hardness as I worked to extract his love.
It didn't take long until the most amazing and strongest orgasm I had ever felt moved up my legs and throughout my body. I felt Robert's cock expand in my mouth as his speed and mine matched as we sucked and massaged each other to finality. We both came at the same time. I clamped my mouth around his cock as my own was held tight in Robert's. The first shot of cum hit the back of my throat and slid into me and become a part of me. I pulled back on Robert's cock as he continued to pump his load in my mouth and I savored the flavor of it. My own dick erupted as his second shot coated my tongue. It felt as if my soul was bleeding from me as I emptied the heaviest load I had ever spent into his eager mouth. I swallowed every bit of him except the last flow, which I held in my mouth.
Feeling more drained than ever before, I withdrew my softening cock from Robert's mouth and turned back towards the head of the bed. As I came up to Robert lying on his side, I moved in and kissed him. I used my tongue to enter his mouth and was pleasantly surprised to find that he had also saved some of my seed and we shared each with the other, as out tongues explored.
"God Brent, that was amazing. I've never cummed so hard and so much in my life. I thought I was going to drown you with it and you taste so good. I've tasted my own before, but yours taste like...like, you! I love it." And he kissed me again.
"Robert?"
"Umm?
I blushed as he held me tight, "Can we do this again?" I asked.
Chuckling at my request, Robert answered, "Cutey, we can do this forever!" and then kissed me and I felt so secure and loved in my lover's arms. Me, a macho football player and the captain of the school swimming team. Lovers.
---------------------------------- That completes chapter VII. I hope it wasn't too much of a strain to read :). I know it was long, but good sex should take time. Let me know how you liked it. brent@cutey.com