Outside

the following story is all fiction!! It does involve some sexual content so if ur under age or just dont like that kinda stuff, then dont read this!!

Chapter 1:

My life has always seemed empty. As far as I could remember the world I lived in has always left me feeling alone. Yes I had a loving family and good friends but I've always felt outside. I looked at this reality that I truly never belonged to. I've always felt as if I were standing outside and looking through the glass eyed windows of my body always hoping and wanting to truly be apart of something special in this life. At one point, when I met Chris, I finally believed that I belonged somewhere. I belonged in his world, we belonged together. I saw myself trying to come in from the outside I had so long been a part of. Sadly, as hard as I tried to find an opening or even tried crashing through the glass, I never did find a way in. Chris was but a mere dream of what I wanted.

It was around noon when I finally decided to get my butt out of bed. It was a Saturday so I wasn't too worried about getting up too late. I didn't like being in bed to long. Come Monday it would just be harder to get up at seven in the morning for class. Yes, I'm still in school. I'm 22 and on my third year at community college. I'm trying to become something. Exactly what, I'm not too sure of yet. I've tried the whole teaching thing but it passed. I love to draw and I'll admit I'm not actually that bad. Then again, patience is a big key to the subject and that just isn't me when it comes to being all artistic. Who knows, maybe this year I'll find my inspiration and decide on a future.

I was grateful to have Saturday off., because I'm usually stuck at work all weekend. I had taken this day off to get a chance to spend with my friends at the water hole. Every summer me and a few friends spend some time up at the lake for some fun in the sun which we named the water hole. Most people would be disgusted about swimming in this lake. People always talked about how dirty this place was. We didn't care, we were born ghetto so we swam ghetto. It was always fun, so I was excited. While getting ready my cell began to ring.

"Hello?"

Girl "Ready cracker, cause we're outside?!"

Yes, I'm white but half. I was this 6'1, half Mexican, half white, green eyed cracker. That was only one of my many nick names and the main one used.

"Yes, I'll be out right now and kiss me ass!" Girl "Eww, not even if you offered to pay!" I hung the phone up and made sure I had everything in my bag, especially my mp3 player. My friends and I had a lot in common, just not music.

When I got to the car I made my self comfy in the front seat, as usual. I'm too tall for the backseat.

Girl "Took long enough!"

"You know what, it's takes some time to look this perfect!" Yeah right, me perfect? Not even close. Yes I have nice eyes, I'll admit, but that's about it. It couldn't hurt to lose a few or 20 pounds. Not to mention I had this gap problem. Don't get me wrong, my teeth were clean white and straight, just a couple of little gaps. Also I needed a tan. Other than that I thought I was decent, just not perfect.

Girl 2 "Freaking homo!"

"Pft, lesbian!"

I was glad to be going with two of my best friends to the lake and no one else. Shane and Rain both knew about me being gay. Shane couldn't really give a damn, her being gay as well. Rain was at first shocked, but never treated me any different. Now she just doesn't care, as long as I don't make out with a guy in front of her. I've known these two for years, maybe 8 or 9 by now. They were my extended family.

Shane "What are you laughing at hetero?"

"Yeah, freaking hetero."

Rain "I hate homos."

We all began to laugh at each other. That was pretty much how we always greeted each other. We weren't the type to be all hugs and oh my god kiss, kiss. We were more the type to smack each other around and make sure we insult each other for a few minutes. No better bond between friends than bringing each others egos down a notch or two.

The drive to the water hole was pretty quite. Shane drove while blasting her music, which I wasn't too sure what it was. couldn't even exactly change it either since we were in Shane's car. Rain and I wore our headphones to drown out Shane's music. I was listening to Mariah when we finally pulled up to the lake.

Shane "Alright people get the hell out of my car!"

Rain "Yeah I kind of need to change still, so everyone get the hell out of the car and avert your eyes."

Shane "Yay, free show!"

"Where's my dollars! You take atm right?!"

Rain "Yes, just slide it down my ass crack, fucking pervert."

"Wait, that's bad?"

Rain "Get the hell out!"

While Shane and I had a good laugh outside the car, Rain quickly throw on her swimwear and jumped out of the car. We scanned the area for a good spot to swim and quickly ran to claim our land. Shane grabbed a stick she found near the waters edge and shoved it between two rocks to keep from falling. She then turned to my bag and started to rummage through my stuff. I didn't care for the fact she always did that to Rain and I. A minute later I saw her pull something black out and run back to the stick. I couldn't make out exactly what she pulled but in a way was nervous. She then slowly turned towards Rain and I and had this devious smile on her face. She backed away to make view of her accomplishments.

Shane "I clamed these rocks, Gay Ol' Cracker view!"

Not at all shocked, I realized what Shane was up too. She had manage to find my spare black undies and made a flag for her stick.

Rain "Yay we have a home now!"

"I really hate you both, especially you Shane."

Shane "Hey at least your king!"

Rain "Don't you mean queen?!"

"Don't hate cause I'm just that fabulous."

We all began to laugh and decided to leave our flag, what can you say it was our land now. After a few minutes of laughing some more we lotioned our selves up and dived in to the cool fishy water.

The time just seemed to fly by as we enjoyed ourselves. We took turns divan off the rocks and even wrestled around a while. After about an hour and a half of horseplay, Shane and Rain decided to get out and attack the ice chest for some grub. I decided to stay and lounge on one of the inner tubes and work on my tan, or my next shade of pink. I wasn't blessed with the nice skin like my brothers and sister. They had the perfect tanning skin that people dreamed of, I just went white, pink, red, burnt. I just kicked back and let the current take me away. I was lost in thought about how to spend the rest of the day and began to drift away. The warm sun and calm waves began to rock me to sleep. When lost in between sleep and thoughts, I didn't realize I was heading towards another inner tube. When I felt a bump I quickly jumped and forgot that I was in the water and even tried to stand. Big mistake. Within seconds I was under the tube and below the water. I realized were I was and swam for air. When I grabbed the tube and pulled my self back on I heard a voice.

Boy "Hey man, you ok?"

"huh?"

Boy "I didn't mean to bump you, I was just kind of relaxing and didn't see you."

I focused on the direction the voice was coming from and turned towards it. My eyes took a few seconds to focus and I stared into these brown eyes.

Boy "So are you ok?"

"oh yeah. Sorry, I was kind of half asleep and didn't see you either."

The guy looked to be around twenty years old. He had these great full lips that I couldn't help but to stare at. He had a nice body too. I mean nice toned and tanned is always a great thing, right. The way he laughed when I answered just brought a smile to my face. He scratched his shave head and stared me in the eyes and began to talk again.

Boy "Man, you were really out of it."

I laughed a little and began to blush.

"Yeah. Good thing you bumped me before I completely passed out. I might have gotten lost at sea."

He laughed at my corny joke and began to look around. I figured he lost interest of me and was looking around for his friends.

Boy "Nah. I doubt you'd be able to get lost in this small lake. Maybe eaten but not lost."

He laughed at his own joke which made him look really cute. He had these dimples that were really defined when he smiled or laughed. I was laughing with him but couldn't keep my eyes of his perfect lips. It took me a minute but I then got the joke. A lot of people joked about the fish in the lake being the size of cars in this lake.

Boy "So, do you plan on staying lost at sea or do you want to race for soar?"

"Well, since were both well rested after our naps maybe a race wouldn't be to bad."

He laughed again and I felt myself melting at the sight of his smile. He then began to paddle away from me and towards the sure.

"Hey! That's cheating!"

Boy "Oh Yeah.. Go!"

I swam as fast as I could but couldn't manage to catch up. When I got to soar the mystery guy I was racing was already pulling himself up on the rocks. I got this great view of his blue swim shorts, wet and clinging to every inch of his really nice ass.

"Pretty sad you had to cheat to win."

Boy "I would never. Plus you had more sleep than me so you were more energized."

I looked at his innocent face he was trying so hard to keep. It only lasted a few seconds and we both began to laugh as we sat on the rocks. Boy "Hey, so what's your name?"

I looked him in his eyes and noticed curiosity in his eyes.

"My names Ethan. What about you, what kind of name do they give a cheater now a days.?"

He laughed a little and turned his face towards the lake and just smiled at the sky. I swear just that smile and laugh alone were making me fall in love.

Boy "Chris."

"So Chris, you here by yourself?"

He finally turned his face towards me and kept that smile on his face.

Chris "No, I came with my family. They wanted this family bonding moment but they got annoying so I swam away."

I smiled at him and stared him in his eyes. I couldn't read him. He looked at me with such curiosity. I didn't know what he was trying to find in my eyes.

Chris "How bout you. You come out here just for a nap?" I laughed at his joke and looked towards the direction of my friends. They looked lost in a conversation. I felt like telling Chris yes so he would offer to keep me company. Something about him made me want to get to know him..

"No, I came with a couple friends. There over there." I pointed at the direction of Shane and Rain. Chris looked towards them and had this disappointing look on his face.

Chris "Is one of those girls your girlfriend?"

I laughed at the question and Chris looked embarrassed.

"I'm sorry. It's just that its funny when people ask that. There my best friends, like sisters to me."

Chris "Oh. Sorry about that. I just assumed cause you know. A guy a girl."

"Its ok. I'm used to it. We get that all the time. Its funny cause we'd consider it like incest to mess around."

Chris just laughed but had stopped looking at me and kept his eyes on the lake. He had that smile on his face again that was driving me crazy.

Shane and Rain "My tallest, my tallest!" I looked back and saw Rain and Shane running towards me. Shane was flapping her arms in the air. I then realized I hated them, they know exactly when to interrupt at the wrong time. Chris looked towards them and just laughed.

Shane "hey hey hey!"

Rain "What the hell are you doing?"

"Talking and avoiding the likes of you two."

Shane "He sounds angry Rain. You better give him some."

Rain "eww! Hell and no. You do it. You have the pillows on your chest so he can fall asleep afterwards."

Shane shot a look of hate at us both while we laughed. I turned and looked towards Chris who just sat there smiling trying to understand our strange sense of humor.

"Oh yeah. Chris these are my friends Shane and Rain. Shane and Rain this is your replacement Chris."

Rain "Oh I'm sorry you didn't swim fast enough."

Shane "Hi!"

Chris " I tried to drown him but I guess I didn't hit him hard enough."

"Hey! I'm still right here!"

Rain "I like him. He wants to hurt you too! Why haven't you ever introduced him to us."

Shane "Cause he didn't want us to get reinforcement on plotting his death, I mean^Å dammit."

The four of us just burst out in laughs. I was surprised. Most people were intimidated by Rain and Shane. Not that they were mean looking or anything like that. Hell, they both had stuff going for them. Rain was 5'5 brown eyes and dark black hair. She had a cute face and a great ass to match. To top it off she had the abs of steel. Shane was just as cut. She stood 5'4 with brown eyes and short light brown hair. She tried to pull of this sexy tomboyish look but the size of her boobs made it really hard to even consider her a boy.

We all stood around chit chatting some more for about thirty minutes. In a short period, we found out that Chris was from Tulare, the same town we were living in. he was only twenty one, a year younger than me. He also liked a lot of the same stuff we did. He was into cartoons and games. He also had a thing for collecting weapons. We weren't to happy with his music of choice. I guess gangster rap cant be everyone's favorite type of easy listening. In the middle of an argument about the best way to drown me, we heard a lady yelling for Chris.

Chris "That's my mom, I have to get going."

Shane "Yeah, us too. Gots to get the cracker home before the sun burns him alive.."

Rain "Well, nice meeting you."

Chris "Maybe I'll see you guys around town."

"Hey! If you swim here we might be neighbors. Obviously your ghetto like us!"

We all laughed some more till we heard Chris' mom yell out again.

Chris "Alright see you guys later."

All "Later!"

I kept my eyes on Chris running towards his family. At one point he turned around to smile and wave at me, which only made me want him more.

We had all jumped in Shane's car and began driving home to Tulare.

Shane "I liked Chris. He's tall like you Ethan."

Rain "Yeah and he makes fun of you, I like that."

"And he's hot too!"

Shane "Yeah I'd do him."

Rain "I hate homos!"

We all laughed again and began to go away into our own little worlds. Shane blasted her music while Rain and I listened to our headphones. I listened to Mariah again but couldn't keep my mind off Chris. I kept picturing his smile and hearing his laughter. He seemed so perfect. I even wished we would have exchanged numbers. But, it doesn't matter. I'm gay and he's not. Why torture myself by keeping him around. Still with pictures of Chris running through my mind, I drifted off to sleep.

So yes, that was chapter one. I havn't had a chance to really get this edited but I figured I might a well post it anyways. I have a few more chapters finished, so if interested in them let me know at angelus8201@yahoo.com