Note: I have absolutely nothing better to do right now so I decided to see if I could somehow end my series satisfactorily
************* ordinary love:epilogue *************
Drew's POV:
I can't believe I still think of that bastard up to now! The reason why I moved back in here was to try to forget about him, right? Why is it that everytime I go to this lake to throw the stupid ring he gave me, I end up reminiscing about our happier times.
I leaned back on the tree I was sitting under and stared at the calm waters of the lake blankly. Why did it end the way it did? Now I can't help but think that gay relationships always end up in tragedy. I myself have a lot of insecurities about my sexuality. I have a lot of fears and apprehensions about being gay. Should I blame Nick for getting freaked out?
Damn! I stood up and walked back to my car and drove back home to Dayton. I promised some of my friends that I would be meeting them for dinner and movie. At least they were trying to cheer me up even though they were sort of uncomfortable talking about my relationship with another guy.
"How is Shawn?" Carey asked me while we were watching some boring trailers at the moviehouse.
"He seem to be seeing some guy he works with," I shrugged my shoulders without looking at him. I just stared at the screen blankly. I heard my friends gossiping and giggling all through-out the movie but I can't help but remember Nick. The last movie of Sandra Bullock I saw was with Nick. He held my hand throughout the movie.
God! What was I doing moping around for a married guy who doesn't give a fuck about my feelings? I'm not gonna think about that SOB ever again. NEVER. EVER.
Of course, I knew that I was just fooling myself. I shouldn't have hooked up with Nick in the first place. I had told myself before that it was a stupid thing to get involved with a guy like Nick. My brain may have listened but my heart hadn't heard a single word.
Nick's POV:
What am I doing with my life? I should I call him up and apologize. He would certainly take me back, right? But I knew the truth. He hardly even talks to Lisa or Joey when they call him up. I just have to face it. I blew up what could have been the perfect relationship because of a minute of panic.
I hardly even remember the feeling I got that night. I remember that Drew and I had the most amazing sex yet in our two-month-old relationship. While I was spooning him, I couldn't help but wonder what would happen forty years from now? What would happen to Drew and me? Would we still be seeing each other on the sly? If I come out, I'd lose a lot of clients and friends. I'd lose the kind of life I was used too.
So I went to see Fiona the next night, drunk and we ended up having sex. A month later, I found out she was pregnant. Mom insisted that we get married in Las Vegas immediately. I didn't know she was planning on buying off Drew. When I returned, Drew was gone and Lisa told me the reason.
Lisa and Joey were mad at me for a while but they realized just how unhappy I was without Drew. Even Fiona knew why I was so despondent. She told me one night before we went to sleep that she was going to file for annulment once she gives birth to our baby. She said that I should pursue whatever makes me happy.
It might sound weird at first but when I asked her the next day why she said that, she told me that she knew about me and Drew and that she was willing to ignore that because she loves me. But she didn't realize that being married to someone who can't love her back was a thousand times worse than being engaged to one. She said that she deserves to be happy and so did I.
Drew's POV:
Damn! Why do I get stuck pricing all these items? I was bored out of my skull helping out my dad run his grocery shop. I was putting the can of sardines on the shelf when it fell to the ground and rolled away. I quickly reached out for it but someone beat me. The person handed the sardines back to me.
I was shaking as I recognized whose hands it was. I look up and saw the most beautiful eyes staring back at me. I tried to stammer out something but nothing came out of my mouth.
"Could you point out the frozen goods section please?" Nick said to me jokingly though there was nervousness in his voice that I could detect. We both stood up straight and stared at each other for a very long time.
I started to smile a little and he started to smile too. Before we know it we were both beaming and laughing and hugging and...well...kissing. I really didn't care what happened before. I didn't care he had hurt me. We could talk about that later. What's important is that I'm really very very happy since I came back home months ago. And the reason was the guy I'm holding in my arms right now.
Note: I hope this is a much better ending than what I posted before. Email me at: sliders21@iname.com