Okay So this chapter might be short but it's a start to hopefully continuing this story. writing short is just my nature. The longest chapter I've done is six pages:P There is a cliffy and this is far from over.
Thanks to my editor Albert:D
It felt so amazing how people have accepted Robbie and I especially with certain uncomfortable circumstances. Robbie's parents were wonderful people and accepted us with open arms, making my heart fill with hope and thinking if total strangers could accept me why wouldn't Austin?
Robbie wrapped his strong arms around my small, fragile body, we just made love and instead of being in pure bliss, I fretted over the 'Should I tell Austin or not?' game.
"What are you thinking about love?" He whispered seductively in my ears which sent tingles down my spine. I turned around to face him, putting a hand on his cheek I pulled his lips in and we kissed passionately.
"I've been thinking about telling Austin about me being gay. Do you think he will accept me?" I chewed on my bottom lip as I waited nervously for his answer. Robbie looked deeply into my brilliant green eyes as if searching for the right answer. A few minutes later we went into a deep conversation.
"Do you want my honest opinion or do you want me to fake ass it?" I pull him down on top of me as I let out a shaky breath.
"Honest." He sits us up, then we lean against the head board.
"I think he'll flip out. If the question pops up "how long have you known?" and you say "since twelve" he's going to accuse you of "how many times have we slept in the same bed?" Then the hurt will set in and the question will linger "we've been best friends for how long and you keep something this big from me?" My vision had gotten blurry as his statement rang true, Shelly's words rang in my head about Austin just being upset if I didn't tell him. I couldn't help but start bursting into tears, I felt weak for crying so much these last few weeks, but it was as if a train had hit me and just killed me, then brought me back to life and then killed me again. Robbie brushed the tears and leaned his forehead with mine.
"I made a mess out of things didn't I?" I sniffled as I felt a painful stab in my heart that caused me to cry out loud and bury my head in his hard chest. He rocked me back and forth in a possessive grip as if afraid I'd slip away.
"No you're a victim in all this shit Wade, it's not your fault Austin acts like a homophobe, or that Cody is a little psycho bitch. You're just caught up in the middle of a storm that is out of control" I sniff and snuggle into his embrace, feeling exhausted but at the same time the mini me in between my legs is pointing towards the sky because of this big lug next to me. I crane my neck to meet his eyes and feel the butterflies multiply.
"Make love to me Rob, please?"
Since it's Saturday, we go at it until sunrise.
"Austin you would love me no matter what right?" I ask, it's after school on Monday and I decided today was it, several people knew and now it's his turn. We were in his room watching the jazz game, while we sat on the bed eating his mother's left over pasta. He gave me a side ways glance, trying to listen to my words and the game on TV.
"Bud there ain't nothing you can't tell me that would destroy this friendship." I took a deep breath, the nerves rose, causing a tingling sensation in my skin. A sudden urge to gag took over and I felt light headed as if I were about to pass out. NO!!! Wade we're not backing out of this, be a man for once and tell your best friend who you really are!
"I'm gay." I say super fast, a hitched breath came from his lips, all movement was still and the only noise that could be heard was the stupid basketball game. Finally after what felt like eternity he spoke horrifying words.
"I see...so your a fag then?" Disgust lingered in his tone of voice and I literally shivered as if I were out camping in the winter with no coat. I stayed silent but that only proved to be a mistake because yelling soon started after that.
"Answer me! Is Wade Dayton a little cocksucker?! Your sick, do I turn you on? Ugh get out of my sight before I do something I'll regret!" Since I had been frozen on the spot and full of shock he shoved me out the door, but didn't stop there. He kept it up until I fell over backwards on his stairs, then everything went black.