John wandered around the walled in hotel. The pool located in the center was full of residents and guests. Some lay on lounge chairs letting the sun go where as the saying goes "it doesn't shine" ignoring their erections.
John smiled, his own nude body feeling free, sensational as he absorbed the desert heat and sun. He laughed at the Francois's joke and sipped the Margarita.
They were his age, some older and others younger. Hairy and smooth bodies, knowing and naïve expressions displayed the variety of experiences around him.
He didn't know where Clark was. They had come to the desert before and to shit same clothing optional hotel as well. Each avoided pursuing their desires at their neighboring houses.
But a quick drive to the desert allowed fun, fantasies & fulfillment to be experienced.
A young guy named Trevor came near. Saying "thanks" and that he had to leave, Trevor kissed John on the lips and held his penis giving it a gentle squeeze.
John kissed back. "Safe trip Trev and thank YOU"
He watched as the boy walked away. He had put his shorts and te-shirt back on from the day and night before. His tanned skin had revealed his perchance for hanging out in the sun nude.
They met at a local dance club. On Thursdays it began to get busy as nearby towns emptied to come to the desert.
John and Carl went there to stand and drink like many of the patrons, especially the older ones. On the dance floor were mostly younger men, drinking or drugged they writhed to the nearly overwhelming bass beat, shirts discarded and young torsos glistening with the evidence of their labors. Some even added glitter to reflect in the ongoing light show.
John and his neighbor friend Carl didn't stay on the sidelines long, moving to the dance floor and became part of the crowd, also removing shirts to dance alongside those they had been appraising and probably fantasizing about.
As John turned and let the music stimulate waves, steps and body movements, Trevor was suddenly there. John didn't know how long the younger male had been in the room, but his body was already coated with perspiration. His shorts were pushed as long as decency or laws allowed revealing the beginning of his butt cleavage. It was also noticeable that the front of his shorts didn't display pubic hair but nearly revealed the base of his penis as he moved.
Trevor smiled and John responded, both their dancing became matched and while once part of the crowd they became a couple.
John glanced around to find Carl, who was part of a circle of younger and older who danced and drank. He knew his friend was occupied and he could leave.
Leave they did, though it was when the lights became bright with last call warnings.
His arm around Trevor's wet shoulder, John treated to that last drink as they talked quickly with the usual, comments.
There was no question they would leave together, be naked in the swimming pool at John's hotel and later in the same bed exploring each other and searching for fantasy fulfillments.
John and Carl both liked younger men. It distracted them from the fears of growing older and reminded them of all their own youthful desires which they couldn't pursue at the time.
They sat together on one lounge chair whispering after their first culmination of sexual activity. Trevor asking, John asking, both answering enjoying the glow of their spontaneous meeting and late night.
"Want me to stay?" Trevor asked at one point. John kissed him as if they had been lovers for years instead of one night stand companions.
Carl had come by with another young guy wearing a leather vest and pants. He nodded to John and smiled contentedly disappearing into the darkness.
John pulled Trevor towards the pool where they swam and one floated with the other supporting them. It was almost comical, John thought, seeing his new naked friend floating on the water while his penis waved like a mast without sail.
John was content and as always hid the desire that this would be a part of his life forever afterwards.
They returned to the bedroom and after a hot shower that included kisses, hand exploration and mutual masturbation, fell on the bed holding each other as if to hide from the outside world.
John awoke feeling the warm mouth on his cock. He watched the short haired youth thoroughly enjoying his oral exploration. The warmth in his gut began to build up. He didn't want it to end.
He had learned long ago how to prolong the inevitable but eventually the wants of Trevor outweighed his own and his flesh erupted into the boy's orifice.
Breakfast was for everyone clothed or otherwise. John and Trevor decided on the latter. Others enjoyed the view and envied the apparent mutual desire of the two. Carl and his friend appeared as well.
Carl, always desiring to be naked was and his friend had discarded his leather apparel to mesh with everyone's sun worshipping.
"Come" John said and Trevor followed for what he presumed would be the last time he would be able to share intimacy with the man.
The fucking started as soon as they entered the room. John pushing a willing Trevor to the bed. John massaged and parted the two globes of buttocks and entered.
He wanted to give and get pleasure. Monitoring Trevor's moans, groans and sometimes instructions he performed as he had learned over the years until both were in synch and seeking the climax they would thoroughly enjoy.
When it happened it wasn't quite simultaneous but John remained inside as Trevor asked, reaching for the boy's hardness pushing Trevor's hand away to continue stroking until Trevor poured out onto the bedsheets.
"You two finished yet?" Carl and his friend stood in the doorway. His friend was slightly bent as he held onto the door jam. Carl was fucking him. Behind the two other guests watched from outside.
It was normal for such hotels. Guest who did sexual things in public were watched, envied and even copied.
John and Trevor lay together in their after sex glow as Carl's friend turned and knelt to receive the man's morning spray.
"I guess they're finished" John said making Trevor laugh.
The four pushed in the shower and were soon recovering when the phone rang.
John talked in cryptic phrases.
"It's my sister, May, you know step sister May" he said to Carl who nodded. "It's time" he said
We need to go soon. He kissed Trevor's neck.
Carl disappeared and dove into the pool. His friend seemed to know it was time for him to leave as well, moving toward Carl's room door.
John watched Trevor leave wishing, as he always did, that things could stay the same that he could stay there, that whoever he had emotionally connected with would remain and that the world he needed to return to wasn't there.
Carl came close already dressed carrying his overnight bag. His friend from the night had left earlier.
"That was fun" he said
"Just sex?" John asked
"Yea of course. You always get too involved" Carl chided his friend.
"I guess, anyway I need to go"
"Better put something on unless you want to drive home that way again" Carl said recalling the time years ago they had driven home naked only to be stopped by police for speeding.
May and John weren't really related blood wise. She had different mother than he did and both had different fathers. But somehow through the complexity of parental arriving and going away, they ended up growing through younger years together.
"She made me promise" John said out loud. Carl already knew the story.
John was close to May. She had cancer. She also had a son. And she wanted John to take care of the boy when the day came her cancer would require it.
Carl got out of the car. "You sure you don't' want me to come?"
"Naw the boy knows me, I think he needs to feel free to cry or whatever"
John drove another hour to May's house. Her frail appearance startled him. She called out for Nick who didn't respond.
"Let me" John said going to the boys' bedroom. Nick was young, just entering adolescence. And he was hesitant to face the man.
"It's ok Nick, we're family. You can cry in front of me" John said
"I don't want to in front of her" Nick said
"OK when we get home, you can do whatever you want" John held him and squeezed "Your things ready?"
John went to May. Two women were there also, friends of her. He hugged her and promised to come see her in the hospital.
Nick clutched her once again and turned away to leave the house and her.
John never visited the hospital. May passed away the night she arrived there.
It was when he told Nick the boy abandoned the bravery and cried letting John hold him all night in his bed.
Carl Calvert had lived there for most of his adult life. His former college friend bought the house next door. Carl called him when the house became available. And after John saw the house, the asking price suddenly dropped allowing John to purchase it.
And so the two old friends became neighbors and shared each other's lives for years afterwards.
Over the years they had shared private opinions and desires. They had shared experiences and sometimes sex partners. And their vacation trips usually helped them keep their private pursuits secret while enjoying them away from their homes.
Nike got used to living with John, focusing on the usual things that teenagers dealt with. Carl too would come and go, a familiar friend and neighbor to both.
"He sure is getting older" Carl said as the two sat drinking beer and watching Nick and friends in the backyard, shirtless, lifting shorts.
"Now now behave yourself" John said "We can go to the desert anytime now. The boy is old enough to be on his own"
"Who's that with him, the blonde" Carl asked
"Oh that's Lucas. He's here all the time. They're best friends I think" John said
"Cute" Carl muttered "He's going to be a popular stud someday, probably a good influence on Nick"
"Yea hope so. The kid seems a bit shy when it comes to girls" John replied.
"Hell man he's young, just awakening" Carl said
"Yea I can see he's awakening, boners all the time now" John laughed
"Just like we were" Carl added "Hell are I got one now"
"Behave yourself. I think it's time to take a long weekend"
"Way past time let's go this weekend"
Nike sat with the two men. His friend Lucas was getting cokes from the kitchen.
"So we're going to take a weekend trip. You need to watch over the place, no parties or groups handing out, ok?"
"How about Lucas?"
"Sure he can stay over. You Lucas not parties understand?"
Lucas had returned and sat looking oblivious. "What huh?"
Nick reached for the nearest Lucas nipple and pinched it.
Lucas yelped.
John didn't think anything about the two boys horsing around.
But Carl opened his eyes seeing something that interested him. He didn't talk about the beginning of his suspicions to John.
"I'm thinking of putting in a pool" Carl suddenly said "You all are welcomed to use it day or night" he added.
"Cool" Lucas said before Nick agreed.
"But for now, no parties remember?"
Nick responded as he had been taught to do, "Yes Sir"
Lucas just smiled.