Bri, this isn't a big deal. Just tell him that you want to break up with him. You can send him the ring back if he wants," Mike said.
"I don't want to hurt him. I really thought I loved him. But he is 46! I'm not going to lose my virginity to a 46 year old!" Brian exclaimed.
"If he gets hurt, it's his own damn fault. He's the one who lied to you, not the other way around. And the last part about the dildo with no lube is just sick," Mike answered.
Brian and Mike had gotten really close in the last five weeks, something neither of them had ever expected to happen. They were now more like best friends than brothers.
Mike had told Brian that he had experienced some homosexual affairs in college and that he was bi. He was now dating a great looking woman doctor he had met at a conference, but he still also looked at guys.
Brian had idolized Mike as he was growing up. Mike was 14 years older than he was, but he had always found time to play with him when Mike was home, first from high school, then college, then Medical School. Mike was now a Pediatrician, but hoped to be a real doctor some day when he grew up. (Sorry, Mike. I had to do it!!!! Hehehe)
"But he's moving here so we can be together. What can I do about that?" Brian asked.
"I don't know. The quicker you tell him, the better. Do you think he's on line now?" Mike asked.
"I was supposed to be on at 4. I'm really late. He's going to be really mad when I do sign on," Brian answered.
"It's 5:30 now," Mike said, checking his watch.
"If I tell him, will you stay while I do?" Brian asked.
Mike just smiled. "Sure, if you want me too."
Brian quickly dialed in and activated AIM. Bill was waiting.
Bill: Why the FUCK do you do this to me? Brian: Hi Bill. I've got something to tell you. Bill: WHAT? Brian: I'm sorry, but I have to break up with you. I'll return your ring if you want me too. Bill: WHY? You said you loved me!!! Brian: Bill, I just can't be in love with a 46 yo.
There was nothing from Bill for several minutes. "What do you think he's doing? Brian asked.
"Probably thinking. Maybe he can get his old job back. There's no reason to move here now," Mike answered.
"I hope so," Brian answered.
Bill: DO YOU FUCKING UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I HAVE GIVEN UP FOR YOU? I RESIGNED FROM MY JOB FOR YOU!!! I CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE JUST SO WE COULD FUCKING BE TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Oh God. He's really mad now. What do I do?" Brian asked.
"Don't respond for a little bit and see if he calms down," Mike answered.
Brian tried that, but it only seemed to make Bill madder.
Bill: WHY AREN'T YOU GIVING ME COURTESY OF ANSWERING ME? Bill: I KNOW YOU'RE STILL THERE!! AND I STILL LOVE YOU!!!! Bill: ANSWER ME, GOD DAMN IT!!!!! Bill: FUCK YOU!!! YOU'RE GOING TO PAY FOR THIS!!! FUUUCCCKKK YYYOOOUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"He's just getting madder? What do I do now?" Brian asked, clearly shaken.
"I think you should just say bye and sign off for a while. Maybe after a couple of days he will calm down. I don't think there's any use in trying to talk to him right now. He's like a mad man right now," Mike answered.
"Ok. I hope you know what you're talking about," Brian answered.
Brian: Bye Bill. Bill: DON'T LEAVE!!! DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE LEAVE ME RIGHT NOW!!
Brian quickly ended his AIM session and completely signed off the net.
"I was afraid that was going to happen," Brian said, looking at Mike, almost in tears.
"Fuck him! You didn't do anything wrong, other than giving out your personal information. He's the one that's been lying to you all this time. Just forget about him. Go back to your old sign on name and talk to your other friends. Block his other screen name that you used to talk to him on," Mike answered. "He just needs some time to calm down. Maybe you can even be friends after he does."
"Yeah. I could do that. I did think I loved him for a long time," Brian answered.
"It's Friday night. Why don't you call up some of your friends and go out somewhere tonight?" Mike asked.
"What friends," Brian answered sullenly.
"What about Rob? You know he's still your best friend," Mike answered, trying to get Brian in a better mood.
"I know. I just don't feel like doing anything right now," Brian answered, hanging his head down.
"Just give him a call. You need to do something to get your mind off of Bill. Go to a movie or something. I'll even pay for it. I know Rob won't be able to resist a free movie. Tell him he can spend the night if he wants, like you used to do," Mike said.
"Don't you think we're a little old to be having sleepovers?" Brian asked, giving Mike a small grin. "Besides, what if he thinks I'm going to do something to him in bed?" Brian asked, getting depressed again.
"Come on, Bri. You know Rob isn't going to think anything like that. How many times have you two slept in the same bed? Hundreds, I'll bet. You didn't just turn gay last month, you know," Mike answered, playfully shoving Brian.
"Cut it out. You don't me to have to whip your old out-of- shape butt, do you?" Brian asked, standing up.
"That'll be the day, little brother," Mike said, as he attacked Brian. He quickly pinned him on the bed and said, "Are you going to call Rob or do I have to use my most effective way of getting you to do what I want?"
"What's that?" Brian asked, as he struggled to get up from under Mike.
"Tickle torture, like I've used for years," Mike answered, grabbing Brian with both hands in his ribs.
Brian had always been very ticklish. "NOOO!!!!! DON'T!!!" he screamed.
Mike tickled him for a few seconds, then stopped. "Are you going to call Rob?"
"YES!!! YES!!!! Just get off of me!!" Brian screamed.
"And you're going to ask him to spend the night?" Mike asked.
"I'll ask him to go to a movie, but I can't ask him that," Brian said seriously.
"Ok, have it your way," Mike answered, as his hands went back to Brian's ribs.
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! OK!! OK!!! I'LL DO IT. JUST QUITTTTT!!!!" Brian screamed.
Mike let him go and stood up. Brian just laid on the bed and tried to catch his breath. "I'm going to kill you for that," Brian said, grinning.
"You want another dose?" Mike laughed, as he faked going after Brian again.
"No! Quit! Just get out of my room so I can call Rob," Brian giggled.
"Ok. Tell him hi for me. I'll grill some burgers while you are gone so you'll have something to eat when you get back," Mike answered, walking out of Brian's room.
"Hey Mike?" Brian asked.
Mike stuck his back into his room. "Yeah?"
"Thanks bro," Brian answered, smiling at Mike.
Mike smiled back. "No problem."
Brian got up and picked up the phone, hesitated, and put it back down. He had promised Mike to ask Rob to spend the night, but he was scared at what Rob might say. He couldn't afford to lose any of the few friends he had left, and he sure couldn't lose Rob.
He finally took a deep breath and picked up the phone again. He might as well get it over with.
The phone started to ring and then Rob said "Hello?"
"Hey Rob. Bri. You doing anything tonight?" Brian asked.
"Nope. I was reading a book for English. I'm bored stiff. What's up?" Rob asked.
"Mike wants me out of the house so bad he volunteered to pay for movie tickets for both of us. You want to go?" Brian asked.
"Sure! That'd be great! Spiderman just opened this week. I really want to see it but I'm broke," Rob answered.
"Me too. I guess Mike took pity on me," Brian answered. He took another big breath and said, "Mike said it was Ok for you to spend the night if you wanted."
"That'd be cool. We haven't done that in a long time," Rob answered.
`Yeah, not since my Dad outed me to the whole school,' Brian thought. "Great. Can you pick me up?"
"Sure. That's only fair, with Mike buying the movie tickets. What time is the movie?" Rob asked.
"I don't have a clue. Mike suggested it and I haven't looked yet," Brian admitted.
"Hold on a minute. I was just looking at the sports section in the kitchen. I'll be right back," Rob answered.
That's a good sign,' Brian thought. Rob doesn't have any worries about sleeping over now that he knows I'm gay. Maybe I was worried about nothing.'
"There's one at 8 and one at 8:30", Rob said, as he returned.
"I'll bet it will sell out, being the first weekend. Maybe we should try for the 8 o'clock show. That way, we'll have two chances if the first one is sold out," Brian answered.
"Good idea. Why don't I pick you up at about 7? We'll be really early, but we can buy our tickets and then walk around the mall until time to go in," Rob said.
"That'll work. We should have a lot better chance of getting tickets if we're early," Brian answered.
"Deal. I'm going to take a quick shower and change clothes. See you at 7," Rob said.
"Bye," Brian answered, hanging up the phone.
Brian thought a shower sounded good. He had some unfinished business from earlier that he wanted to take care of in the shower. He got out a fresh pair of boxers and started to walk into his bathroom, when curiosity got the better of him. He wondered if Bill had e-mailed him.
He quickly dialed into the net and checked his e-mail account. Sure enough, there was one waiting for him from Bill. He opened it.
I'm sorry I got so mad. I just love you so much. Please give me another chance. We can work this out, I swear. We are only a short amount of time from being able to love each other in person. I want that and I know you do too.
We deserve a chance to see if this will work with the differences in our ages. Please wait and talk to me in person before you try to find someone else. I deserve that much.
I really love you.
Bill
Oh no. That sounds like he's going to move here anyway,' Brian thought. I really don't want to see him. If he got as mad in person as he does over the net, I don't want to be around him when he's like that.'
Brian temporarily forgot about the shower. He quickly signed off and ran into the other room to tell Mike about the e- mail.
Rob drove up to the house exactly at 7. He parked in the driveway and ran up the steps. He was excited about going to see Spiderman.
He knocked and Brian let him in. They smiled at each other as Rob excitedly talked about the Spiderman movie trailer that he had already watched on his computer.
Mike had already given Brian a twenty dollar bill for the movie and another ten so they could get popcorn and drinks. Rob came in long enough to say hello to Mike, and they hurried out the door.
They were laughing and cutting up like they had done all their lives. Rob casually put his arm around Brian's shoulder as they walked out to his car.
It was totally innocent. Just two best friends enjoying each other's company. To everyone but one person.
Mike's house was only three houses away from the community tennis courts. No one noticed the green Jeep Cherokee parked under a tree. The windows were tinted and no one could see that the driver had binoculars, watching a few minutes before Rob pulled into the driveway.
Bill saw everything in detail. He was already furious when Rob drove up, but nothing like he was when Rob put his arm around Brian. But that put him over the edge. He cranked his Jeep and pulled out behind the boys as they passed where he was sitting.
Bill had moved in the previous day. He was early.
To Be Continued
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