I cried myself to sleep that night, with one thing going through my mind, and that was that if I ever found out who Chris was, then I would beat the shit out of him.
I awoke the next morning to the phone ringing, I looked at the caller ID, and saw that it was KB. I didn't want him to leave some stupid "I'm sorry" message on my answering machine, so I picked up the phone and hung it up. "I still can't beleive what he did to me," I said. I yawned and stretched my arms out as far as they would go, then decided it was time to get out of bed. I entered the bathroom, then shut and locked the door. I looked into the mirror, and saw my tear stained face. I ran some cold water over my hands and splashed it onto my face, and looked in the mirror again. "Why me," I asked myself.
"RICHARD, KB'S HERE," my Mom yelled from downstairs. "Fuck," I thought. I walked down the stairs, and to the front door. He was casually standing outside the door as if nothing had happened. I acted as though he wasn't even there, and I walked to the door and shut it. Then with a sense of satisfaction, I made my way back upstairs to hear the doorbell sound once again. I decided to ignore it and kept going. I went to my room, and decided now would be a good time to make my bed. I was just about finished. As I placed the last pillow on my bed, I heard my bedroom door creak. I turned around to see KB standing there looking sad. "I shut the door for a reason, that should've told you that I wasn't in the mood to hear your shit," I said. "You don't even know how much that hurts, to be shut out by someone you love so much", he said. "I SHOULD HIT YOU AGAIN YOU FUCKING BASTARD," I said with rage in my voice. "Look"..... "How about I don't look," I interrupted. "Why don't you just listen to what I have to say?,"he pleaded. "Because you hurt me, and you are no longer worth my time, now please leave." Kb turned around and walked out of my room, down my stairs, and out of my house. I started crying again. I couldn't help it, I felt so bad. I couldn't figure it out, I felt like I still loved him, but I hated him at the same time.
I need a break, I thought. I couldn't......I wouldn't...stand to feel like this anymore. I felt like I didn't have any morals for myself what so ever. I decided it would be best to just call KB and see what his side of the story entails. I mean, I didn't even hear his side of the story. I don't want to call him now though, I should wait for things to cool down. Right now I have to get ready for work.
"Excuse me Sir, how much do these pants cost, the tags not on them," someone asked. "Where did you get them?," I asked turning around to see a young black man, about 19, or 20. "Right over there on the clearance rack." "Okay, just give me one second, I'll go check." I ran over to where the pants were and checked the price, then ran back. "Those are originally $36.99, but since they're on clearance, they're only $15.99." "Okay thank you," he said. Just then, I heard a weird tune playing, and it got louder and louder. " Sir, I think your cellphone is ringing." The young man turned around and thanked me for informing him, then answered his phone. I was walking back to the service desk when I heard him say, "Whats up KB." What the hell!! My heart felt like it fell out of my chest and went rolling around the store. "It's probably not the same KB.....but than again, how many people are there that go by KB?" I decided to shrug it off for now, and just go back to the service desk. About 30 minutes later, the man with the phone walks up to the service desk and set his items on the counter. I started ringing him up, all the while my mind was going hay-wire. "Your total is $78.98," I said. He reached for his wallet and was slowly counting bills. "Not enough cash, I'll just have to charge it," he concluded. He started swiping his card through the credit card reader, then I hit cancel on my register. He couldn't see my hand, so he didn't know what I was doing. "Whats wrong with this thing?" he asked me. I looked at my register pretending to be confused. "hmmm.....oh....I need to see your I.D.," thats wierd, I never had to show my I.D. for this before, but oh well, here you go. On the outside, I was acting as if the world couldn't get any duller, on the inside I was thinking....get his name! I studied the I.D. and read the name in my head. Christoper Washington. HOLY SHIT.......ITS CHRIS. I couldn't believe this, here I am at work, minding my own buisness when the mother fucker my boyfriend was cheating on me with walks into my store. And to know that KB is still calling him. This shit has gotten out of hand. "Sir.......Sir, can I have my I.D. back?" "Oh yeah, here you go," I said. " the printer printed his receipt, and I handed it to him. "sign here please." "Thank you have a nice day," he said. "Hey before you go Chris.....tell KB I said Hi." "And your name is??," he looked at me questioningly. "Richard," I replied. "Umm....yeah....I'll tell him...no problem Rich....alright bye." he said walking out of the store like he had just seen a ghost. "Bye," I said. Then I turned around and went into the staff room...clocked out, got my stuff, and left. When I got to my house, I went inside and called KB. It was now or never. I told him to come down to my house, and that we needed to talk.
About an hour later, KB was knocking on my door. I let him in and we went up to my room. Upon entering my room, I turned and closed and locked the door, then I sat on my bed. KB was standing there, and he said, "so what, are you going to let me talk now." "As, a matter of fact, yes I am, so say what you have to say because my time is valuable." "Alright then," he said. "Chris is my cousins Ashley's ex boyfriend," he began. "I met him a long time ago, when he and my cousin were dating. He knew that I was gay, and that didn't bother him, nor my cousin. In fact he kind of respected the fact that I am gay but don't walk around acting like I am a female movie star. Well, I guess he did some experimenting of his own, and he found that he liked guys better then girls. So he broke it off with Ashley. Then come to find out he has a crush on me. I am not going to lie to you Rich. He kissed me. But I told him that I was in love with you, and I even told him all about you. He still kept trying to come on to me, but we're just friends." "You know he came up to my store today right?," I said. "No, I didn't know that, but how did you know it was him." "Because you called him while he was there and I heard him talking to you." "Oh, well no I didn't know that,"he said. "Well you do now.....are you sure your not lying to me." "Yes, I'm sure, I swear." "Okay then, let me see your phone." He gave me his phone, and I was going through his phone book until I found Chris's number. I pressed dial, and held the phone up to my ear.
"Hello" Chris said.
"Hey, this is Richard, from the store today, umm are you and KB doing anything, because if you are, then you can have him. I just wanted to let you know."
"No we're not, I like him but thats it." He said.
"Oh okay then, bye," I quickly hung up the phone before he could say anything else.
"See I told you," said KB. "Okay, but I am not sorry for what I did, because if you had a little friend that you thought I would get suspicious about, then you should've told me. "I know." God he looked so fine. I didn't care to pay attention to him when I was mad. Now I felt kinda stupid. "I missed you Richard," he said to me. "I missed you too....wait, no I didn't I was too busy being mad at you." "He smiled and told me I was crazy but cute. Then he wakled over to me and gave me a hug. How I missed being held in his arms. He looked right into my eyes, and said, "Baby, your mine, and I would never do anything to hurt you." I smiled at this and thought, "God I love him." He started kissing me. I was melting into the whole situation, and I was loving it.
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