My First Love
Part 1
I was starting my first semester of college in 1985 and was frightened and lonely. All my friends had gone to other schools or started working and they all were chasing girls like crazy. I wasn't. I had tried desperately to have a girlfriend in highschool but I knew I was living a lie. I just wasn't attracted to girls they way my friends were. I thought some girls were pretty, but once I look beyond the face I just wasn't interested. I was too scared to approach any guys and went to a very small rural district. I did not think any other guys were like me.
I knew I was gay when my friends and I decided to camp one weekend. I was changing into a bathing suit and my friend entered the tent and started to change also. He was my most attractive friend and I tried desperately not to look but being in that tent naked with him for a few seconds drive me crazy. I didn't do or say anything. But I thought about that moment a lot.
Spanish was my first class and I sat in the back row. I petite young man sat beside me and I glance over. He had dark black hair and slightly pale skin. He still wore braces on his teeth and when he caught my eye he smiled and said "hi."
I said hello and teacher started attendance. He answered to Sage Conner. I had never met a boy named Sage before. His voice was higher pitched than mine and it sounded lovely. The class went well and when I was walking out I heard a voice behind me.
"What did you think?" It was Sage and he moved up beside me and we walked together. I told him my name was Jimmy and this was my first class.
"Do you live on campus?" He asked and kept grinning at me. I was starting to think he was flirting with me but that could not be true. I lived at home and commuted to school. I got to the end of the walk and was hoping he would stay with me, but he had a class and turned the other way. The next class was in two days and I counted down the time to see him again. We chatted a little before class and when the professor told us to split in partners we joined up. He sat across from me and we practice pronunciation. I stared into his eyes and was getting a big crush on him. He was so cute. He had dyed a very small patch of his hair a very dark purple so it was barely noticeable. I notice it. I notice everything about him. How he rolled he eyes after making a mistake and how he held his hand in front of his mouth like he was embarrassed of his braces.
When class was over he asked for a ride to his dorm room. I couldn't believe my luck. He climbed into my car and i drove him the few blocks to the campus houses.
"Thanks, Jimbo" he said and tapped my knee with my hand, then got out of the car. It was the weekend and the thought of not seeing him for three days made me sick. He stopped, came back to the car and leaned in
"Hey you want to hangout this Saturday night?"
I couldn't believe it. "Sure that'd be cool" I said not trying to sound overly anxious.
"Pick me up at 7:00 sharp" he said and winked at me.
"Okay I'll be here." He walked up the sidewalk and then turn to look at me. We waved and smile and I think he winked again. I was I love.
When I drove up to the dorm he was waiting outside for me. He had a black jacket on and black jeans. He got into the car and I felt underdressed. I could smell his cologne and he had styled his hair with some moose. He looked a bit effeminate but that turned me on. It made me think we were thinking the same thing. We first went to a movie and I felt proud having this beautiful boy by my side. We set in the dark and our arms touched a few times. God I wish he take my hand. When the movie was over we are at a food court in theater. We talked a little about the movie and out Spanish class. His foot suddenly tapped mine under the table and I blushed.
"Let's get out of here."
We got to the car and sat in the dark. I didn't know what to say.
"You okay?" He asked and looked at me.
"Yea I'm fine. I..." I stopped and Sage moved a little closer. "I'm not sure what this is?"
Sage knew what I was talking about. He looked at me and told me it was whatever I wanted it to be.
"I've never done--" He stopped me with a kiss. It happened so fast I was in shock. He backed away and my heart raced. He look gorgeous sitting there and I still tasted him on my lips. I think we wore a little lip gloss.
"Was that okay?" He asked.
I nodded. So that what this was. I drove back to the dorm and we car a second.
"I want to kiss you again, but someone might see." I understood and nodded. He placed his hand on my leg and rubbed me a little. I grew excited.
"I'll see you Monday ". I smiled and said goodbye.
I hated Sunday. I was so miserable I couldn't stand it. I had to see Sage. I drove to the dorm and asked the dorm attendant for his room number. Sage answered the door and smiled. He was all alone. His dorm roommate had a girlfriend and wasn't around much. I sat on the bed beside him and he locked the door. I reached out to hold his hand but he kissed me first. This time I kissed back. I couldn't believe how much I liked it. We kept kissing with short soft touches and then he finally kept his mouth against mine and opened his lips. His tongue touched mine and I push it back a little. French kissing was new to me so I was doing my best. I opened my mouth further and let his whole tongue in my mouth. I could feet his braces on my tongue and that made me giggle. He then grabbed my head and he started to make out like teenagers after the prom. Our heads moved, our lips touched and our tongues wrestled. I couldn't believe the passion. My erection embarrassed me but Sage look at my swollen pants and smile. He rubbed my leg then our lips parted.
"Let's get out of here". We left the dorm and went to my car. I asked him where he wanted to go and he said someplace private.
"Stop by a convenience store first so I can get something." I obeyed and he ran into the store quickly and came out with a pack of gum. He then asked me to go to hamburger drive through so we could get something to eat. We got cheeseburgers and cokes and ate while I drove. I headed out of town toward the state park close to the lake I lived by. Sage finished his burger and actually rested his head in my lap. I could believe it. I looked down and his beautiful face stared up at me.
When we got to the park I parked on the most secluded area and pushed the seat back a bit. He continued to lay there then finally spoke.
"Let's get in the back seat"
We did and sat close to each other. The smell of greasy food was strong and it mixed with Sages cologne. He looked at me and kiss me softly. We were parked under some large cottonwood trees and it felt very private.
He kissed me again, this time on the neck. I ran my fingers through his coarse black hair as he continued to kiss my neck My erection was unbearable. He stopped and looked at me.
"Do you want to go further,or wait till another day?" I didn't answer but reached out and unbuttoned his shirt. He did the same with me. I couldn't believe we were undressing each other. We placed our shirts on the front seat and continued to kiss. Out bare chests touching each other drove me crazy. Sage scooted down and lay down on his back. I was on top of him and continued to kiss him. He reached down and unbuttoned his pants. I looked into his eyes with passion. I pulled on his pants and stared at his blue briefs. I couldn't breath. He reached down and pushed his briefs down. His penis was erect and i couldn't take my eyes off of it. I didn't know if he was big or average ,I hadn't seen any other beside my own. I lowered my head and put it in my mouth. It was salty and exciting. Sage moaned as I started to suck and fellate it. He place his hand on my head and I continued. It was amazing. He pushed my head up and told me to take my pants down. I sat up and pushed my pants down. Sage lowered his head and took me in his mouth. I couldn't believe. This was what life was about. Sharing pleasure with someone you loved. He continued for a few minutes then stopped. He sat up and took my chin in my hand. Neither one of us had ejaculated so I didn't know why he stopped. He pushed his jeans all the way off and sat there completely naked. He put his hand on my cheek and whisper.
"Do you want to go all the way?" I kissed his cheek and answered. I want to do everything you want. I pushed my pants off and Sage lay on his back. He reached down into his pants pocket and produced the second thing he had purchased. A small bottle of Lube. He unscrewed the top and tuned the Lube on my erection. Then he rubbed his bottom.
"Do we need condoms?" I asked. He looked at me with a serious glare. He asked if I had ever been with anyone else. Of course I had not.
"Jimmy we have to be totally honest about this." I told him about the two girls I had kissed in high school but that was all. He had only been with a girl but had never had sex with her. He lay there naked and his erection had softened. I stared at his naked body and soft penis surrounded by a mound of hair. It was so incredible, but I really didn't know what to do. Jimmy grabbed his clothes and pushed them under his bottom. He spread his legs and raised them. I got on top of him and tried to guide my erection into him. He rolled back further but we could connect.
"Hold on" he said and kissed me again. He tossed the clothes down and rolled over. His bottom was inviting me. I got on top and push. Sage moaned a little but slowly accepted it. My tip penetrated the seal then I felt fully connected. I couldn't believe I was one with Sage. I started to move slowly and he moaned a little more. I knew it wouldn't take long and i was right. I ejaculated fully inside him. I felt like my insides had left my body and entered his. We breathed deeply together and I lay on top of him. I kissed his ear and he turned and kissed me. I whispered in his ear that I loved him and and he replied the same. I sucked on his ear and couldn't believe the pleasure we had together. We sat up naked beside each other and kissed. Our penises were both limp and our bodies moist but I couldn't take my eyes off him. We got dressed but exchange underwear. He wanted to keep mine for good luck. We kissed some more than decided it was time to get back. He laid his head on my lap again and actually feel asleep. I woke him two blocks from the dorm and gave him a kiss. I flicked my tongue on his and told him I loved him again. I was in love for the first time.
The next day after class we drove to the closest Burger Joint and ate a lunch. Sage told me he had to get out of the dorms because other we're starting to tease him for being queer. He wanted us to move into an apartment together but we couldn't afford that. Sage lived too far away to commute but I told him I had a idea. Maybe he could live at my house and pay a small rent payment. I spoke with my mom that evening.
"Why is he leaving the dorms?" He asked.
"He doesn't like it there. He's kind of shy and he doesn't fit in. He's my friend, I want to help him for awhile." Mom was reluctant at first but I told her he would leave if it didn't work out. We moved Sage the next day and I told Sage to act as straight as possible. I was a long way from telling mom the truth.
He wore a t shirt and jeans and was polite and kind to my parents and younger sister Sarah who was 12. My dad didn't say much to Sage and I was worried he may have suspected something, but I may have been paranoid. We were tired from moving but played horse with my sister before dinner. We lived in a ranch country home on the edge of a small lake. We were only minutes from where Sage and I fell in love. Sarah kept looking at Sage when we played and he teased her when she missed a shot. I was almost fully content. My new boyfriend was befriending my sister. I only wish we could be truthful about everything. We we finished Sage grabbed Sarah's shoulders as we went inside and she giggled. During dinner my parents were quiet but Sarah did all the talking. She asked him about his life and girlfriends. Sage was truthful as possible without giving away the obvious. She kept looking at Sage and I realized my sister Sarah had the same taste in boys and that made me laugh.
Sage took a shower after dinner and was standing in his room In a towel. Iwalked in and shut the door behind me. I could take my eyes off his wet body. His hair was wet also and looked amazing. I was worried that having him around might be tougher than I imagined. Sage removed the towel and started to dry his hair. I was watching his bottom and he turned and he was slightly hard. The door opened and Sarah entered abruptly. Her eyes widened as she stared at Sage's penis.
"Sarah!" I yelled and she screamed "I'm sorry" three times as she ran out.
"I'll go talk to her". I told Sage and I followed Sarah down the hall
She was standing alone and started crying. She was so embarrassed. "Sarah stop crying you didn't do anything wrong."
I told her to always knock before entering my room or Sages because she needed to respect our privacy.
Sage had the room two doors down from mine and it locked from the outside. That would be handy. He could leave the room, lock it and slip into my room and no one could check. That first night that's exactly what he did. Thirty minutes after every went to bed I heard Sage shut his door and lock it. My door then opened slowly and he walked into the darkness. He was wearing only a t shirt and briefs. He carefully shut the door and locked it. He put his room key in my dresser. I was lying in bed naked. I pulled off the sheet but he motioned for me to get out of the bed. I did so and he took off his shirt and briefs. We both sat naked on the carpet in my room in the darkness. I could believe how sexy it was. We didn't speak. I had my back to the bed and he had his back resting against my desk. We were both hard and just stared at each other. His foot was resting on top of mine. That's the only thing that touch. He reach up and started to stroke his erection. I did what he did. He then licked his hand and strtoked it more. I imitated his every move. We sat there in the dark masturbating in sync. The moonlight shone in and created erotic shadows of our pleasures. I was about to come and backed off just in time. Sage then laid down on the floor on his side. I Maneuvered myself over to him so we could take each other in our mouths. We sucked gently as quiet little sounds of pleasure emanated from our mouths. Sage then moved onto his back and I got on my arms and legs and we continues you suck each other. Then Sage surprised me. His let go of my penis and moved up past my testicles. He licked them on the way to his target and started licking my anus. I couldn't believe it. I had never heard of doing that. I moaned loudly and Sage paused. He waited while me then started again. I was trying to work up the nerve to return the favor. I did start to lick his testicles and he seemed to like that. I just couldn't get past the taboo of going further. He stopped and stood up. We still didn't speak. He gripped my pillows and tossed them on the floor. He layed down and placed his bottom on the pillows. This helped arch his ass up. I reached under the bed and pulled out a bottle of Lube. I rubbed some in my hand then on on penis. Sage arched further up and I rubbed some on his bottom. The intimacy was incredible. I got between his legs and put my hands under both legs. I pushed the tip of my erection into him. He moaned and my tip moved past the rim. We were engaged. I started to move carefully and he moaned. I developed a rhythm and we seemed synced. It lasted a little while then I ejaculated inside him. I lowered myself and Sage put the pillows under our heads. We feel asleep on the floor without faces looking at each other.
When I awoke it was already light out and Sage was still beside me. I pushed him awake and we both stood up naked. We dressed quickly and I cracked the door. No one was awake and Sage slipped back into his room. I went into the bathroom and cleaned up. When I came out Sarah was standing outside looking at me in my underwear. They were Sages briefs. Fancier than mine. She laughed and I went back to bed.
This became our normal routine. He would enter my room and we would engage in erotic sex. I could not believe my fortune. The third night Sage got on his hand and knees and I took him behind. I liked that. It was more comfortable for me. Sometimes we came more than once, but I never pulled out.
The fourth night I finally got the nerve to lick his anus. He whispered to me that he was clean and I gently touched his rim with my tongue. I enjoyed the intimacy of the act and Sage moaned.
The next morning my mother cornered me when we were alone.
"Jimmy. I know what's going on."
"What do you mean."
"Mothers sleep light, honey. It's in our DNA. I hear the quiet doors closing. The soft noises, the whispers." She had a tear in her eye. "I always suspected it. But I should have known better than to let him in the house. I don't want you to get sick. I do your laundry. Don't you think I don't see and smell it"
I was so embarrassed. I didn't know what to say. "It's only the two of us mom. We won't get sick."
"Do you want us to leave." I made sure I said us.
She shook her head. "Don't let your father find out."
That night Sage entered my room and I wanted to try something different. We kissed each other with our mouths wide open and tongues dancing on other. I lowered myself to his lap and suck him until he came. I swallow most of the semen but still had the taste of him in my mouth. I raised up to kiss him, but he resisted. I stared at him in the moonlight and leaned in a again and whispered "Just a taste honey" and he let me kiss him gently at first, then deeper.
I probed his mouth with his flavor in my tongue and he seemed to enjoy it. He laid down and started to raise his ass but I pushed him aside. I laid down in his normal position and I offered my ass to him. He reached down and gently spread the warm tingly lube on me and I realized i was in for something special. He brought his penis to my ass I moaned much too loudly. He crossed the sphincter and I knew we were engaged tightly. and he made love to me gently. I was surprised how much I liked it. When he ejacualted I could feel the warm semen leak from my anus as Sage held me from behind. I didn't want to leave my room so we slept together in my bed. I woke him up with a kiss and we started to kiss deeply again. We moved to the floor and he got on his hands and legs and I took him behind. He moaned deeply and I filled him with my juices. We opened the door and Sarah stood there and giggled at us. I could still smell the semen and wonder what she thought. I reached out and tousled her hair and Sage leaned down and kissed her cheek.
"It's a secret honey". And Sarah blushed. I trusted my sister. We had a deep bond and she would never betray me.
The next morning before leaving for school Sarah sat on the sofa and Sage and I sat close because my parents had left. She watched us in fascination.
She blushed then asked " What's it like?"
"What do you mean," Sage asked
"To be in love, what's it kind. I bet it's wonderful". We smiled and I grabbed Sages hand.
"It is honey and thanks for not telling "
"I want to fall in love some day." she said.
"You will honey." I replied and touch her cheek.
Sage leaned over and kiss me and she blushed again. I was totally happy and also worried. How long can this type of happiness last?