Codes you awake 4 Maxieplus
The following Sunday I decided to make an appearance because it was team training on our beach day. I could hear car doors slamming and the guys walking up the side of the house. Dad and Tom were at the ready to put us through our paces, I saw Harper but not Mitch. Walking out to the car park I looked up the road and checked his car wasn't there, my heart fell, doing a back flip at the same time.
"He's gone into the city Codes," I heard Harper's voice behind me.
I didn't realize it but tears were running down my cheeks. Harps hugged me while putting his hand on the back of my head, he whispered,
"When he's heavily depressed he stays either at the President Hotel or his cousin's place and he does a club or two. He dances alone and wears a baseball cap to disguise himself, it's his way of coping."
"I love him Harper. I need to help him somehow but I just don't know how and he won't talk to me anymore. I am at my wits end."
"He doesn't answer my calls either Codes. I'm worried about him, his brother's death hit him so fucking hard," he answered.
"He told you about that?'
"He had to the other day. He was a frigging mess when he got in. He said he had upset you at the bluff so I sat him down and got some of the story out of him. He also told me he didn't intend to jump but it had scared him shitless and he said he didn't love you anymore. But I don't believe that for one Nano second. Can you maybe find him Codes? He needs a good friend at the moment and I can only do so much, but you can do so much more," he sort of begged.
"Leave it to me, I'll try and get it sorted," I said using dad Cody's favorite saying. He patted my backside and we joined the boys.
Dad had us running in the water, on the beach and up the dunes, pushups, handballing and I was pretty stuffed by the end of it; but it kept me in great shape. Squirt and Trent had cooked sausages and chops for lunch so I grabbed a sausage in bread then went to shower.
"Where are you going Codes?"
"Into town to find Mitch." I gave dad a pleading look.
"Well ring me when you get there and drive carefully," Squirt said.
I grabbed my keys and was on the freeway heading to Brisbane in no time.
Finding the President Hotel was easy and I drove around the car park until I spotted Mitch's car then I checked into a room on the same floor as his. Changing into my shorts and thongs I did my hair and splashed aftershave on. My six-pack got special attention and as I tried on three different tank tops I picked the one that highlighted my chest and stomach with my nipples on the verge of popping out the sides. My six-pack was held firmly in place by the light nylon fabric and my shorts were torn up one side seam so anyone looking could see my jock that snugly held my cock and balls. I took a deep breath, this was a big gamble but I have to do it so I pulled my shoulders back and knocked on his door. I heard a shuffling sound then the door swung open.
"Codes?"
"Mitch." I smiled.
"What on earth are you doing here?"
"Oh I don't know, my best friend goes off to the big city to club it and doesn't ask me to accompany him. Maybe he's really trying to completely dump me?" I smirked as I ran my right hand over my stomach. Mitch's eyes were everywhere but he managed.
"He just might have other things on his mind that he wants to sort out first before he asks his boyfriend to dance with him." His head bowed then he added,
"Why are you really here Codes?"
"I don't really know but I thought you might like one of these to remind you that your boyfriend still loves you and misses you." I smiled, it's now or never I said to myself before leaning in. I kissed him gently but he didn't respond. We stood there staring at each other then his eyes dropped again, my guts turned ugly and before my tears came again, I said.
"I'm sorry Mitch, I miss you and I'm worried about you that's all, I'll leave you to it." Then I turned to go back to my room, opening the door I was ready for a full on cry again when Mitch's hand closed over mine on the knob. He swung me around gently and kissed me deeply, sincerely and with love. My legs buckled and the door banged closed.
"Mitch can I borrow your underarm?" I heard someone say.
Looking over Mitch's shoulder I saw a young good-looking guy with a towel wrapped around his tight waist, he had a hard body and was shorter than Mitch and I. He had exited the bathroom and I felt like two bricks had hit me head on.
"I'm so sorry," I whispered as I looked at Mitch then the guy, turned and pulled the door open. I walked down the hall to my room where once again I dropped on the bed then slowly slipped to the floor crying, hiding, hurting and alone. I fucking ached all over, my phone rang and someone was knocking on my door but all I could do was replay the scene in my mind. He must have picked the guy up last night. By the time it started to get dark I was rolled up into a ball and my ribs ached, my head hurt and my eyes felt like red-hot irons.
After some time I heard the door click open and someone say thank you. A movement about the room then a hand rested on my leg. The sweetest kisses were raining down on my face, again my stomach knotted up.
"I'm sorry Mitch. I didn't for one second think you would have company."I tried to be brave but my head slumped onto his shoulder.
"He's really cute isn't he?" he answered.
"If that's what you like, I suppose he is," I whispered.
"Actually you're what I like, he's just my cousin, Ben, but I like him in other ways."
I started sobbing again. Can I believe him?
"He stayed over because he drank too much last night. And he wants to meet you formally. He thinks you're a babe and so do I." My eyes slightly opened and I saw Mitch grinning at me, I felt like a dickhead, nothing was as it seemed.
"I'm so sorry," he whispered staring straight into my brain.
"So am I."
"Why are you sorry Codes, none of this is your fault?"
"I'm sorry for doing this."
I took his hand and kissed it then stood us both up and shook my thongs off. Then dropping my shorts and underwear I lifted my arms to take my tank off. Mitch whistled through his teeth. I then leant over and undid his jeans, he didn't resist when I pushed him back onto the bed to completely relieve him of them and his underwear. I gasped at the hardness of his body and he was bigger than I imagined, at least a nine. The light hairy chest and the shocked look on his face made me fall in love with him again.
"Just go with me, I want to try this, boyfriend or not you are going to be my first. I absolutely insist."
Lowering my head I started lapping at his ample dick, he groaned when I let the knob slip into my mouth and I sucked on it as much as I knew how. It smelt and tasted wonderful. He was gasping for breath by the time he had his first orgasm and his hands dug deeply into the sheets. I tried to drink his cum but gagged so I finished him off with my hand. He pulled me up and looked into my eyes then his hands were all over my body. Fingers were pushed into tight places. His tongue lapped at my torso, his kisses rained about my body but he did well when he finally got to my cock area. With his mouth dancing on my dick I came not long after and it took an hour before both our afterglow and stiffs started to go down.
"Now do you forgive me?" I asked.
"Codes. I've loved you from the moment I heard you speak the first night at training and I knew Harper wasn't for you but I never dreamed I could get you. I love you more than anything Cody, it's just I've got some baggage and it's not fair to dump it onto you too. Ben is my cousin, he listens while I talk, we get along really well and there's nothing to forgive. I wouldn't have jumped the other day; it scared the shit out of me as much as you Cody. I will never do that again, I promise."
"Well now isn't that a revelation because I sure do know I love you and I missed you today at training. In fact I've missed you all week. Can we go and get some dinner and maybe talk, I'm starving. But Mitch, tonight there is no baggage, there is just us. We can work on the other stuff together later on; can you just trust me and trust I do love you no matter what?"
"Of course I can and dinner would be ace. I haven't eaten since yesterday."
"Chinese?"
"Perfect."
He then pulled me in and kissed me, we were both nude still and my mouth washed his beautiful chest and neck, his smell was intoxicating. After I had dined on his face I detected he wanted to go again. I felt his whole body shudder when I ran my hand over his huge thighs ending up on his awesome chest. Then I slid down and did my job. Sucking his balls first he moaned loudly and as soon as I started sucking he wildly grabbed my head and tried to push into me further. I guess he's got a hair trigger because in a very short time his cum was everywhere and my face was covered in it.
"You're going to give me aching balls Code's. I won't be much good tonight, I'm near exhaustion." He stared at me.
Of course after a lot of pashing on both our parts he returned the favor. I lasted longer but not by much and this time he half swallowed. We reluctantly dressed each other, watching, touching and kissing and he changed into a pair of my shorts and tank. His chest was proudly pumped out, his guns the size of lampposts and his waist tiny. He was perfect, he was mine, and God help anyone who tries to get in between us. I think that's how I'm supposed to feel. God, this is so new to me. I want so much to get into bed with him and have him hold me. Of course I want to hold and protect him too and I think at this very moment I want to have quite a number of his babies, my brain was even starting to pick names.
My mind was going crazy until he pulled the tank over his head, I don't know what came over me, I bent in and got a very nice nipple lick in while he suspended dressing and moaned.
"Do you want to eat or fuck?"
"Umm hard question but maybe we should eat first."
"Good answer." He kissed me, the door banged loudly again as he pushed me up against it.
We walked out of the front of the hotel and followed the desk clerk's instructions to a good casual Chinese restaurant. My phone rang as soon as I sat down and it was Harper.
"Yes he's here, we are about to have dinner."
"Yeah, all's good Harps, he will be there, he's feeling a bit better."
"Okay mate, talk later." I hung up and he gave me a funny look.
"He's just worried about you that's all, he's a friend."
"I know I should have told him everything but I felt awful after what I had done to you, I just wanted to hideaway."
"Well you won't get the chance to do that again. I will just shove my cock in your mouth to remind you that I love you."
"You would do that for me?" he said in a surprised voice.
"Sure will."
"Good, then I will love you even more."
We laughed.
Our meal was great, I guess we did overeat but who cares? I haven't gained an ounce of fat in two years. Mitch works the benches so much he will never have to worry. The thing with Mitch I hadn't noticed before was he had grey eyes like Dan's. There were gold flecks in them and each was clear and sparkly. I loved looking into them and I did heaps of times at the table.
Walking home we talked about mundane stuff and the subject got around to sex.
"I told my parents when I was fourteen and my dad was nonplused. My mum is the strong one in the family and she hugs me a lot but nothing much has been said after that. I haven't any experience with guys, not that I didn't get any offers. I was too scared I might get hurt Codes. Every time I saw you I did hurt and I never dreamed you would like me. You should know Belinda and I went there once. I wanted to see what it was like but I saw your face not hers and I won't go back for more, she's a great friend." He blushed I think but It's in the past.
"Well Mitch, I did like you a lot but I discounted you because you seemed so straight. I fancied Harper but I didn't love him, maybe lust. At first I really lusted after you but you had more girlfriends than Harper and there was Belinda."
"We are friends only Codes. I have loads of girlfriends; some know about me, some don't. It was hard to act in front of the guys but I knew if I could get you I wouldn't have to act anymore, I could just be me. I know the club is gay friendly but some of the guys are a bit freaky about it still."
"I'm sorry, I should have looked at you more closely Mitch, but my eyes are wide open now, want to be my real boyfriend?"
"Yes," he quickly accepted.
He pulled me into a shop doorway and kissed me gently, and then we almost ran back to the hotel.
Undressing in a frenzy we were naked within seconds and I was about to lick Mitch's body from head to toe when my phone went off.
"Dad. Sorry I got caught up."
"Yes dad he's here, we will be home tomorrow."
"No dad he's okay, we are okay."
"Well we are boyfriends now."
"Love you too dad, night, night."
"It was Squirt, he was worried about me. I was supposed to ring him when I got here, but he's okay with us."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes Mitch, he's known I was gay since early, I knew when I was twelve and they are pretty open but very protective. I guess that's why I never had a boyfriend. It was natural around our house except for Conner. But he's my biggest supporter, even though he's straight. I love my family and I know they love me."
"I can tell, the talk around the club is your dads are strong in their relationship, I guess they have passed it on to you."
"Maybe, but can we have this conversation later, I need to start practicing on you, otherwise I will never get it right."
"Aww, Codes your dessert is so ready."And it was.
I licked Mitch again from head to balls and he was delicious in every way. Then he flipped me over and did the same to me. I was surprised at his need to feed and he was surprised when my cum nearly hit the ceiling as he pulled away on my dick. It was so unexpected for him, but for me, I am quiet an achiever and the signs weren't there, I just punched one out.
He took a little longer, he was trying to make my sucking last but he lost the battle when I played with his balls and hit the headboard of the bed.
He was heaving by the time I finished and had been quite loud, his eyes closed and I went to get the washcloth. I wanted to wash his whole body but he was tired now.
Pulling the doona over us I moved into his big arms, he pulled me closer and we drifted off to sleep but just before I nodded I heard,
"Codes you awake?"
"Mmmm."
"Thank you, it was awesome."
"Mmmm," I responded, we snuggled and I put my leg over his.
Silence.
"Codes?"
"Mmmm?"
"Can you go again?"
"Mmmm."
So finally after midnight we got to sleep and I did get to tongue wash him again. I think I'm getting good at this.
We did it again in the morning, God, I'm now officially a slut but in a good way and we still have loads to learn. Mitch took me out for breakfast before we headed home and I followed in my car. He pulled into the bluff car park, his depression gone and we made out a bit. I got out of the car and for some unexplainable reason I took his hand and said,
"Hold my hand babe, I want to go over to that grassed area."
"Codes, can we go?"
"No, I want to see the sky." Something hit me in the back of my brain. I know, I know, thank you Uncle Bobby, calmness came over me and I started to form a plan.
He took my hand and we walked past the lip of the cliff to a grassed area that had small bushes surrounding it. I made him sit down and we watched the heavens. The seagulls and the morning sun tried to poke its rays through the white clouds and I started taking photos with my phone. My God, the sun finally won and its rays beamed down through the clouds, I gasped, Mitch looked at me with a worried face.
"What a beautiful morning Mitch, look at the sun's rays, I can see a dragon in those clouds over there, look."
"I can't see it Codes, what's got into you?"
"I'm in love, I'm in love with life and I'm in love with you." I leaned in and kissed him.
"Let's go," I said taking his hand so he could get up then holding it while we walked back to the car. I took more photos and plenty of Mitch and he took a lot of me, I felt like I was imitating my dads, they did the same to each other.
"Welcome home baby, have you had breakfast?"
"Yes dad, Mitch took me out to eat." I kissed Cody then took Mitch's hand to go outside, Dan was there so I kissed him too.
"Good to see you turned up at last Mr. Mitch." He wasn't pissed off with Mitch but I think he was a bit wary only because he had upset me so much.
"Sorry coach, I had something to work out."
"Did you?"
"What?"
"Work it out?"
"Yes sir, I'm good now." He smiled at me wanting to hug me but not knowing how dad would react so didn't. I took the initiative and hugged him close to me although it might have looked a bit funny; I was still fumbling and so new.
Dad raised an eyebrow but said nothing. Cody came out with sandwiches and coffee, we ate again and talked more footy. My parents were on to us from the start and Cody's wicked sense of humour had kicked in and he took great delight in making us both feel uncomfortable in between taking many photos on his phone.
"Uh? What did you say Mr. Mitchell?" Mitch stuttered.
"Intentions, what are your intentions with my son?"
"What? Dad, no!" I screamed.
"Well?" He was still looking at Mitch.
"Well, I want him to be my boyfriend, then I want us to date for a bit, then I want us to get a place together and then I want us to live happily ever after." Mitch was beetroot by the time he finished.
"Does that answer your questions son?" He looked at me.
"Yes dad." I blushed, I think.
"Good, now that's out of the way, I'm guessing you are staying the night Mitch so I will go get an extra towel and toothbrush out." He laughed.
"Cody, leave the kids alone."
"But Dan, I'm having so much fun with them."
"Your embarrassing your son in front of his lover so stop it." Dan smirked.
I nearly fell through the floorboards.
"Dad!"
"Sorry son."
"So you should be Dan." Cody smirked.
"Look who's talking."
"Not me Dan, I'm the perfect host."
"You need a good spanking Squirt."
They looked at each other, apologized to us then ran off into their bedroom.
Mitch and I couldn't stop laughing for ages. I took his hand and led him to my bedroom where I kinda locked the door and we made out on my bed, a little fantasy come true.
"They do that all the time, the key words are, spanking, schoolboys, surfie dude and kilt, don't ask me what it all means. It's just when those words are mentioned, they head for the bedroom, it's a game."
"Weird," Mitch answered then started rubbing his hands over my ass.
"You want to fuck me don't you?"
"It's all I dream of Codes."
"Well I don't know much about it, I know that's bad considering where I live I'm surrounded by gay people but I don't see anything like that. We can go ask Rory, I won't ask Tim because he still thinks we are still five years old." I laughed.
"Would Rory tell us how?"
"Yes, he's always been open to Con and me. He is our go to if we ever have problems and he fixes them too. They have a son, his name is Will and he's living in Paris now. He has his own fashion house so when Bob and Rory go there they will stay with him."
"He's that good is he?"
"Sure is baby, they were after my dad for years but he won't leave here, it's his home."
"I can see why, it's bloody awesome here."
"Yeah, I guess it is, I always feel safe here."
"I get it."
"Want me to suck you off?"
"Would you mind?"
"Not at all, it's my pleasure."
"No, its mine."
"Okay, it's yours."
I began with his square jaw line, his lips then the nipples and chest and ended up with my lips surrounding his pole. He was gasping for breath as he came. I managed not to pull off but I didn't swallow. I wanted to share it with him but he nearly threw up.
"Ewww."
Then I swallowed; I didn't mind, I wanted him inside me.
"Look, look what your father did to me." Squirt pulled his shorts down below his ass.
It was all red.
"Squirt, stop it," Dan said.
"But look Codes, he spanked me." He was laughing his head off at Mitch's face.
"Grrr, Cody stop now."
"Oh Dan, your no fun anymore," he purred.
"I'll give you fun, come here." He grabbed Cody and pulled him down for a deep kiss.
"Okay we are outa here, going to see Uncle Rory."
"Do you want bananas kids?" Cody shouted.
"Cody!"
I heard giggling coming from behind us. It's all designed to make Mitch relax around us but I didn't explain that to him until after he took the rather large banana Rory had given him out of his mouth.
"Come on, I want to look at our stars." We headed for my car and I drove us to the bluff.
"Oh my God, look at that baby." The billions of stars shone brightly, because we weren't in the city, our clear sky was loaded with them.
"Come on, hold my hand." I walked us over to the grassed area and sat us down then took heaps more photos.
"That's the Pot." I pointed out.
"That's Orion," Mitch said.
We played spot the planets, Mitch knew more than me but it was getting late and I wanted to try the banana exercise on him badly.
"Take my hand baby, let's go."
"Okay."
I walked with him hand in hand back to the car where I couldn't help myself. I tried out my new banana exercise and to say Mitch was impressed was an understatement, he was almost enraptured.
"Good memories Mitch, all good memories."
"Thanks Cody."
"You can thank me later, properly."
We sat with my dads, Luke and Jamie who had just received Uncle Luke's final test results and they were negative.He had just been on the phone to my nana and looking much happier than I had seen him for months.
"We have to go to the farm Cody before the next season starts. I want to check her and dad out, just for my peace of mind," Luke said.
"Okay we have nothing on in two weeks,Thursday, Friday and Saturday but we have to be back for Sunday's training here Dan, I think coach is taking that day off." That's my dad Squirt, the walking organizer.
"Sure Codes, do you want to come along boys?"
"What do you think Mitch? You can't ignore my nana. If you do she will hunt you down, I promise you that." I grinned at Dan.
"Sure Codes, I could do with a change of scenery."
"Good then we go, you can drive my new car."
"Sure Codes, you can hold my hand."
Just then my awesome looking twin arrived with Katy on his arm. She was a beautiful girl but I doubt Con would marry her.Underneath it all he's really a country girl type, I think. Katy was a city girl, shopping, girlie nights out and a Twitter freak.
We all said hi to them and were nice to Kate. She was adorable but maybe too adorable by the way she looked at Mitch. He shuffled in his seat maybe trying to move closer to me.
Conner yawned.
"Oh well it's getting late, come on Kate let's go to bed, good night all." He stretched.
"Yes Conner we all must go to bed, goodnight Kate, have a safe trip home," dad Cody said.
"Daaad!"
"Good to see you honey, I'll walk you to the car," he offered.
"But daaad," Conner whined.
"Off to bed Conner, big day tomorrow," Dan said.
Cody walked Katie to the door and I heard them both laughing. They had got to know each other well over the past few months, she loved his clothes.
"Dad you can't do that anymore, you just can't."
Mitch was shaking with laughter and so was Jamie. Luke sat with a straight face but smirked.
"Conner we won't have this talk with you again, when you find the right girl or boy, she or he can have sleepovers, but not before."
"But dad, Codes has got his piece of ass sleeping over, why not me too?"
"I rest my case," Cody said and lifted his eyebrow.
Conner mumbled something about being forced to get married before he could get a root. We all knew he hadn't had one yet even though he liked to tell us all he had.
"Conner Lawrence, go to bed, now!" Cody shouted at him.
"Aww dad, you're no fun anymore," he pouted.
"I can assure you son, he's more fun than you realize, especially in his jockstrap."
"Ewww, dad!"
"Goodnight all. Come Codes we have a date."
"Okay Dan, what color tonight, red or black?"
"Black I think, I might just resurrect the kilt."
"Dan!" Cody screamed.
"What Codes?"
"It's at the cleaners."
"Okay red jock tonight, let's go."
They kissed us goodnight and quickly ran for their room, Dan was holding onto dad's butt, parents. Mitch was in fits.
We showered together and played some. I wanted this night to be about us as a couple and I so wanted to feel Mitch's lips on me. Crawling into bed we listened to Conner's loud music. He was pissed off; he only played his music loud when he was annoyed. I heard dad Dan call out to him and when it didn't stop, I said to Mitch,
"Watch this." I pointed to the lights on my alarm clock, they went blank and Con's music stopped.
"Daaad," he yelled.
"He turned the power off." I giggled under the blankets.
Mitch laughed loudly.
"Go to sleep Mitch," Dan yelled.
"Sorry Mr. Lawrence."
We looked into each other's eyes and kissed before our giggles started again.
Slowly we made love to each other and it was wonderful. Mitch really had a handle on this sucking business. It was amazing. We sixty nined for awhile but I found it hard to concentrate so we gave up and just did each other. We both swallowed and I only felt love and satisfaction. A lot of touching and ball playing, some butt fingering and we were ready for sleep.It was late but with no clock it was hard to tell how late.
I nestled into my man's huge arms, they hugged me near then I heard,
"Codes you awake?"
"Yes Mitch."
"Do you have a jockstrap?"
"A couple."
"What colors?"
"White and black."
Silence.
"Codes, can you show me?"
"Anytime."
"Now."
I crawled out of bed and put the white one on and he was all over me like a rash and for the next hour made more love to me.
"Thank you Codes."
"My pleasure Mitch, go to sleep."
In the morning my clock had miraculously re-appeared, I knew dad was up as I could smell toast. No Mitch, he must be in the bathroom, no?"
I went out into the family room and Cody was cooking. I kissed him good morning and spotted Dan and Mitch running on the beach, I didn't feel like joining them and Dan needs to get to know my boyfriend on his own terms anyway.
"Not going for a run baby?"
"Not this morning dad, I want dad and Mitch to bond a bit."
"He's already a fan Codes, he said that kid has polite manners, Cody better hang onto him."
"He did?"
"Yes son, we both like Mitch a lot, he's so... you."
"Do you really think so dad?"
"Yep, otherwise he wouldn't be staying the night now would he, speaking of the devil?"
"Conner, breakfast?" he called to my sibling.
"Coming."
I helped dad take the plates out to the porch, Conner joined us and looked a little sheepish.
Dad asked, "Have fun last night Conner?"
"Yes dad but it was short lived." He smirked.
"Good," dad Cody double smirked.
"It's just not fair that's all."
"What isn't Conner?"
"I got no rights living here, I might move out."
"Be my guest Conner, where do you want to move to?"
"I dunno."
"Well when you decide, your dad and I will help you pack."
"Daaad, I was joking"
"Oh were you son? How disappointing." I saw smirk, eyebrow, and a shit-eating grin; my dad was good, very good.
Conner informed us he was going for a drive, he might go to nana's place to see Mike, Uncle Luke's twin, they got on very well together.
"Why don't you stay for a few weeks, we are all going up next Thursday anyway, just don't forget to exercise."
"Yeah I won't forget and maybe I will stay. I could do with some sane conversations."
"That's it Conner, keep thinking that way, one day you will miss us and the insanity that invades your life so much."
Conner was stunned that dad would say something like that, it was gruesome.
"Dad, what an awful thing to say."
"What, your dad and I go off to Europe for three months and you get all sad?" He laughed.
"Aww fuck this shit, I'm off, see you next Thursday."
" Bye-bye son, enjoy your drive and don't say fuck, fuck it."
Cody couldn't stop laughing and I thought it was pretty funny too, Conner is so easy sometimes.
Our men came back and Mitch headed for the showers after he ate something. He kissed me goodbye and promised to see me later in the day. He had washing and shopping to do and he had gotten behind in his studies too.
"What studies Mitch?"
"Psychology Code's, heal thyself and all that. It's something I didn't think I would do but somewhere in all that study is my answer." He wasn't down, just philosophical.
"Okay babe, go do your thing and I'll see you tonight. I want to go watch the moon." I kissed him goodbye then walked him out to his car.
"You can take mine if you like, after all it's ours now."
"Nah Codes, I need to get a new one but just haven't had the time to look that's all. It's your car, I might crash it and anyway I am thinking I might just need the money to buy a certain person a home, eventually."