This is an erotic biographical narrative of partially unrealized desires, as my experiences are a work in progress.
I am a retired college professor, 68 years old, 5'4" tall, 140 lbs, and in very good to excellent health. I exercise daily with weights, and walk 2 miles daily. I try to eat decently, but I am not a fanatic about diet. My libido is very strong, but my age has limited my abilities to get instantly aroused and climax as quickly and as often as I did in the past. I manage to ejaculate almost every other day, but fantasies....especially of sexual relations with older men, are often a focal point of my pleasure. I'm also married...for 39 years, and I have two grown sons. One has has been married for four years. The other is engaged to be married at some future unspecified date.
In the past year or two I've begun to increasingly desire sex with men. I have been fantasizing about performing oral sex on a man......preferably a man over 40, and bringing him to a sexual orgasm. My desires are for his orgasm to result in the ejaculation of his semen into my mouth so that I can taste, feel, savor, and ultimately completely swallow all that he releases. I've also fantasized about having a man enjoy me anally...by ejaculating deep inside me while he moans and groans from the pleasure my wiggling and quivering ass brings him. I hope to feel the warmth of his ejaculating semen in my colon, and to hear him sigh after the final spurts he gives me. Feeling him grip my hips as he makes that final thrust before exploding with orgasm will be a sacred experience for me. I'll call out his name and tell him how much I love him for what he's giving me...his seed. I hope he feels love for me too as he releases his precious fluid inside me. I'd love to hear him call out my name and say "Ohhh, Frank, I love you so much." Any man I willingly let have me orally or anally, I think I will fall in love with. I don't think I could receive such intimacy without loving a man with whom I experience such personal depth of emotion and contact.
When I see a man who I find desirable to me, I am mesmerized by his masculine legs..the hair and rough texture of an elderly man's legs excite me beyond words. During the summer when I see men walking for exercise or out and about generally, and they're wearing short pants, I immediately look at their legs and get turned on from their beauty. An older man's hairy rough and blemished legs sexually arouse me. I just want to kneel down in front of them and begin kissing and licking their shins, calves, knees...especially knees, and thighs...especially inner thighs. I want to stroke and caress their lower body and feel them tremble with sexual arousal from my touch. I also wish to touch, fondle, caress and explore my man's body....to give him what ever pleasure he needs and desires. Massage, kissing, verbal communication of appreciation for the honor of the intimacies my man allows me to experience, and close embrace are experiences I wish to give and share with a man.
Along with those desires come the excitement I wish to experience from hearing the man that I service express his passion verbally and physically. I want to know what he's like when he climaxes. I want to hear him say what comes to his mind....to call out my name, to tell me how good he is feeling, to tell me he loves me...if he is having those feelings for me as I lovingly bring him such intimate pleasure. I want to see and feel his legs tremble...see and feel the goosebumps rise on his skin. I want to feel him thrusting toward my face as he releases his sperm deep inside my mouth. I will thank him sincerely for such a received gift as his semen.
I expect to experience thrills beyond words when the man I'm pleasuring ejaculates. When his semen is released into my waiting mouth he will instantly make me fall in love with him. I won't be able to help doing so. I'll have no ability to resist giving my heart and soul to him...along with my body for him to do with as he pleases. The act of receiving and swallowing the seed of a viral pleasured man will be sacred to me. I feel that the man that I service in so intimate a manner, and I, will become as one. His sperm...the fluid of life...that man's essence, will be flowing in my blood...an intimate part of me. I won't be able to resist loving him very deeply.
I will find a man's semen very desirable to swallow. It won't matter how thick or thin it is, or of what color. I would, if I find it to be fairly thick and sticky, be particularly pleased. But that's not a necessity. It will be unusually exciting if it has some unevenness or lumpiness to it so that I can squeeze it against my palate with my tongue, savouring it, and so that I can also sort of use my teeth to "chew" the lumps and then feel them go down my throat as broken up as I swallow them down. If such a description is somewhat unromantic or too clinical, I apologize for it, but these things occur to me. If a man's semen is off-white....grayish, yellowish or especially if it's greenish, I will find it especially desirable and somewhat exciting to receive. Thick yellow or green semen is probably from a man who's not climaxed for some time and may be congested, although I realize that a man's diet of certain foods can influence color and taste of semen. When I was in my late teens and early 20s my semen was yellow-green, and sometimes very green. I think I'd be fortunate to be taking a man's congested semen...a man who's very horny and needy to get his "rocks" off. I'd be honored to bring such a man the sexual release he needs and so deserves. I just know that the hornier a man is, the more he's appreciative of the oral service he's receiving from a willing lover of his body.
Any comments are appreciated. Frank
deperif@aol.com