DISCLAIMER: O-town, Backstreet Boys and N'Sync are all bands that I don't know. I am not implying anything here. This is strictly created in my fantasies. I wish it was actually happening but I highly doubt it. I am in no way affiliated with Jive or J records, MTV or any other way with these bands. If homosexual content offends you or is illegal for you to read then please leave.
The only thing I have remotely in common with these guys is that Ashley Parker Angel and I were born on the same exact day-August 1, 1981.
FIRST THINGS FIRST: As the semester winds down here at college, the motivation and time to write gets thinner and thinner. I am really struggling to find time to write or even answer emails so if I leave you hanging with anything please understand. I have a few diehard fans that I know will always be with me (Kdawg, Alex, Jayson, Armand, Special K and a few others) but I hope that the others who simply enjoy reading about two gorgeous boys can stick with me. The semester will be over in May and the updates will come much more readily. Thank you for being patient.
BBSA Awards (Boy Band Story Awards) nominations end April 15th and voting begins on the 23rd. I ask only for the same support that my amazing fans have given me since I began writing back in December.
Other great reads: "Encountering Nick" by Kdawg (Nick Carter story) "Josh's Heart" by me (ND) (my other story that features Josh Hartnett and Justin Timberlake) "Fame, Love and Reality" by Alejandro my good buddy. (Backstreet Boys story- Nick/Kevin/Brian) "Never guess who ran into me today" by SquallThrawn (Lance Bass story) "Encounter in the Sand" by Jeremy (Justin Timberlake story)
http://jcv.5u.com/all/worldofslash/ --Jayson Vascardi's website that features my story and many other slash fiction stories. Go check it out.
Pytn18@hotmail.com for suggestions and comments.
All I Need Is You-Chapter Seven
Two figures walked across the beach, step in step just letting the sand and water sift through their toes. The bright white moon shone fully across Mission Beach in beautiful San Diego, California. The sounds of the waves crashing against the white sand created a peaceful, repetitive, soothing sound.
This walk at night, would usually be a perfect for a couple hand in hand to completely enjoy and call their own. They would walk and look into each other's eyes and nothing could be better. It would be perfect. The one thing wrong about this is that these two figures were just good friends and the way they smiled and laughed with each other meant that they were both talking about the other person in their lives that made them truly happy.
Not many people got to experience what love is but those who do know how powerful and magnificent it can be. It can take your breath away so that you don't even know how to talk anymore. It can strip the best author of the proper words to say and the best performer of the right moves. Its power is unknown to those who try to control it but granted greatly to those who simply understand it and feel it flow through them.
"Ash, can I ask you a question?" Trevor asked
"Sure Trev, what's up" Ashley responded
"How did it ever get this far?" Trevor asked rhetorically.
"What do you mean buddy?" Ashley said, his Adidas sneakers tied in a knot over his shoulder.
"We're one of the hottest acts out there, we've got friends in the business that truly accept us, and on top of all the glory and fame, we both have boyfriends that love us even though they could have any girl in the world." Trevor said philosophically
"One thing you missed" Ashley said as they stopped
"What's that?" Trevor asked
"I have a husband now." Ashley said with a smile.
"See that's what I'm talking about though. How did all of this get this far?" Trevor asked as they started walking again.
"I don't have the answer to that Trev, you just gotta think that we were destined to do this and this is our place in life." Ashley said holding his hands out to emphasize the whole world effect.
"I guess so. Did you ever think that you'd be doing this for a living someday?" Trevor asked
"This is what I've dreamed of doing since I was five years old. When my parents got divorced when I was little, I took to music to take my mind off of it as I was growing up. Then in high school I started to pick up acting and I felt like I could really express myself in those two forms." Ashley said
"It's so great to actually go somewhere in life. My family never had it easy and to look at my father today and see how proud he is of me that I can support myself and do something that I enjoy. The best part of all this is that because I can do this then he supports everything else about my life, including Lance." Trevor said.
"Ahh yes, you're blond stud of a boyfriend." Ashley said with a smile.
"Right like yours isn't any more of a blond god than mine is." Trevor said punching his arm.
Both men laughed, enjoying the good times walking along the beach as they came upon a group of men, who were also laughing but seemed to be drinking heavily. Each man was white and seemed to be causing nothing but a ruckus, throwing beers along the sand as they toasted to their drunkenness.
One bottle went hurling past Ashley and Trevor and landed into the ocean, the saltwater taking it out to sea.
"Is there a reason you guys did that when there's a trash can right next to you?" Ashley said as he walked up to the group of men.
Trevor knew that Ashley was big on conserving the beaches. They had always been there for him for a friend and quiet time to think so he felt a need to preserve them in return.
"Get the fuck outta here kid" one of the men said.
"Yeah and take your nigger friend with you." Another one said.
Hearing this Ashley winced, knowing that this was a serious comment. He immediately turned towards Trevor.
"C'mon Trev, let's get outta here." Ashley said.
"Did I just hear that correctly?" Trevor asked with anger in his face.
"There's 6 of them. Let's just get out of here." Ashley whispered while looking in his eyes.
Trevor seemed to stare right through him at the group of guys who had infuriated him so much. He wanted to run straight at them and tear their hearts out of their bodies and step all over it. He wanted to think of every name he could call them in the book. He knew that he shouldn't step back down to their ignorant level but that was one thing he just couldn't tolerate.
He looked down at Ashley, a friend. He was right. There was no way that they could handle them all and he didn't want to bring him into this fight. He turned around and started walking the other way. Ashley followed in tow, both of them ignoring the comments of the drunks.
"Is he ok Ash?" Lance asked as Ashley stood outside of Trevor's room, as if to keep guard.
"He's really shaken up about it." Ashley said
"I bet. Do you think I should go talk to him?" Lance asked
"I think that's exactly what he needs. Before all of this happened he kept mentioning how awesome his life had been and especially since he met you." Ashley said.
"Thanks Ash, I appreciate it. You did the right thing by holding him back. As much as I wanna go find those assholes and tear them apart." Lance said as he began to open the door.
Ashley said his goodbye to Lance and began to walk back to his room knowing now that Trevor would be in good hands.
"I just wanna be alone Ash. Please, I told you that." Trevor said laying on the bed with his face down on the pillow.
Lance sat down on the bed next to him and put his hand on his back and started rubbing it. Trevor jumped up knowing that Ashley wouldn't do that and looked into his boyfriend's dark green eyes. He could get lost in these eyes, he could fall in love with those eyes but most of all he knew that he could find comfort in them.
He quickly got up and wrapped his arms around Lance.
"Oh god, thank god you're here. It was so bad. I wanted to kill those guys but it took all I had to hold myself back." Trevor said as he cried into Lance's shoulder.
Lance couldn't do anything but just hold him and tell him it would be ok. He knew that there was nothing he could do. It seemed like every time he thought this world was making advances and more and more black people became famous and rich and respectable something as small as this happened and it knocked everything back to where it was.
Lance just held his boyfriend in silence knowing that there was no way he could feel his pain and knew that there was nothing he could do to help.
Ashley leaned against the door to his hotel room. He tried to be as strong as he could to help Trevor as much as was needed but now that he was in better hands, he broke down. He could never imagine how much pain Trevor must have felt at one the sound of one word. He's not sure if he ever would. He just didn't know how to feel. It was as if he felt guilty but he just wasn't sure. He put his head against the door and just closed his eyes. A few moments after doing this he felt his back give way and he fell into the room.
"Ash is everything ok?" Nick asked as he became concerned about his boyfriend.
"Hey Nicky, yeah everything is fine. I'll tell you later. Nothing to do with me though." Ashley said.
"Are you sure?" Nick asked
"Yeah, I'm just exhausted." Ashley said.
"How about you come in and I give you a back massage" Nick said seductively.
"Sounds good." Ashley said as he got up and ran in and threw himself on the bed.
Nick laughed at his husband. He admired the way that they still laughed and enjoyed their time together. Everyone wrote them off as a couple and said they would never last. Everyone told them they were too young to get married and everyone said it would never work. The one thing that Nick and Ashley learned very early on was to never listen to anyone except themselves. Their hearts would never lead them astray and they knew that they both beat as one.
Nick got on the bed and straddled his husband's back. He slipped off Ashley's shirt to reveal the smooth, hairless back. He began to kneed the muscles with his hands, feeling the knots cave in underneath him.
"Wait a sec. Let's throw on some music." Ashley said as he reached for the remote to the portable stereo he always traveled with. He flipped on the play button and a familiar Backstreet Boys song came through the speakers. Nick heard the piano riff played by him and noticed it as "I Need You Tonight". Ashley quickly shut it off embarrassed that he was listening to his husband's band before by himself.
"You were listening to me before?" Nick asked with a smile.
Ashley's face turned three different shades of red and nodded. "I love that song because it's nothing but pure vocals by you."
"Well, how about if I sing it to you?" Nick asked
Ashley smiled and nodded and turned his head back around as Nick continued to massage his back. He took a deep breath, locked the words into his head and began to sing.
"Open up your heart to me And say what's on your mind I know that we have been through so much pain But I still need you in my life this time
I need you tonight I need you right now I know deep within my heart It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right Cuz I see heaven in your eyes."
Ashley turned around and smiled at his boyfriend.
"Those aren't the words silly." Ashley said
"I changed them just for you. Did you like it?" Nick asked
"I loved it." Ashley said as he grabbed Nick's shirt and pulled him in for a kiss.
They knew each other so well and it was as if there tongues knew exactly what to do to make the kiss perfect. After wrestling with each other's mouths Nick worked his way down to Ashley's pecs and started his attack there. He ran his tongue over the smooth area and began to fumble with his belt as he licked at the nipples. He could feel them getting harder underneath the pressure of his tongue.
He lowered Ashley's shorts, revealing a pair of white CK briefs with a noticeably large tent in the front. Nick, also extremely turned on began to lick and kiss at Ashley's legs, slowly making his way down to his inner thighs. Ashley was moaning and thoroughly enjoying this. Nick put his mouth up to his crotch and began to suck at his package, still covered by the cotton.
Ashley pushed his hips against his husband's mouth as if to show how much he wanted Nick right now. He couldn't even seem to take it anymore. That's how large the need was. He stopped Nick and turned him over pushing him on his back. Nick was a but surprised at how Ashley took charge, him usually being the submissive one but he didn't seem to mind.
Ashley ripped off Nick's tank top, tossing it across the room. He pushed his lips down and began to kiss Nick passionately. While doing this, he pulled Nick's mesh shorts off and slipped down his boxers while he was at it. Those were also tossed across the room along with Ashley's briefs, which might have been ripped off by his hard-on if he didn't take them off.
Nick, obviously excited at how his boyfriend was taking charge, could show it by the fact that his cock was at full attention, pointing straight at the ceiling. Ashley got up and kneeled on the bed. Ashley reached into the drawer next to the bed and pulled out some lube. One thing that he learned from being in a relationship with Nick and eventually a marriage is that a bottle of lube with you at all times is essential.
He spread some onto his hand and eventually onto Nick's cock. He hovered above Nick's package and eventually slowly lowered his way onto it, letting it slide straight into his asshole. A jolt of pleasure waved through Ashley's body as he sank all the way down to the hilt, feeling Nick's semi-shaved pubic area on his ass.
He began to buck up and down slowly at first and eventually picking up the pace until he was bouncing more than anything. He tried to maintain as much of a rhythm as he could while enjoying everything that was going through him. Nick saw the pleasure he was enduring and decided to add to it. He grabbed a hold of Ashley's cock that was bouncing in front of him and began jerking it in a steady motion as close as he could to the motion of the bed rocking.
Ashley held on to Nick's knees, giving him a better angle for everything and couldn't help but let out moans of pleasure. This was all too good. He never understood how the sex could simply get better and better with time but he knew that he had a very good lover in Nick and being so incredibly close to each other showed that they knew what the other wanted.
He knew he couldn't take much anymore and he knew that Nick was close too. He moved as fast as he possibly could and felt Nick tighten up and unload his cum inside of him. He felt the hot liquid rush into his ass, causing even more pleasure and hitting sensors that Ashley didn't even know he had. Nick's hand kept going and Ashley couldn't help but scream as he let out whatever he had inside of him. It landed all over Nick's chest as Ashley fell on top of his boyfriend, moving up and down with the rising and lowering of his chest.
"Hello?" Jacob said as he answered the room phone
"Mr. Underwood, there's someone to see you at the front desk" the hotel clerk said.
"Are they cleared with security?" Jacob asked
"Security won't let her anywhere but she said she needs to see you and won't say who she is." The clerk said.
"Alright I'll be right down" Jacob said as he hung up the phone.
"What was that about?" AJ asked
"Some girl said she needs to see me, probably looking for an autograph or something. I'll be right back." Jacob said.
"Well I'll go with you. We can give really shock her." AJ said as they both headed downstairs to the lobby.
They both stepped out of the elevator and over to Lonnie, N'sync's usual bodyguard being used for the entire tour.
"Alright where is this girl?" Jacob asked him looking around.
"Right over there." He said as a girl walked through the door and came running up to Jacob and through her arms around him.
Lonnie immediately stripped her off of him and held her back. Jacob took one look at her and knew exactly who it was.
"Let her go Lonnie, Janie what are you doing here?" Jacob asked
"You know this girl?" AJ asked confused
"Yeah this is Janie...my ex-girlfriend." Jacob said
AJ became immediately jealous and didn't know what to do. He couldn't just run away as that would make her think something is up. He also couldn't say anything to either of them. AJ was stuck and he couldn't even show affection to his boyfriend or simply talk to him like usual. He looked at Jacob who seemed to give him an expression that he was thinking the exact same thing.
Jacob had spent his entire childhood with Janie. They grew up together, they experimented together and they had always loved each other. When Jacob joined O-town, Janie immediately got jealous and said she couldn't handle having a boyfriend in a boy band where he was always showing off his body for thousands of women. She broke everything off and hasn't seen him since. It lead to a lot of depression problems that eventually Jacob had trouble conquering, which was one of the reasons that he ended up on that balcony on New Year's Eve, which is where he met AJ.
All three of them just sat there not exactly sure of what to do, past meeting present meeting future.
JC sat on the stage that the bands were using for rehearsals with his legs hanging off the side. He was feeling extremely stressed out and torn by the way that his friends were acting. It was so easy when they first started this band. He thought back to when they were learning the steps to their first single "Tearin' Up My Heart".
He stood up and began to do the choreography to the empty crowd. He never realized there was anyone looking at him anyway, a trait he picked up early on. He could do the dance as if he was sleeping and still do it perfectly. The moves flowed out of his body as if he was born to do it. He finished and stared out into the row of chairs that no one occupied.
He heard clapping behind him and became startled, jumping and turning around to see who was watching him. Seemingly coming out of the shadows and stepping into the light was Josh, O-town's choreographer.
"Pretty good moves there." Josh said
"Yeah well, I just wanted to make sure I had them down for the tour." JC said as he ran his hands through his hair, which he had just cut trying to get back to his original look where everything began.
"JC, you're not a new guy in the business. I know you know those moves better than anyone. What's wrong?" Josh said pulling out two chairs and sitting on one of them.
JC admired the young man, nice build with black hair, gelled back and with some of the greenest eyes he'd ever seen. They could even rival Lance's. He wondered why this guy wanted to help but he would talk to the wall right now if it was willing to listen. He's not sure why he sat down that night but he did.
The two men talked all night, they talked about how tough life was on the road and how things weren't exactly great in the N'sync locker room right now.
"Sometimes I wish we could all just chill out and relax. Lance has it the best. Him and Trevor are really happy. I wish I could just be as brave as he was when he came out." JC felt the words slip out of his mouth and he immediately wanted them back. He had just made what seemed like a genuine friend and he probably just blew it. He looked away not sure how Josh would react.
JC felt a hand pull his face back to the front again and before he could say anything he felt a pair of lips on his. He wasn't sure what was happening or what it meant but for the first time in a very long time JC felt good. He let himself go and enjoyed the kiss.
TO BE CONTINUED...
<<<< In this chapter I dealt with a very serious issue and that was prejudice. This is not the only serious issue we've dealt with in this story, another one of them being suicide. These are not things that are to be joked around with and should be taken very seriously. I'm sorry if I offended anyone here but it was not meant like that. It was meant to open some people's eyes and hopefully I moved a few people tonight by how helpless people felt after they had to deal with it. It is a serious issue and if we only learned from the mistakes of our ancestors we may someday live in harmony. I can only dream of that day so until then we live on and "We wear the mask".
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