NO NUT NOVEMBER: CHAPTER 4
When I last left off, I was angrier than I'd ever been. I'd found out my roommate Ryan had tricked me into letting him put a cage on my cock that he held the key to so that we would be guaranteed to win the $600 prize money of my dorm's No Nut November challenge. And worse, our other roommate Bobby apparently knew about the whole thing. Of course he did. Bobby and Ryan were best friends. I was just some new guy that they could fucking... trick into locking his cock away.
Well, after the initial shock of the betrayal wore off, I started feeling a little bit calmer. I realized that because I had believed Ryan was in this with me, it had made me believe I could do it. Now that I knew it was just me, that didn't mean I couldn't still try to win the money. And now I'd made it long enough where I could imagine actually winning and it wasn't too hard. I was getting pretty good at watching porn to calm my horniness. I'd get a little bit horny while I was watching, but as soon as the guy busted his load, I felt satisfied and no longer had the urge to jack off.
Things around the dorm were a bit tense for a couple days, but Ryan did apologize for tricking me and kind of said all the reasons I mentioned above... that I wouldn't have made it this far without him tricking me that he was doing it, too, that now I could make it all the way. I guess actually those were his ideas to begin with, but they made sense. And Ryan also said how he and Bobby were grateful I was doing this, and that I would be a legend in the dorm after I won. It felt good to know that Ryan and Bobby appreciated my sacrifice.
So things were kind of turning around. And then, one night I tried to load up one of Ryan's porn videos and got an error message. File corrupted. I tried the others. All were corrupted. Fuck. I tried going online to find some clips, but it was tough to find ones that had the right kind of perspective that helped me. And some of the ones I stumbled on actually were making me hornier. It seemed dangerous to watch a random video... I knew the ones Ryan had worked for me.
So when he got home, I told him about the corrupt files and asked if he would transfer them to me again. He said he definitely would, but that he needed to study. I told him I hadn't watched porn today and was getting horny, but he just waved me off. "Just use your mind or something, I really can't do this right now."
The next few days, Ryan kept making excuses for why he couldn't transfer the files. Either he was busy, was running off somewhere, or then he "couldn't find them" and "didn't have time to keep looking."
It honestly felt really disrespectful for him to say he had my back and when he knew these videos would help, seem to not care. Meanwhile I had this constant aroused tingling at the base of my balls, and I desperately wished I could just fucking jack off. It became pretty unbearable.
And then one night, Bobby had gone home for the weekend and I was alone in the room with Ryan. Ryan and I share a bunkbed, and Bobby has his own standalone bed. Ryan called dibs on bottom bunk, so I'm stuck on the top. And as I lay there wearing boxers over my caged cock, I felt the bunkbed start to shake slightly, with a subtle little creaking sound.
Was Ryan just super restless and shifting around? No... it was... rhythmic. Ryan was fucking jacking off. I sighed. He had the fucking nerve to jack off in the bunk under me knowing full well I couldn't do the same? Did he think I was sleeping?
I shifted around in the bed to see if that would make him stop. But it didn't. In fact, it seemed like he was picking up the pace. I sat up in bed and sighed a little bit. Still no stopping. Was he just oblivious? Then:
"Ryan." I said. He stopped for a second.
"What?"
"Don't fucking jack off. I'm awake."
"So? You can't see anything up there."
"It's gay," I said.
Ryan laughed. "Nothing gay about jacking off. Why are you so touchy? I guess I really do need to figure out how to get you some new porn. You're getting all aggro these last few days without it."
I realized he was probably right. "Yeah... it's definitely harder. But I told you, going on the Internet is too risky. If I run into the wrong kind of content, it might have the opposite effect and work me up more."
"Right, right. Have you tried just searching for gay porn? Then there's no way you'll see a girl, it'll just be guys busting their nuts."
"Fuck no, dude." I responded immediately. But as I thought about it, I realized he technically did have a point.
"When was the last time you saw a guy nut?" Ryan asked. And then I thought I felt the bed start shaking again slightly. Was he fucking jacking off again?
"Four days ago. It was the video where he busts his load on the camera lens."
"That's a long time. I'm sorry man. I bet if you just saw a good nut you'd feel better."
There was a lengthy silence as I felt the bunkbed shake a little bit. I wondered if Ryan was at full-mast right now. Like the time I caught him in the shower. I poked my head over the side of the bed. He was totally naked and exposed, jerking his cock with his tense arm muscles. "Um, hi Ethan."
"You're seriously gonna do this?" I asked.
"Yeah. I'm seriously going to jack off whenever I fucking want to, Ethan." He stared me in the eyes while he kept jerking his thick cock. And I kept staring at him. "You trying to watch me or something, bro?"
"No." I said. I quickly looked away. I couldn't watch my roommate jack off. That would be so weird.
"Whatever you say, dude... I do feel bad about the porn. I'm close to my nut if you wanna watch. Might help you."
I considered long and hard. I desperately needed to stop feeling so horny. It was making me go absolutely insane. And Ryan had offered, so maybe it wasn't so weird. Fuck. Okay.
I leaned back over the bed and started watching him again.
"Come down here," he said. I climbed off the bed in my boxers. "Watch from there. Kneel." He pointed to a spot near the foot of his bed. I knelt down where he pointed. "I hope this helps, bro. Just imagine I'm one of the porn star guys.
"Okay." Honestly, his dick looked like theirs, even. It was so big and thick. And he was really fit, too. Not like Bobby, but he had these boyish good looks and bod. I watched his cock as he jerked off faster and faster.
As I focused on his cock, I tried to imagine I was him and getting to jack off my big hard dick. That I just wanted his dick to blow its load and nut everywhere. Then I'd feel satisfied and could sleep.
At one point I looked up to his face and noticed he was smirking at me. Fuck. I was just watching my roommate jerk off while kneeling at the foot of his bed. I felt pathetic.
"Oh fuck, I'm gonna cum, buddy. Here I come..." His body tensed, his cock pulsed even bigger, and his back arched a little as he shot a huge load of cum that hit him in the neck. I watched attentively as he drained his balls from shot after shot of cum. It was way more cum than I normally make. Maybe after No Nut November I'll be able to do that.
"Fuck yeah..." Ryan moaned, relaxing. And something in me relaxed too. He'd gotten his nut. Then: "So? Did that help?"
I stood up, not wanting to answer. I didn't want to admit that it helped.
"It's okay, Ethan. I won't tell anybody. I'm on your side, remember? $600?"
"Yeah. Right."
"So did it help to watch me nut?"
I nodded.
"Good. That's good. I honestly don't mind, either, so if it helps you, you can watch me jack off more often. Especially since it seems like the porn is gone."
"Why is the porn gone?"
"I dunno man, my computer is totally fucked right now. Can't find the videos anywhere."
I was starting to get the feeling that Ryan was lying again, that the videos worked fine. But honestly, it was also so much better seeing someone nut in person rather than on a video. It was like... I really saw the pleasure on his face. And the way he said "Fuck yeah..." and moaned as he finished. It almost felt like he was putting on a show for me or something, weird as that sounds. Like maybe my being there actually made his nut better.
"What about Bobby?"
"We'll figure it out. He's not here all the time. And there's other places we can go for you to watch me."
"Okay. I know it's really weird and all but... I think we're gonna definitely win the competition."
"We definitely are. Now can you do me a favor and grab me some tissues?"
"Oh... sure," I leapt to my feet and pulled a bunch of tissues from the box.
When I brought them to Ryan, he just gestured down to his belly and chest that was covered in cum. And I really don't know why, but I just instinctually cleaned the cum off him myself. I wiped the tissues over his toned body, mopping up his giant load, going through five tissues before tossing them in the trash. "Thanks, bro," he said.
I headed for the door.
"Where you going?" Ryan asked.
"I need to wash my hands."
"Oh... sorry about that," Ryan laughed. He thought it was funny I'd ended up touching his cum? It was gross. I don't know why I did it. I should have just told him to clean up his own fucking mess. Ugh.
I washed my hands in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror. Ethan Sharp. You're Ethan Sharp. And you just watched your roommate jack off. I reached down and felt my cage through my boxers. It had been so long since I saw my own cock at full mast. I was starting to forget what it even felt like to hold it.
Thanks again for reading my journals about this past November. It's been fun to share. A little embarrassing, haha... but anyway. Feel free to hit me up at ethanjsharp@gmail.com