My Everything

Hello to all of you!

I'm back with another chapter of "My Everything."

Thanks for all of your support! Without it, I don't think I could have written this story for this long.

Now on with the story.

First of all, let me just say that this is my first time writing any kind of fiction like this.

DISCLAIMER: This is a work of total fiction and is not meant to imply anything about the sexualities of Nick and Drew Lachey or anyone else mentioned in this story.

If you are too young to read this, or if Homosexuality offends you, then please don't continue any further and leave.

NEWSFLASH: To those of you who don't already know, Nick Lachey and Jessica Simpson, in real life, have reconciled and are now husband and wife. I wish them all the best with their marriage and hope they live a long and happy life together.

If you want details about their wedding, check out the 98 Degrees Official Website at www.98degrees.com.

Other 98 Degrees stories I'd like to recommend are.

"Give Me Just One Night" by Unanoche. "69 with Jeff Timmons" by Zachary Scott Pritt "Nick Lachey" by Ken. "98 Degrees Is Hot" by Gay Night "The Reunion" by RinSong. "Loving Nick Lachey" by Jordan "Playing Doctor with 98 Degrees" by Brian "This Gift" by Sprout

and finally: "What I feel for you" by Thack.

"What I feel for you." is an awesome story and Thack, himself deserves applause for all of his hard work on it.

Now, I"ll let you get on with the story.

Enjoy.

Previously on "My Everything".....

BACK AT BEN'S....................

"So, what did Jeff want?" Ben asked me, as I set the phone down.

"He said that he and the guys have to talk to me about something and they want me to swing by the house, so I have to go take a shower, get dressed, and go over there."

"Do you want us to come with you?" Matt asked, as he was washing his dirty plate.

"No, that's alright." I told him. "This sounded important. Excuse me, while I go and get ready."

"Sure." Ben said, sipping his orange juice. "We'll see you in a few."

With that said, I ran upstairs and started on my shower. It was only then, did I realize how bad I smelled and how much I'd needed it.

After washing my body, and then my hair, I was good to go. I got out and grabbed a towel to dry off.

I went into the bedroom and proceeded to get dressed. I decided on a red shirt with faded glory blue jeans.

Once, I was dressed, I grabbed my cellphone and my keys and went downstairs.

"Well, guys, I'm off." I said. "Wish me luck on whatever this is about."

"Good luck." Ben said. "But I have a feeling you won't need it."

"Let's hope not." I said, opening the door. "Goodbye, Matt."

"Bye, Sean." Matt said, as I closed the door behind me.

I raced to my rental SUV and got in. I started it and headed for the Lachey house.

I got there within a half hour, as traffic was a nightmare here in Los Angeles. It even made Orlando's traffic seem normal.

I shut off the ignition and got out of the car, locking the doors behind me.

I walked up to Jessica's door and knocked. Within a few seconds, Jeff was at the door.

"Hey, Sean." He greeted me, as he opened the door. "Come in. We've been expecting you."

"I'm sorry, I'm late." I told him. "The traffic here in Los Angeles never ceases to amaze me."

"That bad, huh?" Jeff laughed, putting his arm around me, as we walked towards the living room.

When we entered, I came face to face with Jessica, Kandi, Justin, and Danny. Drew wasn't anywhere in the room.

"Hey guys." I greeted them. They all voice their hello's back.

Then, my eyes fell on Jessica and the sweet little angel, sitting on her lap.

"Hey, Jessica." I greeted her. "That must be the sweet little angel that Nick told me about."

"Yep." Jessica nodded. "This is Nicole."

She turned to Nicole and turned her to face me.

"Say hi to Sean, sweetie." She cooed, waving at me to show Nicole how to wave. Nicole waved a little bit. She was so cute!

"Hi, Nicole." I said, sweetly. "You sure are a beautiful little girl."

I saw Nicole smile a little, then she hid her face in Jessica's chest. Jessica laughed.

"She's just a little shy." Jessica explained. "She gets that way with strangers until she knows them better."

I looked around, wondering where Drew was.

"I don't mean to sound rude or anything, but where's Drew?" I asked, everyone.

"Right here." I heard from behind me.

I turned around and saw Drew, looking back at me. And he didn't look happy.

"What are you doing here, Sean?" He asked me.

*********** CHAPTER 61 ***********

I was a bit taken aback by Drew's question. Apparently, he hadn't known I was coming. Or was there another reason for his coldness?

"What kind of a question is that, Drew?" I asked, looking at him in shock. "Jeff called and said that you guys needed to talk to me about something. You did know I was coming, right?"

"No, I didn't." Drew said, shaking his head. "They didn't say a word to me about it. I didn't even know they called you."

I turned back to Jeff and looked at him in suprise.

"Jeff, why would you do that?" I asked him, as I glanced at him.

Jeff looked up at me.

"I'm sorry, Sean." He said. "I didn't tell him because we had a fight about you earlier today and I was afraid that if I told him you were coming, that he'd leave the house."

Now, I was surprised to hear about that. Why would they possibly be fighting about me?

"You had a fight about me?" I asked, starting to go on the defensive. "What about?"

Jeff clammed up the minute I asked that. I looked around at everyone else and could see that they all knew what the fight was about. It was written on everyone's faces.

I turned back to Drew and saw that even he knew it. I then decided to ask him about it.

"Drew? Do you know what's going on here?" I asked him. he nodded.

"Yes, Sean." He replied. "I just found out just how very little I ever meant to you."

I frowned, obviously not knowing what Drew was talking about. And his attitude was just ridiculous.

"What are you talking about, Drew?" I asked him. "You meant alot to me. Why would you ever doubt that?"

Drew looked around the room and saw everyone watching us, waiting for the bomb to drop.

"Not here." Drew said. "Let's take this conversation upstairs. I'm not going to lose it in front of my little niece."

I looked back at Nicole and saw that Jessica was holding her close and playing with her rattle to distract her attention from the current tension that could definitely be felt within the house.

"Alright, that's probably a good idea if this is going to be bad." I said. "I'm right behind you."

Drew and I started heading for the stairs.

"Sean?"

I turned around to the voice that belonged to Danny and glanced at him.

"Yeah?"

"Danny looked at me, his facial expression taking on a look that I could not identify.

"You and Drew both promise us that you won't kill each other." He said. "And, when you are finished talking with Drew, Sean, I'd like to have a word with you in private as well."

Whatever he wanted to talk to me about, I was sure wasn't good. It probably had something to do with me and Drew. But, judging by the strange look on his face, which was starting to look like disappointment, it seemed like that it had more to do with me than anything else.

"We won't kill each other." I said to him. "And I'll talk to you once everything is settled with Drew and I."

"Alright." Danny said. "Go ahead with Drew now and get it over with."

With that being said, I turned back and followed Drew upstairs to his room where we both went in.

I walked over and turned back to Drew, as he closed the door behind him.

"Ok, Drew, we're alone." I said to him. "Now, will you explain your sudden rudeness to me earlier when I got here?"

Drew walked over to me and stood in front of me, looking at me, his hazel eyes, showing anger all of a sudden. I did not like that look at all.

"Well, as I said before downstairs, I obviously found out how very little I ever meant to you." He said. "You obviously don't want anything to do with me."

"Drew, that's not true." I said, sympathetically. "I care about you and I want you in my life. I just don't know if I'm ready for another relationship just yet. And you know why. I told you when we were at Ben's house, yesterday."

"I don't want to talk about Ben!" Drew said, loudly, all of a sudden startling me. "Don't even say his name!"

"Drew?!" I asked him, in shock. "What's your problem? Why are you so mad at me?"

As I looked at Drew, I could see that his hands were clenched into fists and his breathing was changing as well.

"MY PROBLEM IS YOU, SEAN!" Drew suddenly exploded. "YOU BETRAYED ME!"

Now, I was lost. I had no idea what he was talking about and why he was being so evasive. He wouldn't just come out and say what was bothering him. It was like he wanted me to admit whatever it was that I had supposedly done to him to betray him, rather than come out and tell me himself.

"Drew, I have no idea what you are talking about." I said, calmly. "And what did Ben do to you that you don't even want me mentioning his name?"

Drew turned to his bedside dresser and leaned over it, taking in his breaths, deeply. He looked like he was going to get really upset.

"I saw him kiss you yesterday when we were leaving his house." Drew said. "And this was right after you told me that you regretted kissing me and that you weren't ready for a relationship with me just yet."

My mouth dropped open in shock, when I realized that that's what Drew had been so pissed about when we'd left. I knew that he was upset, but I had no idea why at the time."

"Is that what this is all about?" I asked him. "You're angry with me because Ben kissed me?"

Drew didn't say anything, he just looked at me, angrily.

"Drew, Ben was just being a friend to me." I explained to him. "There's nothing romantic going on between me and Ben."

Drew frowned.

"Well, you sure as hell could have fooled me." He said, bitterly. "That kiss wasn't friendship. There is definitely something going on between the two of you. I saw it with my own eyes."

I was started to get annoyed with him at the moment. He was making a simple kiss between me and Ben look like more than what it was."

"Would you listen to yourself, Drew?" I said to him. "You are acting like a jealous boyfriend! Do I need to remind you that we are not a couple!"

"YOU SEE?!" Drew shouted. "I'M NOT IMPORTANT TO YOU AT ALL!"

"OF COURSE YOU ARE!" I shouted back at him, trying to get through to him.

"OH REALLY?!" He shot back. "WELL I OBVIOUSLY WASN"T IMPORTANT ENOUGH FOR YOU TO PUT YOUR LIBIDO ASIDE!"

My eyes widened and my jaw dropped when I heard all of that. He had insulted me! But why?

"How dare you!" I said lowly. "How dare you insult me!"

Drew just stood there, looking at me, the anger evident in his eyes.

"You know what?" I suddenly said. "I'm done talking to you. Goodbye."

As I walked away, I heard Drew speak again.

"So, Sean, did you enjoy your hot little fuck session with Ben and Matt last night?"

When I heard him ask that, I froze in my tracks, my thoughts in a whirl, as my breath caught in my throat. I slowly turned around to look at him.

"How the hell do you know about that?" I asked him.

Drew could see that I was blown away that he knew about what had happened between Ben, Matt, and I last night.

"I was there." Drew said. "I saw the whole thing."

Now, I really felt terrible. Not only had Drew witnessed a kiss between me and Ben, but he had witnessed something that he shouldn't have between the three of us."

"How?" I stuttered. "Why?"

Drew started to explain.

"Well, last night, Jessica got home and talked to me about how I should have come to you and gotten everything straightened out with us. That I should have talked to you about that kiss I saw and what it really meant and find out how you really felt about me." He said. "She said that if I talked to you about it then maybe we could have gotten everything worked out and I could have come to realize that there wasn't anything going on between you and Ben. Only, I was wrong."

"No, you weren't, Drew." I said, trying to explain to him what had happened. "What you saw was an accident. It shouldn't have happened."

"Then, why did it?" He asked, as two tears rolled down his cheeks.

"We had all been drinking and I had a little bit too much to drink and one thing led to another. I explained to him, then added. "What happened between Ben, Matt, and I was a mistake. And I'm so sorry that you saw it."

Drew walked over to me, his facial features filled with hurt.

"You know, I'd really like to believe that it was just a drunken night of torrid sex." He said to me. "But you know what? It doesn't wash. Because I saw what I saw, and you weren't pulling away."

I hung my head, feeling guilty for what it must have done to Drew to see me in that situation. Now that I knew everything, I understood why he felt so hurt.

"You weren't resisting." He continued. "You were as into it as they were, if not more, and with those two, of all people!"

I frowned, not liking where this was going.

"You," Drew started to say something, but hesitated slightly.

It was then and there, that I saw the angry, hurt look that he'd had get even more intense, and this time, he didn't control what came out of his mouth.

"You have sexual desires, Sean." He said, bitterly. "And apparently you go anywhere to get them taken care of and you don't give a damn who it is!"

As soon as he finished saying all of that, my palm came in contact with his face. He gasped slightly at the sudden attack.

Then his eyes locked onto mine as he looked up at me. I could see the anger and hurt within his eyes. And there was no doubt that he could see the burning fire in mine.

"Goodbye, Sean." Drew said, his voice cracking a bit, as he walked out of his room and slammed the door behind him.

I sat down on the bed and tried unsuccessfully to wipe away the tears that were starting to fall. It was useless since more and more kept coming.

"I can't stay here." I whispered as I got up. "I have to leave."

I exited Drew's room and walked down the stairs. As I got to the bottom, I saw Jeff started to head up. When he saw my face, he swept me up into a comforting hug.

"What happened up there?" He asked, as his hands ran up and down my back. "We all saw Drew tear out of here just a minute ago and he didn't look happy."

I released Jeff and walked the rest of the way downstairs with him.

"Well, that's because I gave him one hell of a slap." I said, angrily.

"You hit him?" Jeff asked in surprise.

"He deserved it." I said, as we walked into the kitchen.

"Why?" He asked me, curiously.

I sat down at the table, just as the rest of the guys and Kandi came into the kitchen.

"Well, I found out that he saw Ben, Matt, and I in a complicated situation and he practically calls me a slut, so I let him have it."

"I'm sorry, buddy." Danny said, as he grabbed a chair and sat down beside me. He put his arm around my shoulder.

"But I am curious," He continued. "Why would you sleep with Ben and Matt? It isn't like you at all to just sleep around with guys."

I looked up at Danny in shock. Was he insulting me now too?"

"Danny, what happened between me, Ben, and Matt was an accident." I told him, defensively. "We were drunk and things just got too out of hand."

"Were they good?" Jeff asked, grinning.

"Jeff!" I exclaimed, shocked that he'd actually asked that.

Everyone laughed at my shocked tone of voice.

"Alright, if you must know," I said, grinning that silly grin you get when you've had good sex. "They were both incredible. I even told Ben that now I knew how good Matt Damon was getting it when they were together. Matt of course said the same thing about me and Nick when he got mine up his ass. He said he knew how good Nick got it when he was with me."

As soon as I mentioned Nick, everyone grew silent. It was obvious that we were all thinking the same thing. We were all worried about Nick and were hoping that he'd come home soon.

I then decided that I was going to go and look for Drew, since our conversation wasn't yet finished. As angry as I was with him, I needed to make him understand that what happened between Ben, Matt, and I was not what he thought it was.

"Hey, did you guys see Drew leave in his car?" I asked everyone.

Justin walked to the door and looked out into the driveway.

"His car is still here." He said, coming back over to the table. "I think he's outside somewhere."

I got up and headed for the door.

"I have to find him." I said to them. "Despite my anger, I want to get back on the right track with him."

"Well, be careful, Sean." Kandi said. "Drew's hurt you before. If he's still irrational, just walk away and let him think things through on his own."

"I'll keep that in mind." I said. "I'll see you guys in a bit after I've talked to him."

With those last words, I left the house to go and talk to Drew, leaving the guys, alone in the kitchen.

I walked outside and looked around for Drew, but I didn't see him anywhere. That is until I heard his voice coming from somewhere nearby.

I walked around the side of the house where his voice seemed closest. As I got to the corner, I could hear him talking to someone.

I cautiously peeked around the corner and saw Drew, talking to someone on his cellphone. He didn't see me because he had his back to me.

"Listen, Sean can never know about this." I heard him saying. "He can never know that........"

As I listened to the rest of his conversation, nothing would ever have prepared me for what I learned.

******************************************************* BACK IN THE HOUSE................

"Well, what do you guys want to do later today?" Justin asked, outloud.

"I don't know." Jeff said. "How about you, babe?" He asked Danny.

Danny thought it over for a moment and then thought about the perfect event.

"How about we all pack up our things and go up to Palm Springs for the rest of this weekend?" He asked.

"That's a great idea!" Kandi said. "I've been wanting to go up there since Justin and I went last year. We had a blast!"

"I've never been there and have always wanted to go." Danny agreed. "I've heard it's wild up there with all the partying and all."

"Not to mention seeing all of the hot babes and studs that party up there." Jeff said, grinning. Danny playfully hit him in the shoulder.

"You never cease to make your bisexuality known, do you, stud?" Danny laughed, cocking an eyebrow.

"Yeah, well, I can say the same thing about you, bonehead." Jeff retaliated. "Remember that night, when you got mad at me and started grinding all up on that blonde girl on the dance floor to make me jealous!"

That had the desired effect, as Danny turned beet red from embarrassment, remembering that night.

"Well, you have to admit, I had a good reason to be mad." Danny said, defensively. "You were flirting with that redheaded girl and you had your hands all over her ass and she was enjoying it! I was just showing you that two could play that game. Besides, it was you I wanted that night, not her!"

"I know that, Baby." Jeff laughed. "Besides, I knew I had to make up with you fast after she gave you her number and you practically flaunted it in my face and teased me with it."

"Danny, you didn't!" Justin said, in shock, as he watched Danny turn red again and start laughing. Kandi then turned to Jeff.

"And you didn't kick his ass for it?" She asked him in surprise.

Jeff flashed her his devilish grin. He had a glint in his eye.

"Oh, I let his ass have it that night, that's for sure." He revealed.

Everyone groaned in response.

"Damn right, he did!" Danny said, his grin mirroring Jeff's. "After that it was "Clare who?"

Everyone started laughing at that.

"You guys are disgusting you know that?" Kandi tried to look serious when she said that, but her smile gave way.

"Yeah, but unfortunately, that's why you still love us." Danny laughed.

"Yeah, unfortunately." Kandi said, giggling.

Just then, she glanced up at the front door and her eyes went wide.

"Oh my god!"

"What is it, babe?" Justin asked, looking in the direction she was looking. Danny and Jeff turned around and saw what they saw:

Drew entered the house at that moment with two swollen black and blue cheeks and a bleeding lower lip. His face was wet with tears.

"Oh god, Drew!" Jeff got up and went over to him and embraced him. "What the hell happened?! Who did this to you?!"

All Drew could do was hold onto Jeff as he started crying. Jeff just held him while he sobbed.

"Sean did." Drew said, sobbing into Jeff's chest. "I've fucked things up with him for good this time."

"How?" Danny asked him, as he went over to get a rag and some ice for Drew's bruised face.

"I did something." Drew said. "Something that was so wrong and so selfish. I just hope one day that Sean can forgive me for it."

"Where is Sean, hon?" Kandi asked him. "Maybe it's not too late to get things settled yet."

"Yes it is, Kandi." Drew said, as he accepted the ice pack from Danny and applied it to his swollen cheeks.

"No it isn't, Drew!" Danny said, anger filling his features. "I'm going to go out there and have a talk with him right now! It's not like Sean to beat up someone who cares about him!"

Danny started to head for the door, but Drew stopped him before he got to it.

"You can't talk to him, Danny, he's gone." Drew said to him. "And he's not coming back anytime soon."

"What do you mean?" Justin asked him.

Drew hung his head in shame.

"He said that he was going to have Ben and Matt send his things back home for him, and that he was getting out of Los Angeles today. He's probably on a plane right now as we speak."

******************************************************* ON THE PLANE.................

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN," The announcer said over the P.A. system. "WE ARE BEGINNING OUR DESCENT INTO ORLANDO. PLEASE BE SURE THAT YOUR SEAT BELTS ARE FASTENED AS WE PREPARE FOR LANDING."

I fastened my seat belt and lay back into the seat, as I wiped the tears from my face. I had never felt so hurt and betrayed in my entire life. And I knew Drew was the cause of it.

I closed my eyes as I felt the plane slowing down as it started to get closer and closer to the airport where it was to make it's landing.

"YOU BASTARD!!!!" I heard myself scream, While sobbing hysterically. "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS!!!! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO US!!!

"NO!!! SEAN, I'M SORRY!!!" Drew sobbed. "DON'T HIT ME AGAIN!!!! NO! PLEASE?!!"

I opened my eyes, just as the plane touched down on the runway, interrupting my flashback to my confrontation with Drew.

Normally, I would have felt bad for beating Drew's face up the way I did, but the way I felt at the moment, I couldn't bring myself to feel sorry for him. I'm sure his face hurt badly right now, but it couldn't hurt any worse than what he'd done to me.

"Damn you, Drew!" I cursed in my thoughts. "You say you love me? Well that's bullshit! No one who loves me could do this!"

When the plane finally stopped and it was safe to get off of the plane, I got up and walked off of the plane and headed for the parking lot, where I knew that Jake would be waiting for me.

Sure enough, he was waiting outside the door, in my SUV. I got in the passenger side and strapped in.

"How was Los Angeles?" Jake asked me, smiling.

"It was great." I said, a hint of bitterness in my voice. "Can we go home now, please?"

Jake picked up on my bitterness and gave me the once over.

"What crawled up your ass, man?" He asked, laying on the sarcasm thick.

I think he was a little offended by my attitude. I shook my head.

"I'm sorry, Jake." I apologized. "I didn't mean to bite your head off. I just got alot on my mind that's all."

"Would you care to talk about it?" Jake asked, as he pulled out into the street and started heading for the freeway.

"Not right now." I said. "But I'll let you know when I'm ready to."

"Alright." Jake said, and continued to drive.

Neither of us said a word the whole way home. When we finally got back to the beach apartment, the jet lag really started to hit me.

Jake parked the SUV in my usual space and turned off the engine. We both got out and started walking towards our homes.

"Jake?" I asked, remembering something.

"What, Sean?" He asked me.

I stopped and put a hand on his shoulder, causing him to stop walking. I glanced at him briefly and then I gave him a quick hug, which caught him a bit off guard.

"What was that for?" He asked, when I'd released him. "Not that I'm complaining or anything, but we hardly ever hug."

"I know." I said. "I was the one who needed the hug I guess." I told him. "I just feel so lost and alone right now."

Jake could see the turmoil that I was in and he was getting concerned. He saw the tears in my eyes and gave me a worried look. He hardly ever saw me cry since I'd recovered from my painful ordeal the last two years.

"Are you alright?" He asked me, putting his hand on my shoulder, which was his way of offering comfort since he wasn't real big on hugs.

"No." I said, shaking my head, as I wiped at my tears. "I'm far from alright."

I then decided to ask him for a favor.

"Would you mind if I stayed with you and Michelle tonight?" I asked him, and added. "I don't want to be alone tonight."

"You don't even have to ask." Jake said, as he put his arm around my shoulders. "Come on."

He kept his arm around my shoulder until we got to his door, then his arm left my shoulder.

"Go ahead in, buddy." I said. "I'll be in in later." I told him. "I just need to be alone for a while."

"Alright." Jake said. "Don't be long. It's going to get dark soon."

Jake walked into his apartment, and I turned around and walked down the steps and into the soft sand before me.

I went and found my favorite spot in the sand and sat down to watch the sunset, as I thought about the friends that I'd left behind in Los Angeles, without saying goodbye.

I sat there, the tears overwhelming me as the final rays of the sun finally disappeared from view in the distance.

"Goodbye, my friends." I whispered, before I broke down, crying.

I have no idea how long I had been sitting there, crying, until I felt a hand come down on my shoulder and gently squeeze it. I turned around and looked up, expecting to see Jake.

"Jake." I said, sternly. "I thought I told you that I......

My voice cut off as my eyes widened and my jaw dropped.

There, standing before me, dressed in a light blue jogsuit and looking so sexy, was Nick.

"Hi." He said, softly, a small smile on his face. "You look like you could use a friend right now."

I got up on my feet quickly and leapt at him, embracing him in my arms, hugging him tightly.

"I'm so glad you're here." I whispered.

To Be Continued.......?

Well, that's all for this installment. Stay tuned for more coming soon.

"What has Drew done? Will Sean ever be able to forgive him?

How will Jeff, Danny, Justin, Kandi, and Jessica react when they find out as well?

"Nick is back!!! What does it mean for him and Sean? And will Sean tell Nick what Drew did?"

"What happens next? Oh, if you only knew!"

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