Title: my heart is in your hands Chapter 3: you drive me crazy
Disclaimer: this is not meant to imply anything about the sexual orientation of the members of *nsync. it's just for fun. :)
Sorry this took me so long! :) --lili
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"Dude. This hotel rocks! There's a swimming pool and everything!" Joey said ecstatically, staring at a table kiosk in the hotel's restaurant.
"Aww, that rules! Let's all go swimming!" Chris said, sharing in the excitement. He nudged Lance, hoping to coax him to join them. Lance smiled shyly, glancing at JC for support. But JC's attention was focused on Justin, who was staring intently at his empty plate.
"Hey, if you guys don't wanna go, we'll go alone..." Joey taunted. Chris nodded enthusiastically, then noticed that Lance was now smiling also.
"Don't you guys want to come?" Lance asked hopefully. JC shook his head, bringing himself back to the conversation. He could tell Justin needed him to be there, so he declined the tempting offer.
"Party poopers!" Joey laughed, "Have fun moping around here. We'll be splashing around without you. Splish, splash-- we'll be havin' a blast! Ha!"
"What the hell are we waiting for?" Chris shouted. The three leapt from the table and skipped towards the elevator.
As soon as they disappeared into the open door, JC moved to the seat closest to Justin. He looked into his deep blue eyes, watching them trace the circular shape of the dish in front of him. Something was burning inside him as he watched that tortured face stare into the things he could not see. He wanted to know what Justin was thinking, he wanted to know what was inside him at that very moment. He felt so deeply for him and so wanted to tell him. He wanted to tell him everything. He wanted him to know how jealous he had been of Matt. He wanted him to know the way his heart ached whenever they had to be apart. He wanted him to know that he loved him.
He was torn between keeping the silence and telling Justin how much he cared for him. It just seemed so awkward either way. He decided to just put his hand on Justin's shoulder and let things happen according to Justin's reaction. He slowly touched his shoulder, and Justin's pained expression turned to face him. He rested his head on the hand that had been offered to him. JC always knew how to make him feel safe. He always knew how to make him feel loved.
"Thanks for staying with me," Justin said softly.
"It's really no problem. I could tell you just needed to relax for a little while."
"Yeah. But I bet you would rather be having fun with the guys. I know you want to go swimming, I can see it in your eyes."
JC just laughed, rolling his head around to face the ground.
"But hey, maybe you and I could go swimming later."
Justin paused a moment. Then he spoke again, "Just the two of us."
JC jerked his head up almost too quickly. "Yeah," he said. "I'd like that."
Justin grinned widely and reached his fingers around to touch JC's hand. He pulled it into his lap and held it there, stroking the smooth skin. He just couldn't handle hiding his feelings for him anymore, even if it meant destroying their friendship. He kept his eyes fixed on the set of piercing blue eyes that had now turned soft and inviting. His left hand traveled up JC's arm slowly, sending tingles down his spine.
Suddenly, a loud crash was heard as Chris and Joey tumbled into a trashcan. Justin and JC were pulled harshly from their concentration as they looked at the mess of bodies on the floor. They laughed nervously, trying to shake their emotions from their eyes as the two walked to meet their bandmates.
"You're such a fuckin' dumbass!" Chris yelled jokingly.
"Hey, whose bright idea was it to race?" Joey countered.
They looked up innocently as JC and Justin came closer. Lance stood a few feet behind them, hoping to escape the disapproving eyes of the others in the hotel.
"Dude," Joey said sadly. "The water's too cold. We want to do something else."
"Such as?" JC asked patiently.
"I don't know. Let's go watch Regis and Kathie Lee."
"Umm, Joey? Are you a complete idiot?" Chris asked matter-of-factly.
"Hey! I like that show!" Lance said supportively.
"Hello?? Kathie Lee retired!" Chris said in a an almost serious tone.
JC and Justin looked at each other, feeling like they must be the only sane ones left in the group. Each of the boys glanced at one another, eyes darting back and forth and all around. Then the five burst out laughing, Joey and Chris still on the floor in a heap.
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ohhh, those boys. send me an email! i wanna know what you think. my email address is thereisnoturningback@yahoo.com. the next chapter will (hopefully!) be out sometime next weekend. keep your fingers crossed. ;)